chapter 15
i decide to rock/pop bands first. i see a song called guardian angel by red jumpsui-t apparatus. i listen to it and smile it was a really good song so i wrote it down wit te other songs that i had written down on a piece of paper. then i heard my cell phone ring and smile since i knew the ringtone and it was ted. i pick up the phone and said" hello teddybear" ted smile and replied " hey randy said i could ask you this so i am going to can i stay with you for a little while i do not want to go to a empty house, can i stay with you?" i said" sure i mean it will be kind of nice to have someone to calm me down even i get mad and sure when are you coming?" i heard a knock at the door and walk over and open it and see ted and said "now"
i laugh and hang up and hug him softly since the last time i saw him was a week or so ago at the twins party. ted said" where is everyone" i replied" jeff and mickie had to go to tna, jessica and ashley and maria had to go to work, the twins are at randy's parents and julian and alanna are at school/day care" ted said" thanks for letting me stay" i nod my head and replied" you do not have to thank me ted i was glad someone called" ted look at me with concern and i knew that i had to tell someone but i was not sure if it was going to be ted that i told. ted said" ok randy told everyone that you have been acting kind of weird since you came back from your moms, what happen? please tell me i am worried about you" i shallow the lump that was forming in my throat and just sat down on the couch and said" the day i found out i was pregnant i saw her and i took the gun out of the hide spot i have" ted look at me and replied" gun? randy has a gun?" i said" no it was gun i had after randy get hit by the car i figure i need a gun to protect my self and my family" ted nod his head and did not say anything else and so i figure i should start again. i said" i go out and i see my nephew in the car and i knew i could not shot her then he most likely had seen a enough and we pull up to a warehouse and i turn to see if he was ok and the next thing i know everything goes black and i woke up what felt like two hours later i found out was more like 12 hours later when i woke up and i was in basement and i was scared and then i heard julian voice and then i saw why he was crying red ants were bitting him, my sister comes down and i told her to let him out, anyways three months later scott my sister boyfriend comes down where i was and tries to rape me and i stab him over and over and push him off, part of me wanted to run and never look back but my nephew was upstairs i had to save him and i go upstairs or up front of the house to go into the house because the basement you had to go out side to go into the basment and out side to go into the house and i did not see him when i walk in the house but my step dad grab me and takes me into the room and ties me up and rapes me over and over about the fifth time he met his cilmax he finish and cut the rope anyways he throw me out side after the pain stop i get up and went to the neighbors and told them to call 911 and the police came and arrest them and i saw them carrying julian out and told them i will take him with me and after we get check out at the hospital i came here" ted just sat there and i could see the angry in his eyes and i said" ted you can't tell anyone ok i will when i am ready" ted nod his head and hug me for the first time in a while it felt like everything was going to be ok. ted wrap his arms around me and rub my back softly and i fall a sleep in his arms.
two hours later i woke up when i heard julian said" aunty wake up" i slowly open my eyes and julian look scared and i sigh softly and slowly sit up and hug him and said" it is ok julian this is my friend ted he is just going to stay with us for a little while" julian went to go play and my friend jessica decide to get mcdonalds for everyone for dinner. for the rest of the night nothing really happen we ate and then we all want to bed. i walk into mine and randy room and laid down next to his stuff animals that he had sent me and just lay there looking at the moon and the stars.
six months later halloween
i was nine months pregnant and due any day now. alanna was dress up as Cinderella and julian was dress up as a blue power ranger and miracle was a lady bug and kendall was a puppy. after me and jessica took them around we decide to take them to see their grandma and grandpa for a little while. it was eight at night so we had four hours of halloween fun just me and her and we could not really do alot since i was pregnant. the baby was kicking like crazy and it was just getting really bad. i was thankful me and randy had decide a name andrie grace orton. the pain was getting so bad i told jessica we had to go to the hospital. we get to the hospital and the doctor just look and make sure the baby was ok and they said that it look like the cord wrap around her neck. i froze since john dad told me that john was born and the cord was wrap his neck three times. i was now really scared i could not lose this little girl so they decide to do a c-section as they were getting me ready for that. my friend jessica was in the hallway calling everyone.
the phone ring and john picks it up and said" hey this is randy phone but this is john speaking happy halloween what can i treat you to?" jessica replied" you are married you can treat me to tell randy that angelica is in the hospital the baby has the cord wrap around her neck and they have to do a c-section i am going to stay with her but you have to get him here somehow some way i do not care how and i do not care what way" john said" yeah we will be there soon he is doing his match right now but afterward we will be there" jessica said" ok here is the hospital oh you know what hospital just make sure you guys get here soon" they both hang up and john who has not prayed in a long time get down and start praying. evan comes in and see john and said" what the world are you doing" john replied" praying angelicas friend just called and she is in the hospital they have to do a c-section so when randy is done with his match we are going" evan said" ok" the match ends and randy wins and evan goes to get him and told him everything that john told him. the boys head to the car and head toward the airport because hunter had a plane waited for them. randy just look out the window and just prayed over and over and so did the other two males.
two hours later
i woke up in alot of pain and jessica in my room and no one else and i felt kind of sad that randy was not there. jessica was a sleep and i did not have the heart to woke her up so i just laid there looking up at the ceiling. i just laid there and then i turn on the tv on the lowest volume but just enough so i could hear
" a mother and a daughter broke out of jail, police say they are very dangerous" i froze and look at the clock it was still halloween and it was my mother birthday and i felt sick to my stomach. she was out and i just had my baby girl and i was weak and sore. i just hope the police catch her this time because i knew that if they didn't she was on her way to where i was to finish what she had started. i felt tears rolling down my cheek as i heard the door move and i felt chills down my spine and slowly turn my head and see randy and john and evan. i smile softly i was very thankful to see those three at the moment. randy see the tears and walks over and hugs me and said" hey what the matter is the baby ok?" i look at him and shug my shoulders and said" i do not know i was in alot of pain and i passed out, randy she is out it was just on the news her and my sister are out" randy said" are you sure it was them" i replied" a mother and daughter broke out of jail how many mothers and daughters do you know that are in jail" randy just look at me and hugs me and said" everything will be ok, i promise now i am going to see if our daughter is ok i will be right back" john and evan hug me and they just sat down and they wake up jessica. a little while later randy comes back and said" she is ok they just run some tests on her just to make sure she is health and everything" i nod my head softly and randy walk over and climbs in bed beside him and hugs me. i felt so good to be in his arms and i felt something with my hand and it was like coth feeling like a bandage. i was confused and said" baby" he look at me and replied" oh yeah don't worry it is nothing bad here" he gets up and took off his shirt and i saw our kids initials and smile when i see mine and his initials with the words family always and forever under it. i smile and run my hand over the tattoo and kiss him softly and said" that is so sweet" a few hours later a nurse brings andrie in the room and i held her and smile softly. john and evan and randy were around me so jessica took a picture of me and my daughter and the guys around us. then she took one of just me, randy and the baby and then one of just randy and the baby. the guys head back to mine and randy place with jessica to get some sleep since it was now monday morning or early monday morning and evan and john had to be at raw that night. the nurse came to get andrie and then me and randy go to sleep ok randy want to sleep but me not so much finding out that my mom get out of jail was seriously freaking me out to no end. i hope they catch my mom and my sister because if not i was scared what they would be planning.
eight hours later my cell phone rings and i grab it and press talk and said" hello" julain voice replied" aunty, they are out what if they come here? what if they come get me? what if they come and hurt both of us? what are we going to do?" he did not give me a moment to answer at least one question and i did not really know how to answer any of them, because i was scared of the same things that he was and for the same reasons that he was. i said" listen to me buddy no one is going to get you guys ok, you guys are not going to school or day care to day or any day until they are caught or we come up with another plan but i promise you, you are safe i took you away from them to protect you and keep you safe and that is what i am going to do now listen to me, if you go out side go in the backyard, do not go in the front if you see them either one i want you to tell adult ok" julian replied" ok i promise where are you at?" i said" i am at the hospital i had your nirece last night but i will be out either later today or tomorrw ok" julian replied "ok i love you" i said" i love you to buddy" he hangs up and i hang up and just lay there looking up at the ceiling not wanting to go back to sleep because thanks to them being out the nightmares were back. i heard the husky voice whispering" good morning my angel" i smile and replied" good morning baby" he said" who was on the phone" i replied" julian he was really scared about them being out, randy i am scared about them being out because if they are out and my step dad is out with them, they are going to come looking for me and julian" randy gentle turns my head so i was looking at him and said" angel i will protect you, ok they wont hurt you or our kids i wont let that happen i wont lose you again" i just nod my head and rest my head on his shoulder and he rubs my back softly.
three days later me and andrie get to go home. i put her down since she was a sleep. randy put the twins to bed and puts a movie in for julian and alanna and we meet in our room after he turn on the security system. he walks behind me and wraps his arms around my waist i was still a little sore from the c-section and he kiss my cheek and said" i am here but i have to go tomorrow and i am scared to leave you alone" i turn around and kiss him softly and said" everything will be ok, mickie and jeff will be here after the preview sunday and they are here until wednesday night and then i was thinking me and the kids could go to my dad house a while my step mom is there and my step mom knows alot of police and she can help me with the kids" randy nod his head and said" i like that idea baby beside it will be a good way for alanna and me to get to know your family a little bit and a little more" i nod my head and just relax my back into his chest as we stood there looking out the window. after the movie we told julian and alanna it was bedtime. they both brush their teeth and then they want to bed. randy smile and grabs my hand and i thought we were going to bed but he walks us downstairs and turns on a playlist from his i=pod and wrap his arms around me. i put my head on his shoulder and music start playing. he smile and said" i know not the most romantic but i want just to hold you and i know you sleeping is not the best idea because of the nightmares so this is to take your mind off of all that stuff" i smile and replied" how did i get so luck to have such amazing sweet nice guy" randy said" i am not sure baby i am not sure how know luck i am to have such amazing girl who could do so much better" i smile as we just sway to the music and did not say anything else just enjoy the moment.
the next day randy had to leave and he really did not want to and part of me did not blame him. but the other part was kind of e angry at my mother that she had scared randy this much that he did not feel great leaving me alone with five kids. so i told randy when jeff and mickie came we were going to pack and put some stuff it storage and rest was going to come with us just until my mother and sister was caught. we were not selling the house and we would move back as soon as they caught my mother and sister. he kiss andrie forehead and then he kiss the twins who was kind of hard to get a hold of since kendall had start walking it was not really walking anymore it was more like run on his tiptoes. he give julian a hug and alanna a hug and a kiss. he walk back over toward me and kiss me softly and said" i will call you when the plane lands and everything i love you" i replied" i love you to" he left and when he left i feed the kids breakfast. after i change miracle and kendall and andrie. i put a movie in julian room for alanna and julian and then i put a movie on in the living room for the twins. i turn on baby monitiors all over the house and decide to do some washing clothes and everyone thought i was weird that i did not want a clean lady in the house. i told them that it was scary for me to have a stranger in my house when my mother was so crazy and i just felt more comfortable doing things on my own. after doing one load and put another load in the dry and folding a load. i heard feet and a gate shaking and giggle softly and said" miracle hope orton hold on i am coming" i walk back upstairs and see her standing there shaking her cup which means her cup was empty. i full up her cup and hand it back to her and a little while later kendall walks over and does the same thing and i fill it up and hand it back to them. they had not spoke a word yet and i was really ready for them to. i decide to do the dishes and put them away and everything. i feed the dogs and put water in their bowls. i walk back into the house and smile seeing the kids dancing around to the wiggles. i decide to pack while the kids were watching tv. i decide to do the twins room first and i did not pack everything just some clothes for hte moment and i put them up so they would not end up on the floor. julian did not really have much with him at this house yet so that would not be hard to pack.
after i was doing all the running around the house almost like a chicken with head cut off. i sat down in andrie's bed room and sat down in the rocking chair and she start crying and i gentle pick her up and gentle rub her back and change her diaper again. i put her back in the crib when she goes back to sleep and i go back downstairs and it was noon so i decide it was lunch time so i told julian and alanna and i made them mac and cheese and hot dogs.
after they ate i decide to put the twins down for their naps and i let julian go downstairs to play video games and let alanna stay in the living room to watch a movie since she wanted to watch Cinderella. then the phone rings and i pick it up and notice the caller i.d and it was randy phone number. i smile and pick it up and said" hey" me and him talk for a few mins until he had to go to the gym. after we hang up i heard a knock at the door and look out the window and see jeff and mickie so i let them in. mickie said"where is the sweet little andrie" i replied" upstairs a sleep just like kendall and miracle i think i mean kendall and miracle are watching tv for quiet time and maybe they will go to sleep, julian is downstairs in the game room and alanna is in the living room" jeff look at me and said" game room where" i giggle and pointed toward it and jeff left to go to the game room. mickie and i roll our eyes and laugh and said" boys and their games" jeff was walking out of the room and replied" girls and your shopping" i giggle softly and i look back at mickie and said" i thought sunday was when you guys were coming" mickie said" it is we just stop by for the night, hey tna is always in orlando and stuff you should come get away vacation" i look at her and replied" vacation i just had a daughter three days ago, i have one six year old julian, the twins and little alanna my mom is out of jail i am not sure a vacation is the best thing at the moment" mickie nod her head and said" good point but when andrie is a little older i mean it will be good for the kids to go to disney world and have fun and be kids" i nod my head since i totally without a doubt in my mind agree with mickie about the kids needing to have fun and be kids. then i hear little andrie and miracle crying and me and mickie head upstairs. i get miracle first because kendall has been fussy lately so i did not want him to wake up if he was not ready to wake up. i change her and hand her to mickie as i go get andrie and pick her up and we walk back downstairs and i andrie in her baby swing on low and mickie puts miracle in the play pen and has it face the movie that alanna was watching. i walk over and peek in on julian and jeff who were playing wrestling of course. i roll my eyes and head back to the kitchen. mickie see the list of songs i had writing down and said" have you pick one yet" i shook my head and replied" no i just dealing with me being pregnant then having the baby and then finding out my mom is out of jail i just have had alot of other things on my mind" mickie nod her head as she just look over the songs. mickie said" so what are you and randy doing for thanksgiving" i replied "going to my dad house then i do not know what else but we are moving down to my dad at the moment so that is why when you guys come back we are leaving" mickie nod her head and said" why are you moving" i replied " my mom know randy house, my mom knows my dad house but my step mom knows the police really well so my mom wont be able to get to me or the kids" mickie nod her head and said" ok so no on the song what about dresses?" i look at her and replied" i mean i know what i want i just have not tried anything on yet" mickie said" are both girls going to be flower girls" i look at her and replied" alanna yes, miracle i am not really sure at the moment maybe but i am not sure and i know their dresses are going to be like light blue or a light pink color and julian is the ring boy" mickie said" what about little kendall" i replied" i do not know we are kind of afraid he might try to eat them and i do not know" mickie sits down and start writing names down and what each person would be doing. i just filled up cup with a lid for little alanna and a sip cup for miracle. i walk back and i see her list and laugh softly and said" ok you and jeff, maria and ted, ashley and matt, john and liz, whitney and cody, nathan and jessica, i do not see whitney walking with cody i am sorry but oh well, i like the flowers girls and julian the ring boy and kendall and miracle walk back and julian and alanna walk back aww mickie i love it" two hours later they had to leave and that means i was alone once again.
a month later thanksgiving
we had finish moving into my step mom house a week ago. all the kids include my nirece bailey who is five, my nirece ashton who is five, my nirece kate who is five and no they are not triples they were just born three months apart, ella who is two years old and my nephew andy who is eight, brayden who is three and brodie who is one all want to the play room that my step mom had made for my nireces and nephews when they came over. andrie was upstairs a sleep in the play pen crib thing. randy was on his way down to my dad house and my dad was watching tv and everyone else was cooking or they were putting tables together. i decide to watch tv with my dad since i was really not that good in the kitchen and i did not really want to be in the way. i see my step mom mom with my step mom brother and his wife walking into the house. i realize they had not meet miracle or any of my kids include julian and alanna actually most of the family that was here or that was coming have not meet them yet or randy. my dad said" when are you getting married" i replied" as soon as they catch mom i do not want her to ruin this and i have a feeling that she is up to something and i just i want my fairytale wedding i want it to be prefect and i know things cant be prefect but i am wanting them to kind of be at least somewhat prefect you know" he nod his head softly as he gets up to help my step mom mom into the house and want to go make his famous shrimp dip. i get up to get my kids and start the introduce them to people. my step mom mom kept saying the children names wrong so julian and alanna want to go back to play with bailey. but i put brody and kendall and miracle in the living room. because i was tired of hearing bailey whining because the littles one were not listening to her. i walk upstairs and see andria was still a sleep. my step brother walks upstairs and said" hey where is my new little nirece" i giggle softly and pick and replied" over there a sleep" my step brother josh(looks like brad pitt it is scary) walks over there and picks her gently and said" wow she has hair like thick" i nod my head and replied" i know just like mine poor girl" josh laughs softly and just held the baby girl. josh said" five kids and you are only 23 years old are you nuts?" i replied" julian is not mine he is my sister you know the little red hair that use to be here all the time that is her son i took him in because she was a horrible mother to him, alanna is randy's daughter her mother died and i fall in love with that little girl the moment i saw her and the twins and that little one you are holding now are mine, i am not crazy i just love my family" he did not say anything for a moment and said" i am sorry if i made you mad it just most people your age do not have kids and are not getting married and if they are getting married it because they are pregnant" i did not say anything and gentle take andrie from him and replied" i love randy i have for almost five years, for two year it nearly killed me seeing him happy with sam, she hated me so much after that accident then when i found out i was pregnant with the twins she literally tried to ruin my friendship with randy, do not act like you know what normal people because you don't"
a few hours later it is dinner time and randy show up and i was so happy to see him. me and randy sat with the kids since there was not enough room for everyone at the tables and i just offer us to sit with the kids. because i knew the kids miss him just like i did. alanna looks at andrie and giggle softly and said" daddy she looks like you" randy replied" does she?" he look at me and i nod my head and replied" yes she does the eyes and the nose" randy smile and said" she is going to be a cute kid we are going to have to hit boys with sticks" i giggle softly and replied " aww protective daddy"