SPIRITSHIPPING!!!
I am too misses the innocent Judai of Season 1 to Season 3 even though the Season 4 Judai is too hot to handle.
I miss the sweet and fun-loving Judai. Sighs… And his bright smile that makes my day happy and makes me smile too.
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For those who did not like this fiction. Thank you for the criticism, I'll say that could help on my writing though it sulks me in depression a little. Well, so, if you have anything more to say to correct me. I'll gladly take it as an advice. It will surely help so I can try and avoid doing that mistake again. I will be happy if you would review again and maybe criticize this chapter. I want to know if there is an error again. Probably, there is, but I don't know what, because I am not a perfect author. If you wonder why I place this to the upper part, it is for the reason that it is also thanks. Because I learn something, SWEAR!!!
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Chapter 2 – Reminisce
What hurts Judai the most now is the realization that he and Johan were no longer a couple. Meaning that Johan could be owned by somebody else, be with somebody else and the worse is, Johan might love somebody else more than him. It was horrific to know that his new self separates him and Johan, but it was darkness didn't succeed separating them, thus make their relationship stronger. But why his new self? Judai fully remembers that his change didn't affect them before. But why now? Is Johan affected long time ago? Or there is just something done wrong? Completely confuse, Judai let out a deep and tired sigh. Yubel felt his discomfort and knew exactly what happened between Judai and Johan. He shows up beside the sad Judai staring on the sea.
"Confuse?"
"Obvious?"
"Would you try apologizing to your dear one? Or ask him what was wrong?"
"Yubel… everything was awkward now. For ones I think I can't understand Johan." He squat down and hug his knees. "I don't know what's wrong with me either."
"He maybe just angry because you don't want to lay with him." Yubel said trying to make the reasons light for the inconsolable Judai.
Judai thought for it a while, trying to convince himself too, but Johan wasn't that low. "That wasn't an enough reason for him to break up with me." Judai looks slowly up to Yubel. "Do you think… he was tired of me… tired of the new me all the time?"
Yubel stared for a while at Judai's lonely eyes, even though, his features were matured, his eyes still held the innocence it has before with a little knowledge to some things though. He looks away, not wanting to see Judai's lonely expression more. "Judai… you know the reason I let you keep your relationship with Johan is because I know he will understand and accept you no matter what. Try looking back at your actions before, you might find the answer why."
"What if I didn't find any?"
"You'll find… if you didn't find anything wrong at yourself, the problem must be on Johan."
Judai thought for it. "I have to understand him."
"That's right. Just don't give up like me, who didn't give up on you." Yubel smiled.
Judai smiled back.
"But don't try and merge the twelve dimensions just in order to bring Johan back to yours." Yubel said in a kind of teasing way.
Judai chuckles a bit. "I won't, if I do that, Johan might never want to be with me anymore." And the thought pained him. "Well, I suppose I should… reminisce." Yubel nodded and turn his head to his left.
"Hey, your croc owner friend is here."
"Hey Judai!" Judai turn around and saw Jim advancing to him. "I was going to visit Johan. But I saw you here in the docks."
Jim gave a smile but only face with a sad Judai. "There is something going on." Jim said. "I assume you must be with Johan but…"
Judai gulped, hanging his head low, "We broke up…"
"Huh?" Jim looked at his friend with a confuse look, but he has a gist of what he meant though.
Judai hang his head low and sat on the cold floor. "Johan…" he shut his eyes tight, forcing the stubborn liquid to stay on the edge of his eyes. But these liquids are so immovable, that even the Supreme king himself cannot control. It fell down. "…he broke up with me…"
Jim made a small gasp, quickly comprehending words to sooth his friend. His expression was shock, never thought to hear those things. He remained quiet.
Judai hugs his knees, burying his head on his arms, trying to console the pain. But no attempt succeeds. He continues to cry, his quiet pained sound floating along the wind. Invisible, but you can feel it.
After a moment of being quiet, Jim's curiosity risen up, remembering the query he wanted to ask to Judai when he came. "I will not ask you exactly what happen."
"Good," Judai said "because I won't tell. You have the important information now, just leave me alone."
Jim let out a sigh; of course he knows Judai won't really tell for now. They are still fresh and it will pain Judai more to remember. "But would you let me know why Johan was sent to the hospital?" Judai visibly shiver. "You didn't tell us exactly what happened."
"He had a convulsion, so he was sent to the hospital."
Jim stared at Judai with a confuse look. "Johan wouldn't let himself be on that state."
Judai let out an exasperating sigh, stands up wagging the pit of his pants and wipe his tears. "Yeah, I know." Judai force a smile. "I guess it wouldn't hurt to tell you that it's my fault."
"W-what?" Jim shrugged a bit, making a shock face. "When Judai let Johan be sick?"
Judai stare far on the sea, reminiscing what just happen yesterday. "Last night, Johan called me to meet up with him in front of a game station here in Domino City. He said he was bored and wants to have fun after that unexpected summer school work. After all, I didn't see him that morning because we both got into something important. When I saw Johan I already know he was sick, but he said it was just a slight fever and insist that he wants to spend time with me, than to lay back on his room all day."
"And besides, I would feel better if I am with you." Johan gave a little laugh.
Judai smiles, "But I should tell you to just rest; we'll just meet up again tomorrow when you feel good."
"Don't have to, I would just feel guilty for that. And I want to visit a card shop here at Domino before I get back to Europe."
Judai hugs Johan on the waist and place a hand on Johan's forehead.
"Come on Judai, you know I only got one week left here in Japan before vacation is over." Johan said in a pleading tone. "I would be fine, I swear. I would just tell you if I don't feel good."
Judai stare into Johan's eyes with a strict look. Johan stared back with loving eyes. Judai gave up. He sighs. "Alright, before you get back to Europe into that damn thesis."
"YAY!" Johan cheered and ran to the card shop across the street almost got hit by a speeding car.
Judai sighed in relief when found Johan was safe and ran to him. Johan, who only got awe when felt the wind of the car, wait patiently for Judai. He received a worried glare.
"Aw, come on Judai. I was just excited that's all. I'm not even scratched by that car."
"Your impulsiveness puts you to danger Johan, your nineteen, you should be more careful." Judai said, a little louder than he intended.
Johan understands Judai was just worried about him. But he didn't like Judai pointing his impulsiveness actions on blame. He pouts, turning around while mumbling. "Yeah, like you're not getting all trouble before because of your impulsiveness." He enters the card shop not even inviting his boyfriend to come with him. Judai don't have to realize Johan was offended, he knows. He felt guilty, making Johan frown, is the one thing he hate the most to happen. He wanted to apologize, but, a mature guy has one word and, he was sure what he said was right.
After visiting card shops and buying new cards, Judai and Johan spent time in a bookstore. Judai didn't look to any book. Not because he is not interested into books, it is because he was looking at Johan. Being wanted to be aware if he will ever feel bad or not, after the little incident about the car they haven't talk much. Judai had been asking Johan on what he feels. Johan will answer that he's alright with a bright smile. Then after some time, Johan hugged Judai on the back and place his chin on Judai's shoulder, sighing tiredly. "You're not feeling well?"
"No," Johan whines "I just didn't find the book I needed."
"We'll just try to look on the other bookstores tomorrow, for now, let's rest." He pulled his left sleeve to look at his watch. "It's nine o'clock; probably this bookstore will be closing." Judai raised an eyebrow. "I don't know why they are still open at these times."
"Business Judai," Johan answered.
"Come on, I'll take you home."
"Could we stay at the park for a little while?" Johan asked, "Please, even only for five minutes. I just want to be there for a while."
"For a little while only,"
Johan smile and kissed Judai's cheek as thanks and they went to the park. They sit silently on the swings, having silence as their background. The silent wasn't awkward, it was something of relaxing. Until, Johan felt something drop on his nose. He easily figured out it was water. He gingerly looked up to the sky, expecting rain to come. But unlike Johan, Judai isn't please when he felt the drop. It would mean they will get wet and since Johan is a little sick, his condition might be worse. He hold Johan's hand and start to pull him out of the swing.
"Let's go Johan, it's going to rain."
"Won't we wait till it comes?" Johan said with cheerful smile, making Judai look at him confused. "We could play with the rain like we used to."
If Judai didn't know Johan, he will think he is insane. Knowing that Johan is not feeling well; playing the rain would do no good to him. "Our cards would get wet; you don't want them to have any damages do you?" Johan nodded "And me too, and to add, you're not feeling well."
"We could put our cards on that cottage over there." Johan pointed the small cottage not far from them, "Or we could put them under the trees like we used to."
Judai let out a sigh, knowing full well that Johan will insist. "Johan… do I need to remind you? You're not feeling well and playing in the rain would make you feel worse."
The rain started to fall, faster than they both imagine. He pulled Johan by the hands but Johan pulled back.
"Johan it's raining!" Johan just smiled and quickly run to the cottage to put his deck into a dry place. Judai followed and push Johan to enter the cottage.
"Hey, I want to play with the rain." Johan complain, stepping outside but failed as Judai grabbed his arms. Johan looked over his shoulder.
"How many times do I have to tell you –?"
"I know! It's raining!" Johan glared, but soon it faded and become a warm smile. "Let's play with the rain Judai, like we used to."
That smile sends a warm feeling over Judai's cold flesh, it always makes him stun and wonder how beautiful Johan could smile, like now. Judai realize that he loose hold of Johan, who was now playing with the rain, running around like a child, laughing with the drops falling on his features. It looked so cute, Judai could have watched all along, but remembering Johan's health and his impulsiveness before. He thinks Johan would be in a bad situation if he continues acting that way.
"Come on Judai!" Johan called happily, waving at the same time. "The rain feels good!"
"Johan, get back here, you'll be really sick if you continue playing there!"
"Well, would you like to play along with me? Let's play tag!" Johan shouted on the cheeriest voice he could make.
Judai looked at Johan with a disbelieve look on his face, "Are you joking? That's childish!"
Johan cast an angry glare on Judai, that reply shock him to the edge. He never expected to hear it from Judai. Thinking that Judai never had changed, it was something that seems very new to him. The Judai he sees, it seems it wasn't Yuki Judai, all different. Of course he knew Judai got matured and in some ways he change. He can't help but think that Judai is pushing himself to maturity. A bad push, that results for him to lose control. Like trying to drive a race car very fast, the engine overheats and was broken. All sudden, the driver cannot control it anymore.
Johan folded his arms in front of his chest. He frowns, "I'll stay here in the rain."
"What?!" Judai sighs, "No, you won't." Judai place his cards on the table and run to Johan.
Johan being alert on Judai's actions, run away from him, laughing as he does so. "Come on Judai, catch me!"
Admit it or not, Judai found the laugh really amusing but will still firm and won't play 'rain-running'. Judai quicken his pace and was able to grab Johan's arm. Judai thought Johan will try to let go but he didn't. Instead, he turned around and hug Judai in the warmest embrace his body could give in this cold time.
Judai wanted to resist the urge to hug Johan back. He will pull back but his feelings wouldn't allow him. At this moment, heart control his mind. The way it is suppose to be right?
Just being this close to Johan gives him the happiness only true love can give. The way Johan's arm is wrapped around his body, is something to make him realize again. He never will let Johan go. He will hold him forever.
But happy moments end…
Judai felt Johan loosening his arms around him and he was feeling weight. He pulled back to see that Johan is unconscious. Panic is starting to rise within him. "Johan!" he called, trying to wake him up, but it was ineffective at all.
"Take him to the hospital, NOW!"
He doesn't have to know who it was. He quickly followed it, but not before he got their cards. When they got to the hospital, by riding a cab, a doctor quickly checked Johan in a comforting hospital room.
When the doctor came out from the double-door, Judai practically jump in front of him and ask questions about Johan's health.
"He fainted because of high-fever." The doctor said.
"I know that! I'm asking if he is alright!" Judai said, his voice was demanding but it was obvious that he was worried.
"Calm down,"
"I don't have time to calm down!"
"He is alright now. His temperature is starting to get back to normal. He should stay in the hospital until he got well, okay?"
Judai breathed a sigh of relief, "Okay, can I see him?"
The doctor nodded and Judai followed him to Johan's room, having the guilt it was his fault.
"I don't think it was your entire fault mate." Jim said, "Johan knows he is not feeling well but he still played in the rain. He should know himself better."
"Don't blame him!" Judai shouted, then again his face turns lonely. "If I didn't hug back, you know, I should have warned him better. I should have… taken care of him better!" Judai's hand fist closes more. "I'm a -"
"Stop!" Jim shouted, making Judai look at him with a blank expression on his face. "I think I know why Johan broke up with you."
"You do?" Judai asked, having the hope that Jim will be able to help him, to fix whatever that problem is, to be able to get back to Johan.
"Yeah, I think it is with you."
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And on the next chapter a change of settings will be planned and if Jim can help Judai.