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Just wanted to thank all my reviewers, you guys gave me tones of ideas so thanks :) due to hating of the script format I am going to be redoing all the chapters with a format I hope/pray everyone will enjoy. After I am done updating the chapters I promise to put new chapters up so have some patients. :)
P.S thoughts are in Italics :)
DR. Cox POV :
After everyone quieted down and said goodbye and went off with there shifts I brought in the water and grabbed a chair and sat next to him. I handed him the water and noticed him wince as he tried to grab it.
" Wrist hurting?"
Yeah he stammered
Well thats what you get for trying to kill yourself I sort of yelled
He just looked down, I hope I didint hurt him, the last thing he needs is to feel bad about himself.
" Sorry "
what are you doing here? what about your patients He asked, I could see that he looked hurt that I was probly leaving to.
" Barbie's taking care of em"
"That's good "he smiled that was good I got a smile out of him.. good.
I realized it was time for the heard part
I looked down at my hands "So why'd you do it?"
He looked away from me a tear coming down his eye
I didn't want to make him upset so I grabbed his hand
" Look you don't need to tell me if you don't want to, I just wish you would"
He looked at me then at our hands I hope he didn't think I was gay cuz I wasn't! But like I said I didn't want to upset him so I didn't say anything
He gulped "I just feel so lost, I don't know who I am anymore and on top of that I lost my confidence as a doctor."
I let out a sigh I didn't know what to say so I thought I'd tell him something about me that no one knew
"You know I tried to commit suicide once?"
He looked at me in shock
" What?"
Yeah I said, I was 16 maybe 17 I just couldn't handle life anymore I smiled
"Why?"
"My father was abusive liked to beat me allot on top of that my mother became a drunk and always called me things like a worthless piece of shit you know things like that. So one day I decided enough was enough"
"What did you do? "I noticed he couldint look at me
"I tried to drown myself"I smiled up at him then started making circles with my thumb on his hand
"I remember finding this very heavy rusty old chain, I found a bridge then i wrapped the chain around myself then jumped into the water."
"What happened?" his eyes were filled with shock much like a dear I almost laughed
" I was out cold as soon as I hit the water the doctors said I was dead for 7 minuets. But before I could sink all the ways in a man jumped in after me, pulled me to safety, and took me to a hospital."
"So then what happened?"
"Well nothing really I got better and left the hospital, my father stared beating me more and my mother continued with her insults but this time I didn't care because I knew I could do better. so I worked hard and eventually fulfilled my dream of becoming a doctor."
"Wow I never.. I never knew..."
"Yeah I guess now you know why I'm the man I am today haha"
Jd yawnd and sayed aha
"Hey you should get some rest"
" Dr. Cox? he said, he looked so scared
Dont worry I'll be here when you wake up I smiled at him
" Thanks" he said then he driffted off to sleep
wellcome I said and feel asleep myself
Hope you enjoyed please rate and review :) desided to change it a little bit :)