Disclaimer: I do NOT own scrubs ( hehe or do I?)

INFO: okay so I see my story is finally catching on haha, I feel like I'm stuck though I have so much planed for this story and JD is still in the hospital! so I think there are going to be allot of chapters. Anyway I am SO SORRY I didn't update sooner, I've been very busy and my parents are being weird with " Computer privileges" as they call it. So I'm trying to my best to update. I promise I WILL NOT let this story die. hehe. Anyway I felt bad for giving you guys a short chapter before so here's a longer one :)

P.S shoutout to all my reviwers you guys rock! and also to anyone who's following this story or doing something that relates to this story or me!

P.S.S Thoughts in Italics ( but you already know that) Hehe.

I was sitting in my bed staring at the walls when someone opened the door. I was expecting Dr. Cox but instead it was a guy I've never seen before.
Who's that guy?
HI, I'm Dr. Phillips, you must be John, he said in a squeaky voice.
"Um, I go by JD"
"Oh okay, are you ready to begin?"
" sure"

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The interview went on for what seemed like hours he asked me allot of stupid questions about my childhood and parents. The conversation then turned to my high school years, then collage then med school and finally my life at Sacred heart.
He was always asking me about how I felt during those years and basic questions like that. As a doctor I've seen how shrinks can ruin your life by sending you away or saying you cant work because of the stress. So all I did was lie about basically my entire life.
Halfway before he left, we got into the more serouis issues about why I did what I did, all i told him was that I was going trough a really rough time but now im fine. He didint seem to by it but thankfully, Carla came in and told him he had to leave.

Thanks Carla I said
"No problem Bambi, I wanted to get him out earlier but Dr. Cox kept on blocking me out"
"what, why"
Not sure she said with a nod of her head, she stared at me for a while then finally asked
" Are you okay ?"
"Yep, all good"
She kept staring at me, as if willing me to tell her the truth but there was no way I was gonna tell her that I still felt bad. Then she would be even more worried and she probably wouldn't leave me alone.

After she left I sat there starring at the cream walls in my hospital bed when Elliott came in, she didn't say anything, she just grabbed the chair and scooted over to sat in complete silence for a while, not saying anything. I wonder what she's thinking

Finally Elliott took a deep breath then asked how I was doing. I told her everything was fine and I should be getting out of here in a couple of days. She just nodded and looked away from me. As I watched her I saw tears coming out of her eyes so I asked her what was wrong.

I promised myself I wouldn't cry she said as she wiped the tears off with her hands

" Are you okay?"

" Yeah JD I'm fine, are you?

Yeah, all good I said in a monotone voice, even as I said it I didn't believe myself, I doubt she did either.

So how's work going for you, I feel really bad you've been taking care of every ones patients for them while they were dealing with me, thank you I smiled - or at least tried to - at her and she just nodded her head. After a few trembling breaths she finally regained her composure, looked me straight in the eyes and asked:

" Why did you do it JD? Was it beceause of me?"

I closed my eyes trying to take it all in, she blames herself? why?after taking a few deep breaths myself I sighed then told her the truth, " No.. no Elliott, I mean yeah there was a small part that did this because of what happened... but it wasn't all that... I've just been dealing with allot of stress and well I could of used someone to help me through this and you.. you left me, I was all alone and I didn't know who to turn to and I justfeltsobad" The last part came out in a rush so I hoped she got the rest I took a few more breaths willing myself not to cry God I'm such a girl, wait till Dr. Cox hears about this.

When I finally won the battle over my tears I opened up to see Elliott had left, she left me all alone again. I groaned and decided to go back to sleep.

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( DR. COX POV)

After I left Carla by the nurses station I went over to a patient of mine, Mr. Burton, he was suffering from lung cancer and I had to unforchetly notify his wife and kids that this would be the last time they would see their father. What a Great day

As I walked in I looked at Mr. Burton, I mean really looked at him, he had wavy, jet black long hair that went to his shoulders and a mustache to go with it, his skin was a copper brown mostly seen with people from Indian decent so I was guessing he was part Native American. He also had these dark grayish blueish eyes that looked to be anctient even though the man was barley 50.

I wonder if he knows? What is he thinking? Does he know this is the last day of his life or does he have some weird faith in whatever God he belives in? A million different thoughts passed though my head as I approached them, It was always sort of eery to see someone this close to death, it was like he was almost face to face with it but it was still turning its head to get a better look at him.

Forcing these weird thoughts out of my head I let out a huge sigh and got ready to break the horrible news. " As you know Mr. Burton you're cancer has worsened, I'm afraid there is nothing more we can do"

His wife I presumed begain to cry, she also had the same jet black hair as he but hers was more curly, she had the greenist eyes i've ever seen to like the forrest or a really green plant. I watched as she braked down at the thought of never being with her love again. Stupid people, that's what you get for depending on others, they always let you down... one way or another.

I of course leaned that the hard way when I found out Jordan was cheating on me with a fellow college, the hard spot there was that I took that kid under my wing and taught him everything I knew, and what did he do? he banged my wife!

I usually play it off as nothing to big, but secretly it still hurts, sometimes when I'm holding Jordan I always feel like I'm going to lose her the next day. It was my biggest fear, but of course I would never, ever, ever tell her that.

I watched intently, waiting for Mr. Burtton to brake down as well, I mean come one he was going to die in a matter of hours, but as I looked into his eyes I knew he didn't care about that, all he cared about was that his wife was going to be okay. Well man earns my respect I walked out of there before I had to witness the I love yous and what not. I re-he-he-al-ly did not want to see or hear that.

As I was rounding the Cornor Barbie came running into me nearly making me fall back.

" Hey watch it there bar-"

I stopped mid sentence she was crying her eyes out and she looked like she was ready to have a heart attack, immediately I thought something bad happened to JD maybe he tried to kill himself again? maybe this time he succeeded? Trying to keep my cool I lifted her chin up with my finure and asked as nicely as I could what was wrong.

She started to cry even harder, her whole body was trembling with the impact of her tears that she toppled backwards almost smaking her head agents the floor if I hadn't grabbed her in time.

" Hey, hey now what's wrong"
" HE DID IT BECAUSEOFME" she scream out.

I couldn't really catch that last part so I had to re-run it in my head a few time before understanding, Elliott caused JD to try to kill himself.She was sliding to the floor now and she was probably about to crawl into the fetal position. I usually would of laughed at her stuppiddiy but all of a sudden I had a weird flash back of the night I found out Jordan had been cheating on me. I remember breaking everything in my house and drinking up a storm. I also remember climbing into bed holding my knees to my stomach to stop from crying so hard. I had never really cried once in my life, but that day, that day I did.

Feeling bad for Barbie I reached up and grabbed her form the floor, she barley even said anything as I held her bridal style and headed towards the roof. As I reached the top I checked to see if Barbie was asleep or something because I hadn't heard her make a single noise on our journey. I looked down at her and she seemed to be in another world, lost in some deep thought. Her eyes were all red and puffy and her hair was stuck to her face and neck, I gently peeled the hair off her hot skin as I set her down on the roof.

I walked away from her and let her have some space, while I walked to the edge of the roof and looked out onto the beautiful city. I placed my hands on my head and let the cool breeze hit my face, it felt amazing, I took off my coat and set it on the side to fully get the air. Some were during this Elliott came to stand besides me, she was watching the sky as if it might rain or something, then she finally turned to me and mumbled something.

What? I asked

Thank you she said in a soft voice, I needed this.

Don't mention this, and I didn't mean it as in the saying it was a warning and she new it

" I know, sorry I freaked out back there"

"it's okay I know what it feels like to be hurt like that, again don't mention it" I raised my eyebrows at her to make sure she got the double meaning, clearly she did. I looked at my watch to see that it was time to go, Hey Barbie I said shifts over.

" Oh okay" she said and smiled.

I was going to leave but something was compelling me to stay so I sat there a while enjoying the weather and the view, as I finally stated to feel refreshed I looked over to see Barbie had fallen asleep. I let out a sigh as I got up, stretched my back then picked her up and carried her downstairs. Most of the nurses and doctor's gave me weird looks but I didn't care, from what I knew Elliott didn't have a car so I decided to drop her off home. I really didn't know where she lived so while I strapped her into the seat- mind you she was still sleeping- I pulled out my cellphone to call Carla.

After two rings she picked up, she sounded groggily like I just woke her up,

Hello? she asked

" Hey Carla its me Perry look I got Barbie here, she had some kind of nervous brake down and well now she passed out, shes okay though ... I think. Anyway can you please give me directions to her house?"

it took Carla a minuete to understand what was going on, "Wait what, okay Perry I suck at giving directions but just come and pick me up and I'll help you get there, I think I should spend the night with her just in case."

" Okay I'll be there in about 10 minuets" I said then hung up the phone. I started the engine of my sleek black porshe and raced to Carla's house. When I pulled up she was already waiting outside with a small suitcase. I opened the door, popped the trunk and put her bags in the trunk. Carla went over to the passenger seat and got in then she turned and cast a worried glace at Elliott before clipping on her seat belt.

As I got in I straped myself in as well and started the car, we spoke in whispers since I didint want to wake her up.

" So what happened to her?"

" I'm not even sure, I was coming out of a patients room she ran into me and almost fell on the floor form crying I carried her to the roof so she could get some fresh air then she fell asleep"

" Why would she just lose it?"

" She said something about how what happened to JD was her fault"

" What? Why would she think that"

" Again Carla as Amazing as I am, I'm no phycic, my only guess is maybe that idiot told her"

Carla sent me a glare but didn't say anything, after turning down a few streets Carla told me to we pulled up to an apartment complex which was very nice i might add. nice taste Barbie

I popped open the trunk as Carla got out to get her things, then I got out of the car myself and went to the back seats in the car where Elliott was laying restlessly sideways. Her arm and half her head was hanging off the seat but that didn't seem to bother her, her legs were also cramped up.

I need to get bigger car.

I carried Barbie all the way up to her apartment, then Carla opened the door and I put Barbie to bed in her room, I felt bad about leaving her laying in scrubs but I guessed Carla might fix her out of thous, before I left I tucked her in and kissed her head then muttered sweet dreams.

I wasn't trying to be nice but it was just easier to relate to Barbie because shes going though a heart brake much like mine right now. I felt bad for her. I felt like I needed to protect her.

As you can see Dr. Cox And Elliott are getting close, but I'm not going to let you know were it's going to lead hehe. I have a 5 day weekend coming up this week soooo I will do my best to update a chapter or two during my small VK. :)