For the rest of the day I was silent; Claude tried speaking to me but I would keep my head down in sadness, not able to stop crying. I excused myself from whatever we were doing and went to my room. I sat on the window pane and looked outside at the sky. It was only twilight. I sighed and let my head fall again. Why was this happening to me? I tend to have so many bad things involve me in stupid situations because of my decisions. Things were never that simple for me, that was in my nature. It was something that would never change. And when I would try to forget…something would bring it back.

I went to my dresser and took a piece of paper and a pen. I wrote a note to Claude but had to think about it before I actually had something in mind to write.

Claude,

Please do not be upset but I'm going to be out till the end of the day. I'm sorry but I need some air and I need to calm myself down. Please don't come and look for me, I'm in desperate need to be alone and to sort out my thoughts. I'll be back once I feel better. Thank you

Aurora

I left it on the desk and went out through the window without a coat. The cool air would help me feel better and I honestly didn't care if I got cold or not anyway. I wandered out of the area and ran far from the estate, not knowing where I was headed. I didn't know what to do from here so I just kept walking. It was such a beautiful day too but I felt miserable.

My inner angel yelled at me and mentally slapped me in the face because I didn't know that I was at the Phantomhive estate. I wasn't even paying attention to where I was going and still, I ended up here! I sighed in defeat. I needed to talk to Sebastian and me trying to avoid him wouldn't work anymore now that he knew…

I walked up to the estate and quickly got in through the front. No one was in the grand hall but I could feel everyone's presence so everyone was here. Everything looked the same since I was last home, nothing had changed and I was really starting to miss home even more now that I was actually in the estate. I went up the stairs and looked around to see Sebastian at the end of the hall.

He saw me before I ran back outside and I assumed that he followed me because once I made it to the forest, I still heard the doors shut. I stopped and took a breath as my heart tried to calm down. I leaned against a near tree. He saw me! I wanted to hit my head against the tree for letting that happen.

"Why did you run?" I jumped from my spot and got trapped between Sebastian's arms against the trunk. I looked away, scared of letting all my emotions pour out; he took my face, making me look at him. "Are you going to answer me?" He asked again but through his teeth.

"I-I don't know." I said and looked down.

"Look at me." I didn't; he was getting angry with me and broke the tree trunk with hands. "Look at me." I was about to start hyperventilating quickly and tears wield up in my eyes. I choked back on a sob and I felt his hands stroke my cheeks and hold my face to his. "I'm sorry. I didn't mean to upset you." I pushed his hands away from me and wiped my tears.

"It was a mistake coming here." I said; Sebastian pulled me into a hug. He put my head in his chest. He was so warm and he smell like Earl grey tea, just like home.

"No, it's never a mistake to be with me. I don't want it to be. I still…" He stopped inches from my lips. "Care for you…so much Aurora, more than anything else." My cheeks flustered and I looked away in embarrassment.

"Sebastian…" I said and took a step back but he was holding my hand. I was still in love with him; I would always be and running away would be a waste of time and a waste of my love if I continued to avoid him.

"By all means, I will make you mine again," He pulled me back into his arms and kissed my forehead softly. There was never a time where I wasn't…My body fluttered happily. "Not as you're brother's butler but as my demon self." He held me in his arms.

"You're not upset…with me?" I asked him, my body shaking.

"At first I must admit, I was but now…no, not anymore." He kissed my cheek this time.

"When I left…were you lonely?" I asked him hesitantly.

"More than you could ever possibly imagine." He looked at me with his eyes full of sadness; my cheeks were still flustered as I apologized.

"I've missed you." His lips leaned closer and closer until I pushed myself back from him.

"What's wrong?" He asked me and I closed my eyes.

"I shouldn't be here…" I said and turned around but Sebastian crushed my back to him this time and held my face to stretch my neck to one side. His tongue made a trail from the bottom of my neck to the top. I moaned with a gasp; my eyes were closed. In reality such a perfect world would never exist and each beautiful dream would shatter into forgotten fragments instantly. I didn't want to wake up from this dream and now…this became my reality. I moved around to see him and put my arms around his neck, bringing him closer to me.

"Will you stop running from me?" He asked and I shook my head. I had contracted; it wouldn't be easy to see him as much as I wanted to. If he only knew what Claude did to me…

"I…have to go." I said and tried pulling from him; he wouldn't let me go.

"Do you not love with me anymore?" He asked me; I stopped trying to pull from him and stared into those gorgeous eyes. He was serious about this. "Do you love Faustus more than me?" My eyes bulged out and I swung my hand at his face really hard. The smack was really loud and he stared at me, holding his cheek with one hand and taking a step back.

"How dare you say something like that to me!" I yelled at him. "I could never love Claude like I love you! I've always loved you and only you!" I held myself while crying. If I had done that to Dimitri years ago, maybe things would've turns out differently…

"Aurora…" He said faintly. I choked on my tears again. My emotions were starting to pour out.

"I will always love you Sebastian!" I sobbed and fell to the ground, holding my face. I could never love Claude. Sure he was very nice to me but…I felt that special connection with Sebastian not him. If he was a god why couldn't he understand that? Or even know that? To me…he was my king and I wanted to be with him forever. I covered my mouth, stopping myself from screaming at him for his stupidity. I burst out into more tears, not caring if my dress was ruined at the bottom anymore.

His hands sustained my face and he kissed me deeply without even concerning himself with what I would do once he was done. However he knew what I would do and he was always right. Our lips moved lovingly against one another's and soft moans came out of our mouths. We both wanted this and having to go without this for so many years drove us both insane. Parting out lips, we were both flustered and heated with every nerve in our body wanting more of each other. I snapped out of it when I saw the sun setting.

"Oh no I'm going to be late!" I jumped and dusted myself off.

"Late for what?" He asked me; my cheeks became brighter.

"I was supposed to see someone." His head tilted to the side but then he smiled.

"Can I come with you?" I was hesitant before actually responding and letting him follow me but before we left he went back to the estate to make sure that the servants could watch over Ciel while he was out; it didn't take long. I ran in front of him heading towards the estate and landed right in front yard; Sebastian was immediately behind me as I walked to the window and jumped up to the window pane. The lamp was on but no one was in the room. I sighed sadly but went inside anyway with Sebastian following me.