so... im actually kinda done with this Fanfiction place. because fanfictions just, dont work for me. i never really liked using characters that already exist as my own. i never really liked using people who exist as characters and making them do things they would never ever really do. im moving on from fanfics but i didn't want to just leave u all hanging. i wanted to tell you all some how and all those who stumble upon all this bad work. so i do it with a very very late chapter of GAP. this is good bye for ! but dont think ima just stop writing no, infact u may find me and some of these stories again somewhere else on the interwebz (the stories will have original characters by the way, that was how imagined them) . if u do find my work hit me up with a message! say hello! see if its really me and not someone copying my work and making it their own (its happend before)! I do know for sure that GAP i will be remaking and continuing with original characters. Trix possibly, and CRAVE i defiantly want to see that one. i have many many new and other ideas i want to write as well, all with origonal characters. so thank you! thank you for reading and finding me on fanfiction . net! i hope u enjoy this chapter because its gunna be the last on i ever do on this site.

NOTE: if u find any strange names that arent the names of the characters i had in first chapter that is an error on my part i wrote this with origonal chracters then went in and switchd with jrockers so... i may of missed afew.

GAP

There was an obvious swimming in my head, it was difficult to get any kind of focus. Where am I? My eyes, they don't feel as though they are attached to the rest of my body or my mind. Though I'm not scared, far from it in fact. I'm just tired… Real tired. Only with the cry of a ring stirring from the base of my skull as though someone gave a strong strum to my spinal cord as like a cello. The ringing grew and I was thinking of answering the phone, what phone I don't know but the phone that sprung to mind was the phone at home, sitting on the granite counter next to the porch glass door. I saw it as though I were right before it, my hand even twitched to grab for it. But that ringing, it was getting worse, and by now I would have answered the phone and frustratingly picked it up. I was only envisioning the phone, there really was no phone, and the voices I was hearing wasn't from me answering the phone either…

"…. - up… WAKE! K- -… no. NO… out… GET OUT! GETOUTGETOUT!"

"HURRY! HURRY UP!"

"—OUT!"

"Fucking shit! Something's out there!"

"NO! WAIT!"

"CHAI!"

There's the light, I see it now. Or no, not light, not really, but my eyes are working again, and with the slow opening of my eyes I start to grow aware of the rest of my body. My nose I can't smell anything but rain, wet asphalt, it dries my throat and I try to swallow even though my tongue feels like dough trying to rise in the closed space of my mouth, choking me. This steel colored haze shining in through the broken window of the elevator plays as the backdrop to a shadow. This shadow grows more detailed in the split seconds it moves closer to me, it all moving so slow in my brain. The shadow begins to peel away as my vision clears and from it a face emerges, a face I'm slowly familiarizing myself with. Its Reita, his voice is fighting over the ringing of my imaginary phone. That black shadow merging to collect over his head and surround him in a halo with the blue hue light coming off the stone around us. Suddenly I'm aware of my breathing, how my chest is heaving in exaggerated expanding motions, deflate, expand, deflate, and expand. I'm aware that my nose is running and I'm embarrassed because Reita is looking right at me yet the urgency in his eyes makes me wonder if he notices. With the ringing in my ears, the out of focus fog of my mind, my running nose, my throbbing head, and my exaggerated breaths, its the tickled trickle falling from my nose is what stirs the instinct to get up and run.

Reita's hand is reaching out for me but he can't reach and he isn't jumping the space between us to get me. Another shadow it faster for me to realize that its Uruha grabbing a fist full of Reita's clothes and desperately trying to pull him away. The tears in his vibrant brown eyes and the whites of his teeth along with the pink of his tongue told me he was screaming at Reita. Reita though isn't listening, his eyes never leaving off of mine even though now the distance between his hand and my own is growing farther apart. As slow as everything is moving, Uruha's fighting to pull Reita is brief as time seemed to speed and the forced movements of my chest locked. I gasp and rise as if rising from the dead, twisting against the metal of the elevator doors below me. When did this box get so turned around? My head feels like the most heaviest weight it rolling against my shoulders making it difficult to crawl onto my hands and knees.

"KAI! KAI! COME ON!" I hear Reita's voice behind me, I can tell from not looking that he is no longer in sight above me but farther away mixing in with the chaos and cacophony of metal twisting and tearing over the sound of panicked screams from horror stricken school boys. "MIYAVI!" I couldn't concentrate on what Reita was doing or why Uruha suddenly screamed because it was at this moment my confused eyes had me realize that I was in some deep shit of my own. Literally up on my hands and knees in shit. Well cement, wet cement. "W, what's going on?" I manage to breath past the tightness of my throat that I didn't even know was there. Now that I was aware of that tear springing lump in my throat my vision blurrs with tears. A further drop of helplessness and despair comes with my limited vision, sniffling and trying to blink my eyes clear. I can't think like this, I can't even see that this weakness was going to be the death of me for sure. I know this, but I can't stop crying for the life of me!

The cement is cold, freezing; its painfully up my fingernails, squeezing around my wrist, trapping the toes of my shoes, feeling like a sprain creeping up my knees. My lips quiver, I can only shake my head back and forth as though denying the trap Im in. The elevator doors beneath me are allowing cement to seep through the opening, and its only coming in faster as I sit there and let it swallow me. With a wet swallow and a pull of my bottom lip into my lips carefully I try rising to my feet. Easily my shaking hands pull free from the gray muck, the sleeves of my shirt feel heavy and cold as I lift my hands before my face, straightening. Unsteadily I climb up to my feet, the weight of my hands and head and suddenly light and frail state of my body shake with weakness.

Everything is so unsteady, the floor doesn't seem solid beneath my feet, it feels as though everything were moving. "KAI!" With a start I snap my head to look up to my only way out, the broken window. Glass juts from the rim of the frame I feel Im looking into an endless black sky. I can't see anything, if I weren't trapped in this damned box I knew I'd just be trapped under that endless darkness. "Kai! Kai!"

A sob. "The elevators sinking!"

"We need to fucking get him out of there!"

"I…. Cant, cant reach! KAI!"

A hysterical scream. "GET OUT OF THERE!"

I take it as a command. Body snapping on its own my mind having jumped ship I don't know why I looked around, there was nothing in there with me but the quickly rising cement. This is what happens when the body works without the mind there to guide it and make sense of everything. Clumsily I lift my foot to attempt and run to a corner of the elevator, though my first step was more difficult to get unstuck than I thought and I find myself loosing my balance. Stumbling with my suddenly uneven weighted boots, my legs cross pass each other, an odd step in the wrong direction I want to go, and voila! My foot stepped and realize its falling, no sinking deeper than I thought was even possible. The cold is eating around my calf, my knee, my thigh, the seat to my pants feel wet. "GAHHH!" Its the proper sound to voice my surprise, fear, panic, and desolation.

In order to get out….

To get out…

Out.

I have to get my hands dirty. For some reason I was cradling my hands against my chest as though precious treasures I was trying to keep from being swallowed into the flesh eating cement. I flexed my stiff fingers full of grit from the cement and dropped one hand below the surface to feel around. For what I don't know, I think I was looking for my lost leg. By now it felt as though I was sitting in a cold kitty pool of stiff death as cement seeped into places of my body that left me itchy and uncomfortable. Its just over my navel now, Im sinking faster than Im getting free. Finally after desperate feeling with the hand I unconsciously decided to be my strongest my split thinking purging of trust onto one hand to I guess just solve all my problems under the unseen surface of the cement. IS it going to free me? I must have been hoping for something akin to this hand being my savior with how Im groping around and doing nothing else to help myself.

Fingers curled painfully over the edge of the now ice cold metal of the elevator door. From my feeling around as difficult as that is with how the cement would get in the way and make dull my touches sensitivity. The door ss slowly being pushed open, allowing more cement to creep in. So now theres a sink hole and I am quickly loosing my ground. Either the elevator is going to fill up, or the doors keeping me up are going to be pushed wide open to where I will have nothing to stand on.

Or, I can get out.

Understanding that time has always been running short but now I have more reason to hurry. Getting my slick heel to grip with the metal of the door in order to pull me out was easier than I thought would be, everything just seeming impossible to me at this point in time. Tongue squashed between the sharps of my teeth to keep me focused even as I breathed like some choked pug suffering from asthma. Pulling myself free is, impossible. Everything the cement touched felt drained of any strength. My legs are like empty batteries suddenly. I can't even stand up, my arms even feel heavy. "W, what the hell! GUYS! GUYS! RUKI! PLEASE! HELP ME!"

The pause is too long for me before I get a response. "Kai! Kai where are you!" Gods I was sure they had left me. "RUKI! Ruki I… I'm STUCK! I can't. I can't…. Get out!" Voice broke, and my head dropped do I not even have the strength to admit my impending doom? "Kai! Hold on don't move!" My mind is made up that this is taking too damn long I have to do something. My voice falls past my lips in helpless sounds as I try again to pull myself free. Falling onto my bum, I know Im slobbering helplessly as I try again. Shakily Im able to get to my feet. I don't know how, but I feel my toes have no support beneath them. Im right on the edge of the sliding elevator doors. Balance being difficult to keep I feel so heavy right then. I stand there and can only sob while looking down at myself. "KAI!" The elevator suddenly lurches and I find myself dropping along with the feeling in my stomach as my balance shoots me forward. My arms swing and wind mill to try to keep me from falling but its useless for the whole elevator is slowly churning within the cement.

A sudden loud gurgle bubbles free from the center of the elevator where the doors are being pushed open to allow more cement to enter. Trapped air burped free before me just as I fall flat onto the cement, its condensed matter knocking the wind from me, causing my chin to dip under the surface for just a split second. My body doesn't even allow the paralyzing fear to grip me, no. Instead I spring back to my feet hugging the other side of the elevator. The wall is cold and unwelcoming but I push myself as closely as I can to it watching behind me as cement is vomited up from the opening as the elevator doors continue being pushed open faster. Now I can feel the tiping of the elevator, how its obviously moving and the cement is creeping up my calves even faster. Too fast, too fast! Its coming just too fast. I yell hoping someone could translate my animal like sounds of fear into actual sentences that were in my mind.

Im listening to what sounds like argument though its closer, not as close to when Reita was over my head trying to pull me free. Why was I so delayed that I didn't take his damn hand? Im regretting it now too scared to even cry as the cement pools around my hips. Im so sure that Im going to be swallowed up to this coldness. That Im going to die here. Placing my forehead against the wall of the elevator I stand there blubbering quietly, my hot eyes shut and my body shivering. Nothing goes through my mind, I can't call this peace, but it is perhaps the closest thing to coming to terms I can imagine anyone can come to when this close to death. "HERE!" Sniffling helplessly when there's a shout over head. Over head! I look up but my eyes are so blinded by my natural salt water I can just barely make out a form above me. I don't need to see though as I blindly raise my hands above my head. I feel warm fingers grip around my own grit caked ones. Reaching I bump fingers with the person over me not realizing until he swats my hand away that I am compromising my rescue by trying to grab for the first human warmth when there is actually plenty of arm for him to give to me.

I feel his nails dig into the skin right under my elbow I try jumping as best I could. "Stop, stop, stop, stop." Surprisingly he is quiet, and calm sounding despite the situation. Hes trying to calm me. It works; I don't even notice the shake of his voice. Bringing his other hand down now he took both of my hands in his. "I'm gunna try and pull you." I can only quickly nod my head as though he has my permission to save my life. Testing the unbalanced weight he shifts then, moving from having both of his knees beneath him to settle with kneeling for more support. "Ok." Teeth gritting together my eyes cleared enough to see the sweat accumulated around his fore head and neck, and the cement caked to the side of his face causing the loose hair to stick to his skin. "MIYAVI!" With the call his eyes brake from mine for only a split second, probably looking to whomever it was who called him, and from the sound of it, its most likely Uruha. And, for some reason I find myself asking. "Is… Is that your name? Miyavi?" He only gives a curt nod, not at all phased by my random question. "Please… Please Miyavi get me out of here."

My face twist and I have to fight back the burning from my tears. I think he nodded again, I'm not sure Im trying to blink free the moisture and heat from my eyes. I feet it, I feel the pull in my wrist and I hear the strain in his voice. By now the cement is up to my chest I feel it sitting heavily against me, pressing me into nothing. I feel it every time I breathe. I don't want to cry though, I feel surprisingly dry as I keep the strong gaze between our eyes. I feel that it is possible when I look to him, if I am able to give the same confident stare as him then Its real that Im getting out of here. Nothing was happening though. He would pull, and I wasn't moving. I feel my lips begin to quiver as his own begin to peel back and expose his teeth. "MIYAVI!" Uruha desperately calles for him again. "I'M COMING! It was a sudden and sharp bark of a shout that caused me to jump as he was looking to me when he yelled. There is an awful scrape sound and what feels like the elevator rolling suddenly. Miyavi lets go of my hand to try and grip onto the elevator beneath him, his hand gripping around the jagged edge of the jutting glass. I see a dark glob drip from between his fingers and feel it land under my eye. I scream not from having his blood hit my face but from temporarily loosing sight of him. My arms stay expectantly above my head as I watch in shock to the emptiness past the window.

With the roll of the elevator the cement shifts and I feel myself flowing along with it. "M, M, M, Miyavi!" I can only hear his struggles from somewhere outside the elevator. My body continues to move with the cement I struggle to keep my head above it. Miyavi, he still had to save me! Its what makes me fight and save myself. With the movement of the cement and the turn of the elevator the window is no longer sitting above me but rolling before me. If I can just, reach! Using my hands that are still above my head to reach for the edge of the window, my clammy fingers catch the edge managing to avoid any broken glass. Using the motion of the cement pushing me to pull myself closer. I am able to slowly creep my hand more over the edge, pulling my elbow up, I am able to use my upper body strength to get myself mostly free. The cement is still rolling over me, and the elevator is still rolling, if I don't hurry I'll be caught between the two and crushed or suffocated. I don't even think about the jagged glass until I fee; it press into my ribs. I can't even cry out as I continue to pull myself free.

"THERE! OVER THERE! KAI!" Ruki, Uruha, and Reita all run along the bank either waving or cupping their lips so their voices can reach me. "You have to get out of there! Kai there's a fall up ahead! Down there!" At first I was ignoring them for they weren't doing much of anything to physically help me. Ruki's words didn't take all that long to hit me though. Head lifting weakly to look over my shoulder out in the direction Ruki was pointing. I can't see any drop though, there was another elevator floating within the cement before me. "Kai hold on! Your coming towards us, we'll pull you out!" Reita, thank the gods please come and save me! "Kai! Kai wheres Miyavi!" My lip found way between my teeth as I twisted my head around to look to the dry land closing in. It was slow; too slow I want to be pulled out right now! I yell as if it would get me to land faster. "Get me out of here!" I can only creep along at the complete mercy of the sluggish currents of the cement.

I reach out a hand when I can't take the wait much longer, Ruki gets to me first and reaches for my hand. We struggle to get our fingers to hook but its still too far. Reita comes up behind him to do the same. Uruha rushes over but missteps and ends up getting a foot in the cement river. My fingers finally locked with Ruki's and with our touch I finally feel Im going to be saved. Reita comes in and with his longer arms is able to get a strong grip around my sleeve. They pull and tug and when my body is half onto land Uruha I guess was able to pull himself together enough to help pull me as well. Bonelessly flop against them, all three falling back with my weight. "I'm alive!" I sob, I look a mess, and Im cold, sticky, and upset. I don't know what I was expecting to happen once I was rescued but I did feel a bit of sadness when I was quickly dropped by everyone for the next person to be saved. "MIYAVI! MIYAVI!" Uruha called out along the shore Reita, and Ruki running to stand next to him. Eyes desperately search the slow creeping movement of the giant box masses that saile by. Uruha squints his eyes, brushing long bangs from his face. "Do you see him? Ru?" Ruki's face is hard as he looks before him for any other survivors. There is a large bloody gash over his brow dripping from beneath the line of his hair behind his ear, his expensive name brand clothing covered is dust and cement.

Everyone else was looking pretty bad as well, Uruha's face is full of grime smudged under his teary eyes, his shoulder was bleeding being the only one out of all of us to be wearing a tank top. Dangerous since outside was full of chemicals that could burn away your skin if exposed to the elements for too long. His pants up to his knees are covered in cement leaving me to believe Uruha managed to trudge his way across. Reita seems to be alright having some blood caked to his hair, a streak of cement across his chin and nose, his hands are covered in cement up to his sleeves and he has cement stuck across random parts of his body. "I don't see him…" Reita pants softly when Ruki continued to answer Uruha with silence. I feel heavy, pushing myself to my feet to look down at myself. My body is covered in the drying skin of gritty cement. I feel it cake and crack when I moved my joints, my clothes feel stiff and unnatural. But I am alive. I am standing here able to examine myself. From the looks of it its more than what this Miyavi guy can say…

Uruha's wails fill the still air around us as he falls to his knees. I almost yell to him to shut up but manage to hold my tongue and instead stumbled to stand next to Reita. There is a fire on the other side of the moving cement surrounding the shaft of the elevator lift. Following the lift I saw where the cord holding the elevators snapped and swng lightly in the still air. Reita looks up towards the lift as well, then back down to the three elevators rolling in the cement being pushed towards the drop. We watch the first elevator begin to tip, just as it falls Reita grabbs at his bangs and sigh as Ruki curses and Uruha jumps as if to throw himself after it. "MIYAVI! NOOOOOOOO!" With a creak the elevator was gone, just hearing it twist in the air, its cords slapping against it's sides. It crashes once, then again, and again, and again. With each bump it hits going down theres a drop in my stomach. "Just how far does this go down?" Ruki asks what must be going through all of our minds. Reita, looking determined to find out, stepps around us to march to the edge of the drop. "Reita! Be careful, Reita!" Ruki calls after the other male, though Reita ignors him causing Ruki to curse and limp after him. I didn't even realize Ruki was hurt but now as I watch him hobble after Reita I see theres a large cut in his pants and blood coming from the cut.

Uruha is still sobbing on his knees as I look before him and the others. Deciding to see if they find anything I follow after Ruki. "Can you see the bottom?" I asked quietly, slowly looking over Ruki's shoulder to the darkness below. There is nothing, you can't see a damn thing. "We need to find a way out of here." Reita mumbles not looking from the long fall below. When I finally am able to pull my eyes from the drop I find Reita's sharp eyes locked onto my face. I can only blink as he stares at me unsure if he is waiting for me to agree with him, or a status of my health, or my opinion of his idea. "But…. The elevator." I find myself saying internally thankful there is some part of my brain that is still active and keeping up with the situation. Reita just turns away from me, his eyes looking over to Uruha who is now afew yards away from us sobbing against the ground. "We have to find another way…. Ruki." Both Reita and I look over to Ruki who is no longer standing before the edge of the drop but now pacing around and rubbing his hands over his pockets. "Ruki." Reita gets no response but is surprisingly patient about it. I went ahead and try myself. "Ruki… Reita said—"

"I know what he said!" Ruki snaps causing me to nervously swallow my words. Ruki paces harder, spinning around as he chews his thumb nail. "I'm working on it…." Guess that isn't an answer good enough for Reita. "Shouldn't you know of another way in? Or of another way out? Did your father ever mention like an emergency exit, a south enterance?" Ruki stops pacing then, and its obvious hes trying really hard not to look at us. I know both Reita and I had to have our eyes burning into him and since I was aware of it I tried not to but I just had to know if Ruki knew how to get us out of here. Finally Ruki brings a palm up to run down his face and scratch at his bangs. "…. He never said anything…" My face dropped, I know it did all hope was lost! "You never asked…." Reita being oddly quiet for the situation blandly states. Ruki shook his head leaving us to stand there silently. "… He never asked, but you never know." Turning my head around to look to Reita who is frowning at Ruki, angry obviously but it isn't blinding him from thinking. "There has to—" I jump at the ugly screech of another elevator being pushed over the edge just to fall against the wall of stone and dried cement. Reita was silent as the crashes got farther and farther away. When we could just barely hear it anymore he continued, slowly this time. "There has to be another way out of here. This is a construction site; they make multiple entry ways for cases just like this." I find myself nodding because it was something and something is better than nothing or the despairing thoughts that you are forever going to be stuck down here to starve and dry up. "Ruki, Reita's right lets look for another way out of here it can't be too far." Ruki does't turn to look to us. "But…. What about…." Glancing over his shoulder then motioning with his head over to Uruha as he whispers the last part. "The others…?"

"We'll find them." How Reita answers so quickly without missing a single beat while sounding so confident causes me to whip my head around and stare at him. Being bumped out of the way as Reita walks past me to head back to Uruha. "….. They are going to be fine…" I look from Reita to Ruki who is frowning. "How can he just easily say something like that?" Ruki hisses, turning his attention to me then. causing me to want to look away. I don't, and that was my mistake for in that split second we meet eyes Ruki somehow gets it that I agree with him. "Were getting out of here, but the others are dead. It would be a waste of time to go and look for them, we should save ourselves first, get help, tell my father, then have people come back to find them." I can only bite my lip, suddenly not confident enough to argue back or even pretend to agree with him. "I'm not letting him waste our time if he wants to go find all their bodies then fine, but we're going to keep walking." I understand that he is talking about us, him and I. Ruki stepps closer to me then. "We're going to get out of this, just like we got out last time." I couldn't see the connection between now being trapped in some crack in the world and playing the decoy for his father those years ago. It didn't matter anyway because Ruki takes my silence as 'yes I agree all the way with you' and gives me a pat on the shoulder.

I need to say something…. I should get us all on the same page right here and now. But I can't… I can only wrap my arms around me and shiver.

I'm, so scared…

So theres your preview! of course its not finnished i have more for this chapter but i think its enough, just showing i plan to continue this. so this is goodbye! i keep my fics up here for everyone but im no longer writing fanfics and using characters that are not mine!

SO LONG!