Disclaimer: sadly I do not own scrubs but I do own my ideas.. so there's a plus :)

Just wanted to thank all my reviewers, you guys gave me tones of ideas so thanks :) due to hating of the script format I am going to be redoing all the chapters with a format I hope/pray everyone will enjoy. After I am done updating the chapters I promise to put new chapters up so have some patients. :)

P.S thoughts are in Italics :)

DR. Cox POV :

A few minuets ago Carla and the whole gang came into the room with Newbie's Test results, needless to say I was very nervous.

Well hand them over I said a little angry

She walked over to me and handed me the folder after reading it a few billion times I announced what we all knew.

Cocaine positive I said my voice cracking a little

Barbie and Carla started to cry again and ghandi looked like he was trying very hard not to.. well good it's about time he started showing some emotion! even though I was a little angry I continued reading

"As for the pills its was a mixture of proza, xanax, and Tylenol" I said through wet eyes but just as I was about to lose it the sound I've been dreading for so long finally came. He flat lined.

"Get a crash cart" someone went off to get it I couldn't tell you who. I was too absorbed in trying to get him back and breathing.

Two hours later – or what seemed like it. I heard the most wonderful thing in the world, his heart beat, I staggered back agents the wall and a smile lit up my face, he was alive or at least for now.

After all the commotion everyone decided to go home.

Perry? Carla said placing her hand on my shoulder

Yeah I said, my eyes never leaving JD

"Me and Turk are going home you should Leave and get some sleep"

Didn't you guys go yesterday? I asked not really caring for an answer

"No we stayed in the on call room all night we were both to shaken to go home"

I'll be here I said

Okay she said and kissed my cheek I hugged her again.

And then she was gone and I was here all alone like an idiot watching JD. After his crash he slipped into a coma, we weren't sure he was going to get out of. Yet here I was sitting on this awful plastic chair wishing he'd get out. So I decided to talk..

"How ya doing JD?"

No answer.

Well you look like shit I mused, your hairs gone all flat I laughed a shaky laugh.

I was trying to talk to him like if he was up and well but I just couldn't instead I busted out saying:

"Oh God why did you do it, did I push you to far is that it did I say the wrong thing did… did I make you do this?"

The question first entered my mind when I had the flashback but I've never been able to fully think about it until now

" Did I do this to you?" I stared at him willing him to answer. After awhile he didn't and I became angry, I needed to break something and I needed to break it fast.

I picked up the only thing I could without hurting JD and went to town on that chair... First I threw it agents the wall then with all my strengt,h I bended the legs off then I started kicking it and bashing it in the wall all the while crying my eyes out. I was so into murdering this chair I didn't even realize Barbie came in. When I finally calmed down I stared at her.

" How much did you see?"

" Enough to know you need to talk and that you look oddly sexy while beating up a chair but I also would be to scared of you to have sex wit you in fear of your crazy eyes" she babeled

" Fair enough"

" I brought you a sandwich and some coffee I figured you needed it"

" You figured right"

I walked over to Barbie and took the coffee out of her hands and literally gulped it down then I took the sandwich and ate like I've never ate before.

When I was done I looked at her and said

" he crashed"

" I know " she stamerd with new tears threatening to fall

Just then I yawned

" Why don't you come with me to the on-call room you look tired." When I was about to refuse she said " he's in a coma there's nothing we can do right now, he wouldn't want you to do this to yourself you deserve some sleep.

" Okay " I muttered and walked with her to the on-call room

There was no one else in there so we went on separate bunks but then as I tried to sleep I heard her crying so I said

" You still up?"

" Yeah "

"Come here"

she hesitated for a little bit then she walked over to my bunk

" What?"

I opened my arms for her and she came in

" I thought you needed some help through the night "

She laid into my chest

"Thank you Dr. Cox "

"Call me Perry "

"Okay Perry thank you"

we held on to each other all through the night. We talked a little bit about how it was are faults then comforted each other on how it was not. It felt good to have someone to hold me through the night.

Okay so looks like were getting a little cox and elliott love hahah, not sure if I'll keep that going because I love him and jorden together but we'll see :)