I hope this chapter isn't confusing, but it finally gets more serious...so I guess read it and find out!

Chapter 9

"Rivalz, why is your nose bleeding?"

Milly and the others were standing outside the Student Council room all looking at Rivalz.

"U-uh um… I tripped and fell," Rivalz stuttered out.

"Well why don't we get inside and take care of that ok?" Shirley asked going to open the door.

"Wait don't go in there!"

"And why not Rivalz?" Milly asked.

Rivalz stood there trying to come up with a good reason. He was having a hard time with all the mental images that kept popping up of slick muscled bodies rubbing against each other. Blushing brightly he finally stuttered out something about mice and how they should go get an exterminator.

Lelouch watched as Suzaku had a mini temper tantrum. He really didn't understand why Suzaku was so upset, it was only Rivalz. They were lucky in that sense because any of the others would have been much harder to deal with.

"This is just great thanks to you now everyone is going to know about our relationship!" Suzaku said. He was beyond pissed right now and the way Lelouch was sitting there was not helping at all. The urge to shake some sense into him was strong but he would never hurt the boy, he loved him to much.

"I don't know why you're so upset Suzaku, it was only Rivalz," Lelouch replied.

"Are you stupid Lelouch? Do ever think because it really doesn't seem like it, I have no idea how you pulled off being Zero all that time without getting caught," Suzaku said frustrated as he yanked on his clothes. He knew what he said was mean and he felt a pang of guilt but he was angry and needed to take it out on something.

Lelouch stood there shocked he couldn't believe what Suzaku had just said. He slowly grabbed his clothes and slipped into them not talking. The dark haired boy wouldn't look at his lover for fear that the tears would come. He didn't know what to say and was afraid that if he opened his mouth he would start crying.

"If you weren't so self centered and arrogant this wouldn't have happened but no you had to have things your way and make everything difficult. Why can't you act like everyone else and not like some stuck up royal ass!"

Suzaku gasped that was going too far and he knew it, especially when he heard the small sob and running feet. He could hit himself for bringing up Lelouch's background like that, but when he had said it he was still so upset. The brunette sighed and turned around hoping that maybe the dark haired boy hadn't gotten farther than the doors.

However, Lelouch had already made it past the door and was sprinting down the hall, hoping no one would notice he was crying. "Lelouch wait!" Suzaku yelled after him, but to no avail. He couldn't believe the way he had just treated Lelouch. He let his emotions get the better of him, what he said was completely unnecessary. 'Why do I keep bringing up Zero! He feels bad enough as it is! I'm such a fucking idiot!' he thought, angrily scolding himself for what he had done. He couldn't mess this up, not now. Lelouch said how much he loved him so this shouldn't be that hard to fix…right?

"What is he afraid of the mice?" Milly asked giggling a little.

"Huh?" Suzaku looked pretty puzzled at the completely random sounding response from her.

"Uh the mice that are in there, that's why no one could go in. I told them we needed an exterminator," Rivalz explained, giving Suzaku a reassuring look.

Suzaku breathed a sigh of relief. He hadn't exploited them, it actually wasn't as bad as it could be. He mouthed a 'thank you' to Rivalz as he ran off after Lelouch. He ran through what seemed like an endless corridor with Lelouch no where to be found. He couldn't give up, he had to find him.

Lelouch poked his head out of an abandoned classroom to make sure no one was around and Suzaku was already gone. He sighed and fell down the wall to the floor and wiped tears from his face. "I gave all of that up why won't he let it go! Doesn't he know how much I love him?" he yelled through his sniffling into the vacant passage.

He couldn't keep doing this. Maybe Suzaku was right, maybe he was as terrible as he made him sound. He was really getting tired of Suzaku getting mad at him like that, but now it all seemed to come together. He was a burden to Suzaku, acting as a nuisance at every turn. He must just be putting up with him. All he wanted was for Suzaku to be happy, and if that meant leaving him behind then so be it. He just couldn't believe their exceptional moment was ruined once again, like in the beginning when they first got together. Lelouch knew it was all his fault.

Suzaku searched everywhere for Lelouch. He went down each hallway and into every classroom, and when he looked everywhere he checked again. He asked anyone he passed, just trying to find a sign to where he could be hiding.

Eventually he was completely panicking. After looking for Lelouch for hours, he still hadn't found him. It was getting darker out and soon he would have to give up for the day and hope to catch the other boy before school started tomorrow. Why did he have to keep bringing up Lelouch's past like that? He knew that the dark haired boy felt bad for what he had done and yet it seemed like Suzaku just couldn't let that go.

This was not turning out well at all, his relationship was on the line and he didn't even know his boyfriend enough to know where Lelouch would have run off to. Maybe he should try calling him and see if they could work this out.

"Come on pick up, pick u-"

"Hey…"

"Lelouch! Please I re-"

"This is Lelouch I'm busy at the moment so please leave a message and I'll get back to you as soon as possible," the voicemail message pissed Suzaku off.

He threw the phone down and growled. How was he supposed to apologize when Lelouch wouldn't even talk to him? Suzaku sighed, today could have been perfect, it started out ok then became amazing before he opened his mouth and ruined everything. The brunette slowly made his way to his own dorm room, dark thoughts floating through his head. There was no way he was getting any sleep tonight knowing he had potentially destroyed the only relationship he ever wanted and also knowing he had made Lelouch cry.

Sleep never did overcome him, and he spent the night staring at the ceiling wondering how he could fix this. He wasn't surprised when the sun blinded him, he knew he had been lying awake for quite some time.

He silently showered and got himself ready for the next day of school, hoping with all of his heart that he could speak with Lelouch.

To his surprise, Lelouch was not in his usual seat. He thought that maybe he was skipping, but he had stopped skipping classes he had with Suzaku since they started going out. Was he late? Or did he really just not want to see him so badly that he didn't come to school. He really hoped it wasn't the last option, that would force him to succumb to even more depression.

Lelouch had in fact been skipping classes. But he knew he would have to go back to school eventually. It had been three days by the time he thought this through. Right now though it was so much easier to stay curled up in bed and cry on and off throughout the day. He was a burden, an unwanted person, his father had told him that after his mother had died but he hadn't believed it until Suzaku had said those things to him.

Sighing he continued to get ready for class. He didn't want to see Suzaku and unless the other boy was called in for military duty he knew that he would be confronted by the brunette. Looking in the mirror, Lelouch tried to mentally prep himself. He would need to be as emotionless as possible to go through with what he was going to say to Suzaku. He didn't want to bother the other boy anymore than he already, so he was just going to have to end things. There was no point in dragging things out if the attraction wasn't there, at least for one of them.

Kissing Nunnally on the cheek, Lelouch left and headed towards his first class of the day. Maybe after this he could re-join the black knights but he had promised Suzaku that he would stop being Zero, and he wasn't going to break that promise. He had always wondered what the appeal of Refrain was, he could always try that. Now that his heart was broken and he needed some relief he could understand why people used it. To hallucinate over happier times seemed much better then wallowing in one's own misery.

Yay plot! I hope the switch from like sexy to funny to angsty wasn't too confusing or rushed. Although I personally love the beginning of this one X). Well I like the sadness too, but the beginning made me giggle. It's still not over anyway though! So keep reviewing please they make me smile!