"Phantomhive, interesting to see you; what brings you here?" Claude asked casually. Ciel and Sebastian actually looked different other than age wise. He seemed depressed and ready to cause a rampage if anyone got him upset and that was a rare thing to see in him. Sebastian was stolid but I could see a purple essence coming from him. It radiated off him. I've never seen that side of him either. Even Ciel sounded upset and enraged.

"Where's Alois?" He wasn't looking at Claude; it looked like he was staring at the floor. Claude didn't answer specifically; he only said that he wasn't here and that he wouldn't be here for a while, which wasn't a lie at all.

"Faustus, I suggest you tell me where he is or I will rip your throat out." Sebastian's voice was deadly and full of swear. He was serious about it. He still looked the exact same way as before; he was beautiful and as handsome when I last saw him. He hadn't changed a bit and I couldn't stop staring at him. I wanted to jump right in the middle of the conversation and show him what I became in the last three years; I was frightened to know what would happen if I did.

"Why do you need to know where he is?" A blink was all it took to have Sebastian clench Claude's throat deeply and throw him to the wall. Claude's back hit first with Sebastian still holding him by the neck, squeezing harshly. I held my mouth so that I wouldn't scream and go after him. I dug my nails into my wrist, letting blood drip out so the pain would remind me to stay put. Thankfully it worked.

"Alois is the reason…I lost her. He made me into a demon; if it weren't for him…" He trailed off and he glared at Claude with those threatening red eyes. He was even more upset and I could see sharp teeth in his mouth; possibly tears were about to fall out. "Aurora wouldn't have died!" He screamed at him, raging with anger. I saw his eyes turning bright red as he snarled at my companion.

"Where is he?" Sebastian squeezed his neck tighter; Claude smiled.

"You seemed to be very upset about Aurora, Michaelis. Perhaps you've had feelings for her?" Sebastian pulled Claude to him and whispered something that I couldn't hear for once but then I saw him being shoved back into the wall again. I wanted to go and show him that I was alright just…a little different. Something told me to stay back and just examine their actions though so I did.

"Sebastian, stop." He immediately listened and released his hold on Claude. Thank goodness…I took a breath of relief. I didn't want the fight escalating to something worse where I'd have to get in the middle of it and screw up my cover. Either way, I know Claude wouldn't let me do that.

"Young master…" He trailed off with his eyes still aglow. He was glaring at Ciel.

"Tell Alois…he has nowhere left to hide. I will find him and destroy him with my own two hands." He said and gestured to the door; Sebastian opened the door for Ciel and left without a hint of unsteadiness. They were pissed off to the brink of insanity…because I died. So he really did care for me and what I did for him. Once the door shut closed, I ran to the top of the stairs and jumped off the banister, landing right in front of Claude. I kneed in front of him as he was gasping for breath; I carried his face in my hands and brought him closer to me.

"Are you alright?" I asked him desperately searching for any cuts on him. I cared for him; he was always…good to me? I guess that was the best way of putting it. He started coughing; he held my hands while I was still carrying his face.

"I am now." He smiled and I felt my cheeks warm up quickly and I smiled back gently. He really was a sweet guy, I guess, deep down. My lips tapped his and he gave in quickly but I pulled back after a few seconds. What the hell was I doing? Sebastian just walked right out of the door and I didn't bother to say anything or been seen at all. I missed him so much that I actually kissed his rival! What the hell was I thinking? I wanted to kiss Sebastian not Claude but…maybe I was forming some type of feelings for him. It was all up in the air and now…I couldn't really think straight.

"Claude…" I got up at the same time he did and excused myself from the awkward situation that I put myself in; my hand got caught and I was pulled back into Claude's arms. I couldn't move from his arms around my back, crushing me into his chest. He was warm but his hug felt lovingly; I pulled back.

I excused myself again and raced to my room, straight for the balcony to see the carriage gone, I sighed in disappointment. I wanted to see you one more time… I moved to the bed and laid down on my side, sniffling into the pillow. It smelled of tea and something floral. I had the usufruct to live in this place as long as I was good and listened obediently. I kind of felt like a dog here but then again my family was known as the Queen's guard dogs. It was only natural that I felt this way. Ciel always told me to be proud of the title that the queen gave me and my family. We were special to her royal majesty.

The door clicked open and I assumed it as Claude again but I saw Hannah instead. I sat up. I didn't need her in here at all. She always came at the wrong time.

"Get out. I'm changing the bed sheets." She demanded. Well that wasn't a nice way of asking me. I flipped my long hair behind my shoulder.

"Make me, you cretan." I said and crossed my arms; she stalked towards me with anger and was about to grab me but the door swung open and Claude finally came in. He glared at Hannah and took her by the hair, pulling it harshly and throwing her to the wall. She fell down and winced; Claude went up to her and got in her face.

"Don't bother thinking about it." She hung onto the wall for dear life, trying to get up. "Get out now." She breathed heavily, staring at me with the harshest glare I had never seen her give me before; I smiled, read for anything she threw at me. I was excited for it; unfortunately she left with that.

"I'm disappointed." I said with a sigh. Claude looked at me with an eyebrow lifted. The handsome devil was confused for once. That's a first.

"About?" He asked me.

"I was hoping she'd come at me." I shrugged and sigh again. The man in front of me chuckled darkly; it sounded beautiful but not as beautiful as his.

"Don't underestimate Hannah, besides you're a newborn and you still have a lot to learn." He said, looking pleased for whatever reason. I loved his smile, there was always some mysterious nature behind it and I could never tell what he was thinking. I feel that the more I thought of him as a companion, he would only be a companion. I still missed Sebastian more. His touch, his gentles, and the way he would complement me, sending chills up and down my spine, everything about him I was missing and I was dying to sneak out and see him. I looked down to the floor and made the choice of doing that. Claude took my chin and gave me a ticked off look.

"What?" I asked him, trying to hide my thoughts of Sebastian.

"You're thinking of him." He grimaced and scoffed with distaste. Well that failed terribly.

"How do you know when I think of him? I feel like you can read into my mind." I said with innocent eyes. He was so cute up close. Why haven't I realized that before?

"It's easy to figure you out after being with you for 3 years." He said with a smile and I felt him draw him closer to me, with each passing second, my heart was oscillating crazily.

"You know," I stroked the side of his face, brushing his hair to one side. His skin was so smooth and pale. "I never knew how gold your eyes were." He laughed quietly and narrowed his eyes.

"Claude!" We got away from each other quickly and out of the room, basically running than casually appearing on the stairs like nothing happened between us. We saw Alois in the entrance way with a waiting look. I ran to him, happy, and hugged him. He laughed and circled his arms around me.

"How was the meeting?" I asked happy that he broke the moment that Claude and I almost created. He was such a life saver!

"Good, wasn't really fun without you though." He said and kissed my forehead, like my brother used to. On the inside my conscience was beating me upside the head. Ciel used to do that! Why would I let Alois do it? I missed Ciel and the way he would kiss my forehead lovingly. I was starting to miss home again after seeing them. It's been so long; it shouldn't have been a bad thing to want to go home.

The rest of the day happened fairly fast. Alois ate, we talked and made fun of Claude again, much to my amusement and then got ready for bed. Claude and I agreed to stop training for a few days because of the visit from Ciel; I gladly accepted it. A few hours later, Alois was asleep, Claude was nowhere to be found, neither were the others, and I headed out with a silk purple cloak over my head just in case someone recognize me.

The night was slightly breezy but it felt good against my skin. It made my hair float and rise above my shoulders and I sighed to the beautiful feeling. I was ghostlike as I walked down the garden to the front, jumping over the iron gates, Alois put there for security purposes. I landed on the crunchy ground like a cat and began walking down any direction that came to mind. I just needed some time away from the estate; it was just like being with Ciel, locked up with a key that was thrown and gone years ago.

Thoughts came to lead me to the Phantomhive's estate and there I stood right in front of the big house where I used to live. My whole life was there, my friends, my sibling, my first love…all of it was inside of this place. If I just took a single step inside, I wondered what would've happened if I did. Would Ciel be happy to see me? Would Sebastian? What about Alois and Claude? What would they do? All these questions and so much more swirled into my mind like a hurricane and I didn't want to think of any of it. I knew I would take care of this scenario eventually.