Um, first FF... nothing harsh... if you don't like it then well, you can review but try to make it nice.. thanks =)
I did everything for them… only for them… I would sacrifice my life for them but after that, never again would I… I loved them with all my heart… I would always… but they lost one thing that I always had in them… trust…
Chapter 1: Finding Out
RPOV
~Flashback~
I was over-joyed to see Dimitri. I knew I was late so I ran into the gym, only to find it empty, but what caught my eye was a small piece of paper lying on the floor. It had "Rose" written on it. Confused that it would just be there, I opened it. What I read shocked me but most of all, broke my heart.
Dear Rose,
I'm writing this letter to tell you that I've taken up Tasha's offer to be her guardian. She can give me everything I've ever wanted, a family. I will be gone by the time you read this letter. She loves me and I love her.
I continued reading with tears streaming down my face. I thought my heart was already broken enough but what shattered it completely was the six words that I never thought would be true.
I do not love you anymore. Do not contact or look for me.
-Guardian Belikov
I noticed that the paper was a bit damp and the words were smudged but I didn't care at that moment, all I did was run. I ran to Lissa's dorm and knocked.
"Rose?" she asked. I ran into her arms and cried.
"What's wrong Rose?" she asked softly. That's when I told her everything. I even gave her the note to read. When she did, I felt anger, hurt, betrayal and sadness coming from her.
"Liss, it's not that I didn't trust you it's just that we couldn't trust anyone and-"I was cut off by Liss.
"Get out," she said softly. I couldn't believe what I was hearing.
"W-what?" I asked.
"I said get out!" she screamed and pointed at the door.
"Li-"
"Leave Rose!" she yelled at me.
"You're a horrible friend! I can't believe you couldn't tell me that! I never want to see you again!" she yelled but it was like a slap to my face. I was a horrible friend? Without another word, I got up and left. I ran straight to my room and started packing. I just threw random things in. I ran out of my room and straight into someone. I looked up. It was Alberta. Her eyes showed sympathy. I gave a weak smile as she returned one.
"Where to Rose?" she asked softly. I was surprised to hear what she said.
"I don't know," I told her.
"Come on, I know where to. It's my old home back in New York." She said as she led me towards a room. I watched amazed as she did everything.
"There, done." She said.
"How?" I asked. She walked up to me and placed her hands on my shoulders.
"Rose, I know you. I know what Dimitri did and I knew how you would react. I can't stop you just promise me you'll keep in touch." She told me. I nodded. We hugged each other then I was off. It was only two weeks later that I realized I was pregnant and Dimitri was the father. I had called Alberta and she came to visit me. She helped me through the few weeks as she had to return back to the Academy. I was very grateful for having Alberta as she never judged me. She tried to visit me every month during the pregnancy and she was with me when I had my twins. I loved Alberta as my very own mother and I was glad I had her.
~End of Flashback~
17 years later
"Mom! Where are you? Gosh you're so hard to find!"
"In my bedroom!"
I was lying in my bed, just re-thinking about everything that had happened back then. Just thinking about them made my heart ache and tears well up. No. I would not cry for them anymore. Too many tears had been shed for that. I was snapped out of my thoughts as my twins plopped down on the bed and hugged me from both sides. I smiled. I had a boy and a girl. Their names were Alekandr Mason Hathaway and Alexis Lissa-Marie Hathaway and were both 16 years old. When we were smaller Lissa and I promised to name our children after them. Even though I never talked to her anymore, I can't ever forget her. She was my best friend. I never realized it but I had forgiven her a long time ago. Alek looked more like his father. He had his nose, eyes and hair while Alex had my eyes, hair and nose. They both had control, which they obviously got from Dimitri. They were wild but calm. Though if you ever piss anyone of them off, well then you're going to have some mini me's.
"Mom, you do know that we have less than 1 hour to get there?" Alek asked me, snapping me out of my thoughts again.
"Of course Hun. Come on, let's go." I said sitting up. I stood up and glanced at them. "You're telling me to hurry up when you guys aren't even dressed?" I asked them incredulously.
"Look who's talking, mom. You're in your undies which by the way, not a pretty sight." Alex remarked. We laughed as Alek covered his eyes.
"Ok, make sure you have everything ready. The drive is like 10 minutes so we're leaving in a bit." I said, shooing them out. They nodded. I closed the door and went to my dresser. Ok, let's see… what to wear? I looked around my closet for about half an hour when I finally found the perfect thing. It was a dark blue pleated denim mini skirt with a matching layered vest that had a short vest over it. I wore it with my white beaded gem flip flops. I never really liked flip flops but over the years, it has grown on me. I left my hair out in a side part. I decided to change my hair from its normal style. I had changed it to a lighter brown and added some blonde highlights to it. I put on some light pink lip gloss and did my eyes in a Smokey blue color.
"Mom, are you finished?" Alex asked as she came through the door. I smiled. She was just like me, not waiting for an answer.
"Now, Alex. What if I was naked? What would you do?" I asked her, putting my hands on my hips. She sat on the bed.
"Scream, MY EYES!" she said as she did the action. I laughed. Alex was in her faded blue ripped jeans and her black tank top that had 'Born to be Wild!' written on it. Her long dark brown hair had natural blonde highlights that I think that came from Dimitri side, was in a half and half style.
"Alright, let's get Alek then we can head out." I said grabbing my keys and bag from the desk.
"ALEK!" Alex screamed. I flinched at the sound.
"Alexis!" I scolded. She rolled her eyes and headed out. She is so much like me.
"Geez Lexi! Didn't have to shout," Alek said. Alek was in his favorite dark blue jeans with his favorite white tight fitting shirt. I knew it was his favorite because once, he wore the whole outfit for a week. I literally had to run him down to take it off. His hair as well had the blonde highlights but his brown was the color of Dimitri's. Alek had kept his hair long as he liked it like that; it had reminded me a lot of Dimitri though. As I saw my car, I smiled. I had gotten it from Alberta. It was a red Toyota FT-86 vehicle. She was the only one I ever kept touch in. She was like my mom so I couldn't ever forget her. I call her every month and she updates me on what happens at the Academy.
"Of course I did," Alex said as she and Alek went into the car. I sat in the front seat and started the car.
"No," Alek started again.
"Yes,"
"No,"
"Yes,"
"No,"
"Anyone in this car who says 'no' or 'yes' again, I swear will be thrown out of this car." I threatened them. They shut up and sat in silence only glaring at each other. I rolled my eyes. Yup they definitely were my kids.
Behind stage.
"You guys ready?" I asked them.
"Yup," They both said at the same time. I nodded then kissed both of them on their foreheads.
"Good luck," I wished them as they headed for the stage.
"Rose?" I heard someone call. I turned.
"Yeah? Oh hello Mr. Van Alen." I greeted. He was the person who owned New York New York magazine. Nearly everyone read that magazine.
"What can I do for you?" I asked him politely.
"Hello Rose. I was just wondering if you can take some shots of your children for me?" he asked, handing me a camera. I reluctantly took it.
"Of course." I told him. He smiled.
"Thank you Rose. Just give it back at the end of the performance." He stated as he started to leave. I nodded. I walked all the way towards the front row seats. I noticed that the nearly the whole place was filled. I smiled happily as I saw that nearly everyone wanted to listen to my kids.
"Alright everyone! Who's ready to listen to an awesome band?" Connor, the speaker yelled into the microphone. The whole crowd erupted into yells and shouts.
"Okay! Okay! Well, here they are! The one, the only White Noise!" I saw Alek and Alex enter the stage smiling along with Danny, Cameron and Carla.
"How are you guys today?" Alek yelled into the mike.
"Ok well, we're going to sing you guys this new song that I wrote!" Alek said.
"He means US," Alex said back, glaring.
"No I don't," he whispered.
"What was that?" Alex asked.
"And 1, 2, 1, 2, 3, 4!" he said quickly. I chuckled. I noticed some people come sit next to me. I looked and realized that it was Lissa. I quickly looked back.
(Alek) I'm just a step away
I'm just a breath away
Losing my faith today
(Alex) We're falling off the edge today
(Alek) I am just a man
Not superhuman
(Alex) I'm not superhuman
I started taking some pictures of them. Trying very hard not to look at the people sitting next to me.
(Alek) Someone save me from the hate
It's just another war
Just another family torn
(Alex) I'm falling from my faith today
(Alek)Just a step from the edge
Just another day in the world we live
OMG what was she doing here? I tried not to panic. I saw that Christian, Adrian, Dimitri, Tasha and two teenagers with them, who I presumed were Lissa and Christian's children. Hopefully they weren't their children.
(Both) I need a hero to save me now
I need a hero, save me now
I need a hero to save my life
A hero will save me just in time
(Alek)I've gotta fight today
To live another day
Speaking my mind today
(Alex) My voice will be heard today
(Alek) I've gotta make a stand
But I am just a man
(Alex) I'm not superhuman
(Alek) My voice will be heard today
It's just another war
Just another family torn
(Alex) My voice will be heard today
(Alek) It's just another kill
The countdown begins to destroy ourselves
(Both) I need a hero to save me now
I need a hero, save me now
I need a hero to save my life
A hero will save me just in time
I need a hero to save my life
I need a hero, just in time
Save me just in time
Save me just in time
(Alek) Who's gonna fight for what's right?
Who's gonna help us survive?
We're in the fight of our lives
(Alex) And we're not ready to die
(Both) Who's gonna fight for the weak?
Who's gonna make 'em believe?
I've got a hero, I've got a hero
Living in me
I noted that I saw Adrian and Christian were glancing at me a lot. I tried to ignore it.
(Alek) I'm gonna fight for what's right
Today I'm speaking my mind
And if it kills me tonight
(Alex) I will be ready to die
(Both) A hero's not afraid to give his life
A hero's gonna save me just in time
(Both) I need a hero to save me now
I need a hero, save me now
I need a hero to save my life
A hero will save me just in time
(Alex) (I need a hero)
Who's gonna fight for what's right?
Who's gonna help us survive?
(Alek) (I need a hero)
Who's gonna fight for the weak?
Who's gonna make 'em believe?
I've got a hero
(Both) I need a hero
A hero's gonna save me just in time
"Thank you!" Alek said.
"You guys are amazing! Now let's give it up for Danny our main guitar man, Carla our drummer and Cameron our bass guitar player!" The crowd clapped.
"Wow, thanks so much for including me!" Alex said sarcastically. Everyone loved it when they did their little banter.
"Oh really? Your welcome." Alek replied.
"Bastard," Alex told him.
"Bitch," he retorted.
"Ass,"
"Asswipe,"
"Dick."
"SHUTUP!" Everyone screamed. They laughed.
"WE KNOW YOU LOVE US!" They both yelled into the mike at the same time.
"Don't miss us! We'll be back for another song!" Alex concluded. The crowd cheered again as they walked off.
I started looking over the pictures, deleting random ones.
"Hello," I think it was Lissa. CRAP! I looked up.
"Hi," I said politely.
"Are those your kids?" she asked. I sighed with relief. She didn't recognize me.
"Yes, they are." I replied.
"They're really talented." She complimented.
"Thanks," I told her.
"I'm Lissa by the way." She said smiling. I smiled back.
"Nice to meet you, I'm Rose." I told her.
"You too."
"Oh this is my husband Christian, our children, Blake and Amy-Rose and our friends, Adrian, Dimitri and Tasha. She said pointing to each of them. I smiled and said hello to all of them. I didn't dare look Dimitri in the eye… or as a matter of fact, I didn't look any of them in the eye.
"So, how come you guys are here?" I asked them, still curious to why they would be here.
"Oh my children just love your children so we came here for a little vacation." She told me.
"Oh, that's good. How are you-"I started to say but was cut off by someone.
"Mom, mom, mom!" I heard Alek call. I cursed silently under my breath.
"Sorry, excuse me." I told them and got up. Just then I saw Alek running with a book in his hand. He ran and hid behind me, well tried considering that he got his father's height.
"Alek what's wrong?" I asked him.
"A...alex!" he blurted out.
"Wha-"
"Alekandr!" Alex stormed up to me.
"Whoa whoa! Alex what's wrong?" I asked her. She looked over my shoulder and saw guests.
"Он украл мою книгу от меня и в настоящее время получить хороший! Клянусь, Алек, если ты не отдай мне книгу, я буду приходить по ночам и отрубить ваш маленький член!" She threatened in Russian. I heard Dimitri laugh behind me. CRAP! I forgot he was Russian!
"Алекс, язык барышня." I scolded her.
"Но маме он-" she stopped for a moment then ran off. To where? Oh yeah, to follow Alek.
"Ах эти дети делает мою жизнь в сущий ад," I muttered to myself. I turned back to everyone.
"I'm sorry about that." I told them.
"It's alright," Dimitri said.
"Kids will be kids," Tasha stated. Who asked for your opinion? I then saw Alek run onto the stage, book still in his hand. He grabbed the microphone.
"He showered me with kisses and I just lov-" BAM! Alex ran into him, pinning him to the ground. She had her hand around his neck. Everyone was watching intensely.
"Ugh," I said before I ran onto the stage. I saw them there, Alex on top of Alek.
"Алек сволочь! Вы знаете, как я люблю книги!" Alex said.
"Отстань от меня!" Alek tried to say.
"Вы получите два лучше друг от друга, или, клянусь богом, я сделаю вашу жизнь в сущий ад, пока 60!" I threathened. They both looked at me and got up.
"Нам жаль, мама." They both said, turning on their sad puppy look. I pinched my nose. I gave in.
"Alright! Go and sing! Just no more fooling around, you have the entire crowd waiting for you!" I told them sternly. They nodded then hugged me. I went back to the seats near Lissa and them.
"Hey Rose?" I heard someone call.
"Yeah?"
"Can we talk to you in private?" It was Adrian and Christian who asked me.
"Yeah, sure. Follow me." I said and led them behind stage. As soon as I closed the door and turned around, I was in a big hug. I was surprised at first but then hugged back as I knew that they knew who I was. When they pulled back, I saw fresh tears spilling out of them.
"Why Rose?" Christian asked softly.
"Do you really want to know?" I asked them. They both nodded their heads vigorusly. I sighed.
"Have a seat, it'll be a while." I told them as I took a seat in the chair opposite them. They sat and stared at me expectantly.
"Okay, it all started when D-d," I choked on his name but cleared my throat and continued.
"Dimitri brought L-l," Again, I stuttered. "The princess and I back." I told them everything until the night that I left, only leaving out what Lissa told me and about Alberta. Adrian already knew but listened anyway. When I finished, I looked at Christian, and boy was he angry.
"I can't believe my Aunt Tasha would do that!" he exclaimed, throwing his hands up in the air. He then muttered something under his breath that I didn't quite catch but I ignored it.
"It's okay Chris. I…I mean people change their minds every so often and I guess he changed his." I stated as calmly as I could but I slowly felt all the anger build up in me. I saw that Christian had somewhat calmed down as well, but not fully.
"But you and Belikov?" he asked.
"Yeah, but it's like what I said, people make different decisions and his was to go be with Tasha. Besides he said tha… that he," I swallowed the lump that was forming in my throat. "Loves her and she loves him. He wanted a family and she could have given him one." I told him.
"But little Dhampir, I still don't get it." Adrian spoke for the first time since he's been here.
"What don't you get Adrian?" I asked confused.
"Lissa was always sad since you left," Oh really? Didn't seem like it when she told me to get out.
"Whenever we went to ask her what's wrong she would always say 'It's my fault. I should have listened to her. Why didn't I?' and then cries, Rose. You don't know how much she's missed you." Adrian spoke softly. I felt my anger coming out.
"She misses me? She's the one who told me to get out, to leave and that she never wanted to see me again, and now she says that she MISSES ME?" I asked increduously, my anger coming out.
"But Rose, she's so sorry! She never w-" Christian started.
"I don't give a rat's ass that she's sorry!" I all but yelled.
"Rose, you're not getting-" Adrian started again.
"What don't I get? Huh? You don't know what she said to me. She told me that I was a horrible friend. A HORRIBLE FRIEND!" By now, tears were streaming down my face, but I didn't care.
"A horrible friend. I'm not a horrible friend. I devoted my life to her. I would've done anything for her! Anything! Even die. I would risk my life to save her from whatever attacked her. All my life, they come first! I've listened to all her worries and complaints my entire life and helped her because that's what a GOOD friend does! Princess Vasilissa needs this, wants that. But did I ever complain? No." I noticed that I was shouting now.
"So this one time, ONE TIME, I come to her for help, she tells me I'm a horrible friend and doesn't want to see me again?" I shook my head.
"She calls me the horrible friend right? Now if she comes and says she's sorry and expects me to forgive her? Well then she is so wrong! She lost the one thing that I always had in her! No matter what, but this time, she lost it… and that's my trust in her." I told them.
"You need to know that Dimi-" They tried to say but I cut them off.
"Dimitri? Oh wow!" I laughed with no humor. "I loved him with all my heart and life. I would die for him, do anything for him! When I saw that note, I broke. My heart broke and shattered into a million and more pieces. I gave him my heart, my innocense and what did he do? The next day, dump me and tell me he's leaving for Tasha! That's when I swore to myself, I'm never going to love anyone again because all they do is make you love them then eventually, they break you. You don't know how much pain I had to go through, but I wasn't alone. I was thankful that that one person was there for me. No matter what, and I love her, she's like a mom to me." I told them, still crying.
"And I swear if one of them comes to tell me some shit about how they're sorry, well then I'm, well you don't want to know!" I said. They took a step forward and I took one back. I turned towards the door, holding the knob.
"Please, pretend that you didn't see me. I don't want to deal with this drama, especially with my children around." I told them quietly.
"Just one question Rose. Is Dimitri the father?" Adrian asked. I nodded then opened the door. What I saw shocked me. People, as in Dimitri, Tasha, their children and my children, were gathered around Vasilissa. They were trying to snap her back. Apparently she spaced ou- OH NO! SHE WAS IN MY BODY! Tha…That means she just saw everything! Oh crap! I saw Lissa shake her head as she came back to her own body. Her jade green eyes met my brown ones.
"R…Rose?" she asked as tears welled up in her eyes. All eyes turned to me. She walked up slowly as if I wasn't real. She was now close to me. I was glued to the floor. She reached her hand out as if to touch me but I shook my head and stepped back, tears flowing still. Just then Adrian and Christian stepped out. All eyes turned to them except for Dimitri's. I avoided his gaze.
"Mom?" Alek called. I turned and gave a weak smile. I then looked at Alex. Realization dawned on both of their faces.
"Guys, go pack. Now. We're going to leave. Wait for me behind stage" I told them. They hesistated but left after giving me a nod.
"Rose, I-" Lissa tried to say but I put my hand up to stop her.
"No, Liss. I'm sorry, I just can't." I said then ran. Where? I don't know, I just ran. I found a tree somewhere near. I didn't know where but I knew that it was close to the concert because I could have still seen it. I stopped by the tree. My tears were pouring out. All the hurt, pian, anger, betrayal, everything that happened for the last 17 years just came out. I cried and cried. I punched the tree, repeatedly then sank to the floor, placing my head in my hands. I heard footsteps. My head shot up, my hands immediately reaching for my extra stake that I always kept. Even after all these years, I've trained and been ready for whenever anything happened. So far, I've encountered quite a few with Alek and Alex, but I've taught them, so they would be ready. I sighed with relief when I saw that it was only them.
"Guys, you scared me." I told them. They stared at me.
"We scared you? Mom, you scared the living hell out of us!" Alex exclaimed. I chuckled.
"I'm sorry guys," I told them. They both ran and hugged me.
"It's alright mom, we know what happened." Alek told me.
"Well look at this? A happy family moment. How sweet!" I heard a cold, eerie voice say, that surprisingly sounded so familiar… where? I honestly don't know.
Translation:
Он украл мою книгу от меня и в настоящее время получить хороший! Клянусь, Алек, если ты не отдай мне книгу, я буду приходить по ночам и отрубить ваш маленький член:
He stole my book from me and it was now getting good! I swear Alek, if you don't give me back the book, I will come in the night and chop off your small dick!
Алекс, языка барышня: Alex, language young lady.
Но маме он: But mom he
Ах эти дети делает мою жизнь в сущий ад: Oh, these children make my life a living hell
Алек сволочь! Вы знаете, как я люблю книги: Alek, you bastard! You know how I love books
Отстань от меня: Get off me
Вы получите два лучше друг от друга, или, клянусь богом, я сделаю вашу жизнь в сущий ад, пока 60: You two better get off each other or I swear to God I will make your life a living hell until your 60
Нам жаль, мама: We are sorry mommy
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~Pony~