A/N - The first part of this chapter is Blaine's POV but after the chapter break (the big line haha) it's from Kurt's POV. Sorry it's been a while since the last update, hope you're still liking the story. Feel free to request some things you would like to see and I'll try and fit them in :)
"WAKE UP, LADY BOY!" I heard shouted down my ear, causing me to almost jump the height of me. It was Karofsky. He was sitting up now, drinking a beer with black eyes, looking almost...cocky.
"There's no need for that" I said, referring to the beer, "it's not going to change anything" I told him.
"yes it will! It will change how sober I am! I'm a fucking monster! And Kurt- Kurt just left me here! With you of all people! Why would he do that to me? Why?" he shouted, standing up moving towards the door. I stood up to block him but he pushed me out of the way. Markus was right, he was strong. I tried to stop him but he kept pushing me back. He ran out to his dad's car and drove off. I followed him as quickly as I could. He stopped outside of Kurt's house and got out of the car.
"I won't hurt him" he shouted at me when he saw me following him, I stared at him, "I wont...I just want to talk to him" he said, a lot calmer. I nodded slowly.
"I'm waiting out here...I'll know if you're hurting him" I told him. I wouldn't...but he doesnt have to know that. He nodded and walked up to the door, I leant back against my car and watched.
There was a knock at my door and I ran my fingers through my hair. I don't need visitors right now! I slumped, reluctantly to the door and opened it. I saw Dave standing there with black eyes. I covered my mouth with my hand.
"D-Dave?" I asked, even though I knew.
"yeah, it's me Kurt. Maybe you don't recognise me conscious and not from over your shoulder when you left me, huh?" Dave said, I looked at the floor, my eyes already filling up.
"I'm so sorry, but I just- I couldnt- I've been through so much" I confessed, he pushed past me and entered my house and I closed the door.
"you? You've been through so much? Kurt I'm- I'm a freaking monster and you've been through so much?" he asked, incredibly.
"This is all my fault, Dave. I'm so sorry Blaine did this to you"
"Blaine?" he scoffed, "Blaine didn't do this to me" I raised an eyebrow, "some guy called Markus did. He talked about Blaine a lot but...that was it..." he told me. Suddenly my whole body filled with guilt. All those horrible things I said to him. I blamed him and- he didn't do anything, "I mean, Blaine helped me...he told me what I was and stuff"
Oh thanks, pile on the guilt.
"I- I need to speak to Blaine" I said.
"NO! I need to speak to you! Why do you always do that? Go running to Blaine! I'm here too! Talk to me! I can be Blaine!" Dave shouted, falling to the ground, I ran to comfort him and then backed off a little when I remembered...what he was, "I just want to be what Blaine is to you, Kurt" he confessed, I closed my eyes and sighed.
"Dave...maybe I was wrong, befriending you like this..." I started, with a sigh, "leading you on somehow but...all we're ever going to be..." I said, moving my index finger back and forth between us, "all we're ever going to be is friends" I said, "I'm sorry but-"
"you love Blaine" he said. I stopped.
"yeah" I let out a breathless sigh, "i do" I said, "I- I do" I said again. I do love him. I still love him even if he is...whatever he is...he wouldnt hurt me...I know that, "I'm really sorry Dave, I have to go" I said, leaving Dave alone for the second time. I grabbed my coat and ran out the house to go to my car when I saw Blaine. Leaning against his. He stood up properly when he saw me and focused in on my face, probably trying to read me. I walked towards him and he looked away.
"I'm only here to make sure you're safe, Kurt. I'll leave as soon as Karofsky does" he told me, I laughed a little.
"I'm sorry" I told him, all laughter leaving my voice now and returning the conversation to deadly serious, he looked at me and raised a perfectly shaped eyebrow, "Dave told me...it wasn't you who changed him" I told him, "you told me and- and I should have believed you...I'm sorry I didn't." I closed the small distance between us and cupped his face with both of my hands. Tears started to fall from my eyes and I hadn't noticed until Blaine wiped one away, "I am so sorry" I repeated. He pulled me into his arms for a hug and the sobs shook through me.
"shh" he comforted me. I felt him kiss the top of my head, a move that would have been impossible if I wasn't slouched, "it's okay, calm down, shh" he continued, stroking my hair and rubbing my back. It felt so nice to be close to him, so...so...right.
"can we talk?" I asked him, he nodded and we both got in his car.
"where do you want to go?" he asked.
"the coffee place" I replied, he nodded. I linked my fingers with his, he seemed to freeze slightly and then he relaxed into the movement. I just wanted to be close to him. After a short drive we arrived at the coffee place and we sat in the car outside, "Blaine?" I said, he looked at me, my hand found it's way to the back of his neck and I pulled his face closer to mine and felt his lips pressed against my own. It was short and sweet and...perfect. I pulled away smiling but he looked confused, almost...in pain. He got out the car and I followed shortly after, "wh-what's wrong?" I asked.
"we should just talk, Kurt" he said, I nodded and we walked in slowly and took a seat in the back.
"What's wrong?" I asked again when we finally sat down.
"where are we? I mean...us. Are we back together now or...? I'm really confused here, Kurt, and now you're holding my hand and- and kissing me and just this morning you were saying that I was a thing and I was incapable of love" he said, I hung my head.
"I know but...I didn't mean those things, Blaine. You're still you and- I love you and that's all that matters-"
"no, Kurt. That's not all that matters!" he replied, slight anger in his voice, "I can't be with you if I know you're going to throw that all back in my face every time we fight. You can't blow steam one second and love me the next. You- you just...can't. It doesn't work like that, Kurt! I love you! I love you so goddamn much that it hurts but if you only love me whenever you feel like it, this isn't going to work because it's not fucking fair!" he finished with a deep breath and panting. I moved my hand over his and gripped it.
"I know it isnt and...and I was wrong to do that before. I love you, that's it, short and simple. And yeah, couples say things in fights that they don't mean but...it was really wrong of me to say those things because...I don't believe it. But you know what I do believe in? You...and me...us. I believe in that" I finished. He searched my eyes.
"I have to tell you something" he said, breaking eye contact, suddenly I got very worried, "I had sex with Markus...a lot" he confessed. I felt a large lump in my throat, "I was upset and angry and...Markus can shape shift and he- he turned into you and...I took advantage of that and...I'm sorry" he finished, I nodded slowly.
"I forgive you but Blaine...I don't want you to have sex with him being me...I want you to have sex...with...the real me" I said, blushing from my ears to my toes. His eyes shot up to meet mine, he was clearly in shock.
"I don't want to rush you into anything you're not ready for, Kurt..." Blaine said, I smiled and gripped his hand again.
"Don't worry...you're not" I smirked.
So incase you haven't guessed, the next chapter is going to be smutty smut smut-smut. I think it will be MOSTLY smut, maybe a little fluff added in but no angst (unless it's angsty smut haha), so that's something to look forward to I suppose hahahaha, until next time, my klainers ;)