Disclaimer: Yeah, yeah, yeah, I don't own Twilight. But, I do own Mocked by Destiny. Just playing with other people's toys.

Thanks to Halloweenlover for pre-reading, thanks to busymommy for beta'ing and merci Dazzle for giving it the final once over! Without you guys I would be lost!

The Last Thing I Wanted

Chapter 3

Jasper's POV

After the cryptic call from Carlisle, we rushed home. From Alice's lack of visions, we deduced that he was still with the wolves. When Esme saw our faces, she knew the worst had occurred.

"What happened?" she sneered.

"Bella and I caught Jasper and Edward fucking. Bella ran off. Before we could stop her, she drove off the cliffs of La Push," Alice sighed.

Rose hissed and snarled. If it wasn't for Emmett grabbing her in mid-launch, she would have torn me apart. "How could you do that to her?"

"Jasper, I don't understand?" Esme was shaking her head trying to fathom it.

"I love him and Alice, just as Edward loves me and Bella. Turns out Alice had had the same feelings for Bella." I shrugged.

"Where is he?" Esme worried, I felt the anxiety in her swelling immensely.

"We lost him in Alaska. All I see is white when I look for his future," Alice huffed in frustration.

"We'll find him. Carlisle will make him see he belongs home with us." I'm not sure who Esme was trying to convince. We failed last time he thought he'd lost Bella to death.

"Have you heard from him?" I inquired.

"No, not since he went to the scene of the accident. Does he know what happened?"

"No, Esme. He has no clue. We only had enough time to tell him they fought," Alice explained.

Rose continued to struggle in Emmett's arms as she crumbled, whimpering at the loss of Bella. Esme's eyes filled with unshedable tears. Heaving a heavy sob, Alice spun and buried her face in my chest while she shook. It wasn't all the emotions running ramped in the room that finally cracked my cool exterior. On the contrary, the thought of never seeing Edward again did that all by itself.

A sharp gasp from Alice warned me she was having a vision. "What is it Alice?" I crooned.

"Carlisle's car is still at the scene of the accident. If it stays there, Charlie will come to search him out."

"Fine, I'll go get it and bring it home for him." I needed a few minutes alone, and it was the perfect excuse.

Hanging my head, I released Alice and headed to the last place I wanted to be. If Edward and I had controlled ourselves none of this would have happened. Edward and Bella would be here preparing for their wedding, and the family would've never known what happened. Flying through the trees, I remembered every moment I'd spent with Edward and Bella. I came to a screeching halt; there was no denying the scent of the dogs. Carlisle and Sam had both been here

Surveying the accident scene, I saw my chance to sneak in and grab the car without being noticed. No one noticed me as I strolled up to the Mercedes. Slipping in, I waited until the tow truck was pulling Bella's truck up onto the bed before I turned it on and backed away. Once I was far enough away, I pulled a 180 and headed for the house.

The solace of the car was corrupted by the sounds of the CD Edward had made for Carlisle's 365th birthday. Hearing his magical notes trickling out of the speakers was more than I could stand, and I screamed out.

"Edward! No! I need you." The pain rippled through my chest.

By the time I reached the house, I'd somewhat managed to compose myself. That's when things got crazy. I stepped out to see everyone was in the yard and their confused emotions had me overwhelmed. What the hell was going on?

"Carlisle called. He said thank you for bringing the car home and he'd see us in three days. He didn't explain and asked us not to go looking for him," Alice rattled.

"What the hell? I smelled him with Sam at the scene. Did Sam hurt him?" My anger was getting the better of me, and I knew it.

"We don't know. She can't see his future, so we don't know anything." The anxiety rolling off Emmett was staggering.

Spinning around, I took off towards the trees. I needed to be away from this mess. And, as much as I wanted to be, my feet had other ideas. Before I knew it, I was back in the spot where I'd smelled Sam and Carlisle earlier. Even with the rain slightly falling, I could follow their scents. I slammed on the brakes at the border. Sam had taken him into La Push. Why?

At a speed that would please Edward, I raced back and forth. A vampire's version of pacing, I guess. When you lose so much at one time, something in you breaks. I didn't want my family to see how broken I was. And, as much as I loved Alice, there would be no replacing Edward. Edward wouldn't be able to get past losing Bella, and neither would Alice. I saw the sun set and rise again; still I paced the line hoping to catch Carlisle's scent when he came out.

With each passing minute, I sunk deeper into despair. Remembering every touch, glance and whisper that Edward had made to me dropped me to my knees. Clawing the earth on the boundary line, I growled and snarled, wishing I could bury myself alive and suffer silently.

Two more days passed and still no sign of him. My control to stay off the wolves' territory was slipping. That's when the wind shifted and I smelled it. It was the thing that would right everyone's worlds - Bella. Shaking my head, I sniffed again. It was her scent, but different. The sounds and smells of the Pack chasing her had my feet charging across the line in full protection mode. If it was Bella, I needed to protect her from the Pack until Edward could be found.

My flying feet grazed over the terrain effortlessly. I could hear her charging away, so I followed her closely. I slammed to a stop a few feet from her. Then I understood why I was feeling anger, fear, and confusion rolling off her. Carlisle had changed her. It explained why he was gone for three days. However, why he didn't tell us about her was a mystery.

With her crimson eyes locked on my golden ones, she threw herself against a tree, hissing, snarling, and snapping. "Easy there, Bella? I know you're pissed, but I can explain…"

"It won't help Jasper." Spinning, I looked at Carlisle confused.

"She doesn't seem to remember us or the Pack. She recognized my scent, but not me." He crossed his arms across his chest.

Bella had stopped snapping thanks to the emergence of the wolves. "They were helping me with her change," Carlisle explained, "I didn't tell you about it because we weren't sure if it would work. She was beyond anybody I had ever turned, even worse than Esme and Emmett."

Before I could respond, Bella shot off, headed for the line. She was oozing desperation. She was hunting something. We all scrambled to follow her. I almost had her twice, but she slipped away. Jacob almost had his teeth on her, again she dodged him. It dawned on me where she was going. Turns out I was right.

Bella rammed through the front door, never stopping until she reached the third floor and entered Edward's room. She left behind her a wake of destruction and a lot of confused people. When I stopped at the doorway, she started growling again, only this time she cuddled Edward's pillow to her chest like she was defending what was hers. Sniffing the air, she whimpered. No doubt smelling the same thing I did. His scent was old and mixed with mine.

"Bella, is it really you?" Bella snapped her teeth at Alice.

"Alice, Bella needs a little room. It would seem she doesn't remember anything." Carlisle walked in behind us.

"Then why is she clutching Edward's pillow?"

"Edward?" She cocked her head to the side in question.

"Yes, your fiancé, our brother? Ring any bells?" Emmett laughed.

Her emotions spiked, "No, just his smell," she sneered.

Bella stuck her nose in the air and pulled in a deep breath. Another whimper slipped from her. Her emotions whiplashed again, now she was smothering in angst. She may not remember Edward, but she craved his scent.

I've seen the posture, fear, and uncertainty so many times over the years, but from Bella, it was breaking my heart. She was so lost. It was like looking at a small child who'd lost their parents in a crowd.

"Bella, the Pack wants to know where you're going to be staying. Do you want to go back with the wolves?"

"No!" she snapped, cowering away.

"Do you want to stay here with Edward's scent?" I coaxed and sent a wave of serenity her way.

"It's not pure anymore," she whimpered, crumbling to the floor.

Dropping to my knees, I crawled to her with my head hung submissively, "I'll help you find something purely him."

"I can't remember him. Why not?" She sobbed as I wrapped my arms around her waist.

She clutched onto my shirt, fisting it in her hands, she held on for dear life. Closing my eyes, I reveled in the feel of her body pressed against mine. I would make things right for her, for Edward, and for Alice and myself. Moving one hand to her head, I slipped my fingers into her soft, mahogany hair and crushed her head to my chest.

"I'll protect you, and together, we'll find a way for you to remember him until he comes home. Know this, darlin', we will bring him home."

"Why did he leave?"

Bella peeked over my shoulder when she heard everyone leaving. They knew they would still hear her, but they wanted to give her some privacy.

"Bella, he thought you died. You don't remember this, but some of us have unique qualities. I for one can feel what everyone is feeling in this house, Alice can see our futures, and Edward can read minds. In Alice and Edward's cases when they combine, it can be lethal. Edward saw you die in Alice's vision. He blamed himself because you two fought before you left. The fight was my fault." Her sniffing my neck stopped my speech dead in its tracks.

Lowering her head, she sniffed down my shirt until her nose was directly over my zipper. Rubbing her nose there had me suppressing a groan. That ended quickly when she started growling at my clothed cock.

"He's yours?" her eyes looked up black as night.

"No, he's ours…shit, I don't even know where to begin or how to explain this," taking a deep breath, I continued, "He loves you with all his heart, but he loves me too. I love Alice with all my heart, but I love Edward too. And, Alice love's us all."

Frustrated, I tugged my hair with one hand. Having this conversation with a newborn was probably not a good idea.

"I'm thirsty," she croaked, clutching her throat.

"I'll take you out." I leapt to my feet and extended her a hand hoping she would take it.

For a moment, she didn't seem to know what she wanted to do, but in the end she accepted my hand. Together we walked outside with our hands still intertwined. No one was in the house and their scents all led out to the trees. My guess was they went ahead to cover our territory. The last thing we needed was Bella slipping with possibly someone she knew.

Pulling her into my arms, I directed her attention to my face. "What did they tell you to do?"

Cocking her head to the side, she seemed confused, but shook her head and answered, "Close my eyes, let my nose lead me, and follow my instincts."

"Then do it, I'll be right behind you. I won't take your kill. You don't have to worry about that. Now go!" I slapped her ass hard and she shot off.

I laughed, and darted off behind her. Bella looked incredibly graceful as she rushed through the forest in search of the elixir that would soothe her parched throat. Taking a newborn on a hunt required a certain skill. You needed to be able intersect them at a moment's notice. Otherwise they could devour an entire town in a few short days.

Bella locked her senses on a black bear and within seconds was on the 500 pound fur ball. It never had a chance when Bella wrapped her arms around its center and crushed it. Typical newborn maneuver, but effective nonetheless. Shame Emmett missed this, he would have gotten a kick out of it. Releasing an ear shattering growl she sunk her teeth in and tore open its neck. Keeping my distance, I watched as she savagely attacked the beast. By the time she dropped the carcass her face was covered in the residue. Bella's eyes widened and she searched out something, her nostrils flaring.

I smelled the same thing Bella did, it wasn't good. What the hell were humans doing on our land? Pushing harder I caught up just as she was about to pounce. Before she could move, I had her on the ground, thrashing and snarling. Alice flew up and helped me pin her down. Bella didn't take kindly to us physically restraining her and bit down on my arm. I winced, but didn't move.

The sounds of the family rushing to get them away from the unknown threat surrounded us. Bella released her hold on my arm and started skimming her nose along my throat. I let her continue, anything to keep her distracted, and honestly, it was driving my desire up to new bounds. There was no feeling of jealousy coming from Alice, just love and desire.

In one swift sweep, I pulled Bella from the dirt, and planted her back against a nearby tree. She grunted, but held still. Pulling Alice in closer, my arms kept Bella securely pinned to the tree. At first she tried to wiggle out, and if she'd realized she was stronger than I was, she would have. I knew an introduction was in order.

"Bella, I told you about Alice, and how she loves me, you, and Edward." Bella's head fell back against the tree as she inhaled deeply.

When she licked her lips, I smiled, knowing she smelled our arousal in the air. I put my hand on the small of Alice's back and nudged her to stand flush against Bella's heaving chest.

"Welcome back, Bella," Alice purred, leaning in, she snaked her tongue out and licked the bear's blood off Bella's cheek.

I never envisioned sharing my wife and mate with anyone, but seeing her licking Bella's face had me hardening in my jeans. Damn, I'd never seen anything so beautiful. Slowly, Bella closed her eyes and turned her lips to meet Alice's. I was amazed at the softness in their exchange. Alice moaned into Bella's mouth when Bella parted her lips. Nuzzling Alice's neck, I encouraged her to continue.

Bella's crimson eyes shot open and locked on me. I could feel the lust rolling off of them. I groaned and rubbed my shaft between their connected thighs. A shudder rippled through my body, feeling them encasing me.

An adorable purr rattled out of Bella's chest when I shifted and started nibbling on her neck. Licking her, I started to remove more of the beast's blood from her neck and cheek. Alice lifted her hand to Bella's right breast and gave it a light squeeze. Bella arched her back into Alice's touch.

"We'll never let anything happen to you darlin'. That's what being a family means," I cooed, grasping her other breast in my hand.

"You want me? But, not Edward, he doesn't want me." She was getting scared and confused again.

"Yes, we both want you and Edward wants you more than you will ever know. He wants to spend an eternity with you," Alice gushed.

Dropping her arms to her sides, she reached out and fumbled with the buttons to our jeans. When they didn't cooperate she opted for tearing them open. Alice didn't mind in the least, and in fact, returned the favor of ripping Bella's clear off her firm form.

The sight of seeing her standing before us naked and stunning had me grinding against their legs again. Together, Alice and I leaned down and captured her nipples in our mouths. The simultaneous stimulation had Bella reaching into our hair and tugging us closer. Her peaks pebbled and swelled as we continued our ministrations on them. With my hand now free, I searched out Alice's perky breasts as well. This would be their first time together and I wanted to ensure they both received the greatest benefits of it.

Impatiently Bella sliced Alice's shirt open and sighed at the beauty before her. Alice repaid her by kissing her way back up to Bella's lips and this time when she kissed her, she ramped up the desperation. Bella broke off the kiss with a mewl when Alice ghosted her fingers down her stomach to the tiny curls below.

Guilt shot through me as I thought about how much Edward had wanted to see them, to touch them. My brow furrowed when I remembered the talks about what he needed to do for the honeymoon. He wanted it be a perfect night of firsts for them, and here we were taking what he wanted.

I knew then I had to stop what we were doing. We couldn't do that to him, to them. We needed to find Edward and remind Bella that she belonged to Edward first and foremost. We were secondary and our needs would have to wait. There was no way we would make love to Bella before Edward. He'd been saving that part of himself for her. Never, in the times we were together, did he make love to me. I wouldn't take that from him. I could never be that selfish. Alice gasped and sighed, no doubt seeing what I was going to say.

Bella snapped at the air between us when we dislodged our hands. "Come on, Bella. It's too much too soon," Alice softly cooed.

I took my shirt off and slipped it on Bella buttoning it up. I didn't want her to become upset over being naked when she sees the family. She always embarrassed easily as a human and you can never know how much of that might have followed into this life.

Alice and I each grabbed one of her hands. "Bella, let's go home."

"Home. I have a home."

A/N yeah I need to hear from you…how do you like feral Bella?