He walked to the car as if there was nothing but air under his feet, his hair thrown loosely in his pockets. We were taking Emmett's car. I wasn't sure but I think we were going to the mall again. It was like deja vu.
I hopped into the car beside Alice, it was that kind of car where the seats in the back face each other, it really didn't help my situation. He sat in the one across from me, although I did notice him trying to take the one by the other window, but Jasper beat him to it. I sat and looked at my palms for the entire journey, twisting my fingers in and out of eachother while vaguely listening to Alice and Jasper discuss the plans for today, well listen to Alice tell Jasper. Apparently it was just going to be another random walk through the grounds outside the mall, everyone was going to split up and meet back at the parking lot. I knew Alice's plan, although today I wasn't so sure if it was only Alice's.
Emmett smoothly pulled into the parking lot and everyone hopped up, that was when the plan became obvious. Before I could even look up from getting out of the car Alice and Emmett were gone, Alice in one direction with Jasper and Emmett in the other with Rosalie. Leaving me and Edward alone in the parking lot. Edward closed the car door turned around and let out a frustrated sigh. He caught on quick. At fist he paced a few steps up to the front of the car and back and then let out a small breath and said "Let's go." He wasn't angry, but he didn't seem happy either. He walked looking down at his feet. I decided I didn't want to spend hours like this. I really wanted to get to know Edward, I wasn't giving up on him, I knew I wanted him.
"So," I said gently. He looked up at me and at first his eyes were soft and almost happy, but then they changed back as he remembered the situation. "Where do you want to go?" I asked looking at him. I wasn't going to lose eye contact until I saw him back to even a small inch of his happy self. It worked, he smiled.
"Why I don't know," He joked. This was good, I was going to try and keep it like this. "Where's your favourite place in this amazingly small town?" He asked with that same crooked smile. I nearly lost focus but quickly snapped back, I liked this joking atmosphere we had. I didn't want my love-struck eyes making things awkward again.
"Um... I don't know really, I never really had a favourite place." I said thinking. I couldn't think of anywhere I had ever desperately wanted to go to or found especially appealing to me. "Do you have a favourite place?" I asked smiling. He thought deeply.
"Probably that fountain from that other night. That was a great place. He said smiling at me. And I couldn't help but agree with him. That was my favourite place. It was the place that I desperately wanted to go to and the only reason I hadn't thought of it before was because the only reason it was special was because he was the one there with me. Without him it was just a place.
"Let's go then." I said smiling. We were nearly at the fountain already when we decided where we were going. As we walked up to the fountain he sat down on the grass and I suddenly felt my arm being pulled and in the next second I was there beside him. I laughed, I had never felt so care free in my life. I didn't feel like I had to worry about anything that I was doing or saying because I knew that somehow he would understand. I sat beside him smiling brightly to myself.
"I love your smile." He said smiling brightly back at me. I laughed again, I had never been so happy. "Why are we just friends?" He asked me getting serious now. He stared at me his eyes smoldering and I knew I couldn't give him a straight answer.
"I just need time," I said trying to make this answer as truthful as possible. I didn't know why I needed to do this anymore. But I knew that later, when common sense kicked in, I would be happy with the time.
"I can wait." He said smiling again. I knew I could believe him. I hoped that this fact would make it easier for me to wait too. Although it didn't seem to be helping at the moment. I sat back on my elbows and watched the wind play in his golden hair. I suddenly remembered something my mom had told me. 'You will know it's love when reality is finally better than your dreams' . I couldn't imagine any dream better than this.
I hadn't noticed he was looking at me until he tapped my leg with his hand. I couldn't help but notice how my skin tingled at his touch. "You're a very deep thinker," he mused, "Every time I see you, you're deep in thought." I smiled slightly. No one had ever noticed that about me before. Alice was normally the one who did all the talking and since I spent most of my time with her it seemed natural for me not to speak. Jacob didn't pay enough attention to care what I was thinking about. But he noticed.
"Yeah I suppose." I said thinking. I tried to take the subject off me. "What do you think about?" I asked, immediately regretting it. I wasn't very good with words. His face turned thoughtful, I sighed in relief to notice he was taking my question seriously and didn't laugh at my terrible attempt of a conversation starter.
"Everything and nothing," He said thinking deeply. "I tend to question things a lot. For example I don't understand how people can look for love, I think that in life love is going to creep on you unsuspectingly and you are never going to completely understand it, so there's no point in trying. I think that life is more about just taking things as they come and doing what feels right in the moment and not what feels right in the perfect picture that people create because everyone has a different picture." He said musing to himself. I stared at him in amazement. His thoughts were everything I wished I could be. He was opening up a whole new world to in the space of a few hours. I felt my self wanting these few hours we had together to never end. I had never been more grateful for one of Alice's plans.