WELL I AM BACK, HOPE YOU GUYS LIKE THIS CHAPTER,

NOT THAT MUCH HAPPENS BUT THE NEXT CHAPTER IS GOING TO BE VERY INTENSE SO WATCH

I OWN NOTHING

I saw James and Riley stand up and I followed the, I knew where we where going. I was about to go get deep into my happy place other words I was about to smoke some drugs. When I was there I couldn't help what I dreamed about that was the bad thing, I tried so many times, but it never worked. It was all about Jasper and me, about how close we would be or should be. I sighed and looked at the floor. No matter what I do, he wouldn't get the message, I loved and hated him for that. He was just going to let me go so easily, like I meant nothing to him. I started to walk to the door following behind James, and Riley. Everyone was silent, just staring at us, but I didn't care, I was torn between anger and pain, only two things took that away, drugs, and Jasper.

I reached the door before James and I was hesitant about pushing it opening. I knew what I was thinking was bad and that I shouldn't do it, but I couldn't help it. I turned around to Jasper table, everyone there was looking at me, I ignored their eyes and looked at Jasper. I saw him staring at me with tears in his eyes. I was shocked, he never cried in front of people before, not even me. He thought it made him seem weak, and vulnerable. I wanted to run to him and make him feel better.

I felt myself starting to walk towards his direction, but before my foot was even off the ground James grabbed me. "What do you think you are doing Bella", he whispered in my ears.

"Trying to help my brother, he is in pain, look at him"

"Who was there for you when you were in pain, surely not him?" I didn't have an argument for that, I knew he was right. Jasper left me for Alice, so why couldn't I leave him; he was the one who wanted to be free. I shook James arm off of me and I walked out the cafeteria. He wanted me gone so I am going to be gone.

I didn't have to turn around to know James was smiling, he never like seeing me get hurt. That is why I liked him so much; he would do anything to take my pain away from me. This is what a real brother did. I turned around and hugged him, he was tense for a second but then he relaxed and hugged me back. "Thank you James, for everything, without you, I would have lost my mind". He laughed at that, he was never one showing emotions. He let go me and grabbed my hand and we walked to his car hand and hand.

Alice Pov:

Jasper was a wreck, he saw Bella leave, and he said he knew her well enough to know that she had finally let go. I was scared to ask what it meant; I knew the outcome couldn't be good. I couldn't help but feel like I was the one to blame for all this, if he wasn't dating me, he would have always stuck up for Bella. He used to always talk about her when we first met. I made him stop though; I told him it wasn't good for a brother to be that obsessed with his sister, after a while he listened to me. I noticed some days he would look worried, or he would be so sad. He would never tell me what was wrong, and I didn't want to pry in his business. I found out through Rosa, she said 'Bella is doing drugs'. I didn't think a sweet girl like her could do drugs.

Jasper's groaning snapped me out of my thoughts. "I lost my sister, Alice, my twin sister, what type of brother am I, that I hurt her so much, I was the reason she started misbehaving, she felt like I didn't care about her". Edward shook his head no, he didn't think Jasper was in the wrong at all, but he didn't know the whole story, just about Jasper, nobody ever told him about Rosa, and how it all happened. "That's not true, its Bella choice what she decide is not your fault". Rosa looked so ashamed, I knew how she felt. "Actually, it's my fault, I started all of those, I am so stupid, I lost my bestfriend and in the process I made Jasper lose his sister".

"What are you talking about Rosa", Emmett said, he hated not being in the loop. Rosa sighed and looked Jasper in the eyes. "I guess its time for me to tell my story, the true version".

A/N: what do you guys think, review and tell me, i should have another chapter up today or late tonight so on the watch out

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