Okay so I just want to say I'm very sorry I haven't updated in forever but I haven't had a computer in a while so I just got one for my birthday so Ill be able to update and finally finish this story! I'm sorry for the bad grammar in the last chapter I'm going to re-edit it when I get the chance.

Disclaimer: Don't own scrubs but I now have all the seasons!

(J.D POV)

It was now my last day at the hospital as a patient, I would get a week off for the physiologist called emotional trauma relief and then things would go back to normal. I was so happy to get out of the hospital; it really sucks when everyone here gets to look at you. I felt like I was on display at a museum.

(Daydream)

Man walking with group of people down a hall, get to J.D's door, can see thought window. J.D is sitting in a corner crouched down. "And here you will see an animal that goes by the name of J.D, J.D come here boy come up to the glass so we can see you" J.D sniffs the air before crawling over to the glass then starts to lick it. The group gasps.

(Daydream ends)

J.D shook his head as Dr. Cox came into the room. "You ready to leave?" "Yeah" I said forcing a smile. Dr. Cox closed the door behind him and locked it then he closed the shades. "Dr. Cox?" I asked, he turned and looked at me then rubbed his nose grabbed the chair turned it backwards and sat on it. "J.D, now I need you to promise me I won't ever see you in here again, not as a patient anyway. I need to know that your going to get help, and if you do need anything, and I mean anything don't hesitate to call me, okay?" I nodded stunned by his change of character towards me. " Now don't think that just because I'm being all fatherly now does not mean I'm not going to hold back on you, I promised Carla I would lay off for a while but after that I'm not going to, okay girls name" he smirked at me then turned and walked out.

I sat back in bed to stunned to move then afterwards grabbed my stuff to change into. As I reached for my jacked a small bag with white powder falls out. I snatch it off the ground as quick as I can. Oh my God, did they not search my pockets? Through the week or so that I've been here I went though detox and it was not pretty at all. I thought that now maybe I could have my second chance at life so I promised myself as soon as I got home I was going to flush the drugs down the toilet and never do that again.

After I signed the papers, drove me home since Turk was stuck in Surgery and Carla was busy with the nurses. As we pulled up to the apartment taped my shoulder as I was about to get out "Do you need anything else?" " No, I'm fine, really I am, thank you by the way for all you did" " No problem, Its my job I'm a doctor" he smiled I got a little sad when he said that but didn't say anything, I just nodded and got out of the car.

When I walked into the house I collapsed on my bed and sighed, I got up and took off my jacket when the drugs fell out yet again. I picked them up and headed to the bath room when a voice popped into my head hey don't throw that out, you might need them for later "No I promised myself I wouldn't do it anymore" I knew I was talking to no one and that this probably meant I was going crazy but still I heard a reply So what screw promises, you wasted good money on that Pity for it to go to waste right? Don't you just want to feel the rush again? I pulled my hand back from out of range of dropping the stuff into the toilet. "But, I can't, I shouldn't" Come on, don't you just want to go far away for a while? Somewhere where no one is watching you all the time? Or worrying about you, where all your troubles are gone? I sighed then returned to my room and locked the door, then I opened the bag and set up lines on my bedside table after doing the lines I cleaned off the evidence of what I did and then opened the door because I didn't want to freak out Carla and Turk then hid the bag under my bed and climbed underneath the covers as I traveled to another world.

Okay so I'm glad to be back at writing this although I do admit it took me a while to start writing this one again. Anyway I know this chapter is sort of short but I'll have the next one up soon. My general Idea for this story was lost long ago... guess I should have wrote it down so now I'm just writing what ever comes to mind. I suck I know. Anyway hope you enjoyed it?