For: Sophia Gray
The End is Never Really It
I arrived on the train just a few days ago to replace the resident engineer. Poor guy, ended up dying because of respawn incident. That's the first thing I'm fixing when I get there, I thought to myself.
I played with my reddish brown hair as the train came to a stop. I grabbed what little things I had and zipped up my grey jacket and stepped off and walked to the base. They all looked the same, but seeing the different people was always nice.
At the last base, I was treated to a loving hello and a nice dinner. This place was anything but a nice and warm environment. The moment I walked into that door, the Soldier was already barking orders and everyone else was occupied with something else.
After running a few laps for whatever reason the Soldier demanded, I finally got to unpack. I emptied what little possessions I had into the small closet and went to have some dinner. When I walked into the kitchen/dining room, I saw all the men sitting at the table. "Hey, what do we have to eat here?" I asked, kind of nervous because it was the first time I spoke to them. The Scout then said, "I dunno girly, whatever you feel like cookin' for us men of the house here!" He began to laugh and the others joined in except the Sniper who didn't really care and he got up and left. The other person not joining in was the resident Spy who was standing in the corner smoking.
Embarrassed, I went into the kitchen and began to just cook for myself. I ate in the kitchen, to scared to go out there and get yelled at for not making anything for the others. I knew to take the back exit to avoid them, and it has been a long day, so I went to the showers.
The only downside of working for a company that hires mostly males is one sex bathrooms. I checked to see if anyone else was in there, and when the coast was clear, I snuck into the shower and began to clean off all the dirt and sweat, hoping no one would come in. At one point, I thought I heard the door open, but I didn't hear anything after that, so I figured no one was in here with me. Little did I know that Spy was standing right outside the bathrooms now, breathing hard. "Did I just see what I thought I saw?" He asked himself after returning to his room. "She's beautiful, but how on earth am I going to tell her without telling her I saw her in there. I'll just ignore it." But something down below wouldn't let him, so he just gave in and made a promise to himself that he would keep his feelings to himself.
The next few days were quite boring. I was just ordered around the field "Hey girly, fix this thing! What's taking you so long, did you break a nail?" All the guys would join in laughing except that Spy. I started to wonder about him, trying to think of why he didn't laugh along with the others. I began to think that he might be the only guy – no, man – on this whole team to respect me. I liked that about him, but I was shy and he was always so quiet and didn't seem to be the talkative type so I kept my feelings to myself.
One day we suffered a huge defeat, we didn't even stand a chance out there today. I went into my room and pulled out my secret stash of alcohol and went to town. I don't think I could have come up with a coherent sentence after I was through with my drinking, and I just decided that I was going to wander aimlessly around the base.
While trying to keep myself balanced, I ran head on into Spy after turning the corner. "Hey, watch where you're going." He said, instantly getting up and brushing off his suit before offering me his hand to pull myself up. "I'm sorry, what was that? No snarky sexist remark for the only girl?" I slurred out, obviously too drunk to remember this was the guy that never did that. "No, I don't insult the fairer sex." The Spy said, and I swear I saw a smile tugging at the sides of his lips. "I don't even know your name," I said, "what is it?" He smiled and began to lead me down the hallway, "Oh, my name's Lucien, how about you?" I smiled and responded, "Arian. Where are we going?" I asked, still straightening my shirt and jacket from the fall as best I could.
All of a sudden, I was pushed into a room and landed of a bed that seemed to be prepared to catch someone since there were pillows all over it. "I'm taking you to a special place." He said, smiling as he loomed over me. "It's been too long since I have been near a gorgeous woman like you. I saw you that one time in the shower and have wanted this ever since." Normally, I'd be slapping him across the face asking why he was looking at me in the shower anyway, but I was too drunk to think of anything but pressing my lips to his. We both began to strip down and continue the rest of our night under the covers of the bed.
That was three months ago, and now I'm heading off to go home. I packed my things and began to head off to the platform right outside the base, hearing the angry cries of the guys. I knew why they were crying though, now they didn't have anyone to throw insults at, I feel so bad for the next girl that comes here. I never regretted that night with Lucien, it was the most fun I've had since I signed on to this war. As I took my seat on the train, I saw the new guy step off the other one and he was greeted by every man but one. Lucien just smiled at me through the window and waved as the train pulled away.
I laughed a little and looked down at my belly, I knew we could never be, but maybe someday he'll come and find me. Until then, all I have are my memories, and you… It's never the end, just a new beginningto something else. I thought, rubbing my belly and staring out into the sky.