After decades of staying in hiatus, FINALLY, here's an update about my story. I'm sorry if it took so long ..
Days passed...But the pain hasn't worn off yet. The gang can't still accept the fact that Mikan is really gone. The years of happiness when Mikan was still with them vanished 3 seconds after Hotaru's onii-san declared that their beloved tangerine is dead. Damn, the very word makes them puke. Even if they are right staring at Mikan's "tomb", its as if they don't wanna think that Mikan is already 6-ft below the ground.
"Mikan, you dummy of all dummies. You really left me. But I promise, you will always be my bestfriend. Not even death will change that fact. I love you, baka, and I always be happy, wherever you are. Your smile is the brightest and most valuable gem I have ever seen. Rest in peace, baka..." The Ice Queen is not really an Ice Queen after all. For teardrops continuously flow from her purple eyes. She made an effort not to be seen crying, but when it comes to Mikan, her resolve seems to crumble.
"Sakura-san, you are one of the people I really care so much. This is the first time that I ever felt this way towards a girl. I confessed to you, and you rejected me. I tried to move on, but I just can't. I'm sorry Sakura-san, but I think you will be the last person I will ever love. I know that you will be sad when you know about this, and probably you would say that I must find a girl of my own. I'm sorry Sakura-san, but I can't. I just can't do that. Its hard to accept that your'e gone, but do we have a choice? I promise , you will never be forgotten. Your name is already carved in my heart. I love you so much, Sakura-san, and I already miss you calling me Ruka-pyon. Rest in peace..." Ruka didn't even notice that he is already choking the rabbit he is holding, in efforts to suppress the feelings he is holding in.
"Your'e really an idiot, polka. How many times have I told you not to keep anything from me? If I had known earlier that you are taking missions for that creepy bastard, I will lock you up so that he will not be able to touch you again. I can't forgive myself Mikan. I can't forgive myself for not being there when you need me the most. I can't forgive myself not being able to protect you. There are nights when all I think about you. Thinking what you may have felt killing people for the sake of completing your mission. That bastard tainted your innocence, stained your conscience with blood, destroying your perspective and outlook of the world. Mikan, how am I going to live without you? You and your annoying smile. You and your stupid pigtails. You and your childish panties. You and your endless ramblings. For the first time in my life, I learned what love is all about. Ever since I meet you, I unconsciously changed myself, so that I may be worthy of you. And now, your gone. Damn, I wanna puke. I want to kill that bastard, but I know you don't want me to do it. I love you so much Mikan, so much than you'll ever know. I'll do everything for you, you know that. You're the only one that keeps me living. Mikan, wherever you are, I want you to know that I will be forever loving you. You, you, and you only. I don't want anybody else. Please be happy, and rest in peace, you idiot.." The firecaster, for the first time in his life, shed tears in front of everybody. They are all shocked, but they understand Natsume's feelings. Its only now that they really understand how and what Mikan is to Natsume's life.
"All right, everyone, please line up and get back to your respective dorms!" Narumi-sensei said. He can't bear seeing these kids very sad. Truth be told, his grief is way beyond comparable. He is like a father to Mikan, and it hurts him so much that this tragic event has to happen. But he must remain strong, for he knows, his students clings to him to carry on.
The students lined up, silently, as they took a last look at Mikan's grave. They threw some flowers, some threw messages. All done, they left. Little did they know that a pair of eyes is secretly watching them.
"This is all that bastard's fault! He is causing all these problems! He is really enjoying seeing my friends in such grief! I swear, I'l kill that bastard!" Mikan's rage and fury is way beyond imaginable. Mikan, herself, knew that for the first time in her life, she felt this kind of intense anger. She can see how here friends is so saddened of her "death", and by every second that passed, her anger is growing and becoming more terrifying.
"I'm sorry guys, I can't do anything right now. This is all for your sake. But once I had an opportunity, I'l show up, and tell the truth to you. So please, hang in there guys. I love you all, and I already miss you.." Mikan thought, as she is on her way back to her hiding place...
...and completely clueless that she forgot to use her Nullification alice, causing a certain mind-reader to accidentally read her thoughts...
So? How was that? Please leave a review! I'm sorry if it's too short compared to my previous chapters..