A/n: this story has been officially disclaimed.

So I'm not going to try to explain myself and why I had a short leave of absence because I know the reason and that's all that matters to me. Enjoy this chapter if you wish too but don't hate my story because I've been gone.

Love,

Haloxoxo.

We all at some point in time blame our failure on the people around us because we do not want to admit that we ourselves were the ones who had failed.

"It's all you fault that I'm not on the National team." Massie spat at Dylan as they watch the national team practice.

"I thought we're over the whole, "I'm sorry for ruining your life" thing." Dylan said to Massie wondering why Massie would even drag herself back to the place where she lost her dream in the blink of an eye.

"We are, it's just I miss everything about my old life," Massie said as she watched the gymnasts intently. "I know that I need a new dream but I'm not ready to let this one go just yet."

"Well can you find a ride home? I need to leave now to make my appointment with my therapist." Dylan asked Massie making sure that Mass will have a ride home since she still has a broken leg.

"Yeah I'll be fine. Go to your therapist appointment but don't forget to call me tonight." Massie said not breaking her eyes off of the gymnast on the uneven bars.

"Sure thing, I'll call you right after my session."

Massie didn't bother to watch Dylan leave because all she can think about is how close she was to being an Olympian. She was so close she could taste the sweet victory on her tongue then the next then she knew she was eating the chalk off the mat.

"You shouldn't be doing this to yourself, you know?" Derrick said as he sat down next to Massie. Ever since their date things have been hectic because they haven't talked due to Kristen moving in with Massie and Derrick having soccer every day.

"What do you mean? I'm just being a supportive teammate."

"No, you're just beating yourself up about not being able to perform in front of so many people because you love the attention." Derrick said studying Massie and even Massie had to admit that Derrick is good at reading people.

"I also love having the satisfaction that I'm the best." Massie added with a giggle, ah how all the girls adored her so much for dedicating herself to being the best of the best.

"We need to find you a new hobby," Derrick said. He stood up and helped Massie up then he carried her out of the arena or else he knew that she wouldn't have left if he didn't force her out. "Come on, Block it's time to find out what else you're good at besides being beautiful that is."

"Well handsome what kind of a hobby does a person with a broken leg have?" Massie asked curiously but happy that she gets to spend time with a cute boy.

Derrick pushed back his fear of rejection by the girl he is crushing on and leaned in for a kiss. To his surprise she kissed him back.

"I can get used to this hobby." Massie said coyly as pulled away from the kiss. She kissed Kemp more than four hundred times but none of those kisses can compare to the one she just shared with Derrick.

"I can too."

"So are we officially a couple?"

"Well I was going to ask you out in a cute way but I'll be happy with whatever you decide." Derrick said sincerely.

"I want to be your girlfriend but I feel like once this cast comes off I'll become a bitch again and you deserve someone better than that." Massie said looking out for Derrick. She cares about him and doesn't want him to get hurt.

"I know that you're looking out for me but I can show you something you have never experienced before."

"What is it?" Massie asked

"Love." That word scares Massie because loving is not easy for her. She doesn't have the courage to love, she doesn't have the patience for love to come, and she doesn't have the power of happy endings in mind. All she has are the shallows of her heart.

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"So Dylan why don't you tell me a little about yourself" Dr. Wang asked politely. Carol Wang has been giving people advice her whole life but she doesn't take her own advice and uses it.

If she did then maybe she wouldn't be a bachelorette at thirty-five with three cats and the only guys in her life are her dentist, doctor, and her receptionist. Hiding behind her long black hair, trim glasses, and big clothing is a very capable pretty woman.

"I thought you already know everything there is to know about me." Dylan said witty as she stared into Dr. Wang's grey eyes.

"Well I know only what people have told me about you," Dr. Wang paused as she placed down her binder and leaned forward to Dylan. "I want to know your life story in your own words."

"Why do you want to know me when everyone else just wants an intriguing lie so my life seems like one in a movie?" Dylan asked baffled by the sincerity of Dr. Wang's words.

"Dylan I know that it may seem like the world is conspiring against you but the world is actually conspiring with you," Dr. Wang said and Dylan is doubtful that is a true statement because of everything that has happened to her. "Dylan, I know that it is hard to open up to a stranger and talk about yourself but I can't help you if you don't try."

Dylan contemplated whether or not to come to the session and know she is contemplating whether or not to finally let someone in.

"My name is Dylan, I'm a freshman in high school and it may seem like my life is perfect because my mom is Merri-Lee Marvil but it's not. I used to be bulimic and I used to also be anorexic," Dylan sighed heavily as she began to spill her guts. "The real reason why I started to starve myself was because I wanted my mom to pay attention to me and I felt like she hated me for being fat. I have only one good friend, Massie but I almost lost her this year and I can't believe that I forgot all the good things she has done for me, she is my savior."

"Did you ever feel like Massie thought little of you? Why did you and Massie have a falling out to begin with?" Dr. Wang asked curiously.

"Well now that you mention that I guess I did feel like she thought little of me because of the whole starving myself situation," Dylan said and she can't help but feel like a burden is being lifted off her shoulders. "I finally got fed up with Massie getting everything she wanted but it still wasn't enough for her and I also was mad because she kept stepping on my toes to reach the next level of popularity and also because of Kemp as well."

"Ah I see and it is always hard to sometimes express those feelings of hurt to a friend because you're afraid you will lose them for telling how you actually feel. Now who is Kemp?"

"I guess and she never really had time talk to me because of her gymnastics. Kemp is… well was Massie's boyfriend that I have a crush on him and I was jealous of her because he loves her so much."

"Massie and you are fine now, right?" Dr. Wang asked and Dylan nodded her head yes. "Did you ever ask Massie how she would feel about you dating Kemp?"

"No, but she'll probably say no because she probably thinks I'll turn him anorexic or something like that." Dylan said confidently.

"I thought Massie understands you so why would she say no to you dating Kemp?"

"She does to a certain extent but there is a lot that she doesn't know about me."

"Well then how is she ever supposed to know you if you don't tell her these things?" Dr. Wang asked.

"I don't know. I'm not ready for her to know my whole life story."

"That's exactly what I thought."

"What is?" Dylan asked intrigued to know something that Dr. Wang knows but she doesn't.

"You control what you want people to know about you but there a lot of things that you keep to yourself so no one really will ever know the whole you because you control what you want others to know about you."

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