chapter five

i woke up in a room under a powder blue blanket freezing cold what the hell i never get cold but at the moment i felt like i was in a freak icebox. my stomach was killing me worse then any time of the month cramps and shit. i did not feel anything kicking and it look like my stomach was back to being not thin but back to what i was before i get pregnant with the twins. i look around and see evan a sleep on the couch next to the window. john was on my right holding my right hand with his body in two chairs looking so uncomfortable. then i look to my left and froze and saw cody, ted, and christian. ted had burises on his face but he was holding my hand. i was looking for the iv i was the hardest person to stick in the world and then i touch my neck and they had put one in my neck. i thought great just great after i get the iv out i am going to have burises where they try to start the iv then a burise where they get the iv. i hope my kids were ok at the moment i did not have the heart to wake up anyone not knowing how long they had been there for me or how long they had been a sleep. i felt a thing in my hand and press the button and it was medince to make the pain die down a little bit. i groaned softly this was so much worse then female problem cramps. i was hungry and sore and uncomfortable and worried. all of this was not a good combination for anyone. i heard the door wristle open and look and it was like dawn of the dead no one move or open their eyes or anything. i was looking toward evan and ted and cody and christian and my head slowly move toward the door and stop. this morning was full of surprise it was randy. i could not speak it was like i lost my voice. i thought please let him not be a jackass please let him have ask about our kids even if he hates me they are just innocent children. i snap back to reality when i hear the growl in his voice and i knew he was mad. i thought it is eight in the morning who could he be mad at, i thought guys get morning problems not angry issues. i snap back to reality again when i heard his husky voice asking" what is he doing here." i sigh softly and said" which he, are we talking about evan, john cody, christian or ted or the imagenation one the voices in your head tell you i have" randy look at me with his ice blue eyes i hated when he look at me with thoses eyes. the same eyes he had when he punt someone in the head or rko someone. randy said" ted what is he doing here" i replied" he is here just like everyone else because they care about me and they are worried about me, which is alot more then i can see and say about the father of my children." randy look at me and said" do you really want to have this conversation with these five guys in the room really" i roll my eyes and softly sigh and said" it is dawn of the dead in here they are a sleep for one and for two are you really scared what they are going to do, are kids are in the incu or dead i do not know and you are worried about what they are going to do to you, i thought the big bad legend killer was not scared of anyone." randy growl and replied" i am not scared of anyone ted was ass last night and beat me nearly broke my leg" i look at him and said" i am sorry but you kind of brought it on yourself you knew how the guys were about me" randy growl and replied" ted is married are you sleeping with him to"

the moment he said that i wanted to jump out of bed pain or not i want to kill him. i said "leave now" randy replied" no i am here to check on you like john wanted me to, i am here to see if my kids are ok" i laugh and replied" so they are your kids now wow, L E A V E N O W" the moment i yelled john jump up and look over and notice randy and notice my eyes and sigh softly and replied " you always open your mouth and shovel your foot and make jackass come out" he look over at randy and looks at me and kiss my cheek and said" i am going to go see if the twins are ok and i will tell a nurse you are up" i nod my head as john and randy leave the room

randy look over at john and said" are the twins ok" john waited until the door was closed and said" they were born four months pregnant they are luck to be alive right now, i just do not have the heart to tell her." randy sigh softly running his hand over his hair and said" boys, girls one of each what" john said" one beautiful little girl and one tough little boy, so what happen to you, beside finding out angelica is in the hospital." randy said" ted last night on smackdown beat me up pretty bad" john walks to the incu with randy to let him see the kids and said" angelica is name them after i tell her that everything" randy nod his head and look at the little babies with tubes and wires and he felt his heart cracking. john said" i think she should name the girl miracle since it is a miracle the little girl is still a live or alive at all and the boy name emory or joseph i know twins should have like the same name or something but i think it would be better to make them different". john look at randy and randy said" how about miracle hope and ryan nickolas, john i have to go sam is pregnant as well and i think i should tell her the truth before she finds out from anyone else" randy walks away

meanwhile back in my room the boys were waking up and hugging me. they told me about the kids and part of me was happy that they were ok but the other half was scared that they were born so early that something could happen to them. evan said" so what are you going to name them?" i replied " i do not know yet i watch this i survived show once where this women was pregnant and she suffer through some stuff just to keep and save her baby which later toward the end of the show found out she name her miracle i thought that pretty and i guess if babies are born early it is a miracle if they make it, i think the girl should be miracle rosalie orton" evan smile and said" i like that name it is sweet" ted said" me to um angelica i am sorry i beat up randy last night it was just i was mad, he was at the arena, me and everyone else were here he should have been here with you and the kids, if he cares about alanna he should care about the twins as well" i nod my head and sit up and hug him and replied" i am not mad at you but ted you should let me handle randy, i am going to have to be civial toward him because of our kids but i appreciate what you did". cody replied" it took me, christian, and three security guards to pull him away" i giggle softly and replied" aww come here codebear" i give him a hug and said" thank you as well um can someone please go get me something to eat" christian gets up and said" i will let me guess not hospital food mcdonalds" i nod my head and replied" yes please" christian giggles and smile and said" anything else?" i replied" a chocolate or strawberry milkshake" christan smile and said "ok" he ask ted and cody if they wanted anything and they told him. christian walks out of the room and see john sitting out in the hallway and sits by him and said" i am going to go get food for the princess and evan told her about the twins, so if u are sitting out here because of that you do not have to worry" john sigh and nod his head and said" you know for four months she is going to have to stay here or stay around here because they wont be able to leave for a while i am not sure it is a good idea for her to be left alone because if she lose one of them and no one is around i am afraid we might lose her" christian said" i remember the day you call me an say angelica had cut her self do you remember what we did for like two months straight" john laugh and said" yeah we called her every two hours or after our matches and when one of us was injured we stayed with her" christian said" exactly so i know evan cant stay he is tagteam champion, i can't because in storyline with randy, you can't storyline with champion and cm punk and stuff, so it is either ted or one of your brothers" john nod his head and christian get up to leave.

meanwhile me and the guys were trying to come up with a name for my boy. ted said" how about emmett" i replied" emmett like twilight" cody and evan start laugh and said" dude you watch twilight?" i replied" guys shut up we watch it because a he was off of work the only one off of work near my birthday and b. leave him alone" ted giggles and stuck his tongue out at the guys and said" listen to pricelss princess" i giggle and replied" great use your old theme song on me" ted smile and get up to turn up the heat a little bit because we were all cold. i said "how about ryan matthew orton" ted look at me and said" why matthew" evan looks at me and laugh and said" no do not use matthew, everyone call a matthew mattie that is why i like evan better" i look over at him and giggle and replied" no boys do not have names that mean miracle and i like the name ryan and i like the name matthew" i stop for a moment and grin and cody notice this and siad" i thought randy grin was scary" i playfull pop him in the shoulder and asid" shut up i just thought of something how about kendall ryan matthews orton" ted turns and looks at me and replied "kandall like randall are you nuts" i said" thanks ted i like that name to" i roll my eyes and ted said" the medince they have you on is making you nuts" i replied" look if he is going to dien the kids that is fine but they are his weather he likes it or not" john walks in with a nurse and they ask what i was going to name the kids and i told him. john said" do you want to give them my last name or his" i look at him and said" either one is fine, i have to go potty" i get up slowly and walk toward the bathroom. john knew randy still had to tell sam and he knew sam was well a little pyshco bitchy. john said" both of them last name cena" the nurse type in it the computer and leaves the room and ted look at john and said" why" john replied" sam she is crazy and angelica has enough on her plate with the twins being here four months early, randy not being here or caring and everytime he is near he brings out the evil angry of angelica"

i sat in the bathroom not because i had to go well ok i did but that was not the only reason. i sat there as tear roll down my cheek and fiddle with my cell phone and text him.

" we have to be civil for them, i name the girl miracle and the boy kandall, i know being face to face right now we can't handle it but i do want you in their lives, i can't i don't, you know what it was like me when i was grow up i had my dad but i was always going from my mom house to my dad house back to my mom and i hate being at my mom house because my step dad was a perverted man,i do not want my little girl hate living with me, i am not saying we should be together but at least we should be friends for their sake and for mine, i miss my best friend, i miss the guy that made me feel special, i miss the guy that would lay next to me wrap his arms around me during a thunderstorm and tell me everything is going to be ok, i miss"

i froze as tears roll down my cheek and i whip them away as my hands were literally shaking at this point. i knew i need to finish this i have waited to have enough courage to tell him and i know i need to say it and lay it out on the line.

" i miss the person i am when i am with you, i heard a song by rascal flatt with nathasha bedingfield called easy, i realize that is me and you, i am going to admit it maybe you scared but i am always honest with you the truth is you do not know how hard how it is to make missing you and not wanting to jump in your arms look easy, it crushing me so as hard as this is going to be i am going to make it look easy to everyone else i have to let you go until you know i am the one"

i look and notice it was several texts long but i send it all and whip my face and splash water on my face and look at myself in the mirror. i sigh and come out and notice christian was back with food and the moment everyone see me. it was like everyone get quiet but i did not say anything and just walk over toward the bed and get back under the blankets. christian and the boys and i ate and did not say a word.

meanwhile randy was at the hotel pool with alanna and sam was on the bus and she notice the sound randy get a text message and she read it and decide to delete it. she gets on her computer since she know u could send a text that way through message and make it look like it was from the phone. sam knew it was from me and randy had just told her that he had slept with me a few months ago and had his twins.

sam type his number in the from slot and type my number to the to slot.

"angelica i do not love you or the twins, i felt sorry for you, you and everyone else throw that accident over and over in my face everytime i saw u i saw the accident in my head, i just slept with you to have another notch on my belt it was fun but that is all it was fun nothing else, me and you are not friends, i do not want to have anything to do with the twins or you ever again if you do not leave me alone i will press changes against you" sam hit send and then delete the progarm off the computer and shut the computer down and just lay on the couch of the bus.

meanwhile back with me, cody, evan and john had to go to promos and other things. christian had to go talk to teddy long about supersmackdown which left me and ted alone. ted was picking up the trash and throwing it away as my phone was beeping tell me i had a text message. ted hands me my phone and i press the button and i saw the number and smile. i thought he wants to be civil he wants to be friends again i knew there was still a part of him that care about me" i sigh softly with the smile on my face and ted look at me and said" text from randy" i nod my head and replied" yeah um i text him when i was in the restroom ask if we could be friends not just for our kids sake but for mine as well i miss him you know." ted nod since he knew just like john knew how bad i miss randy. i open the text and read it and my smile disappear since everyone knew i hated pity and that was one thing you could say that would send me over the edge. i read it and my angry just took over and throw the phone and it smack the moment it hit the wall. ted look at me and i just throw the blankets over my head and cuddle in a little ball. ted walk over and picks up the phone and it was only the protector of the phone that broke and ted read the message. he put the phone down and walk over and lays beside me and said" princess hey talk to me" i replied" out of everything he could have ever said, i hate him i am glad they have john last name i hate RANDAL KIETH ORTON" i growl and ted just rub my back softly and my head and i just cried into his chest. he rub my back and i fall back a sleep and he just lay there.

a few hours later evan and john came back and notice ted in my bed watching sportcenter and he looks at them and said" read the message on her phone" john walks over and he knew my code word on my phone and he goes to the message and read it and look at ted and said" has she?" ted nod his head and replied" she was crying for a long time i guess she just fall a sleep i am done, he hurts her to much" evan reads the message and said" why does he do this, he makes her feel love and happy and safe then five months later he takes all that way for what, selfish pride" john shug his shoulders and said" he was here and he saw the twins you guys he look heartbroken there is no way in this world he would have said any of this, come on they were in the same car accident there is no way" ted replied" john who esle would have done it, hello it is randy number" john sigh softly as he run his hands through his hair and sigh.

meanwhile randy just get back from the pool with his daughter and he get her change and put her in the back room since sam left with one of the divas to go eat. randy said" baby girl i have to tell you something, you know how you are going to have a brother or sister soon" alanna nod her head and said" sissy yes bubba eww" randy smile and replied" yeah you have a sissy and bubba now" alanna look at him confused and he smile softly" you will see them and their mommy soon i promise" randy puts his daughter down for her nap and walk over and grab his phone and walks off the bus for a moment and dails my number.

meanwhile the guys left to go get snacks and movies and videogames. they had left the phone by me in case i need to call them or that i remember i wanted something and they would get it for me. i hit the green talk button not really paying attention to the caller i.d. i said" hello" a husky voice replied" hey it is me can we talk, me and" i hang up before he could finish. randy was surprise and thought why did she just hang up on me. randy calls back and i hit the ignore button this time. randy growl softly since it just want straight to voicemail. randy said" hey it is me i do not know why you hang up on me, i told sam and alanna about the twins, i want alanna to meet her half siblings, i was wondering if we could hang out like we use to, i miss my best friend the one that knew me better then anyone and most likely still does know me better then anyone, i have alot of making up to do i know i have not been the greatest guy friend or the greatest guy which is what u desreve a great guy, i will be better i promise just call me back please or text me, i love my angel and i miss her very much" randy hang up feeling tears since i never ignore his calls even when he did stupid things which there is a list about million miles long. my heart was racing the moment phone said you get voice mail. i know i could hit it and hear his voice and i would melt and i would make like crawl back to him and still be in love with him.

i just spin the phone on the table decide weather to listen or delete the message and weather or not i should call him back or not. i text back" you hurt me right now i think i am the one that needs space" i hit send and just look up at the ceiling. randy gets the message and was very confused.