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Dinner with Ashley was amazing. We laughed and talked, and just had a really good time. I was thinking about taking her to the movies but we got a little heated in the car. So we drove home and decided on my place since her mom was home. As we drove through the driveway I saw Alyssa's car parked…oddly. I looked at Ashley and she must have been thinking it was weird too. When I got out of the car I heard screaming coming from inside the house. It sounded bad, and my head whipped around to look at Ashley. She looked nervous and scared, with that look I ran inside of the house. I got through the door the screaming became louder and I realized it was Alyssa screaming, then something shattered. I thought about my puppy and ran upstairs. Ashley was right behind me and I barged into Riley's room. I walked in and saw a crying Riley, a really angry Alyssa and my Romi in a corner scared and shaking…that made me snap.

"What the fuck is going on here! Do you not see a fucking puppy scared shitless in the corner!" I was pissed at seeing my little baby scared and my sister being a lunatic, what was this about. I grabbed Romi and gave her to Ashley, she put her in my room and came back.

Alyssa snickered. She was really raged, and I was furious. "You're supposed to be family…you all are!" She screamed at all of us.

"Lyss, relax…what are you talking about?" Ashley asked. I then realized why she was freaking…she found out.

"How did you find out?" I bluntly said. Why beat around the bush? She knew and she probably wanted answers.

"Who cares how I found out! How could you do this to me Spence? Yes you all were wrong, but YOU are my sister…your blood." That one hit me in the heart pretty hard. It was wrong and I was the worst out of all of us.

"I-I'm sorry Lyss, it was an accident and it shouldn't have happened."

Lyss cut me off before I could say anything else. "Why did it happen? I mean there had to be some type of sexual tension to just fuck my girlfriend!" This was not going well.

"Yeah I guess we all had sexual tension and it just happened, we didn't plan it Lyss, and I promise it won't happen again!" I told her.

"It's not the fact that you won't do it again, it's the fact that you did it. And you hurt me Spence. I thought with Jake being an ass and not having him have my back, you did…but I was just blind to see that you stabbed it." Alyssa said, tears coming from her eyes. She looked at Riley now. "How could you do this to me. I thought you loved me." It came out as a whisper.

"Lyss I do love you. I'm sorry, this wasn't supposed to happen okay?"

"Do you regret it?" My sister said, the tone back in her voice.

"Wh-what?" Riley stuttered.

"You heard me Ri."

Riley didn't speak but just looked at me. Alyssa saw she was looking at me and laughed out loud.

"Oh my god…I get it now!" She said, voice louder. It made me flinch. "You love her." That went towards Riley and my heart dropped. It dropped even more when Riley didn't answer.

"Wait what?" Ashley asked. "You love Spencer as in your in love with her?" Both the girls were looking at her and she just looked scared. I felt bad for her.

She got up. "I think so." She just stared at me and I stood there frozen.

"Wait your kidding!" Ashley began to yell.

"She's not." I finally spoke. I don't even remember thinking about me speaking up. I don't remember wanting to. "I think I knew this. I just didn't want to admit it to myself…because I just wanted it to be how it always is, just us being the best of friends."

"Spencer why didn't you tell me?" Ashley said. I could tell she was hurt by me. I seemed to do that a lot to her. How could I be good for this girl when all I did was hurt her?

"I fucking can't believe this." Alyssa gasped, sitting down on the desk chair. "This is a fucking joke. My girlfriend cheats on me with my sister and friend, then I find out my girlfriend is in love with her bestfriend…which is my sister…whats next?"

I went up to Riley. "Ri, please say your just kidding and look at me with that brilliant smile you always give me when you're kidding. You really don't love me…do you?" Ashley and Alyssa were both saying something but I couldn't hear them, I needed answers and just focused on my bestfriend.

She began crying hysterically. "Look I tried holding in my feelings okay? I tried! I did for awhile and I thought it was just confusion, I love you so much as a friend that I was confused by my feelings, maybe I still am…but after having sex with you I either got more confused…or maybe…or maybe I finally realized I am in love with you."

A million things were spiraling through my head and I didn't have a word to say. I just gave my bestfriend one last look and did what I did best. Run.

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