Well i didn't know how short this one was until i read it, so sorry for the shortness..but WARNING this chapter is very sad, and has cutting..

i own nothing and you guys got ur wish, it is in both pov,

Bella Pov:

I wasn't going to lie to you. Some part of me didn't want to die, another part was tied of fighting a losing battle. I was sick of my brother turning his back on me. I was always last place in his world. I couldnt take it anymore. "Are you alright sweetie", my mom asked. I turned my head to look at her and smiled. She saw right through my pathetic smile. In her house, I didn't have to put on a front, act tougher than I actually am, I could show her the real me. The one that is still hurting, the one that wants her brother back. "It's alright baby girl, we love you, just don't give up on him". I turn my head away from her. If she knew what I was doing she would of known I was already giving up. I was letting the cancer and depression rule my life. I found out before I left forks that my cancer had come back. The doctor told me it was early so I could still remove it again, but really whats the point.

I heard the door bell ring, and my mom excused herself to go get it. When she walked out my room, the tears came down faster. I was a disappointment to everyone. I was doing them a favor by dying. I got out of bed, and walked into the bathroom. I opened my cabinet and found a razor. I was slowly examining it, making sure it was sharp enough, I was ending this now. A small part of my mind was wondering when was the last time I took my anti-depressant, a couple of months for sure, they could be the reason for the sudden death thought. I rose the knife to my wrist pressing down hard, I wasnt going to mess up again this time. I close my eyes imaging all the good times I had with my brother, the laughs, games, movies. I slowly started moving, feeling my skin rip apart.

I felt a firm hand stop me, I looked up and saw a pair of blue eyes staring at me with tears in their eyes. "Bella stop", he said. I dropped the rascor onto the floor and turned to look at him. "You can't have it both way, Jasper, you can't want me in you life and then completely ignore me, I am a human being, I have feeling, and there are only so much I can take", I yelled at him.

"I am so sorry bella"

"Sorry doesnt make it any better"

"Please bella"

"No, I am done". I quickly bent down and grabbed the razor. I put it right on my vein and sliced it. I smiled as the blackness came, surrounding me. I heard my brother pleas in the back of my mind, but I ignored it. I was finally free.

Jasper Pov:

I speeded to my mom house. Rosa and me were too in tone with our own thoughts to talk to each other. I reached her house and under a couple of hours. We rushed to the door, quickly wanting to talk to her, since Rosa had gotten a bad feeling earlier. My mom didn't seem too shock to see me here. She looked at me hopefully. "She is upstairs". She didnt have to say anymore, I rushed up the stairs, in hopes of finding her fast. I went into her room, and saw she wasn't in there, panic slowly started to overcome. I looked around saw the bathroom door closed. I opened it and what I saw will always scar me for life. My sister, my best friend, had a razor to her skin about to cut herself.

I told her to stop, and I was relied when I saw the razor fall on the floor. I stood there listening to her yell at me. I wasn't expecting her to pick up the razor so, I wasn't fast enough to stop her. I watched her slit her wrist and then fall to the ground. "Bella, Bella, baby sis, please wake up, I need you". I picked her up and ran down the steps, I wasn't going to lose her again. I ran passed my mom and Rosa talking and went into the car. They followed me immedaitly into the car, when they saw her.

"What happened", My mom yelled at me as soon I as I started the car. "I try to stop her", I whispered. I was too lost in my thoughts to listen to her anymore. I saw my sister killing herself, that memory will never go away, I am to blame for all this. I made my prayer to God hoping he would help me. "Please, please, please, I can't lose her like this", I kept repeating in my head. I couldnt let her die, not like this, I needed my sister.

Hope you like it, sorry it was so sad, and short.

i am going to be going to my dads house this weekend so i may not write anymore THIS WEEKEND, but if that is the case, be sure to find atleast 3 chapter up doing the weekday..

see ya, dads bday Monday, for his birthday he would like you guys to...

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