Welcome To My Messed Up Life
Chapter 5
The Sleep Over
Eli dropped me off about five minutes before five. I just sat in his car for a minute not really wanting to get out of the car and face my family. Darcy was still at the dot and Brianna was too clingy. Madison would still be all about her and mom wouldn't even know I was there unless there was something she needed done. If it wasn't for Fiona coming over I would just stay with Eli. Thank god I had all day with him tomorrow. I feel lonely when he isn't there.
"What you thinking about?" He ask me as he put the car in park. I sighed not really wanting to go into detail about everything, but I had gotten where I wanted to tell him everything. I just didn't know why.
"Nothing, just how much I don't really wanna go inside. The only reason I'm coming home is cause Fiona is suppose to be here. If it wasn't for her I would just stay with you all day." I said and he laughed a little.
"As much as I would love that, you have to go home. Your parents would worry about you." He said and my smile frowned when he said 'parents'. He noticed too. "I'm sorry I didn't know you didn't have one of them with you."
"Its okay. Its just why go home? Darcy is still at the dot, Madison is too all about her like mom has made her out to believe, Brianna is too clingy, and mom will only notice I'm there if there's something she wants done. Its times like these I wish I still had my Grandma to talk to." I told him with a sigh thinking about it. Then I got up the nerve to tell him part of my story. "If I tell you this will you promise not to tell anyone else at this school?"
"How about we just promise each other that we won't tell anybody at that school about each other's past." He said and I smiled. He new exactly what I wanted.
"Sounds good to me." I said and smiled at him. He did the same to me.
"Now, you were about to tell me a story?" He said and I smiled. I took his hand getting out of the car. He noticed what I was doing and got out of the car following me to the back yard.
"Last year, part of the reason we moved, my mom and dad had just had a big fight. It was real bad. It was over someone in the family. All the problems he had caused. My mom told him she wanted a divorce. He agreed saying they had just grown apart too much. I didn't know my dad enough considering he was always doing his job of a truck driver." I told him and he just sat there listening.
"So I was right about that?" He ask me and I nodded. "I'm sorry. I was just playing around with ya. I didn't mean to hurt you." He said and hugged me as we were sitting on the grass. I smiled.
"No worry's." I told him and he smiled at me. I carried on. "Well, it had been about three months since then and mom hadn't really been the same. I didn't know one could love a person that much. Well, we were in the middle of January with it being real snowy. My Grandma still worked even with how old she was. I had always looked up to her for that. With roads being real icy dad didn't want her driving home in it so he went to get her. We got a call a little bit later saying the car went out of control and they crashed into two different cars, both dying on impact." I said to him with a glazed look in my eyes. I wasn't going to let myself cry.
"I'm so sorry Clare. If I had known that I would have seriously left you alone." He said giving me a hug. I just sat there lying in his arms. It felt so freaking good and right.
"Its okay just the thing is she had this in her hands." I said showing him the necklace. It was in the shape of a heart. It had a butterfly on it and it said 'the right one is out there somewhere. Keep searching.' On the back it had 'I love you my little tatorbug, love Grandma.' "I didn't even get to tell them goodbye. It was like going back to memories with my Grandpa."
"I'm so sorry though. I'm glad she told you to keep searching. If she hadn't you might not have given me the chance of day." He said making me smile. He was too, then he frowned. "Why weren't you that upset with your dad?"
"That my friend is a whole other story. If I told you that one then I'd have to tell you my other secrets and I'm just not ready for that yet." I told him and he smiled. We sat there staring into each other eyes. Finally we leaned into each other lips touching. I smiled into it kissing him back.
"Clare your little friend is-" Me and Eli broke apart at hearing my mothers voice. I'm in trouble now. "I'll tell her you'll be a moment." She said but I stopped her.
"Mom it isn't what it looks like. I promise you." I said and she just gave me an angry look like you would to a little kid who did something bad.
"We'll talk about this later." She said and I sighed. I just wanted everyone to be happy. To make my mom and younger sister happy I would have to be unhappy. She walked back inside.
"Don't come over anymore unless I know for sure my mom won't be home." I told him in a sad face. I was finally happy and now would have to give it up. The first time in years and would now have to give it up. Not this time. It was time I put myself first.
"Okay. Just text me later and tell me what's going on." He told me and I smiled and nodded. Before he had a chance to leave I kissed him again. "Bye Clare talk to you later."
"Bye Eli." I told him. How bad I wanted to say 'I love you' but stopped myself from making a fool. I went inside and saw Fiona and Adam standing there with Brianna eying Fiona up down. "Fiona its good to see you again today." I said going up to hug her. Brianna gave me a look. "Bria." I said using my nickname only I could call her. "This is Fiona a friend of mine from school and also Adam's girlfriend." I told her watching Adam get a mad look knowing what was coming next. "Fiona this is my smallest sister Brianna. You can call her Bri, just don't ever call her Bria."
"So your the one who stole my boyfriend from me?" She ask her arms crossed and tapping her foot. I can't control myself and started laughing. "Sissy where did Eli go? Wasn't he just here?" She ask me looking around for him. She had gotten attached to him really bad.
"Sissy?" Adam ask trying not to laugh. I sent him daggers. He was still laughing a little but stopped a lot of when he saw my eyes. "Why do you let her call you that?"
"Because its my little sister and she caught me saying something I shouldn't one day, so I told her she could call me that if she didn't tell on me." I said all in one breath. Fiona was smiling at it and Adam was on the floor laughing his butt off. "Bria, mom sent him home cause Fiona was here."
"But, he promised me he would come and play with me." She said almost in tears. I sent her a small sad smile. The things he did to us Edwards girls. "Tell him I'm mad at him now."
"You can talk to him later." I told her and she smiled. "Now go play like a normal seven year old so we can all talk teenager things." I said and she sat on the couch. See what I mean she's clingy?
"Anyway, Clare, thanks for letting me stay the night. Holly J and Declan are doing another all nighter with movies and the last time I walked in to his room to get something he took it wasn't pretty." She said making me shiver at a picture that went through my head.
"Yea same thing I did when she told me. She could stay at my house, but mom has called a family night with us all and no one else can be there." Adam said and we all laughed. "I'll let you get to whatever it is you girls do at these things." He said giving Fiona a quick kiss on the lips. "Bye Fi, I love you."
"Love you too Adam." She told him and with that he left out the door and back to his house which, believe it or not, was on the same street I lived on. "So have you meet Eli's little sister yet? Has he even talked to you about her?" She ask me and I gave her a confusing look. I moved Brianna from her seat on the couch to in my lap letting Fiona sit beside me.
"He talked about her a little and said he would like me to meet her, but nothing set in stone yet." I told her and she gave me a shocking look. "Is that bad?"
"No that's good. I've only met her once and I wasn't even suppose to. He's real secretive with everything. After meeting her that one time she was real sweet. Shy at first, but real sweet after that." She said with a smile.
"He told me her name was Sandy. Well, Sandra, but she liked to be called Sandy." I said and she smiled at me. I guess that was more then she got told when she first herd about her. Just then Brianna jumped out of my lap.
"Wait did you just say Sandy?" She ask me and I nodded my head. "Is her last name Golworthy?" She ask us pronouncing it wrong. I had to laugh but just nodded my head anyway. "She's in my class! She's my bestest friend there. She helped me kick that girls ass."
"BRIANNA!" I said screaming her name at what she said while Fiona just sat there shocked and started laughing. I gave her a disapproving look.
"What?" She ask me with a cute little look. "And why are you laughing boyfriend stealer?" She ask Fiona and I started laughing while she just sat there awkwardly. Brianna was eying her down really badly. I had a drink in my hand then she ask me a question. "Sissy are you and Eli going out?" I spit out the drink staring at her. Fiona was laughing so hard it was even funny.
"What?" I ask looking at Brianna. Fiona finally stopped laughing enough to saying something.
"Yea Clare, are you two going out?" Fiona ask still laughing. She was laughing so bad that she was on the floor clutching her sides. I choose to ignore her.
"Now why would you think that?" I ask her after coming out of my shock and finally getting it clear in my head. She looked at the floor then at me.
"I saw you and him kissing outside in the yard." She said looking back up at me and I started blushing.
"You saw that now did you?" I ask her and she nodded her head.
"Yea then I saw you go back and kiss him before he left. You said kissing was gross and to not ever do it. Why did you break your rule?" She ask me and Fiona started laughing.
"So, I'm guessing you and Eli are an item now?" Fiona ask me and I just nodded my head. She started squealing. "We have to go on a double date."
"Shh, not so loud. I don't want my mom knowing just yet. Since she found us doing that she kinda already knows, but I'm gonna try make it look like we were practicing for a play." I told her with a sigh. She nodded. "Don't tell Eli I told you. I don't know if he wants anybody knowing." I said and once again she nodded her head. "Now Bria, this is a secret. You can't tell anybody you got it?" I ask her and she smiled and nodded.
"Only if you call him and let me talk to him." She said and I sighed taking out my phone and dialing the number I had memorized. She took it from me, but I had it on speaker.
"Hello? Clare, I just left why are you calling me all of a sudden? Missing me already?" He said smirking into the phone. I new him to well.
"Sorry Eli, but this sin't Sissy. It me, Brianna and I'm here with Fiona and Clare. Your on speaker and Sissy told me about y'alls little secret." Brianna said giggling. I heard Eli laugh a little.
"And what would that be?" He ask her with a little curiosity in his voice. I swear he made me crazy a little to much. "Hello? Bri Bir are you there?" He ask her and she stopped. She smiled.
"Nobody calls me that. Now only you can call me that." She said and I laughed. She liked it when people had different nicknames for her. "I saw you and Sissy kissing outside."
"You did, did you?" He ask her and she nodded even though he couldn't see her. "Well, tell your big sister that it really isn't a secret now. Adam knows. He's done called me up asking me questions."
"He has has he?" I ask finally coming into the conversation. He just laughed saying yea. I smiled. "Well then, I gues we can start telling people. Just don't tell my mom or Madison and Brianna you still keep it a secret." I told her and she smiled.
"Yes ma'am, now the real reason I called. Eli can you go put your little sister and my best friend on the line." She said not missing a beat. We laughed and I heard Eli sigh. I told Brianna to bring up the phone when she got done. With that me and Fiona walked up to my bedroom.
Degrassi
We were sitting in my room. Fiona was on my light green bean bag chair playing on the computer. I think she was on Face Range with Adam. I'm not sure. It was about 10 o'clock at night. Just then there was a knock on the door. Mom came in.
"Sweetie, I'm leaving you and Darcy in charge til I get back. I'm gonna go ahead and leave for the week." She said with a smile. I just smiled at her. She was always on business calls and stuff. "I'll be back next Friday. I trust you to be good and make sure there on best behavior. Remember, whatever Madison wants she gets. Make sure Brianna don't go anywhere." She said and left for the week. Finally peace and quiet. Everyone else was in bed but, me and Fiona. Darcy wasn't either since she was in her room on the phone with Peter.
"What was that about?" Fiona ask putting my lap top up on the dark blue desk. I just sighed and she gave me a look. "Are you always in charge of your siblings like that?" She ask me and I nodded my head. "You shouldn't have to do that. Your just a kid yourself."
"I know, but what am I suppose to say? I tried that one time and my mom just started yelling at me saying I was being mean and only thinking about myself. I finally stopped trying and just went along with it. Its one of the reasons Darcy is going to Kenya."
"Don't blame her there, but then that leaves you in charge of them all on your own. I feel sorry for you. They may as well just start calling you mom." She told me with a little laugh.
"Brianna has a time or two. She wasn't always like this. After everything with Madison she got tired of looking at her and Brianna being little just has to much energy so she's always in trouble. Its why mom can't stand Brianna. Then me and Darcy take her side a lot so she doesn't like us that much either." I said Fiona just gave me a look. "If anyone ask this conversation didn't ever happen. I wasn't suppose to tell anyone that."
"What conversation?" She ask me and I smiled at her grateful she understood. She smiled back then gave me a look. "So when do we get a double date?" She ask me and I laughed. We hadn't even gone on our first one yet.
"I haven't even got my first one yet. Let's not rush it just yet." I told her and then my lap top went off letting me know someone was asking for a video chat. It was Eli. "What do you want already Eli?" I ask him as his face popped up Fiona sitting right beside me.
"I have a little girl sitting in my room, when she should be asleep, wanting to chat with your sister about how they were sisters now or something. I don't know since I don't speak little girl." He said with a roll of his eyes I laughed.
"Well, sorry to say, but Brianna is asleep right now. I can't come over tomorrow like we planned either. I have to babysit." I said not exactly telling a lie, but not the truth either.
"Told you Sandra that she would be asleep." He told her and she rolled her eyes at him. She was a lot like him but had blonde hair and blue eyes.
"Eli I told you call me Sandy. I don't like that name." She said and with that she left his room to her own. I just laughed at it. Something me and my sisters would do.
"Anyway." He said sitting himself right in front of the camera. "How about I just bring Sandy over tomorrow and they can have a play date?" He ask and I nodded my head at the sound of that.
"Sounds good to me. Now if you will excuse us, were going to go back to our sleepover that you keep interrupting us on. Bye Eli." I said and he just waved at me saying yea yea while rolling his eyes. With that we clicked off the chat deal.
"That boy has it bad for you." Fiona said with a laugh. I laughed with her and before long they turned into giggles instead of laughs. Darcy walked pass and gave us a strange look.
"Is everything okay?" She ask us and we nodded. "So whatcha got planed for tomorrow?" She ask me with a smile. I hesitated at first but decided to go a head and say it.
"Well, I was suppose to go to my boyfriends house, but since mom left early he's going to come over with his little sister so her and Bria can have a play date." I told her and she sat there shocked when I said boyfriend.
"Good to know your finally giving the guys a chance." She told me with a big smile. "I'm guessing this boyfriend is Eli?" She said with a question and I just nodded. She looked at Fiona. "So what do you have planned tomorrow?"
"I was suppose to stay at Adam's tonight, but they had a family night so I'm going over there tomorrow and staying all day." She said with a smile.
"Since when do girls stay at the guys houses?" Darcy ask with a questioning look on her face. I just had to laugh at this. It was freaking funny.
"Well you see Holly J is staying at my house with Declan and last time that happen I walked in on something I really didn't wanna see. Besides, me, Adam, and Eli have sleepovers all the time." She said like it was nothing. All of a sudden Darcy went into over protective sister mood.
"You can't be doing that unless you tell me Clare. I don't like the idea of you sleeping at a guys house anyway." She told me and I just nodded my head while rolling my eyes. She walked out of the room with a good night. I looked over at Fiona.
"What do you wanna do now?"
"Hm, we could mess with Adam and call him saving him from his family night?" She said and I thought about not having anything else to do. I nodded and she called him.
"Hello?" He ask into the phone once he picked it up. "Thank god you saved me form them Fiona." He said with a sigh of relief. I laughed.
"Your welcome and we have some bad news." She told him and before he could say something she continued. "Clare won't be able to attend any of our sleep overs cause her older sister is being protective."
"That's too bad." Adam said and mumbled something sounding like 'Eli will be really disappointed.' "Now is that the only reason you called me?"
"No we just got bored." I said finally letting myself known. "Oh and your on speaker." I told him and he laughed.
"Why don't you call Eli and we all can talk?" Adam ask and I got my phone out dialing Eli's number. Fiona laughed at me not having to be ask twice.
"Clare now you got mad at me last time, so what do you want now?" He ask and I had to laugh at how he was being. He sounded tired and sleepy.
"We have Adam on speaker on Fiona's phone and he suggested we call you on mine. Oh by the way, your on speaker." I told him and he sighed as if he didn't already know that.
"So Eli, Clare, when did you guys exactly plan on telling me and Adam that you were a couple?" Fiona ask making me laugh a little. She already new we were but had to mess around somehow.
"When you two were the last two people on Earth." Eli said with sarcasm in his voice. I just acted being mad making him laugh. He couldn't see it but could hear it.
"We have to double date you guys sometime." Fiona said making me laugh at how excited she was being and the guys groan over the phone.
"Yea, yea can me and Clare get through the first date first?" Eli ask making me laugh even more than I already was.
"Told you Fiona. You just wouldn't listen." I said this time making Eli laugh over the phone. Adam finally spoke up after all the laughing.
"Well, I'm tired, so I'm going to bed. Love you Fiona have sweet dreams. Night Eli and Clare." He said and with that there was a deal of 'nights' from us three with a 'I love you too' from Fiona and then a click.
"Okay, so Adam is gone now what?" Fiona ask me as we were still talking to Eli. He laughed at how crazy we were. I looked over at the clock and saw that it was almost midnight now. If I didn't get to sleep now I would be cranky in the morning.
"Well, I'm gonna call it a night now. So I'm going to bed you two can talk if ya want but I'm outta here so night." I told them hearing Eli yawn over the phone and Fiona after that.
"Yea well I'm going back to the amazing dream I was having when you two got me up." Eli said and I laughed. "Night girls have good dreams. I know Clare's are gonna be about me since I'm so sexy." He said and I laughed.
"You wish Eli." I told him with another small laugh. "Night have fun going back to your dream about me." I told him and he sighed trying not to laugh. With that he hung up.
"You two are interesting to watch." Was the last thing I heard from Fiona when I fell asleep. Of course dreaming about Eli at that. Funny how he could predict that. Meanie head.
Okay, so here's the next chapter! I've been getting some really good reviews on this so thanks guys! =) Its means a lot to me! I'm on chapter eleven of this story right now! I just got done with chapter ten! =) I have no clue how many chapters this story is gonna have! Who knows with me? ;)
Anyway, in this story I think I'm gonna make Adam an actual dude! Mostly cause I don't know enough about the things with transgenders and all that! Plus Adam makes an awesome dude and it would just be easier to focus on the Drama with Clare and Eli slowly finding out about it! If Adam was like that then I would want to spend a lot of time on him too when its an Clare and Eli story! =)
I didn't like the new episode of Degrassi to much last night! I mean really did they have to make Fiona go after Holly J like that? It was just weird to watch Fiona kiss her twin brothers ex girlfriend! Who agrees with me on that? Plus her and Adam looked cuter together and last time I checked Declan still had feelings for Holly J!
Degrassi writers are just screwed up in the brain! Poor Adam finally got himself a girlfriend who didn't care about his situation just to get her taken away from him? Doesn't add up!
Okay I'm ranting on by now! =) Welp, I hope you enjoyed this chapter and everything! Don't worry, you can predict the drama about to come since Fiona has figured out some of Clare's problems at home! That's not all going on with Clare either! ;) More drama is to come! Let me know what you thought of it in a review!
Bye for now! =)