Where I Stood
Chapter 15: Some Things Are Just Not Meant to Last
It was well past ten when Sileni emerged from the dungeons, a wide smile on her lips. Seeing no one around, she quickly walked out to the grounds before transforming into her fox form once more. Should anyone look out the window, they would have seen a blur of white running across the black ground towards the Whomping Willow. Missing its attacking branches, Sileni dove into the hole, quickly rushing the length of the tunnel, and slipping into the crack of the door before it slammed shut with force.
The teenager gave off a growling, hissing sound, the werewolf and the stag backing away from each other. The werewolf growled at Sileni before it stuck its nose into her side, nudging her. Nudging back with her small nose, Sileni took off, Remus right behind. James merely shook his head, walking back into the living room where both Sirius and Luke wrestled with each other in their forms, knowing that there was nothing else for them to do.
This was their typical full moon night, whenever Sileni was able to be there. When she wasn't, all three boys would have a fighting time with keeping Remus within the Shrieking Shack because he would have her scent and wanted to go after her. In the morning during such times all four boys would have lots of burses' and one deep wound each–except Remus, of course.
Come morning, James, Sirius, Luke, and Sileni all groggily make their way back to Gryffindor Tower, all four falling asleep in the common room. Around dawn Sileni wakes up in a daze and makes her way out of the Tower and towards the Hospital Wing. Making sure not to make any noise, Sileni goes over to the one bed with its curtain drawn and crawls in next to Remus; whom sleepily moves over to make room. This was something they had also started to do after the transformation, Madam Pomfrey having stopped trying to kick the girl out. Somehow the healer would find Sileni there after having locked the doors with magic and without.
Throughout the day, Sileni couldn't help think over the pain her boyfriend goes through the transformation. Then a thought hit her as she remembers a passage in the third Harry Potter book after the trio find out the whole truth about Peter. So Sileni hunted Severus down. It was before dinner and Sileni literally dragged the Slytherin into an empty classroom, getting odd looks from several students making their way to the Great Hall.
"I know that you know what Remus is." She said before Severus could say anything. "Is there any way to help ease the pain? Possibly a cure?" She asked, thinking about the Wolfsbane potion.
Severus frowned, thinking over the request. His mind raced with thoughts and measurements, trying to find any possible way to either ease the pain of transforming or a cure–which no one has ever done before.
"I can try, but I'll need a sample of his blood and a place to work with no interruptions."
Sileni smiled, "I know the place for you; however, I'll need to speak with Remus about the blood. Also, I think that you should speak with Damocles Belby; I think he can help you as well."
Severus frowned, but nodded, his mind still racing. "You do that, and I'll work immediately. I have Damocles in Herbology tomorrow morning, I'll ask him then to help me."
Despite not liking to receive help from anyone, Severus decided to follow Sileni's advice as she has done nothing but help him so far. Smiling, Sileni hugged and kissed Severus before leaving the classroom. The Slytherin was right behind her, scribbling furiously on a piece parchment, writing down many unsolved equations as he was to wait for Remus blood. Her smiled widening, Sileni enters the Great Hall, making her way over to Remus and the boys; Remus frowning a bit as Severus walks in after her. Giving Remus a quick kiss, Sileni piles her plate with as much food, leaning close to her boyfriend.
"I need to discus something with you–and I hope you wouldn't be pissed off at me. After dinner, let's take a walk in the courtyard?"
Remus nods as he cannot find his voice, his heart racing as thoughts of what she needs to talk about becomes crazier as the next. By the time dessert rolled around, Remus excused them, and dragged an amuse Sileni after him. Once they were out in a secluded area in the court yard, Remus brings Sileni forward to face him and kiss her hard, pushing the teenager into the pillar behind her. Sileni wraps her arms around Remus neck, tilting her head to deepen the kiss. She held on to Remus as she leaned back against the pillar, feeling her knees go weak. Easing slowly away, Remus places his forehead against hers, holding her tightly against him.
"Please don't break up with me. I need you so much, Sileni. I don't know how you and Severus got close, but please, let me try to save our relationship!" Remus pleaded quietly, his breath coming in pants.
As his words slowly sunk in through her hazy mind, Sileni leaned back her head and laughed. Remus frowned at this, wondering exactly what was so funny to his girlfriend. Looking back to Remus, Sileni cupped his face and kissed him ever so slowly.
"Honey, I'm not going to leave you! I like Severus, but as a friend," she smiled, brushing back his hair from his face. "Though, he is the reason why I need to speak with you seriously."
She sighed and walked out of his arms, running a hand through her hair. Remus frowned and walked over to her, placing a hand on her shoulder. Sileni turn to look at him, guilt and fear behind her eyes.
"I asked him to brew a potion for you, for when you transform. Only, he needs your blood to get a positive result."
Remus dropped his hand, his face becoming expressionless. Sileni held her breath, waiting for the werewolf to start yelling or do something. But he only looked at her with cold eyes that were slowly turning a tinge of yellow. Suddenly his lip curled into a snarl, baring his teeth at her.
"What the hell were you thinking asking him something like that? There is no cure for what I go through!" He snapped, pacing away from her.
"I was only trying to help, damn it! And Severus is really good with potions! I know he can figure something out, especially with Damocles Belby helping him. You can have a cure sooner than later!" Sileni cried, trying to get through him.
However as she saw the tense of his shoulders at the mention of Damocles Belby, Sileni knew that she shouldn't have mentioned the Ravenclaw boy. With his back still turned to her, Remus hid his anger, and his tears, from the girl he knew deep down that he loved like no other.
"Maybe it was wrong for us to be together." He said quietly, the cold November air blowing from the west.
Sileni inhaled sharply as she held back her own tears. "What are you saying? You want to break up?"
Remus slightly turned his head to the left, looking down at the ground. "That's exactly what I'm saying."
His voice was distant, cold, one that no one has ever heard in Remus before. He was supposed to be the gentle one, the kind one who would not pass judgment on others because he knew how it would feel when people judge him for what he was–if they ever find out.
Sileni nodded, knowing that he didn't see it. "Very well... goodbye, Remus."
With that whisper, Sileni quickly walked towards the castle, not once looking back at the werewolf. Remus looks after her, wondering if he did the right thing as he felt his heart breaking painfully into pieces. He was angry, beyond angry, but he was sure to forgive her, wouldn't he? They just needed time to be away from each other, right?
Sileni jogged as fast as she could towards the entrance of the castle, not bothering to wipe the tears from her face. She barely noticed them as she felt numb from both the pain and the wind that was now blowing fiercely. Sileni felt the hurt and the breaking of her heart, so the numbness was a welcome. Walking out of the Great Hall, the three Marauders were all laughing when they notices a crying Sileni stumbling inside.
"Eni, what happened?" Sirius asked in concern.
"I'm going to work." She muttered, heading in the direction of the unused classroom, not caring for the nickname.
The three boys looked to one another before looking at Remus, whom slowly walked inside, his eyes red from holding back his tears.
"Mate, what happened? What's going on?" James asked in confusion.
"Sileni and I broke up." He told them, shrugging his shoulders as if this sort of thing happened every day.
"What?" The three boys cried in disbelief, wondering if they heard right.
"But you guys are perfect for each other!" Sirius cried with confusion and relief.
Remus shook his head, walking towards the stairs to go up to Gryffindor common room. "Some things are just not meant to last."
The three boys looked to one another in confusion, praying that this was just a bad dream. Luke snapped out of it and ran after his sister, both Sirius and James running after Remus. The three boys all hoped that they can get some kind of information out of them, and help bring them back together.
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–Leaky Cauldron–
Luke stumbled out of the fireplace, looking up towards Tom, whom points to the left. The sixteen year old looks over to see his sister sitting at a booth, crying into her crossed arms on top of the table. His heart breaks at the sight, but stays strong for this was her first boyfriend and break up. Not to mention that Sileni has been there for him, as well as strong to keep him in line.
Walking over to the booth, Luke slides in next to Sileni, who looks up teary eyed. Luke gives her a sympathetic look before she latches to him, crying harder than before. Wrapping his arms around his sister, Luke rocks them slightly, rubbing her back to soothe her. Not really caring for the change of roles, Sileni is grateful for her brother not criticizing of her first break up.
Despite not loving Remus, the break up hurt more than Sileni thought it would. She wanted nothing more but turn back the time and never mentioned this to neither Severus nor Remus. Oh, how badly she knew she screwed up. Luckily she hardly had any classes with Remus, so Sileni would try her hardest to stay away from him, and start working more double shifts as she possibly can.
Luke closed his eyes in regret, wishing that there was something he could do to make his sister happy again. But, perhaps, it was a good thing that they broke up. Especially of what is to come at the end of the school year.
"Sileni, I know you don't want to hear this, but maybe it's a good thing." Luke whispered quietly. "Maybe it's for the best."
Sileni pulled away from her brother with confusion and anger, not able to believe her brother was actually saying this.
"What I mean is we don't know what is to happen at the end of the school year when Voldemort and the last of his Death Eaters Apparate after the graduation ceremony."
The seventeen year old looked down at the table, thinking over what her brother just said. Because of the hurt, Sileni didn't–couldn't–think of the pain even worse than now be on Remus of her death. Maybe this will help him get over her faster than when they would be together. It would only be easier for both parties when she dies.
"You're right," Sileni finally whispered with a sigh, trying hard to hold back her tears and pain. "You're right. Come on, you have a long day of class tomorrow; not to mention the first Quidditch game of the year."
Luke, smiling slightly, nodded as he slid out of the booth. Sileni slid after him, holding up a hand to Tom before they both disappeared back to Hogwarts, not knowing what troubles or complications were to come after this.
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True to her word, Sileni picked up more shifts at her job, as well as getting more information for the Order. Due to the low count of Death Eaters, Voldemort is becoming more desperate in trying to regain followers and power once again. Sileni has spoken little to everyone, only speaking with her brother as she started to involve him concerning the Order. Both James and Sirius have tried to involve Sileni with their group, but whenever Remus was around she would stay away.
Sileni had also informed Severus, but was able to get some blood from willingly patients from a healer that was in the Order and worked at the St. Mungos. To say the least, both Severus and Damocles Belby were as happy as a kid on Christmas day. So far they had made some progress, but not by much to warn anyone just yet.
It was a week before Christmas and Hogwarts was having their last Quidditch game before it start up once again in January. It was Gryffindor versus Ravenclaw, a cold and snowy day. The sun was going down, the hour of twilight, and Ravenclaw was ahead by one hundred and ten. Sileni was holding closer her winter coat and scarf by around her neck, looking towards the scoreboard beneath the stand where some Hufflepuff fourth year was commentating on the game. Three hundred and fifty-five to Two hundred and forty-five.
Cursing out loud, not that anyone would hear it due to the wind, Sileni looked back at the game still going on, jumping up and down on her toes. Not wanting to sit on the bench so close to Remus, the seventeen year old had decided to stand on the narrow walkway that connected all eight of the towers, facing the wind that blew towards them. Suddenly, Gryffindor's Seeker was racing through the blizzard of snow towards their goal hoops. The Seeker for Ravenclaw seemed to follow Gryffindor's as he literally couldn't see a thing.
The other player's, despite being numbed and frozen to their brooms, concentrated on the Quaffle being passed to one another and score more points. Sileni kept her eye on Sirius rather than the Seeker's as he had already been hit several times by the bludger's during the whole two hours of the game. Despite his confidence and pride, Sirius was keeping his hold on his broom and the bat, looking out for the bludger's. Sileni tore her gaze from him to their Gryffindor Seeker that held up a hand holding the Golden Snitch.
Sileni grinned, Gryffindor won, three hundred and ninety-five points–only forty points above Ravenclaw. She looked back over to Sirius, whom had floated even towards the narrow walkway, breathing quiet heavily. She called out to him, the older teen jerking his head towards her voice. Sileni shook her head and jerked her head towards the castle, ordering him to go to the Hospital Wing as soon as possible. With his famous grin, Sirius saluted her with a bit of wince before flying off towards the ground to do what she ordered.
With a sigh, Sileni started her way down the stairs to get to the castle to meet up with the Prewett twins and Mad-Eye for an undercover assignment she had placed herself on. Without the help of Andi (or maybe Andi did help her out in some way), Sileni had a horrible feeling concerning this mission when they were letting the Order know what they were to do. Since volunteering herself onto going along about a month ago, the three older men have been helping in teaching her stronger defensive and offensive spells to keep her alive for the three hour mission.
To say the least, everyone except Dumbledore had tried to talk her out of the mission. Sileni, however, was firm on going, letting them known of her feeling. Thus, in telling the twins of the only thing she knew about them was their death–and why she asked so many questions (along with others within the Order) about them. The twins, of course, started to joke around about them not being legends anymore because she was trying to save them. When Sileni looked at them, the twins immediately apologized, taking seriously of the situation once again.
Upon reaching the entrance, Sileni nodded to Mad-Eye and the Prewett twins, everyone stopping in their way to their dorms, wondering who these men (especially the hot twins) were and what they were doing in the school. When the teenager was only several feet from them, she turned towards the hallway concerning the unused classroom, the Auror and the twins following right behind.
"Sileni!"
The said girl and the men all stopped in their stride and turned to see Luke coming to a stop a ways from them, looking over the men then to his sister. Both Fabian and Gideon smiled easily at the boy as Mad-Eye was becoming more impatient at wasting time. The three other Marauders'–including a concerned Remus–stepped next to their brother, frowning in curiosity.
"Please be careful." Luke told her.
Sileni nodded as the twins walked on either side of her and placed a hand on her shoulder, nodding their heads at the boy that slightly resembled this girl.
"Don't worry about your sister so much," Gideon started.
Fabian nodded, finishing the sentence after his brother. "We'll make sure that she'll be back in one piece."
As the three other Marauders' started to voice their concern as whispers started to spread through the entrance hall, Luke nodded at them, smiling slightly. Lily, Sarah, and Severus also walked slowly behind the boy, frowning with much confusion.
"Come on, you two trouble makers have said enough!" Mad-Eye growled.
Sileni turned without a backward glance, moving quickly in front of the men. Luke stopped his brother's and best friends from going after her, giving a silent prayer to whoever would listen in bringing back his sister before her due time.
"What the hell is going on, Silvertongue!" Remus demanded, his eyes glowing slightly.
"What did they mean she be back in 'one piece'?" Sirius cried in much concern.
Luke, however, shook his head at them, turning away and walking up the stairs to be alone. But the boy's, along with Lily, Severus, and Sarah, wouldn't let that happen. He ignored them for a while, wanting to get away from eavesdroppers.
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–Unknown–
Sileni stumbled away from Fabian and vomited her dinner. She never liked side-Apparating, and could only wonder why they didn't use a portkey to get to the location they were to help a family of five, the children all magical. Rumor was that they had the blood of Rowena Ravenclaw–which made Sileni think of the coincidence that Gryffindor had played Ravenclaw in Quidditch earlier that day.
Wiping her mouth, Sileni placed up the hood to cover her face, nodding to the three men to start walking in the direction of the safe house the family was suppose to change from. Holding her wand within the long sleeve of the robe, Sileni looked around her carefully, straining to hear anything move about. The group had reached the house without much of anything, making them worry with great fear. It was quiet–too quiet for their liking.
As soon as the twins had made the unusual call to let the five other Auror's inside the home with the family it was them, they started to file out, forming a circle about the family. They all nodded to each other, Sileni not really paying attention as she was looking all around her with a great dread and fear inside her. Then there it was–the one movement she needed to prove that horrible feeling she had since the mention of the mission.
"Get the family out of here!" She whispered furiously at them, slowly pretending to look around as she followed the shadow with her eyes. "They're here and about to make a move."
Before anyone could question what it was she was talking about, Sileni had sent a nonverbal spell to the right, the purple light hitting a heavy object that fell to the ground.
"Get out of here now!" She yelled as more shadow figures came out of hiding and started to attack them.
Mad-Eye, the Prewett twins, and one other witch had stayed back, while the four other Auror's scrambled the scared family to the portkey waiting not too far off. It was all a blur with spells being shouted, all different lights passing only inches from your face or body. It was in all this madness when Sileni was tackled to the ground, her wand just out of her grasp. She cried out at a searing pain across her chest and throat, looking through her tears at the vampire getting ready to strike once more with her hand. Suddenly she was thrown off, dead, next to Sileni, Fabian coming into her line of vision.
Calling for her wand, Sileni quickly sent a spell behind Fabian at the wizard about to send him a spell. He helped her up, looking around them quickly for a quick escape. The teen had pushed him with the little strength she had left, getting hit with a spell aimed for Fabian. The Prewett stared wide eye as she was falling (slowly to his mind) to the ground. He quickly stood, taking her around the waist, and sent a stunning spell at the one whom sent the spell, turning to Sileni with fear and guilt.
"No," he whispered as the girl went limp in his arms, eyes wide open in shock. "No!"
A/N: All right you guys, PLEASE review and give me your thoughts on the story thus far; thanks!