Chocolate414,

Here's chapter four. Tell me what you guys think.

The two women stood stiff as boards, not believing what they were seeing. That pull was stronger than ever and both women could feel it. Blair could see so many emotions on Serena's face. They turned from anger, to happiness, to sadness, to hurt, to regret, and then to something that she couldn't describe. Blair realized that she was probably showing those exact same emotions on her face. She couldn't believe that Serena was here. She was so happy that Serena was here.

Serena couldn't be here. Blair wasn't prepared for this. Her body didn't know how to react. She had to get Serena to leave and then she had to go somewhere that the blond wouldn't be able to find her.

"Serena you have to leave. You're not supposed to be here."

Serena's eyes began to shed tears. She'd waited for this moment and now that moment was here. How dare Blair tell her to leave. All the anger that Serena felt from the morning of her wedding returned in full force. She stepped toward Blair and then began to walk. With each step Serena took toward her, Blair stepped back until finally she hit the wall.

"Serena please you can't….." Blair didn't expect the harsh slap that Serena gave her. But she wasn't surprised by the sting that accompanied it afterward. "Fuck Serena".

"How dare you? How dare you tell me to leave after everything that you've put me through. Do you have any idea what I've gone through since you left? Do you?" Serena was radiating anger and hurt. She couldn't believe Blair said that to her.

Blair was speechless. The sadness in Serena's eyes was more than she could take. She ran into her bedroom to try and get away from Serena but, the blond followed her. Blair wouldn't get away from her this time. Realizing that Serena was following her Blair went into the bathroom and tried to close the door. Serena pushed the door open and pushed Blair unto the bathroom counter. Blair was scared. She didn't know what Serena would do.

In that moment, all of Serena's anger disappeared and all that was left was hurt and sadness.

"How could you leave me like that Blair?" There was no escape. Blair had no choice but to answer her question.

"Serena I'm sorry. I just…." Serena was looking at her earnestly. Hoping to get an answer that would finally put her heart at ease. "I didn't know how to handle it. I didn't know how to handle us."

"So you left." Serena couldn't understand.

"You were getting married the next day Serena." Blair spotted Serena's ring finger and with jealous anger she said "You are married. You're married to fucking Carter Baizen." Blair pushed Serena away from her and walked into the bedroom. "What was I supposed to do?" Serena stood there, blue eyes matched brown, and they both realized they had done things that they shouldn't have that night and that morning.

"You were supposed to stay. You were supposed to stay with me." They both stood there in silence. Just looking at one another.

"I've missed you Blair. I've missed you every single second of every day since you've been gone." Serena walked toward Blair and took the brunette's hands in hers. "Had you stayed, I wouldn't have married Carter." The surprise on Blair's face didn't last long. Serena moved forward and planted a kiss on Blair's lips.

Blair didn't fight it.

Serena pulled Blair toward her and kissed Blair again. This time with more passion. The brunette moved her hands to Serena's neck and felt her body begin to mold into Serena's. After five minutes, Blair finally pushed Serena away.

"Serena you're married. We can't do this." Blair saw the hurt look on Serena's face.

"I shouldn't be married to him B; I'm supposed to be with you. I love you. I realized it that night. I've realized it every night since you've been gone." Serena stepped toward Blair and begins to kiss her neck and then her breasts. She takes off her shirt and begins to nibble on Blair's ear. Blair s stuck in a haze. How could they be arguing one minute and making love the next.

Blair realized that her clothes were coming off at an alarming rate. Serena's clothing was already gone and when Blair felt her body being lightly pushed onto the bed. She finally gave herself fully to the passions that her body had been craving for the past year.

Hours later, Blair awoke with Serena's body lying on top of hers. Blair had to admit, the feel of Serena's body was quite pleasant. Serena's body was positioned between the brunette's legs and Blair didn't want to wake Serena by moving. However, the there was a small issue where the bathroom was involved.

Blair definitely needed to use it.

Blair tried to move without waking the blond but having a nearly six foot blond goddess covering your body, whose position was quite frankly molded into yours, was a pretty hard feat to accomplish.

It was at that moment that Serena awoke. When she spotted the urgent look on Blair's face, she began to feel hurt. That is until she realized what the brunette was looking at.

The bathroom.

Serena smirked until she finally realized her position and gently moved her body so that she was lying on the mattress. She giggled when Blair sprinted into the bathroom.

Five minutes later when Blair came back out, she had a relieved expression and climbed back into bed.

That's when the awkwardness began to creep in the room. What do you say to your best friend that you just had sex with and that you haven't seen in a year? Serena moved her body so that it was cuddling against Blair's and began to nuzzle Blair's neck. That is until her phone rang.

Serena shot forward to get her phone.

Carter's name flashed across the screen and the look she gave Blair said everything.

"We should both get dressed." Blair moved toward her drawers and started putting on clothes. Serena watched as her phone's ringtone continued to wreak havoc on them both.

"Blair I don't regret this. I want you back. I want you back in Manhattan." Blair saw the pleading look on Serena's face.

"For what Serena? You're married and I have a life in Paris. We shouldn't have done what we just did.

"And what was that Blair? I thought we just made love. Apparently you thought we were doing something else." Blair ignored the sting in her heart.

"I'm being realistic Serena. I've missed you. I've missed you as much as you've missed me. Maybe more but this is still the Upper East Side. Even if you leave Carter, the scandal will probably hurt all of our families and for what?" Serena couldn't believe what Blair was saying.

"Fine… Just fine..." Serena put on the rest of her clothes and then she walked toward Blair. "If you weren't scared of taking chances then maybe we wouldn't be in this position Blair. Maybe we'd already be together. Did you think of that? I've waited all this time for you to come home and still you're scared of what could happen between us?"

"You're right I am scared. But I'm not the only one. You didn't have to marry Carter. You could have looked for me. There was only one other place that I could have been Serena. That was Paris. Guess what, I've been there the entire time. You took the easy way out just like I did. Accept I didn't go off and get eloped" Blair began throwing all of her clothes all over her bedroom. Serena stood there speechless. "In Paris, I still receive gossip girl posts. I saw your wedding. It seemed as if you were doing pretty fine without me Serena." Blair slammed her drawer shut and looked at the blond. They were both teary eyed.

"I'm sorry Blair."

"I'm sorry Serena."

If there was ever a way to make a better start. That had to be it.