A/N- Hey guys, Maryah here or aka i Haven't updated in a while, but school's starting next week for me so i had to shop and everything.

Disclaimer- I don't own iCarly. Well, unless Dan Schneider was a black haired 13 year old girl who is in love with Nathan Kress. Then, I would own iCarly.

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What hurts The Most was being so close, and having so much to say, and watching you walk away.

Sam POV

I opened my eyes. I wasn't in a hospital anymore. There were various types of flowers around me and bunches of colors in the sky. I was wearing a long purple Maxi Dress. I looked at my skin, I was a ghostly pale. Where's Carly? Where's Freddie? That's when I remembered, I was dead.

I started to walk through the field of flowers, but as I walked my surroundings changed. It went from flowers everywhere to snow everywhere. What's going on?

"You must be new." I heard a very girly voice say behind me. It reminded me of Carly's.

I quickly turned around. There was girl that looked about 12 years old, she had black hair and was wearing a white maxi dress. Her eyes were all black and she was creepy. There was a little girl that looked about 4 next to her. She had red hair and was wearing a black maxi dress. She was ghostly pale, and even creepier, but something about her felt like a sign to me.

Hi, I'm Constance and this is Holly. The older looking one said.

I thought I was dead? How are they talking to me, unless.

"Were dead too" Constance says in a matter-of-factly way. If i wasn't so concerned with my question i would've given her a royal fizz bin!Wait! How the heck she did hear me!

Oh, did I say that out loud?

"Where am I? I ask while looking around.

Constance smiled and said "Where in the Purgatory."

The what? I asked

The in- bwetween. Holly says.

A/N- Holly was trying to say The In Between and of you saw the movie "The Lovely Bones" you know what she's talking about.

I couldn't help but smile at Holly's voice, she was so cute trying to talk but since she was still little she couldn't pronounce things correctly.

"Were not in Hell or Heaven" Constance said. 'Yet, so were in here, the Purgatory"

"So this is like a waiting room?" I asked.

Yeah, exactly. Constance says.

I'm Sam by the way. I said putting my hand out for her to shake it.

"Wait i can touch you right? My hand won't go through?" I asked.

Constance giggles. "Hi Sam" She says as she shakes my hand, clearly answering my question.

"Connie can we go play now?" Holly asked while she pulled Constance's arm.

"How about you go, I'm going to talk to Sam. "Constance says as convincing as she can.

"Okay,but pwease hurry, i don't want to be alone" Holly says as she runs into the flowers.

"You're from iCarly" Constance says breaking the silence that was becoming awkward.

Um, yeah, how'd you know? I ask her. She looked at me as if i just asked the most retarded question ever.

"I was alive at some point, Sam." She says, stating the obvious."Me and my friends were huge fans."

"Ohhh, well, I'm really glad you liked it." I say. Now that she said it, i didn't realize how much i was going to miss them. "Well now there no more RANDOM DANCING, or the cowboy and idiot farm girl, and no more iCarly in general."

"Sam, you, Carly and Freddie had something only Heaven can make, just because you're dead, doesn't mean you're friendship is too." Constance says while putting a hand or my shoulder.

I cant talk to them, they can't interact with me! I yelled.

"Sam, you three will be reunited someday again. it's okay to miss them, but don't miss them too much, Holly and I learned that the hard way." Constance say.

Who are you to tell me what to do?

" Sam were in the Purgatory not Earth, whatever you think, everyone else can hear." Constance says.

"How come i can't hear what you think?" I ask.

" You could If you tried" She said as she smiled.

You could if you tried. I said in my head mockingly.

So, what happened to you? I asked quickly changing the subject. Constance's smile quickly changed into a horrified expression.

"I'm sorry, I didn't mean to," I said trying to comfort her."You don't have to tell me if you don't too."

" It's okay, it's just that I don't like to be reminded" She says "I died the same way you did, brain death."

I stared at her and then i could feel everything she was feeling. Hurt and Sad. I could hear what she was thinking! She didn't want to talk about this, she REALLY didn't want to.

"My dad, he smashed my head against a wall giving me a brain contusion and then I died two days later in the hospital. She said.

I'm so sorry, Constance. I said as I pulled her into a hug.

"Don't be sorry. Sorry is just a word that people take advantage of, people like me." She says to me.

I glared at her for a second. " Advantage of?"

"Yes. Sorry is taken advantage of everyday. When you say sorry but you don't mean you say sorry because you beat someone at something. The Game sorry! We see everyone else do it, so we do it. Sorry this, Sorry that. NO! Sorry is so much more! To us Sorry means that you wish you could just be left alone and die. it means that you don';t want to move on and forgive.!" Constance yelled.

"What did you mean when you said that you learned that the hard way?

"When i died, i had so many different feelings of hatred towards my dad. He took my life away, and i was still stuck on that. So i cried and cried and cried for years and years and years. I was so lonely and sad that it literally hurt. Then i got tired of feeling sorry for myself, and i decided to move on. It was hard but i forgave my dad, and I decided that I'd rather be with the Lord anyways. And now here i am, waiting."

"Is Holly your sister?" I asked immediately.

No, I found her here alone crying in the meadows, just like how I found you. She said and then she smiled again.

"Why was Holly crying?" I asked.

"For the same reason i was, she was sorry, and she still is" Constance says.

" but she seems so happy." I say

" She's manipulative! She's not happy at all, and i've tried to help her forgive herself and move one but she won't, she can't! " Constance says. " Sam, you don't go into heaven unless you're done being sorry, and is ready to be happy and be with the Lord. Constance says. "Holly died 26 years ago. She's been stuck in the Purgatory for 26 years!." Constance says. "it's been too long, no one can help her"

And Then Constance was gone. I didn't even realize when she walked away, because the words "it's been too long, no one can help her" kept ringing in my ears."it's been too long, no one can help her" over and over again.

NO! " It hasn't been too long, and I'm going to help her!"

Carly POV

I was having a bad dream, I had to have been having a bad dream! AHHHHHHHHHH! I yelled waking myself up. I got out of bed and walked to the bathroom. I looked into the mirror, and said "Sam is dead Carly, Sam is dead Carly". I had to make myself believe it, or I would never get over it. I splashed cold water onto my face and said "I lost my Best Friend", but before I could even think about it, I was once again balling my eyes out. No more iCarly, no more having to buy meat, no more Sam. I walked back to my room and pulled the covers over my head. "I'll be with you again someday, Sam." i say as i fall asleep. "I don't care if i have to die for that to happen"

Melanie POV

I didn't want to wake up ever again. Not only did I make my sister get hit by a car, but I made her get a cerebral contusion, and she died yesterday! I didn't even get to say goodbye. That's not even the worst part. What hurt's the most was is me pretending that I believe that it wasn't me who killed her, but I was. How dare I look like her, No! I quickly got something and threw it at the mirror I was looking in. I picked up a piece of broken glass."

I look like Sam Puckett, but I shouldn't. I was so close to pushing the glass through my cheek but I stopped myself.

I look like Sam Puckett, but i shouldn't.I look like Sam Puckett, but i shouldn't.I look like Sam Puckett, but i shouldn't.

The Next Thing i knew,my hair was black instead of Blonde.

And never knowing, what could've been, and not seeing that loving you, is what I was trying to do.

A/N- Hey Guys! So yeah, this chapter is all done. :) Okay the words in bold are the lyrics to a song called "What Hurts The Most" by The Rascal Flatts, So yeah, this chapter could confuse anyone so if you have questions PM me or just ask me in a review.

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