Let You Down
Pairing: Thiefshipping
Rating: T
Warnings: mentions of sex
Disclaimer: I neither own Yugioh, nor Three Days Grace.
Trust me
There's no need to fear
Everyone's here
Waiting for you to finally be one of us
Come down
You may be full of fear
But you'll be safe here
When you finally trust me
Finally believe in me
I will let you down
I'll let you down, I'll
When do you finally trust me
Finally believe in me
He doesn't trust me. Never did. And most likely never will. It just isn't like him to believe in somebody, though I often wish for him to trust me. We are partners in crime, or that's what I like to think. But I'm not sure if he sees me that way.
Yes, he always says that we are partners while I deny it, but I have the creeping suspicion that he just says that to keep me by his side. So he can use me as a pawn in his plan for revenge against the pharaoh.
Not that I hold that against him. I myself am not very different. We both live to avenge our families and to give the ghost of the nameless Egyptian ruler what he deserves. Suffering.
But sometimes I wish things were different. That I wasn't a 5000 year old spirit who needs to borrow someone else's body to act. And that Marik and I had a real connection. Trust.
Suddenly his voice brings me out of my musings. He asks if I want some of the koshari he eats.
We are on his ship and wait for the battlecity finals to begin. Tomorrow we are expected to meet at the place the collector cards show us. Some old stadium.
His eyes lock with mine, gazing at me expectantly. I don't like vegetarian food and he knows that. I can't shake the feeling that he means something other than the food on his plate. And I am hungry for something else. Him.
Without further thought I reach across the table and pull him towards me until our lips meet. To my surprise he responds hungrily, eagerly opening his mouth. I follow suit and our tongues meet in a heated battle for dominance.
I immediately realize that this is his first kiss, easily being able to overpower him. Though he is good for a beginner.
What started as a simple kiss became a full blown make out session and soon even more.
I know that this is his first time and want to show him that he can trust me, at least for now, so I am careful. I personally experienced how much this can hurt.
He is beautiful like this. In the throes of passion. But when it's over, I realize what this would mean for me. If I stayed. If this became something serious.
I am a spirit. 5000 years old. I don't even have my own body. This, whatever it is, can only end painfully. So it's better I end it now before he can become too attached. Before I can become too attached.
As soon as he's asleep I leave without a word. I know I let Marik down. That he'll feel betrayed and hurt. And that he'll most likely never be able to trust anyone again. But it's for the best. If I let this get out of hand it would ultimately destroy us both.
Word count: 557
Till next time ^^
~Todesan