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Jasper POV:

We were all in the waiting room, anxious to get the report back. When we came in the doctor rushed her into the ER room, calling all sorts of order, but the one I heard the most was 'She's losing too much blood'. I got up from the chair and started pacing back in forth like idiot, I just couldn't calm down. My sister could die, and I would be the blame for it. I rubbed my hands over my face violently for about the hundredths time. "Would you calm down", my mom yelled at me, "Your pacing is not going to help the situation anymore than it is.

I had told my mom the whole story about how this led to this and to say she was mad would be an understatement. She slapped my in the face leaving a big red hand print on my cheek, but I didn't argue or try to fight her off, because I deserved. It took all of this for me to see I was hurting someone I vowed to protect with my life.

I stared at my mom, willing her with my eyes to see that this was hurting me too. She turned her head away, muttering under her breath. I was going to reply and say something but a doctor walked in the room. "Swans family", She said looking at her clip board. My mom stood up in a hurry, banging the chair against the wall in the process. She didn't seem too concern about the chair that much though. "That would be us". The doctor looked at us sadly, like she had the worst news in the world.

"Things are looking too good for Bella at the moment, there isn't much we can do for her, she is in a coma sorry to say but she lost too much blood, we just have to wait for her to wake up, if she ever does.".

I sank to my knees, silently crying. This moment was all up to Bella now. Rosa rushed over to me wrapping her arms around me, trying to bring comfort, but really all she was doing was adding more disgust, we are the cause for all this. "She will pull throw this Jasper, she is not a quitter". I didn't answer her, she was clearly stuck up in her mind.

The doctor cleared her throat trying to get our attention back on her. "There is more problems at hand, if she wakes up we are going to have to put her under suicidal watch, and unless one of you can take care of that, then she will have to stay here for some time, also she is going to need therapy, since we have done a body scale and have seen thousand of cuts over her body".

I was shocked beyond reasoning, I knew Bella tried to kill herself, but cutting was a whole different story. I was about to open my mom but at the moment the door busted open and the last person in the world I wanted to see was facing me.

James MaCow

Bella POV:

I knew I wasn't died and that fact disappointed me to no end. God no matter how hard I try I just couldnt get a break. I felt like I was floating in water, lost in memories that involved my brother.

Flashback: Jasper and Bella 7yr old

"Jazzy", I screamed at the top of my lungs. I was laughing so hard trying to get away from his hands. He was tickling the life out of me. "Please, Please, you win", I said between my breaths.

"What do I win Bella", he asked me momentarily stopping his tickle. I smiled at him and didn't answer. He started again smiling at me "I don't hear you".

"Okay, you are the best, stronger,and faster at me, boys rule, girls drool."

He released me, scooting back so I could get up. I stuck my tongue out at him. "You suck", I whined. He stood up offering me his hand. I ignored it and got up on my own.

"Come on don't be like Bells"

I turned around and tackle him, he wasn't expecting it so I landed on top of him on the ground. He had the look of pure shock on his face, and I couldnt help but giggle. "Love you twinny"

He smiled and hugged me tight. "I love you too".

End of Flashback:

Flashback: Jasper and Bella 11yr old

"Your such a dork", I said smiling. He acted like he was offended. "Bella", he said putting his hands on his heart, "How could you hurt your own flash and blood". I started laughing, and he soon joined in.

"So", I said after we both calmed down, "School is tomorrow, are you ready, we are starting a new year". He knew I hated starting school over, I wasn't very popular, unlike him, I got picked on a lot, when he wasn't around of course.

"No one is going to mess with you, while I am here", he said taking my hands.

If you were to look at us from an outside picture you would think that we are dating but we just like care about each other alot. I smiled at him to let him know I was grateful. "Come on, ole wise one, Rosa is waiting for us"

We got up and took off running up the hill laughing like idiot along the way.

End of Flashback

Flashback: Age 14

I was in my room crying, tears rolling down my cheek no stop. How could they do this to us, I thought they loved us. "Bella, its okay", Jasper said wrapping his arms around me.

I roughly shoved his arms away ignoring the guilt that overcame when I saw his face. "Its not Jasper, they are getting a divorce, how can you take this so calmly, they are splitting up"

"That doesn't mean the love us any less"

"God you hang out with too much adult, listen to yourself, show me how you really feel Jasper, we don't keep secrets"

He got us and started pacing, "You want to know how I feel", he said seriously. I nodded my head.

Before I could even think he picked up a picture of mom and dad hugging and threw it at the wall. The glass broke, landing around our foot. "It sucks", he yelled at me, "I hate having to lose one of my parents, I hate having to know, we are one of those family, I wanted us to be a real family, I dont want us to have to split up either, what if they decide that they each want one of us, I cant lose you too Bella, one person in the family is enough".

I walked over to him and wrapped my arms around him, hugging him to me. We both sank to the floor, crying on each other.

End of Flashback:

I smiled inwardly at myself, those were the days, hanging out as kids. We didn't fight much, we respected each other to much for that. I guess that went out the door when Alice came.

I felt someone take my hand but they didn't speck for a while, I wanted to let them know I was here but my body felt like it weighed a ton.

"Bella, I am sorry". I froze listening to that voice, what was she doing her. Since when did Rosa care. "Bella, you can't leave us like this, we need you. I need you". I heard her sniffled, I was confused, was she crying?. "I should of never left you Bella, god knows why I did it, I thought I could be popular you know, bring up my self-esteem. I am such a idiot, I lost the best friend I ever had, you saw the good in me, I never forgot you Bellzy. I miss the days we used to hang out, talking about nonsense, I wish this never happen, don't leave me Bella, your my best friend, I cant do this without you".

I felt her drop my hand. What she said meant a lot but was I going to forgive her, NO. Its was 4 years of hurt that can't be undone. I am forever going to be scarred because of this.

I heard shuffling then someone gently rub my face. "Bella, baby", my mother said gently, "Come back to us, don't forgot us, we love you. Remember who you are, this isn't the real you Bella, this is the depression taking over, Fight baby girl we need you, you are so important to us, do you know that your brother friend have driven down just to see you, we all miss you, fight for us love"

If I could I would be crying. I didnt know what to, my mind was ready to give up, to just quit fighting. My heart was ready to forgive and more on. I was confused and broken, just like I would also stayed.

I closed my eyes and just went into the blackness, Whats the point anyways?

I mean no offense if you parents are split up, HEY mine are too, they got divorced on my bday so yea...I know it sucks

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