Thank you so much for waiting guys! Sorry for the long wait i'm in a place were internet is hard to reach :/ but I hope this chapter is worth it. :) Thanks to all my reviews.

To my anonymous reviewer: Thank you for the well needed criticism. I do agree that I need help with my spelling and errors that happen to be all around this story. My Beta is the one who goes over it and fixes those little errors but she had stopped beta-ing my chapters after chapter 11 because she needed time off to focus on school work and such but will be returning real soon after school gets out. I do not have time to do it myself because I try my hardest to get these chapters in once a week, but besides my passion for writing I love dance so I'm always buys with my team and practices/chorography so when I'm not writing I'm dancing. But I'll try my best to look over the chapters for errors :)

Disclaimer: I don't won twilight! I wish I did (how doesn't?) but I don't.

Chapter 23 A Night to Remember

Bella's POV

"Bella! Wake up, Esme is making breakfast downstairs." Jacinda said shaking me awake. I open my eyes looking up at the ceiling of Edward's bedroom. Edward. Memories of last night swirled in my head. Him waking me up, the things we talked about, the way I fit perfectly in his arms. The night was almost unreal and amazing if it wasn't for the nightmare I had. It brings back so many unwanted memories and emotions, no one else knows about the rape or the dreams; I was just to scared to tell them… I still am. But something funny happened last night, when I went back to sleep in Edward's arms I didn't dream about the rape. For the first time since it had happened I could sleep peacefully.

"Does Esme even know how to cook?" I asked sitting up and rubbing my eyes.

"Hmmm she said she did when she was a human." I gave her one of those looks that said 'you have got to be kidding me'. "Well its either that or we have to make something." She said defensively.

"Okay, okay." I said laughing. I pulled the covers off and got off the warm comfortable bed.

"Where is everyone else?" And by that I mean where is Edward.

"I think everyone is downstairs but I wouldn't know." I raised an eyebrow in question.

"I'll talk to you about it later." She said looking at the floor. I couldn't say anything because Gale came into the room, without even knocking might I add.

"Hey, we're waiting for you guys down stairs." He looked at Jacinda perplexed at the way she was looking at the floor as if all of life's answers were on it. "Is everything all right?" He said looking between Jacinda and me.

I don't know Gale… what happened at night? I said duplicating his power and sent him a message.

Nothing really. Shortly after you went to sleep everyone fallowed in suit. Except for Jasper he wanted to stay with Alice. His eyebrows push together trying to figure out what could have happened last night. Jasper probably knows, I thought to myself.

Thanks Gale I'll talk to her sometime today. He nodded his head in agreement. I look back at Jacinda staring off into space. It wasn't odd for Jacinda to do that but the look on her face was off. Instead of her mischievous and playful smile it was replaced with a stiff line and secretive eyes.

When Gale walked out of the room I went and sat next to Jacinda on the bed bringing her out of her reverie.

"What's going on Jacinda?" I asked. It took her more then a few minutes to answer but when she did I was more then surprised at what she said.

"Last night I went out and when I came back I heard you toss and turn and mumble some things so I came up to check it out but Edward was already there waking you up. It wasn't the first time I had heard you scream in your sleep, it happens almost every night but I tell myself that if it were a big deal she would tell me because she trusts me but last night I heard you say one thing before Edward came up to your room. You said "get you hands off me". I'm not an idiot Bella why are you having dreams about being raped?" Her green eyes bore into mine accusingly and worst of all… betrayal.

What could I say? I started fidgeting with my fingers keeping my mouth closed.

"I thought we were best friends Bella. I thought we could trust each other and tell each other everything." She got off the bed and walked out of the room, the last thing I heard her say was "I thought wrong."

I wasn't going to go after her. What could I say? But what she said really hurt me. Me and Jacinda could always tell each other everything but this wasn't just anything and I wasn't ready. Will I ever be ready? I contemplated to myself.

After I built enough courage to face Jacinda and the rest I walked out of Edward's bedroom and made my way down the stairs.

Carlisle and Rosalie were in the living talking quietly with Alice still in her "coma phase". We were all getting anxious as to why Alice hadn't woken up yet but we couldn't do anything.

"Hello Bella, how did you sleep?" Carlisle said smiling at me, Rosalie paid no attention to me but even without Jasper's gift I could tell she was annoyed.

"Hello and it was an okay sleep. Where is everyone else?" I asked wondering were Jasper, Emmett and Edward would be.

"They went out hunting."

"Okay, thanks." I walked passed the two and opened the kitchen door.

"Peter, Nina, Gale and Jacinda all sat at the table eating a very colorful salad with strawberry smoothies. Esme was leaning on the counter watching them.

"Good morning Bella. Are you ready for breakfast?" she said with a smile. I smiled and said, "Sure"

Breakfast was uncomfortable to say the least. Jacinda ignored everyone at the table and I tried my best to not look at Jacinda, Gale kept trying to get my attention without everyone else noticing. Nina and Peter tried to get us talking but it never worked and for the majority of the time was spent silent.

After breakfast the boys had come back from hunting. Esme, with the help of me and Nina, cleaned up and she went up stairs to her and Carlisle's study. Carlisle had a shift at the hospital and left quickly; Emmett and Rosalie went upstairs to spend time together in their room. But I didn't see Edward at all.

"Hey Jasper do you know where Edward is?" I asked, he was in the living room next to Alice again holding her hand. I really did feel bad for him, having to suffer watching his mate like this.

"Upstairs in his room, pacing for reasons I don't know about." Jasper said pointing at the ceiling. "But something must be bothering him, there is a lot of frustration and anticipation coming from him."

"Thanks." I said.

I slowly made my way to Edward's room; the door wasn't fully closed and could see from the small crack Edward walking around his room, as Jasper had said. From here I could see Edward saying something but was to fast and quiet for me to catch. I opened the door full out but Edward still didn't notice me. His back was to me so he couldn't see me either.

"Are you alright?" I asked from the doorway. He turned to look at me as if for the first time and he nervously chuckled running his hands through his hair.

"Yeah sorry I've been thinking." He paused before continuing, "Hey, do you want to come on a walk with me?" That question came out of nowhere but there something about the way his eyes pierced mine, waiting for my answer that got me to say, "Yeah sure."

"So where are we going?" I asked for the millionth time since we had left the house.

He laughed while shaking his head. His laugh was so beautiful, almost musical. "I'm surprised you haven't realized it yet." Was all he said.

So I've been here before. I thought to myself over and over. I examine my surroundings very closely trying to figure out when I had come here. It did look familiar.

Off to the distance I heard the soft splashing current of water and that's when I remembered where we were headed. The meadow.

"By that look on your face I figure you know where we are going?" he said with a hint of a smile on his face. He looked so carefree and happy but I could tell that under that smile he was nervous. Nervous for what?

"Yup." I said popping the p at the end.

Jasper's POV

I look down at Alice, so peaceful looking as if she were sleeping. I wish I could figure out what is wrong with her. I feel so helpless; I can't do anything for my wife. She could be in pain for all I know. The realization of this not only worried me more but also brought a whole new wave of anger. Emmett and Edward had taken me out of the house for a while trying to get me to feed and keep my mind off of Alice. I know by brothers mean well but all I want to do is be by Alice's side. I noticed at the hunt that I wasn't the only anxious one. Edward had so many emotions going through him I couldn't even keep up.

"Is everything okay Edward?" I suddenly felt guilty for not paying attention to my family and only concentrating on Alice and myself.

"I'm fine. And you don't need to worry about us, Jasper. I know how worried you are for Alice."

"Yeah Eddie what's on your mind this lovely afternoon?" Me and Edward look at Emmett as if he's lost his mind… which he probably has considering its Emmett.

"Hmmm… fine?" Edward said.

We had moved on to different topics but Edward would stay to himself most of the time.

I look back down at Alice and hold her hand and hope that she wakes up soon. But this is only the beginning of something bigger.

Bella's POV

It is just as I had remembered it. The soft green grass swayed with the breeze, the flowers dotted the ground with color and I could still hear the stream as the water went by rapidly.

"I thought you would like to visit the meadow again." Edward said from behind me. He was so close I could feel him shrug nonchalantly. His hand gently brushed against mine causing the familiar electricity to go between us.

"Thank you, I feel calm here as if it washes away all my frustration and nerves." I said turning around to look at him. Right at that moment the sun moved from behind the clouds and brightened up the meadow. I silently gasped at how beautiful Edward gleamed in the sun, as if diamonds were incrusted into his skin. He reminded me of a Greek god with his messy, but prefect, hair and his soft deep voice.

Edward turned sharply around and ran back to the trees. I was left baffled, what did I say? I thought to myself perplexed.

"Edward?" I said walking slowly to where he had ran.

"I-I'm sorry." He stuttered, I could see him now up in a tree but he wouldn't look at me. "I'm so stupid to have thought…" He ran his hand through his hair stopping abruptly in the middle of his banter. I climbed the tree and sat across from him, searching his face for answers but coming up empty.

"Please tell me what I did wrong." I said quietly.

"You did nothing wrong, Bella. I just…" He stopped and took a deep breath finally looking at me.

"I'm a monster, Bella. You shouldn't talk to me or even look at me. I'm hideous- "

"How can you say that Edward? You're not a monster! I've met real monsters in my life time, but you are not one of them." I said sternly. How could Edward even think this?

Edward took hold of my shoulders and looked me in the eyes before saying so softly, "Then what am I?"

"You're Edward Cullen. Not the monster or the vampire… just Edward." I could get so lost in his golden eyes; I could never lie to him, I could never lie to those eyes.

"I love you Bella." His hands slowly left my shoulders and became fists at his sides. "Since the moment I saw you, I was drawn to you. The more time I spent with you, I wanted more. You were my own drug and I was hooked."

I was completely speechless. I felt like I wasn't in my own body anymore as if I was looking at Edward talking to a girl that looked like me, but wasn't me. But it is you! A voice chimed in my head.

"I knew you wouldn't feel this way. I knew you would never look at a monster like that but… I had to try." He whispered before jumping off the tree and started to run away.

I can't let him get away like that! I thought to myself as I tried to find him from up in the tree.

There was only one way to get to him. By flying. I got up from the tree branch and held on to the trunk for support. I closed my eyes and relaxed my body as much as I could. I could feel the sharp tips of the wings slice through the skin and quickly through my thin blouse I wore. I flexed my wings and looked behind me. It had been a while since I had seen my Black and blue wings. The navy blue tint made beautiful swirls and patterns over the wings and was lined with black around the wings and the tips. I quickly soared through the air making sure I didn't run into any trees. The wind blew back my hair and there was a pain in my stomach at how much I had really missed flying but the pain of loosing Edward was greater. A few minutes later I heard him and I followed him running. I went passed him and dropped to the ground gracefully a few feet away. I heard him coming and I turned just in time for him to run into me with a smack. We both fell to the ground; this reminded me of the last time we had "run into" each other.

Edward stood up and so did I and looked at each other in silence. I could tell Edward was eyeing my wings and suddenly I felt self-conscious.

"Bella- "

I cut him off before he could continue speaking. "No, let me talk first. The moment I saw you, I knew you were different but I don't mean like what you feed on. You were unique and I felt, and still feel, strong emotions for you."

He didn't say anything but he slowly grinned but soon turned out to be a full-blown smile.

He came closer to me still not keeping his eyes off of me. He put his left hand on my waist and his other hand cupped my cheek.

"I love you." He said while slowly leaning in. Our lips were practically touching by the time I said, "I love you too." He gently moved his lips with mine and I put my hands around his neck. His tongue ran along my bottom lip asking for entrance. I gladly opened my mouth to his and our tongues fought for dominance. He tasted like nothing I had ever thought was possible, he was like my own heaven. The electricity He pulled back after who knows how long and looked deep into my eyes.

"I never thought this would ever happen." He said almost as if he were in a daze. I drew back my wings safely inside my skin and he put both his strong arms around me, keeping me to him.

"What got you to tell me how you felt about me now?"

"Because, do you remember when we talked that other night? You said, "You never want to die with regrets or hesitation, say and do everything because you only live once and we don't get second chances." Those words gave me the courage I needed to tell you."

I smiled at him and before I could open my moth to speak…

"Aww isn't that sweet?" A sickening familiar voice said from behind me. I turned in Edward's arms to see Jacob and his pack far at the edge of the meadow. My blood ran cold as I saw them, Jacob had a disgusted look on his face but he wasn't looking at me he was looking at Edward. I slowly pulled away from him.

"What are you doing here?" It took a great amount of effort to keep my voice level but he didn't say anything. Anything at all. He just looked at me with those empty cold eyes… that I have caused.

So… aren't you happy Edward finally got the nerve to tell Bella that he loves her? Please let me know in your review what you think! :) Oh, and the picture of Bella's wings are on my profile!