Kurt wasn't sure how long he had sat on the floor of his room crying. He had eventually crawled to his bed, kicked off his shoes and climbed in fully clothed, covering himself with the blankets. The following morning he awoke but couldn't bring himself to get up, he sent a text to Simon cancelling their lunch date saying he was feeling unwell. He turned off his phone, pulled the covers back over his head, and went back to sleep, it just wasn't a day he wanted to spend awake with his own thoughts.
Suddenly Kurt was sitting in Blaine's car his hand on Blaine's knee and Blaine was smiling at him. Blaine leaned toward him and whispered in his ear "you know I've always loved you, I cannot believe you ever thought I could love anyone but you" He then pressed his lips to Kurt's. God he tastes so good Kurt thought, Kurt parted his lips slightly and felt Blaine's tongue slip into his mouth, it was the most amazing feeling he had ever felt, Kurt's head was spinning and he felt a warm tingling in his stomach as Blaine moved his hand and touched his knee. The kissing was getting deeper and hotter, Blaine's tongue was inside his mouth doing the most incredible things... Blaine moved his hand from his knee and undid the button of Kurt's jeans, he slowly pulled down the zip, reaching his hand inside...
Kurt could hear a distant voice and felt someone pinching his arm, suddenly he became aware of himself, in bed, and a voice really close "hey lazy why are you still in bed?" Kurt woke and sat bolt upright stunned to see his step brother Finn sitting next to him on his bed, "Jesus Kurt, did you sleep in your clothes?" Finn was staring at him. Kurt quickly pulled the blankets up to his chin, not to hide his wrinkled clothes but to hide the obvious erection in his pants. Kurt stammered out "wwhhat ?" "dude" Finn answered "it's like the middle of the day...and you're still in bed, in your clothes! " "oh" Kurt replied "I didn't feel too good when I woke up this morning so i decided to sleep for a bit" Finn looked at him with a doubtful tilt of his head and a raised eyebrow.
"Is there something bothering you, you look like crap" Kurt shook his head from side to side. "Is it Simon, are you guys ok?" Kurt could suddenly see a way to explain his low mood "yeah, it's Simon, I… I… I'm going to break up with him I just don't want to date him anymore, it just doesn't feel right" "oh" Finn replied "that's too bad he's a cool guy"
Kurt glanced over at the clock on his bedside cabinet, it was 2pm, "well, I guess I'll go and let you prepare for the big break up" Finn stood up and left the bedroom. Kurt turned on his phone and checked his messages; there was a text from Blaine,
hey, need 2 talk 2 u, will come over at 7 tonite, ok? B
Kurt wondered what exactly Blaine needed to talk to him about, oh god please tell me he didn't 'do it' with Amy, Kurt shuddered. He sent a quick reply
Sure, 7 is ok, c u then, K
Kurt jumped out of bed and headed to the bathroom, he locked the door and striped off his clothes, he couldn't believe he had actually slept in his clothes. He turned on the shower and stepped under the warm water. It felt so good on his skin. Looking down he was still half hard from his dream, he slowly moved his hand and gently touched himself, he wrapped his hand around his penis and began stroking himself in long slow movements feeling himself get harder with every stroke, his dream came flooding back into his mind, Blaine kissing him, touching his thigh, his tongue in Kurt's mouth, the warm wet feeling of his lips, god Blaine's lips, and his hands, what Kurt wanted Blaine to do to him with his hands, Kurt's strokes were faster now and he could feel himself nearing climax, "Blaine" he gasped out loud as he came. He leaned forward bracing himself with one hand against the shower tiles as he stroked himself through his orgasm.
After his mind cleared, he couldn't believe what he had just done, he had masturbated in the shower thinking about his best friend. The guy who had been there for him for 10 years through everything life had thrown at him. Kurt suddenly felt sick and full of guilt, what the hell was he thinking? Blaine was his friend, his STRAIGHT friend, what was the point in even thinking about him in a sexual way and why now?
Was it Amy? Was he just jealous that Blaine was spending more time with her? Had he always been attracted to Blaine? No, he was sure the feelings he had for him were new, they hadn't been there before, had they? Should he tell Blaine? NO, that would be crazy he'd freak out, would he understand?
When Kurt finally 'came out' and told Blaine at 14 that he was gay Blaine had accepted it immediately, saying that he'd always 'kinda assumed' Kurt was gay and was happy that he'd found who he was etc… he was totally cool with it. It didn't change their relationship in any way and Kurt loved and respected Blaine for that. From that day on Kurt knew he and Blaine would be friends forever.
Kurt stepped out of the shower, and began to think, he really should break up with Simon.