After dropping Kurt to his house Blaine could tell immediately he was hurt, Kurt had barely looked at him as he muttered good night and practically ran into the house. After the door closed Blaine turned to Amy "that wasn't very nice" she looked hurt and tears formed in her eyes "soorrry, I, I, just want to spend more time with you" a tear rolled down her cheek, Blaine reached out and wiped it away with his thumb "it's ok, I'll go see him tomorrow and apologise, he'll understand" He started the car and drove. They were silent for the entire journey. Blaine couldn't help thinking about Kurt, and how upset he probably was, and whether he should send him a quick text suggesting a get together the following day. Maybe not? He'd probably be going out with Simon anyway.
Blaine pushed Kurt out of his mind as he parked the car outside Amy's house. They entered the front door and headed into the living room. Amy turned on some music and lit a candle. The room was dark and warm. "Do you want something to drink?" "Maybe a coke, thanks" Blaine muttered. Amy headed to the kitchen and Blaine sat down on the couch waiting. He raised his voice "when are your parents back?" suddenly he felt a hand on his shoulder behind him "I'm here, no need to shout, actually they won't be back until tomorrow, so… we have the place all to ourselves..." she smiled sweetly and handed Blaine his coke. She walked around the couch and sat down next to him smiling. Blaine took a sip of his coke and noticed Amy was still looking at him smiling. He leaned back slightly "what are you smiling about?" She put her drink on the coffee table and took Blaine's coke out of his hand and put that on the coffee table too. Turning to Blaine picking up his right hand and holding it between both of hers, she cleared her throat "well, I was wondering if you'd like to ..well.. have..you know.. sex… with me...tonight"
Blaine's mouth fell open, before he could say anything Amy leaned forward and kissed him, hard. She pushed him back on the couch and climbed into his lap. Blaine's head was spinning, he was kissing her back but thoughts were racing through his head, did he want to have sex with her? Yeah, of course, why not? He had never done it before, should he tell her? Maybe she hasn't either? Oh god what if she has and is expecting him to 'know' what he's doing?
Suddenly he realised her lips had left his; she was leaning back looking at him "Blaine! You're miles away…I've just asked you to have sex with me what the hell is wrong with you?" "Err…nothing" Blaine stammered back, "I'm just a bit surprised that you asked that's all, I wasn't expecting it"
Amy smiled sweetly at him stroking his cheek, "you are so cute, I asked you because I could tell you'd probably never ask me. I mean come on Blaine, we've been dating 6 months and you've barely touched me, you've never tried anything with me", she blushed slightly. Blaine was blushing bright red and wishing he was anywhere but there. She sensed his embarrassment "ooohhh", she said raising her hand to cover her mouth in shock "are you…you… are a virgin, I... I never I just thought you were being...nice with me" Blaine was staring at his hands unsure where to look. Amy slid off his lap and sat next to him. "Sorry Blaine, I shouldn't have jumped on you like that, I mean do you want to have sex with me? We don't need to, it's ok if you're not ready" Blaine turned and looked at her nodding "yeah, sure, of course I do" Amy smiled and leaned in and kissed him softly this time, she put her hand on his thigh and began rubbing it gently up and down toward his knee. Blaine's mind was spinning again, he was trying to force all doubts and questions out of his mind and just go with it. I mean has 17 right, he may as well 'lose it' now. Amy is a nice girl why not. Finally after a couple of minutes Amy broke the kiss and spoke again "we should go upstairs, you know, it will be more comfortable there" Blaine just nodded and followed her out of the living room and up the stairs, all the while trying not to think too much about what was about to happen.
They entered a small bedroom which he assumed was hers. It was decorated in white and pink with a single bed in the corner. She just shrugged "it's a small bed but I think we'll make do" she squeezed his hand and smiled. She put her arms around his waist and leaned up to kiss him again. Blaine kissed her back realising she was pushing him gently backward toward the bed, his legs finally hit the bed and he fell backward onto it, Amy climbed on top of him straddling his lap. She began unbuttoning his shirt slowly, running her hands inside the fabric touching his chest with her fingertips, she leaned back "god Blaine you're so hot", he smiled and she leaned down kissing him harder this time. When she was finished opening his shirt she glanced at him briefly sliding down further and began to undo his jeans, Blaine closed his eyes and let his head fall back onto the bed.
Suddenly, from nowhere, an image of Kurt floated into his mind. Smiling, beautiful, perfect Kurt, with perfect pale skin and those perfect soft lips. Blaine could feel soft lips kissing his lower stomach and a hand slowing unzipping his jeans but it was no longer Amy, in his mind it was Kurt, kissing his hip bone reaching his hand inside his jeans and touching him gently through his underwear making him hard, Blaine let out a low throaty moan and Amy giggled "I can see you really like that" Blaine suddenly snapped back to reality, it wasn't Kurt but Amy with her lips inches from his crotch, stroking him gently, her fingers about to pull down his underwear.
He sat up suddenly nearly knocking her to the ground, "sorry, I I can't … I need to go… I'm really sorry" He stood up pushing her off him, buttoning his shirt and zipping his jeans, Amy was sitting on the bed looking astounded "Blaine what's wrong? Are you ok?" "yes", he stammered out "I…I just need to go" He turned and ran down the stairs and out the front door, he jumped in his car, and drove off at high speed, all the time in his mind asking himself 'what the hell was that?' 'Did I just imagine Kurt kissing me, touching me…about to…' and then he stepped on the brakes, pulling over to the side of the road. He just sat there gripping the steering wheel with both hands just staring straight ahead.
The realisation finally hitting him, it was only when he started to imagine Kurt doing 'those' things to him did he start to 'feel' anything, only then did he start to feel aroused or start to get hard. Amy kissing him, touching him had absolutely no effect on him at all.
Thinking about it truthfully Blaine had never had sex with a girl because he never really wanted to, he had kissed lots of girls, it was ok, but he never really got turned on by it. Remembering the incredible sensations and feelings he had just experienced thinking about Kurt kissing him, undressing him, touching him 'there', that really turned him on….. suddenly, he said out loud "I'm gay"
He drove home slowly. He fell onto his bed, putty snuggled beside him, and he just lay there staring up at the ceiling, all night, thinking about his friend … Kurt…..