Chocolate414 here,

I know that I haven't uploaded in a while and I apologize for that. Chapter 5 brings to light some of the issues that face Waldsen if they wish to pursue this relationship. One main issue is Carter. Serena is still married to him.

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Blair is lying in bed with a mass of blond hair covering her chest. Serena's arm is slung over her mid section and the blond is snoring lightly (adorably) into Blair's neck.

Blair has a huge grin on her face. She looks at her watch on the dresser and it reads 9 o'clock. After there argument earlier the two women had a big talk. Serena discussed her marriage to Carter,much to Blair's disgust (Imagining Serena and Carter together made Blair's stomach churn) and Blair discussed her new career (she didn't bring up the fact that she'd been dating almost every hot guy in France).

They were able to talk about a lot of things that reconnected them as best friends but, as lovers, that conversation had yet to be touched. After two full hours of talking and reconnecting they ended up cuddling together on the bed. Serena was nuzzling Blair's neck while Blair wrapped her arms around the tall blond with the thought of never letting her go, Carter could go to hell for all she cared.

One thing lead to another and they found themselves in new territory.

Make up sex. And BOY DID THEY MAKE UP.

They knew each others bodies better than they knew there own and couldn't stop until they found themselves completely exhausted.

That was probably two hours ago and Blair was still on cloud nine. Serena began to stir and Blair shifted a little so that Serena would have enough room to stretch her legs.

"Hey you" Serena kissed Blair lightly on the cheek.

"Hey yourself, you were an animal that last round. I'm surprised that I'm actually awake right now.

Serena began to blush and Blair felt her stomach drop because of how cute Serena was being.

"I'm only as good as the one I'm with." Serena smiled. "The one that I'm in love with."

Something seemed to change after Serena said that last statement. The room seemed a little more quiet than it was a minute ago and Blair laughed a little uncomfortably.

"Blair we haven't talked about our intimate relationship. We've talked about everything as friends but we still have to talk about what happened that night. Hell, we need to talk about what happened two hours ago." Blair began to feel uncomfortable, this was the conversation that she hoped to avoid. At least while she was in New York. She still hadn't told Serena that she would be leaving in a few days. She was pretty sure that the blond would not be happy about that. Not at all.

Blair pulled Serena body closer to hers (if it could get any closer that is) and kissed Serena in the nape of her neck. She still hadn't spoken a word and Serena understood that she would have to be the one to start this conversation.

"Blair that night, I came over to check on you not because you weren't answering my calls but because I began to have these strange feelings for you over the past few months before my wedding." Serena tilted Blair's chin so that the brunette was looking her in the eyes. "I could feel you pulling a way from me and I didn't know why. I know that you were having a lot of issues with Chuck and Nate but I felt like I was losing you." Blair shifted so that her and Serena's foreheads were touching and felt tears begin to build. Serena wiped some of them away with her thumb. "I came over because I was having cold feet and I began to realize that I was jealous of Nate and Chuck. I needed to speak to you but I never thought that you would ever reciprocate my feelings for you when I kissed you. I thought that you would have finally pushed my away."

"I would never do that Serena, even if I didn't have these feelings for you I wouldn't have done that. I was having so much trouble with Chuck because when he cheated on me, I felt like all those years that I'd spent with him were a waste and when I began to date Nate I couldn't stop thinking about you whenever I was with him." Blair didn't want to tell Serena that she finally understood that she'd been in love with her for years, a few days before the wedding.

"Really, Blair?"

"Yeah I..." Serena phone began to buzz interrupting there deep conversation. Serena looked at her phone and saw Carter's name pop up on the screen. She felt a bit of weight get placed on her shoulders. She'd been with Blair all day and in her haste to finally be with the brunette again, she'd completely forgotten about her marriage.

Shit... She cheated on her husband.

Blair watched the changes Serena's face made and understood exactly what was running through the blond's mind. Blair began to put her shield back up and turned away from Serena on the bed.

"You should answer it Serena. Your husband has got to be worried about you." Something in the way that Blair said 'husband' made Serena finally look at Blair. There deep conversation wouldn't finish tonight. Blair was opening herself up to her and her cell phone stopped the progress they were making again.

She should have put her phone on silent.

Serena nodded her head and stepped to the bathroom and closed the door. Blair watched as her lover/best friend walked to her bathroom covered in her bed sheets. Blair scolded herself for momentarily forgetting that Serena was married.

"What the hell is wrong with me? I shouldn't have let this continue." Blair began to put some clothes on and looked outside through her window. It was dark outside. She and Serena had literally made love all afternoon. A smile sprung on Blair's face that suddenly turned into a frown. She'd just slept with someone else's wife. Images of her high school fiasco with Nate and her most recent problem with Chuck made her feel guilty. She helped Serena cheat on her husband. Yes, it was Carter but he still deserved a faithful wife. She knew Carter loved Serena with everything in him. She couldn't be the reason why they broke up.

The guilt would be to much for her.

Serena stepped out of the bathroom to a fully clothed Blair who's face showed nothing short of determination. Serena knew this wasn't good.

"Carter wanted to know where I was, I told him that I was with you and that I'd lost track of time. I said that I wanted to spend the night with my best friend and he said that he was fine with it." Serena gave Blair a nervous look.

"I'm sure if you had told him that you were sleeping with said best friend, he wouldn't have been so happy to agree to let you spend the night." Blair saw that Serena's eyes were begging her not to do what they both knew that she would.

Push her away.

Blair made herself keep her composure. "You're married Serena, some would still say that your still a newly weds. Your one year anniversary will be in a few weeks. We can't do this. We can't trick ourselves into believing that we can finish where we left off. I left because you were getting married and I couldn't handle it." Blair stopped herself, she could feel a fresh wave of emotions trying to make it to the surface. She had to do this. She had to do this for Serena and for her. "And after Cyrus and Eleanor renew there vows I'm going to be leaving again and staying away from New York for good. We shouldn't start something that we can't finish."

Blair held all of her tears at bay. It was dark in the bedroom so Serena couldn't see that Blair's shell was beginning to crack. Serena was silent for a long moment before she said a word.

"I don't believe you. You and I have something that can't be ignored Blair. I don't want Carter. I'm not in love with him. I'm in love with you. I know you feel the same way. I see it in the way that you look at me. The way you touched me when made love. Don't pull away from me Blair." Serena had tears falling from her face and Blair felt like a coward for not running up to Serena and wiping them a way. She felt like a coward for not letting Serena see inside her walls.

She felt like a coward because she was scared.

"I love you Blair." Blair fought the urge to step forward. "Please don't do this."

"I'm sorry Serena. But you have to go home. You have a husband waiting for you that loves you more than anything."

"He doesn't love me as much as you do." Serena knew. She knew that Blair loved her. She had to get through to her.

"He thinks that he does, Serena." Blair wasn't going to deny her love for the blond. "He's your husband, thats all that matters." Blair walked toward the door. She needed some time away from Serena and she thought this would be the perfect opportunity especially since Serena needed to get dressed.

Serena thought otherwise. She sped to the door grabbed Blair by the arm and swung her around. Blair couldn't stop her tears this time. Serena face looked just like hers. Serena kissed her on the lips. Blair tried to fight her but Serena held her wrists. Serena began to kiss Blair's neck murmuring "I love you" and "your mine" and "I wont let you go". Blair couldn't fight it any more and finally let Serena pull her into the blond's waiting arms.

"I won't let you go Blair. We'll find a way to fix this. We have to. I can't lose you again."

"I love you Serena." She does, more than life itself.