Edward's P.O.V. - Introducing Me ;)
I sat in the drivers seat of the car with my hands on the wheel desperately wishing I was in the car in front of us. Emmett sat in the passengers seat obviously irritated that he wasn't aloud to drive.
"Edward stop driving like a girl! This is why you shouldn't drive! You should have over taken half of these cars by now! Just pull over and let me drive. I'll show you how it's done." Emmett said. He really needed to shut up and give me some thinking space right now. Just a few more minutes until we get to Alice's house, Just a few more minutes...
"Come on dude just let me drive!" He was bouncing in his seat now.
"No we're almost there" I said, we were in the forest on the path to Alice's house. It wouldn't be long now. "Besides we can't pull over here, the road's too narrow." He slumped down in his seat and sighed, visibly annoyed. I pulled into the driveway by the house. Alice's car was already there. I hopped out and ran straight for the door. I didn't know why. What was I going to do when I saw her? Have a slow motion hug? No. I didn't know what I'd do, but I just really wanted to see her. Just to see her would be enough.
I was being ridiculous. What had it been? 10 minutes since i saw her last? I missed her already. She had done something to me. I didn't know what but I know I've never been this way before. I wasn't going to let her go tonight without knowing i would see her again, that was for sure.
I looked around the house as I stepped in the door and smiled when I saw them. Bella, Alice and Rosalie were sitting on the big sofa in the living room. Bella seemed uneasy. Nervous even. I walked over and sat down on the chair opposite the sofa. " Hey" I said trying to act as casual as I could. Alice smiled widely. Oh no. What was she going to do now?
"Edward," she moaned. " You shouldn't be sitting on the chair all on your own! You should sit here beside Bella and I'll sit where you are now. I don't mind talking to your friends, in fact I want to. I know you too well already." She winked. From the corner of my eye I saw Bella roll her eyes, so she also knew what Alice was up to. Alice got up and I sat down beside Bella. Trust me I wasn't complaining. In fact maybe later I would thank Alice, but that would only encourage her scheming, so I ruled that option out quickly.
I noticed Bella get edgy when I sat beside her. Nerves? Or maybe just disgust. I never considered the face that she might not like me the way i like her. I felt A gut wrenching pain in my stomach as this very possible idea sunk in. She didn't have to like me back. I watched her as she shifted her legs, bringing them together and then back out again. She was obviously uncomfortable. This could be a good thing or a bad thing but my mind automatically made me think bad. Very bad. She didn't like me. Why would she? I was an all too persistent annoying boy and she was a beautiful strong girl.
I decided I could not just decide she didn't like me though. I could not just give in - I was too persistent for that. I took a deep breath and turned my hand over. This way if she looked she would know what I was asking for. I wasn't being too pushy by taking her hand myself. I was giving her the choice. I was thinking about all the options of what could happen when I felt something warm slip into my hand. I almost leapt for joy. I lifted my head to look at Bella. She looked at me and smiled. It was a cautious smile. Did she really think I didn't like her? I squeezed her hand and smiled so big I was sure my cheek bones would come out of my cheeks. She liked me. I felt like a like a five year old boy on Christmas.
But what did this mean? Where we together. I found myself desperately hoping we were. The thought of having this girl all to myself brought butterflies to my stomach. I noticed Alice smiling as widely as I was. Then her eyes lit up and I found mine did too. I was enjoying her scheming now. It seemed to be working quite well for my part.
"Hey, Rosalie lets show Emmett and Jasper the garden. Bella, Edward has already seen it but you two can just go walking until we're done. It won't be long." Rosalie was lost at Emmett. She clearly had a thing for him.
"Um.. o.k." Bella said. I was still holding her hand and there was no way i was letting it go now. We all walked outside and Rosalie and Alice went in the direction of the garden. Bella went - still holding my hand - towards the clearing facing the house. I went along willingly. We sat down in the middle of it. Holding hands now became awkward in the position we were sitting in. I didn't like this. Bella didn't seem to either which I was instantly pleased about. I felt a sudden confidence come on me. I twisted myself to sit beside Bella and put my arm around her. She didn't pull away or grimace. She just fitted herself into the comfort of my arm and stayed there.
" So..." Bella said, she seemed like she was about to say something. She seemed nervous.
" Yes?" I asked curious now. What was she thinking?
"Are we...?" Her face went red and I instantly knew what she was going to ask. It was the question I wanted to know since after that kiss. The question I'd been hoping the answer would be yes to.
"I don't know." I said speculating. I wanted to still seem like I hadn't lost every fiber of my being. "I'd like to be. But if you don't want to be... " I wanted to say that it would be o.k. But it wouldn't be. I would be heart broken. I could feel the pain already as I even thought of it. I noticed I was looking down. I looked back up and she kissed me. Something the man should do, but in this case the was a bit lost. I was completely lost now. I moved my arm around her neck around her waste and held her tight. I knew that this moment would have to stop but i didn't want it to. So I held on to her with everything I had, trying to create a little world of our own. It wasn't that hard to do. This kiss was better than the last one. Maybe because I knew this wouldn't be the last time. This was her way of telling me she wanted to be with me too. I felt myself rising to cloud nine and waving past it, I was going so much higher than that. The kiss still went on and if i had it my way it would never stop.
Everything that I have ever done up to this point suddenly seemed like nothing. How could it be anything if it was not with her? It was like I had never even been born. After this - whenever this would end - the world would finally know me. My life started here. And everything about the world screamed welcome.