Day 10

I need to know.

So I'm going to ask all the questions I can think of tonight. I want to be able to know. I want to know and I want to understand. I need to understand and I am determined to be selfish and find my way to the person I know is my heart.

I need to know.

Tell me, I am going to listen. Tell me now! I am ready to go home. Tell me why it hurts, tell me why this person makes me feel this way. Tell me why you keep him away from me, tell me what do I have to do to bring him back into my life…Tell me what I got to do to get things back to the way they was…

Chapter 10

Tell Me

Dreams, they never finished the entire story. Thoughts never seemed to finish at just one. There was always something going on, always something to think about and always something to dream and hope for, endless. No matter how you did the math, there was no way to describe what the night before had been. Had it been that he was growing to crazy with all his longing, and that he was never going to see Sasuke…

Was he not allowed to see Sasuke?

If so, tell him what he did! He would do anything to fix it to get things back to the way it was! When he could hold his dear baby brother…it was crazy how he kept thinking about him and his brother as a whole. It was crazy to think that his baby brother was suddenly here, had he ever left him? Itachi would never think he could live a day without having his brother to kiss and spoil every now and then. Hold forever and all those long and lonely nights. It did not matter who was there, who he met, and whom he talked to, without Sasuke, he oddly felt incomplete.

All Itachi could do was think, trying to figure out where his little brother was. He had to be somewhere in the house, somewhere.

During the day, Itachi had not spoken a word.

This worried Obito.

Itachi had not looked anyone in the eye as he went about his daily routine of getting up, school, study, and then just prepared for bed that night. School had not been exciting, seeing the same people over again, Naruto yelling once more, Sakura and Ino berating. Obito, on the other hand, had also been silent but that was not strange for him to be silent. His eyes though, kept themselves trained on Itachi and he would not let his cousin get out of his sight. Itachi had found it annoying, but just ignored it as much as he could.

As Itachi prepared for bed that late evening, Obito came in. Enough was enough, living during the day and having Itachi be so silent was in a way torture for him. Obito could never stand for seeing other so confuse and in pain and he knew that Itachi missed his adoring Sasuke. "Hey" he said. Itachi looked up and then back down as he sat down on his bed, facing away.

"What do you want?"

"Mind if I come in?" Obito shyly asks, unsure in a way at what he is about to do.

Itachi shook his head.

"Itachi" Obito said as he closed the door and walked inside. "How about we make a deal" There was no response so he decided to continue, "I'll tell you where Sasuke really is, but you'll have to wait until his twentieth birthday to actually see him, and get to talk to him" Itachi's back went rigid for a moment. As he seemed to think about it, and he turned to face him Itachi's eyes for the first time held curiosity and interest than from the empty all day long. He had asked permission to do this for Itachi. Obito felt like he needed to ease his cousins longing and his sorrow, if for comfort, at least. He wanted to let him know that Sasuke was close. That Sasuke had always been, and forever will be close to him.

"Really" Itachi asked, hesitating on getting his hopes up and just fall on his face again. To have Sasuke taken away for a third time was not fair "You'll tell me where Sasuke is?" Obito shook his head and Itachi frowned.

"No, I'll show you"

"Oh"

"Come"

"But" Itachi glanced out the window to the waning colors of the day and looked back to his cousin who softly asked.

"Just come" Itachi nodded and left his room following Obito to the other side. "Now we wait" Itachi arched an eyebrow. Clearly confused, and at the same time feeling like this was stupid, and getting him nowhere fast. They were still facing his closed bedroom door; there was nothing new about that! What was Obito up to?

"Why?" he asked, Obito just made a gesture for him to be silent. Itachi nodded, not sure now if he should trust Obito or not. Obito on the other hand knew that as long as Itachi was out here, the transformation of the room would not affect Itachi; he was going to be out here all night. That is why Fugaku had taken Itachi to sleep with him and Mikoto the night before. Once night came, the room could not return to the day one, but it could return to the night one if no light touched the room. It was a complex process, but it seemed darkness followed the light.

But he was not going to tell that to Itachi.

They waited a tedious moment. Then Obito nodded. "Be silent," he said and Itachi arched an eyebrow as they walked back into the room. Obito walked in and opened the curtains, the moonlight streaming inside the pitch darkness of the room. Itachi watched it as it softly led to the bed, where now his younger brother was sleeping restlessly in.

"Sasuke" he said but Obito grabbed his arm and asked him to be silent again and not to run to Sasuke and wake him. Itachi looked at him with confusion. Sasuke was here, and he wanted to be with him, why was he stopping him?

"He's always been here Itachi, he's never left." Obito explained, "Sasuke just lives during the night, compared to you living during the day. But he's not mature yet, although for you Sasuke has been maturing faster than usual, mentally if not in his body"

"What?" Itachi spoke the words in pure disbelief. He glanced back over to his younger brother and his heart ached. How, being so near, and yet not be able to say the words he wanted to say to his brother. To fear the fact that he will never have him. Obito stood there beside him.

"Sasuke will wake up soon, so, you might want to hide"

It was not fair.

Shisui had not heard Sasuke speak so far this night. They walked towards the park, in total silence without even a whisper. It was starting to concern him and he just wanted to hear Sasuke talk again. He was about to say something when Sasuke did speak, and he almost missed it "Hey, Shisui" Sasuke glanced up at his cousin who looked like he was about ready to fall over the fact that he had spoken. This caused Sasuke to smirk.

"What is it Sasuke" he was prepared to talk about Itachi, and that he wanted to see him again. He would deal with it all and answer anything Sasuke had to ask! He would do his best. Although, he had not expected what left Sasuke's lips next, it both shocked him and made him blush.

"Aren't you going to ask Akihime out? It is the wild nights, she'd be more than willing" Sasuke spoke and Shisui sighed. He liked Akihime, and he would love to ask her out, but he felt uncomfortable with Sasuke speaking the way he was. He shook his head.

"You need me more"

"No, I want to be alone. Besides, I have Kimimaro" Sasuke argued back, all he wanted at this moment was for Shisui to leave him alone. He doubted Shisui even knew what it meant to have a part of you be missing. That straining pain in your chest that leaves you gasping and hollow, all because you are alone. So painfully left alone, and you have forgotten. There was pain behind everything; there was pain behind what he dreamed about late at night. He doubted it because otherwise Shisui himself would seek it out!

"That kid can't be good for you," Shisui snapped loudly but Sasuke did not flinch, he just blinked at him. He knew that he was running out of time, but he had to be there for Sasuke. Sasuke, on the other hand was serious about wanting to be alone. He glanced from the corner of his eye to Shisui and then looked forward. There had to be a way to get rid of him, he needed to search…search

For what?

"Date Akihime, you fool" Sasuke said, and walked faster.

"Sasuke!" Shisui called out and followed. Sasuke only sprinted in response. If Shisui was going to play the fool and be stubborn about this, then he would lead him to Akihime and ask him to leave him alone afterwards. Maybe it was a foolish notion, but Sasuke just wanted to be alone, alone like he had always been and felt.

Iruka awoke that night in the arms of a man he had barely met yesterday. They were fully clothed, but there was something warm and rich. Somehow, the night was different, and sleeping the day away had felt so good. Iruka looked at the short brown hair of the man, and the strong jaw. What had been his name…oh yes, Yamato. Moreover, he could also remember his black eyes; they had been what had captivated him the most that night.

Glancing out the window, Iruka knew it was night, and slowly he pulled away from the security that held him around his waist. Why was it so dark outside? What had happened to the day! "Are you worried?" a groggy voice asked beside him.

"What?"

"You look worried"

"Yamato" Iruka felt fire burning at his cheeks. "I…a, about the night before. I didn't mean to just let you cry all my problems to you" Iruka felt so small and shy at that moment. Yamato chuckled and lifted himself up so he could cup Iruka's face.

"I don't mind at all, after all, you are my one" He leaned in, a small kiss placed just above Iruka's lips that sent quick pleasurable shivers up his spine. Iruka even noted how pale Yamato looked when he touched his own darken skin. The sun and the moon seeming to come into one at that night, and at that time, most surely impossible.

"Your one?" Iruka asked.

"My other half" Yamato responded, pulling him closer. Iruka resisted when his ear lobe was taken into a warm mouth.

"Wait! What are you talking about?"

"You don't know"

"No" Iruka cried loudly "I don't know most of the things that go on in life, my parents died when I was just a child. No one but me has cared for me!" He snapped, scrambling out of the bed. He glared, his hair becoming messy from his ponytail and looking like a sexy mess framing his face. "So what do you mean I am your other half! I love Kakashi" the last part came out, as a harsh whisper and even he did not believe the words that parted his lips.

"You can't tell me you don't know"

"Know what?"

"You are eternally mine, to live with me, and be with me" Yamato tilted his head to the side "You have no choice, you've never had a choice in this matter"

"What"

"Iruka, when we are right of age we seek, we find, and just bond. There is not need to claim, no need ot possess, you are already mine, it's a given" Yamato slowly and deliberately stood. "The thing about not having to completely age and yet at the same time having no specific purpose to life, and no real powers. As we live trapped in this hell of earth, it's wonderful I get to share it with someone after being alone for so long"

"Shut up!" Iruka snapped.

"We are all born, and then there is someone born for us. It is magical really, since the beginning, no matter where you were, and you were always mine. No matter whom you ever kissed, or tried to fall in love with, you are and will always be mine" Yamato walked over to Iruka, a smirk on his face.

"I have no idea what you are talking about!" Iruka yelled "How can you believe such an empty notion, I don't even know you how can you claim to love me!" He snapped, "How do you know it will last for the eternity we have to live out"

"It's simple" Yamato said, as he came near Iruka and as he did, Iruka felt something within him tighten and give way to something he had never felt before. Breathless, and yet as if he had so much air, he could breathe! "You are the one that makes me breathe" Iruka's heart pounded. "You complete me"

"How, how, how!" Iruka whispered and swift demand, over and over again. He still did not understand, it was too fast, it was too sudden, and he was a stranger. However, his body begged and weakened under that touch, he felt safe, and his heart sung. Here, stay here, something inside him begged, nowhere else but here.

"Because without you," Yamato hissed, his lips pressed to that curved ear "I would die!" Moreover, he moved fast as he claimed Iruka in a heart chattering kiss. It made Iruka feel like his blood was boiling in his veins, his breath was caught and as those hands roamed over his body, he had no strength to fight what he wanted. What he needed.

He had never felt so alive!

"Is this?" He whispered when he kiss broke "Is this how it feels for Kakashi when he kisses Obito…" Because if it was, it was like an addiction. It was something completely insane.

"I don't know" Yamato answered, "I'm not them, I'm Yamato"

"…Yamato…"

His, he belonged to this man. As Iruka was kissed again and swept off his feet, in the distance his cell phone sounded. The calling number had Karachi's name, but Iruka was too busy to answer. Iruka had finally found where he belonged. In his mind though, he felt like this could not be real, but it certainly felt real as he reached for Yamato and was able to cling to him. Maybe it was a dream, but whatever it was, it felt nice and he never wanted it to end.

"Sasuke Wait!"

Every now and then, I wake up with an empty feeling in my chest and the feeling that something is missing…..though I do not believe I ever even had them to begin with

Sasuke panted, and then came to a halt. He did not know how to escape Shisui and he could barely find his way. Therefore, he stopped, turned and yelled, "Why do you follow me, why don't you search for the one that you love?" He asked. He knew, somehow, he knew, that the only one that could find Akihime was Shisui, so this was something he should not do. He could not force it, not him. He was lost and searching for something of his own.

"Sasuke, how would you know that I love Akihime?"

"I don't know" Sasuke snapped, his eyes looking lost and as if he was about to cry "But you said you felt something from her" Shisui bowed his head and patted Sasuke's head.

"I'll be with her, if we are meant to be, but right now, you need me" Shisui smiled, and Sasuke shook his head. "So what is it Sasuke?"

"No" Sasuke said, a small smile on his lips "I don't need you" he bowed his head. "Can you….can you tell me about him?"

"Huh?"

That warmth, that touch and that feeling that over ran through every never ending. It left me gasping for breath that I was not sure if I was even capable of breathing anymore, it was natural, right.

"About that guy, Itachi" Sasuke looked Shisui in the eye "Can you tell me everything about him! I want to know okay, it's eating me up alive not to know about him anymore!" Shisui stepped back, and then sighed.

"I can't tell you everything, only some things. But Sasuke" Shisui looked serious "you can't be with him until your twentieth birthday" Sasuke stared. There was only a month left to his birthday, four weeks to survive, four weeks to anticipate. And so many numbered days. "Do you understand?" Sasuke could be stubborn, he wanted not to understand and selfishly get his way, but he knew that was not possible.

What is this heavy pain that settles itself at the center of my chest and makes me long, for something I can't reach and I can't curl my fingers around. I don't know…I don't know what it is that I am trying to find and reach for

"I understand" Sasuke said.

"Alright Sasuke" Shisui nodded. There was silence as they started to walk again. "I can tell you this much Sasuke. Itachi is always here, always with you, he's not far, and also, he's your older brother" Sasuke nodded, but Shisui was not sure if Sasuke was listening to his words. But Sasuke was, Itachi, here, his brother…

"Tell me…."

Why do I feel so empty?

Itachi had fallen asleep, but he had woken up just in time to walk into his room to see Sasuke's small sleeping figure. He stared, long and hard and then his hand decided to reach out. He wanted to touch that porcelain soft skin, and he wanted to hold his brother. But as he reached for Sasuke, light penetrated the room, the curtains were suddenly open and sun streamed in and Sasuke and his room had vanished and Itachi was standing there, facing his own room, and empty bed.

His hand still reached out for where Sasuke had once been, and he wished he could have touched him. If just for a moment, but he could not. Not yet…

Why was life so unfair?

Sighing, he prepared for another day of school.

Hey there cool cats! I finally got to up dating this story. I had already a few of you ask me to do so, I hope this chap did not disappoint as we steadily get to the ItaSasu Fluff...I'll try to make the next chapter more humorous, but other than that. Thank you for all who have stuck around this fic! means alot.

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