Sorry for the long delay, i was out of the country for my moms wedding, then got sick, like really sick, then got in trouble,
then the stupid site wont let me put it up..ahhh
so i wont keep you waiting anymore here it is
i own nothing
Rosa POV:
I slowly walked into the room, I was nervous, what if she doesn't wake up? I rushed to her side taking her hand into mine. "Hey Bella, I'm back, again." I gave her a weak laugh, "Bet your sick of me talking to you, I would be". I looked down at her arms, tracing the scars that were there. "I can't believe we lead you to this, I can't believe I just abandoned you, just for popularity" I gave an unladylike like snort, "Being popular doesn't mean anything but being judged for every stinking thing you do, you never get privacy or time to relax, you always have to be up to date on everything, one wrong move and your the laughing stock of the whole school. I never meant to hurt you", I slowly closed my eyes, replying the scene that I will always regret.
Flashback:
"Its about time you told the toad to get lost", Jessica sneered in my ears. We were in the hallways watching Bella approach. "Do it now, before someone see us with her", Lauren said pushing my towards her.
"Whats up", Bella said finally reaching me. She stole a quick look behind me before making eye contact with me. "Get lost Bella, we can't be friends anymore". Her eyes widened before narrowing.
"Are you seriously ending our friendship, that we had for six years."
"Yea"
"WHY"
"Look at me, then look at you, I cant be seen having ugly friends"
"What", she said dumbfounded,
"Dont act stupid Bella, it just adds to the list of negative about you"
"I...You...Fuck you Rosa, I dont need you as a friend"
"Okay then, get lost loser", I said pushing her. I may have pushed her to hard because she fell on the floor. Tears welled up in her eyes and she sat on the floor glaring at me. "Aw look the little baby's going to cry", Jessica said. Lauren and I burst out laughing. Lauren opened her juice and poured it all over Bella. I was shocked, that wasnt suppose to happen. Bella glared at me before runnning off
Flashback"Over
"I was so mean", I whispered, "I hope you can forgive me, I was young and stupid you know Bella, I love you, please dont give up". Bella's hands tense up. It wasnt long before I saw the blood and I started to scream.
Bella POV:
I dont know what happened, one minute I was listening to Rosa talk to me, the next i'm in searing pain. It felt like someone was trying to strangling me. The walls in my head started closing in on me. I started wheezing not be able to get enough air to my lungs. Pain shot through my whole body making me wanna scream and shake. I knew cancer was bad but this is unbelieveable. I couldnt take it anymore, I tried to open my mouth and scream but it felt like someone was trying to cave my chest in.
I was dying, that had to be the only reason why I was in so much pain. I stopped trying to fight the pain. I was sick of fighting battle I knew I was going to lose. Blackness surrounded me and I welcomed in. I was finally free.
Jasper POV:
"Someone help", I heard Rosa yell. I left James in the hallways staring after me smiling big. I thought that was a little creepy, but I wasnt paying attention to that. "What's wrong", I said breathless as soon as I walked into the room. My eyes widened when I took in the scene of the room. Doctors and nurse rushed in pushing me out the way, trying to reach my sister.
The room starting spinning, my ears ringing, the noise and the room growing mute, as I stared at my sister. This couldn't be happened, I needed more time, Please don't let this happen. Rosa rushed into my arms, I wrapped my arms around her, giving her comfort that she needed. "I am sorry Jasper, I dont know what happen, one minute I was talking to her the next, blood was pouring everywhere".
I didn't answer her, I couldn't, I was still shocked. The doctors finally noticed our presence and told someone to take us out the room. We were dragged walked back into the waiting room by a nurse with tears down her eyes. James stood in the same spot as I left him, only now his smile was bigger, showing teeth and everything."I told you this would happen if you didn't let me see her", he said before he walked out the hostipal.
I sank to the floor, tears streaming down my face, I lost her, I finally lost her, my best friend, my family. There wasn't going to be anymore second chances, no more apologize, no more fun or tears. I gave up on her and she gave up on life.
What the fuck could go wrong now, I looked up and I got my question answered. Alot, Alot could go wrong now.
Rosa POV:
The months following Bella's death was hard. Everyone was still in a state of shock. Jasper wouldnt talk to anyone for weeks, before Alice had enough and forced him to. It was hard telling how she felt about the situation. Not once has she cried, since Bella died. It makes me feel like she knows something. Sometimes when we mention Bella, she would smile and say its for the best. It was uncomfortable and creepy. Emmett was trying his best to keep it together. He didnt know her but he always wanted to. When he heard me cry he would always cry with me. He said tears always help the situation, we should cry it all out. He wasnt afraid to cry. Edward was as bad as Jasper, which confused the hell out of me.
"Come on everyone"Alice said, pulling me from my thoughts. Today was Bella's funeral. Everyone in town was coming which was a shocker to me cause everyone thought of her as a trouble maker. I walked down the stair, in all black. My dress stopped at my ankle but it hugged every curve my body had to offer. When I reached the bottom Emmett grabbed my hand pulling me in for a hug. He rested his head on top of my chin on top of my head. "We will get through this, no matter what, this isnt your fault what happened either, what happened happen you cant change that". I nodded my head but I didnt believe him. It all started with me. I felt Emmett grab my chin forcing me to look in his eyes. "I'm serious Rosa , this isnt your fault." I couldnt argue with the fierce determination in his eyes. I wrapped my arms around his waist and hugged him tight. This guy will forever be my rock.
Jasper POV:
We were at the funeral home. It hasnt even started yet and I had tears in my eye. This was something i wasnt ready to face. This funeral was proving that my sister was not coming back. Alice grabbed my hand and lead us to our seats. I heard my moms loud sobs behind me and I felt my guilt intensify. She hasnt spoken to me since Bella died. I felt like she blamed me like everyone else did.
"Welcome ladys and gentlemen" said the speaker, " We are gather here for the death of our dear friend Isabella Swan".
The tears started falling faster now, nobody has said her name since we have returned home. "She was a great person, maybe did some bad things but then again who hasnt. She was talented and we have a CD to prove it." He walked away from the mic to put the CD in box. Seconds later Bella voice came through the speaker.
"Happy birthday, mom, I hope you love this CD i made for you..I know its cheap but i didnt have time to get you anything, well really its because Jasper said he was busy and kept putting it off, and you know I wont go without him." I heard her sign and I felt everyone eyes on me. "Anyways, I love you mom and this is for you."
See ya sleepin'
On the ground
See ya screamin'
With no sound
When your blanket starts to wear
I'll be there
See 'em peekin'
Every night
Momma's beaten
Don't know why
when your tears begin to shred
ill be there
in those times when you feel all alone
forced to find your way through force unknown
look ahead and dont be scared
ill be there
ill be there through the rough rain and rain and ice
ill be there when the night falls and trouble rise
ill be there when you need me
no matter what how or when
my friend
ill be there
see'm them bleeding
no more smiles
goodbye letters
on the ground
when no one will spare their ears
ill be there
when your back's up
on the wall
Chronic failure
You've been called
When you feel there's no escape
I'll be there
[CHORUS]
I'll be there through the rough winds and rain and ice
I'll be there when the night falls and troubles rise
I'll be there when you need me
No matter what how or when
My friend
I'll be there
Whenever you're faced with what you feel like you can't bare
Call on me and I'll be
Beside you until the end
Lift your head up and stand tall
Promise I won't let you fall
When you reach I will extend
I'll be there
[CHORUS]
I'll be there through the rough winds and rain and ice
I'll be there when the night falls and troubles rise
I'll be there if you need me no matter what how or when
My friend
I'll be there through the rough winds and rain and ice
I'll be there when the night falls and troubles rise
I'll be there when you need me no matter what how or when
My friend
Everyone in the crowd has tears in their eyes. Her voice was so beauty. It seemed like the song i heard in the car was just practice to what it sounded like now. They guy cut the CD off and walked back to the mic. "She will forever be missed, does anyone have anything to say". A few people raised and he handed the mic to my dad first.
"Bella was always a great child, Jasper and her were the greatest thing i could ever ask for. I love her with my heart. She was smart, and beautiful, full of life. Her and Jasper are...were best friend." I heard his voice cracked when he fixed his mistake. "I wish she was here to know how I really felt, to know that i loved her, will always love her, how i was an bad dad, ignoring her when she needed a shoulder to cry on. I should of been there for her...I should of..."
His voice cut off as he fell on the ground sobbing. Sue his current girlfriend rushed over to help him. Rosa gently took the mic from his hands and started talking.
"Hi everyone", she said with a weak smile. "Bella and me were best friend since the third grade actually. I remember her being the new kid. She walked in the room all shy and junk. I saw some bullies making there way over to her and i couldnt let that happen she looked so innocent, so i saved her. I took her to my serect hide out and threatened her that if she told anyone i would not talk to her, she laughed and said who am i going to tell. The rest was history, we spent all the time together, we fought but we always made up". She blinked away some tears, "We arent going to be able to this time, I am really going to miss her, her laugh they way she could make anything funny, if she really wanted to. she was my best friend, and she will always be no matter what".
She handed the mic back to the specker and took a seat, wiping away tears. "Does anyone have anything else to add"
I saw a guy and the back stand up and walked towards. I wipe my eye to make sure my head wasnt playing tricks on me, but it wasnt, there he stood in all his plainness, James McCOW.
"You guys are all so funny", He said with a deadly calm voice, "If she was here right now, none of you would give a crap. You would continue to ignore her, for you friends, girlfriend or job. I dont even know why half of you are here. For example ROSA, you left her, she left you, i think that is kinda fair"
"What the hell do you think you are doing", Charlie yelled at James.
James looked at him, but otherwise ignored him." None of you were good enough to spend time with her. All she wanted was alittle attention. Yea i may have introduced her to drugs, but it help keep a smile on her face. Bella was depressed, everyone in here knows it. She hated her life, no matter what, that girl you guys are talking about i have never meet. The Bella i know was smart-ass, fighter. She was cold and hardcore. She hated Rosa, Alice, and Jasper with a passion. She hated everyone for leaving her, ignoring her, she wanted love and not one DAMN MOTHERFUCKER IN HERE GAVE IT TO HER. She fucking hated her life, she tried to kill herself in front of me, ME. Do you know how that feels to watch someone you cared about kill themselves in front of you, and you cant do anything cause you no this is the only way out of her pain?"
Tears started forming at his eyes and he quickly wiped them away
"You people make me sick, sitting here trying to make her life better than what it was, speck the truth, stop hiding, do you see where hiding gets you? ITS GET YOU KILLED"
He dropped the mic and walked out slamming the door behind. The room shock from the impact. The room was dead silent, no one knew what to say. The speaker picked up the mic and cleared his throat, he opened his mouth to talk, but then closed it.
"We all know the doctors are still looking for her body so we are just going to bury a casket for her." Everyone nodded and stood up. Its time to make this finale
Bella POV:
I stood by the door, thinking over my decision. This was going to hurt alot, physical, mental and emotional. I felt someone grab my hand, "Come on , you can do this", she spoke softly. I closed my eyes and pictured my family, i was going really going to miss them. I nodded my head, i could be strong and do this. I turned around in look the girl in the eye "Are you sure this is safe?" She nodded her head yes. I sighed and walked forward. I never thought i see the day when i listened to Alice Cullen
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