Yo, second chapter! Woot! Angst and depression! XD
Magnus POV
A month. One haunting, terrible, sad month. I want to die. I knew it was because he was mad, I figured we would just make up later. But he never came back, and I think that's what hurt me the most.
I've just sat in my apartment doing nothing, afraid to do anything because I didn't want to get hurt. I had that feeling like I was going to throw up any minute, but it never came. Not without force. And just thinking about it made me scream. Several things had already been broken because of me.
I knew he wouldn't be happy after I slapped him, but I had a reason at least! I didn't expect to be hit, I didn't expect anything of that sort. He had actually cracked a bone in my jaw that I haven't fixed. I haven't had the energy. I hate the fact that a Shadowhunter has done this to me. I've survived for 800 years without him, he left as soon as he came, and it broke me. Physical and mentally.
The fact I haven't worn any make up, or bright clothes, or even glitter scares me. And I've tried, oh, how I've tried, I just couldn't do it. I would end up with eyeliner on my cheek and glitter in heavy blotches all over my body. I needed someone to help me, but I knew it wouldn't do anything, unless is was Alec. But he was gone, and I haven't heard one thing about a Lightwood, he could be dead for all I know.
So here I am, sitting, waiting, for a text. A call. A visit. Just wanting one sign that he hasn't already moved on. Just one sign that he doesn't hates me. Just one.
Damn that was hard! Dx poor Magnus! Sorry it was short