Welcome To My Messed Up Life

Chapter 11

The fight

"Is your Mom or Dad home? We need to have a talk with them." Some young looking lady said as I went to the door. It felt like dajuv. That had done happen once to us already. I just nodded my head moving the barking dogs from her view. "Thank you sweetie." She said with a smile.

"Mom some young lady is here asking to talk with you and daddy." I said as they got up and out of bed for once that day. Dad got a shirt on and they went to talk with the lady.

I couldn't hear what they were saying but they just nodded there heads. Darcy was gone with a friend somewhere and Mom and Dad had gotten Madison and Brianna and brought them outside so me and the lady could talk. I didn't like where this was going one bit. She came and stood in front of me while I sat on the couch.

"So since your about the only normal one of your sisters from what your family says, how do you feel about living in this house?" She ask me and I gave her a weird look. Me normal? She had me mistaken.

"I love my family. There awesome." I told her with a fake smile on my face. We were falling apart. Nothing was normal anymore. I didn't like my family going down this path. We were strapped in for the ride though.

"How do you feel about your brother?" She ask me looking me right in the eyes. I was good at lying to strangers mostly cause they didn't know how to tell when I was lying.

"I love him don't get me wrong, but he's getting on my last nerve. Everyone in the family is giving in to him like he deserves everything he gets. I don't understand why. He has done nothing but bring this family bad stuff. He hasn't been anything good to anyone. He's tearing my family apart." I told her telling her some of the truth. She smiled.

"Thank you for your time." She told me while she went to leave. I just smiled at her. I new who she was working with by the questions she was asking me. I just nodded my head and smiled back at her. "You may wanna spend more time with your daughter, but other than that you are fine and doing good." The social lady worker told my parents while mom just rolled her eyes while she wasn't looking. I sometimes just wanted to die.

"Yes ma'am." Was all my dad said while shaking her hand and giving her a smile. The difference between my parents. My dad could be nice and my mom just rolled her eyes at everything. A habit I had pick up from her.

"I'm so sorry that happen to you." Eli told me while I was telling him about the second time we had CPS called on us. It was also the last time. "Why didn't you tell me about this?"

"How many people a day do you honestly run in to that say 'oh yea my dumb ass older brother didn't like us so he tried getting us taken away by calling CPS'?" I ask him and he was about to speak but stopped.

"You have a point there." He told me and I smiled at him. He new how to be funny in a time for being serious. I just kept finding reasons for falling in love with him. "Can you tell me about the cutting yourself now?" He ask me and I just laughed.

"Maybe later. I still don't see how he found out about that. Mom said she wouldn't say anything to anyone, oh wait. She screamed that at dad one day in front of all the family." I mumbled and he gave me a pathic sorrow look. "I don't want anyone's pity. Just stop now with the looks." I told him and he nodded.

"Well, tell me another story from your past at least." He said and I wanted to cry when I thought of the story I could tell him. The one on my Uncle, not really but he was close to it, getting murdered and the little girl he left behind.

"Okay I guess I could." I told him as we were still sitting on the swings in the park. It was getting a little dark but we didn't care. I sighed thinking about how Carly was doing. I hadn't seen her in at least a good year. She would be nine now being a year old than Brianna and stuff. Brianna was fixing to turn eight anyway so she would have to be nine. "I'll tell you about the day that we found out Benny had been murdered." He's eyes got big when he heard me say that.

8th grade year is always tiring. I sighed on the bus, but wasn't going to let anything spoil my mood for Brianna's sixth birthday. I couldn't believe how big the smallest of us all was getting. She was just to cute sometimes and I just wanted to protect her like a great big sister should. I loved her to death.

"Come on Sissy. Its time to get off the bus and go home." Brianna said with a big huge smile on her face. "I can't wait to eat cup cakes with Grandma and everyone else. Even Daddy is suppose to be home for it." She just had the biggest smile on her face going on and on about it.

"Okay, okay, okay Brianna. I think I got it." I told her laughing getting off the bus. Once we were off we waited on Madison just to realize she had done gotten off before us. "Come on little bit, let's go." I told her and she took off to the house running and laughing. I saw Mom waiting on me. "Hey, why aren't you at home waiting?"

"Clare, I- I don't know how to tell you this." She said and I could tell she had been crying. Oh, crap, what have I done now? I knew she'd get mad at me for- wait. For what?

"Mom just let it out. I'm sure I can handle it. Look at everything we've been through over the few years." I told her with a fake smile even though I knew the news would be worse than this stuff.

"Its Benny. He went missing Sunday after giving Carly a kiss goodnight and going on a date. That didn't think nothing of it. They finally called the police the next day. They found him today. Sweetie, they found him and the girl dead." She said and that's when I broke down in to tears. I did right there in front of God and everyone. Its another person gone.

"No they couldn't of Mom. Oh God, he was suppose to walk his little girl down the isle trying to scare the boys away. He couldn't of- Oh God what about Carly? How's she taking it? I've got to go see my little sister!" I said just breaking in to tears. He was like another dad to me. Sweet little seven year old Carly being like another sister.

"We can't sweetie. No matter how much you want to. We just can't, cause you've got school for two more days. On the weekend we will." She said and went inside. I just laid in my yard sprawl out not caring who was watching.

I had just lost another person in my life. It just isn't fair to anyone.

"Why are you keeping all this to yourself? I wont ever leave you alone. You can tell me anything." Eli said and I smiled a little but the urge to get away was bugging me.

"I know and I appreciate it, I really do. Its just hard to trust people anymore. Don't worry your gaining my trust. Come on take me back to my house. I wanna take you for a ride." I told him and he gave me a questioning look.

"You can't drive. Where in the world are we going?" He ask me as we got up and walked to my house. I just laughed. He must of not ever road a four wheeler.

"I'm taking you on this trail I found. Have you not ever road a four wheeler?" I ask him and he shook his head. "Why am I not surprised. Its not that scary though. Come on hope on." I told him once we got to the house. I got the four wheeler out and he hopped on.

"I would not expect you to be one to ride these things." He said and I laughed getting out of my bad mood I was just in. Nobody ever does expect it out of me.

"I just started being a little girly with the make up and stuff this year. Before this I was the biggest tomboy you'd ever meet. That's my Mom's fault. Well, I tell her that." I said with a laugh. It got quiet for a while and then I stopped. "Were here."

"Wow, its so beautiful. How exactly is it your Mom's fault your a tomboy?" He ask me and I smiled at my favorite story. He could tell it was cause he started smiling too.

"When Darcy was born they couldn't decide if they wanted a boy or girl. One day it would be a boy then the next it would be a girl. Right before she was born they finally decided they wanted a girl. That's what she came out as. So she would act a little bit like a boy some. When I came along they out strait wanted a boy. They didn't get it, but my dad turned me in to his little mini him. It was like that for years, til Lane finally came back in the family to take his place by my Dad's side so I went to be a Momma's girl."

"Until now when they got a divorce and so now nothing seems right." Eli finished off for me and I nodded. We sat down on the hill facing the filed. I smiled at how well he knew me.

"Yea. I seen the divorce coming the first time Lane stepped foot on our yard to come live with us. He just had this look in his eyes. He was mad he didn't have a family like mine. Well, I don't have that family anymore either." I said almost in tears. He just wiped them away when they did fall.

"Its okay. You have me now. You've got my family and Brianna as well. That's all you need." He said and kissed me. It was the best kiss we had yet. He finally stopped not wanting to get to carried away with it. I wanted more but didn't say anything to dazed to speak. Its the best kiss ever.

"Just promise me you won't leave me like everyone else does?" I ask him and he looked right into my eyes when he said this next thing. I could tell he meant it too.

"I promise. I could never do that to you."

Degrassi

"You have to tell us more."

"Yea Clare. You can't keep it to yourself forever."

"Please just tell us." Alli screamed at me and I laughed. It was Holly J, Fiona, and Alli. We were at school on a Monday eating by ourselves. They had called an girl lunch or something. Anya wasn't there just yet having to get work done.

"Come on. Were all best friends here." Fiona said begging me. "Is he a good kisser or not?"

"I'm not telling you anything Boyfriend Stealer." I said with a laugh at her face. "You stole Adam from Brianna, so you just might try stealing Eli from me."

"Two things wrong with that." She told me holding two fingers up. I laughed. "One is only little Brianna can call me that. Number two is why would I try to steal my best friends boyfriend if I have my own?" I had to laugh and roll my eyes.

"What did I miss?" Anya ask with a trey in hand as she sat down.

"Just those two fighting like usual." Holly J said with a laugh. Anya rolled her eyes at us but laughed along with her anyway. Just then Madison came up to me crying.

"Whoa, whoa your not suppose to be here little one. Its not your lunch table and this is the time for you two to stay away from each other." Alli said not noticing the tears I could see in her eyes.

"Alli stop it! Madison don't listen to her and sit down. Now what's wrong with you?" I ask her and that's when everyone could see her crying.

"They found out Clare. You said it would be different this time. That I wouldn't have to worry about people making fun of me. You said Degrassi was a better school. Why did you lie to me? I'm use to mom lying but not you." She said still clinging on to me. What did they find out about.

"What did they find out about Madison?" I ask her and she took in a deep breath before answering.

"They found out about my epilepsy. They started making fun of how I have them." She said and I started getting angry with these people.

"That's it! I'm tired of all this bull crap. Nobody has any right making fun of that. Show me to these people now!" I told her and she gave me frighten eyes.

"No Clare! I Don't need the most stablest person in my life right now getting hurt by me. I couldn't live with myself. Just let it slide. It'll pass after a while. It has to. It did last time too." She told me but still had tears in her eyes. I didn't care and I got up. "I'm going to get Eli on you." She said and I stopped amazed that she would want anything to do with him. "Last time you got in a fight like that you got kicked out of school for a month. I still can't believe you kicked that girls butt." She muttered. I sighed but kept walking.

A few minutes later I heard screaming coming from someone. "Clare no! Don't you dare go and get in a fight. I would love to see someone get there butts kicked for messing with Madison but you can't do this. No matter how much they deserve it." He said and I broke down in his arms.

"Its not fair Eli. We came here to get away from it all. These people can't get away with it." With that I got angry again. I looked over at Madison. "Who was it?" I ask her. She didn't answer and just stayed silent. "Madison if you don't answer me now I swear to God you'll regret it." I told her and she sighed pointing to some random girl. I walked over there.

"Can I help you with something?" The girl ask then she saw Madison. "Aw, did you go get your sister to fight your own battles? You scared to go into a seizure or something? How pathetic." She said and with that I punched her in the face. "You've ask for it now." She told me and we started fighting.

First I was on top of her. I got a few punches to the face and one or two slaps to it too. Next thing I new I was on bottom and she was punching me in the face. I managed to punch her in the stomach and she fell to the floor. I got back on top of her and kept hitting her for a few minutes. We kept doing this for a few minutes.

"Do something Eli! I don't need my sister getting hurt." I heard Madison say with tears going down her face. Next thing I know Eli had picked me off of the girl. I gave him a death glare.

"I'm not done with her! Let me go! Nobody, and I mean NOBODY, messes with my sisters and get away with it. Especially on something as serious as this." I told him and he sighed.

"I know Clare, but you also know I don't like seeing you or your sisters cry. Both your sisters have become little sisters to me too. All you Edwards need is to be shown a little love. Now come on and I'll take you guys home." He told me and I sighed.

"No you can take Madison home if you want. Mom should still be at the house since she's here all week. I'm staying at school. I have to much to get done. I can't afford to miss." I told him and Madison clanged to me.

"I'm not going anywhere without Clare. I'm staying at school with Clare too." Madison said and Eli sighed. He was defeated. He went back to what he was doing and I went back to my table. "Clare?" She ask me in a small voice as we got back to the table and sat down.

"Yes?"

"I think I'm warming up to your little boyfriend. He seems okay and treats you well. I'll get to know him better for your sake. I forgot what it was like when me and you were so close." She told me and I sighed.

"Hey we've been through all this together. I needed to get away from it all and we all jumpped in a car and went. I know you miss the sisterly bonding we did when I had no friends and boyfriend. Anytime you need me with no one else let me know. We can let Brianna go spend the night with Sandy and pull an all nighter." I told her and she smiled. I hadn't seen that in a while.

"Sounds good to me. Thanks Clare your an awesome big sister." She gave me a hug and with that she walked back to her friends and Holly J's little sister.

"What was that about?" Anya ask me giving me a weird look. I just shrugged not really sure myself.

"Well, anyway, so tell us exactly what happen at your date again." Fiona ask me trying to help change the subject. I gave her a smile.

"Yea what she said." Alli told us and we laughed.

"He promised me he wouldn't leave me." I told them with a huge smile. They gave me a weird look. All except Fiona. She new some what of the things that had happen. "Anyway you all still coming over for Brianna's party Friday night?" I ask them and they all nodded.

This was all to be interesting.

Okay so what did you guys think? I know its getting boring now and all and I'm so freaking sorry! I've kinda lost interest in my own life story! =( Sad isn't it?

Well, so hows everyone's summer going? Mine is good so far even if its only been two days lol! I've got a lot planed this summer so I don't know how I'm gonna upload chapters of stories and stuff!

How did everyone enjoy the promo of Degrassi? I pray to god that Eli and Clare get back together! I hope Drew doesn't get killed! Looks like Adam has someone new after Fiona and what is going on between Dave and Alli? That certainly wasn't Sadie under his arm! =) Tisk, tisk with him! =(

Anyway hope you guys have been doing good! I know I have and you better be too lol! It would be nice to know that you have!

Bye for now! =)