Hey everyone here is a new chapter. Everyone please read the bottom info, thanks.
Disclaimer: I don't own Scrubs, just this story haha
Today is my first day back at the hospital as a doctor since my attempted suicide a few weeks ago. I took a leave of absence to try and clear my head and get better. So far I haven't gotten better; in fact I've gotten worse. Not only do I do coke lines every night but I smoke weed and cut myself.
I know I shouldn't do these things, I know I there's really no reason to but I just can't stop. The pain just won't go away and doing these things are the only things that stop it… if only for a moment. I've realized that I'm….I'm broken. I can't be fixed.
I just hope I can keep my act together when I'm working, when I take brakes I'll do some quick lines in the bathroom or go out for a smoke, no big deal. The sound of my clock alarm wakes me from my musings. Here we go.
After I shower, eat breakfast, do my hair and shower I'm ready to go. Turk has the day off but Carla doesn't so she takes me along with her. We arrive with five minuets to spear and after putting my stuff away in my locker it's time to start the day. So far so good. I think pleasantly as I grab my patents charts from the nurses station.
Dr. Cox P.O.V:
It was the kids first day back since the incident and honestly I couldn't be happier. I'm so glad for this to all be over, he's okay now. The day started out very good, I woke up with the love of my life in my arms, she was still asleep so I watched her sleep in my arms. Is this what happiness feels like? I muse as I kiss her forehead gently. She stirs in my embrace and opens an eye.
"Sorry Jordan, I was um just sitting here" I say innocently, no need to make her think I've gone soft. She smiles knowingly dam it! And rises her head up to kiss me full on the lips. "Sure you where Per-per" I smile down at her and kiss her once more before gently moving her and getting off the bed.
"Well I got to go, call me if you need me" I say hurriedly as I rush to my dresser to grab my scrubs. After getting ready and saying goodbye to Jordan and my son Jack. I leave to the hospital. I hope newbie's okay.
When I get to the hospital I bump into Barbie who quickly hides her face as a blush spreads though her cheeks. "Sorry" she mutters. "No problem" I say, I feel like since she opened up to me we have grown closer, as it turns out we actually have allot in common. I turn to leave after straighten myself out when I hear "Dr. Cox?" I turn and look at Elliott who still has her head down. "Thank… Thank you for the other day" she finally says.
"Hey don't mention it, look if you ever need to just talk about anything" I close my eyes as I deliver the fatal yet true words "I'm here". Her head snaps up and she gives me a slight smile. "Thank you" I nod and we both go our separate ways.
As I walk up to Carla I see her talking to Bambi who looks tired, I worriedly look him over before I walk up. He looks skinnier, unhealthy even. His face is more sunken in and it looks as if he has a bit of a yellowish tint to him. He's probly just going though withdraw. As newbie leaves I walk up to Carla and grab the chart she hands to me "How is he?" I ask in a low voice so only she can hear me.
She looks at me with a worried expression; I try to hide my own worry for newbie and try to hide it as curiosity. Of course with Carla it does me no good, dam women she can see right through me! "He's fine; I think he's embarrassed about the whole thing."
"Is he eating? He looks a bit more womanly than before" Carla frowns slightly " I think so, he doesn't come out of his room much" I nod Something doesn't seem right " Okay well I guess I better go" I say as I leave to a patients room
I just really hope the feeling in my gut is wrong, I hope the kid is actually okay.
( J.D P.O.V)
First day back and everything seems to be okay, so far I haven't ran into Dr. Cox witch is something I'm not sure to be happy or sad about. The day went on like I knew it would, People would give me sympathy looks then when I turned my back they would start whispering. It's very annoying!
I sigh as I finish with my last patient before lunch; this unlucky guy got in a car crash and is now brain dead. I had Carla call the family back to the hospital so I could explain to them what there options were. Of course there really was none, but I had to explain to them all there options however hopeless they were. I sigh as I open my locker, I grab out my jacket and close it.
As I walk the halls I bump into Turk. " Hey buddy" I say as I try to move past him. " Hey Vb are you coming to lunch?" " Yeah I'll be there in a little bit, I need some air first" I say as he hugs me slightly and heads off towards the café.
As I climb the stairs to the roof I think I hear the sound of the door opening again but I chose to ignore it and continue on my way to the roof. Prob just my imagination.
When I finally reach the top I walk over to the edge and pull out my pack of cigarettes and my lighter.
I swiftly pull out a cigarette, the soft yet cool texture in my fingers lights a smile on my face, I quickly put the cig in my mouth and light the lighter. After a few moments I inhale the intoxicating smoke into my lungs and let it back out with another breath. I take another drag from the cig and let my mind drift away into oblivion.
Look how high up I am, what a nice fall it would be. One step and all the pain is gone, everything is…gone.
I feel my left leg twitch and I slowly move it forward closer to the edge of the building.
Just one step and it's all gone.
Just as I'm about to make what would be my last step on this earth I hear someone say "Newbie, what are you doing? "
My eyes snap open Oh shit!
Hey everyone! Hope you enjoy this chapter. Poor JD he just can't catch a break, maybe he never will especially if I keep making him depressed and suicidal.
Anyway the poll is up on my page so if you guys can vote that would be great.
I've been looking at the reviews and it seems everyone wants him with Jordan which is fine with me because they are my favorite couple anyway.
I also realized that part of the reason I made this story was to make Elliott and Cox closer, I mean throughout the series Dr. Cox opens up to a variety of people. He even befriends his arch enemy Kelso yet he can't get closer to Elliott?
So anyway keep voting because there's two way this story could go with that mini plot line and I would like to know what you guys and gals want.
Another quick question: Who here wants JD to actually get better? I could either turn this story into a real depression one by having him finally succeed in his suicide, or I can make him get help from everyone in Sacred Heart and put this all behind him. What do you think?