The following file was written in Spanish and translated to English with as much accuracy as possible. The file has been unedited. Narrated by "Pyro."

Well, I'm back again. I refused writing on this next topic until now because I just hate thinking about it. But there's no way I'm going to come to terms with it if I keep running away from it. In my first entry, I mentioned how my sister and her boyfriend both killed themselves in order to escape this nightmare we now call a world… what I didn't mention was that I was there when it happened… and I even gave her the gun to do it. Let me start from where Advent left off. I went with Sammy-chan and Tezema over to the nearest supermarket in the van. It had been less than four hours since the breakout began, and we were looking for supplies to survive. Kazu and Advent were out looking for guns and whatnot, so we were stuck with clothing, food, water… all that stuff. I gave Meg the pistol I had used before. The baseball bat was still in my possession, and Sammy-chan was left without a weapon. For now, at least. As we drove to the local supermarket, we noticed that there was a huge crowd of people screaming to get in as the infected were ripping them to shreds. Their screams will forever ring in my head, from the smallest child wailing for their mother, to the largest man screaming after he had been bitten. Since there was no way into the supermarket from the mass of chaos, we had no choice but to take the back alleyway. We parked the van about one block away, where the most we saw were a few of the infected. Walking slowly, we managed to avoid any confrontation until we got into the alleyway. The alley was filled with rotting corpses that had been piled in a row, who placed them there or why was of no concern to me. The smell of rotting flesh still bothered the three of us, there was no way we couldn't bypass without retching a few times. I held Sammy-chan's hand the whole way through. She would have seemed grateful to me, if she weren't worried sick. Tezema, on the other hand, kept the gun drawn and our backs covered. I don't know what kind of training she went through in America or if Advent taught her any of these things, but it sure seemed to pay off here. We reached the backdoor of the supermarket and I got the signal to knock the door, I slammed it with my fist and yelled out

"Hey! Someone open the fucking door!" Only to get this response

"Fuck off, cabron! If you want supplies, then go somewhere else!" I grunted at this man and shouted back

"Listen to me, asshole! I'm not in the fucking mood to put up with your bullshit! Open up this fucking door, or I'll break it down myself!" this bastard started laughing at me… he was pissing me off. Meg had just about enough of this guy and shouted out to him

"All right, look…" She pulled out the pistol and aimed it at the small window he had looking at us, and she continued speaking

"You have two seconds to open this door, because if I have to break it down myself, the next thing I'll be breaking is your face with a nice shiny bullet." Just before he could respond, the door would open and the man's unconscious body would be sprawled inside the store, and no one was seen. We took the chance and ran in there with our guards up, it was better than risking the infected getting to us. As we ran in, Tezema immediately shut the supermarket door, and we walked in towards the market area. It was hell. I may sound redundant, but there really is no better word to describe it. In front of the door, people with guns and melee weapons fended off wave after wave of the infected, with little chance of lasting much longer. Dead bodies sprawled down the aisles, some had bite marks, others were fresh, and loved ones were crying on top of the corpses. I remember children crying on their parent's corpses, widows wailing over the rotting bodies of their spouses, but the most heart wrenching sight was seeing this mother shake over the corpse of her daughter with a kitchen knife in her hand covered in blood, and a large gash in the daughter's head. Sammy-chan and I couldn't look at any other second of this, but Tezema walked over to the two of us and shouted to our faces, "Get over it already!" she pointed at the people barricading the doors from the infected and then the crying victims. "From now on, this is how it's going to be. We can either accept it—or die. Make your choice!" I opened my eyes and took another long look. I looked at the mother who stabbed her daughter… and saw that she had large gashes down her arms on both her arms. Sammy-chan couldn't take it anymore and began to burst into tears. I joined her, and Meg grunted at us both "Why the hell are you crying! You honestly think crying like little bitches is going to help us or anyone else! Especially you, Pyro! Man the fuck-" I interrupted her; I honestly had enough of her shouting

"SHUT THE FUCK UP, MEG!" She was about to speak before I continued, more pissed at her attitude than what she was saying "You're telling me to 'man up!' To expect me or anyone else to look at this like it's fucking normal! To tell me I can't even show sympathy for these people! This new world fucking sucks, I fucking get that, Meg! But you are not making me or anyone else to lose my fucking humanity!" Still a bit ill-tempered, she sighed in frustration, turning away from the two. Pressure was not the solution, either. Instead, she sighed and turned around, looking at these people. She continued speaking "They deserve sympathy... But even that won't change what's already been done. It's only slowing us and them down." She was sniffling through gritted teeth and even held her hands up to her face. I guess it was too much for her. Sammy-chan looked over at her and held her arm, Tezema just hugged her, and Sammy-chan hugged back, the two of them stood there for a while, and I let them be. For a moment, I thought about taking some of these people with us. It may have seemed like a good idea, but it just wouldn't have worked in retrospect. Most of these people were broken, or too young to understand what was actually happening to them. They would have either broken under the pressure or simply not have been helpful. Could I have saved more lives in spite of this fact? To be honest, I'm not sure what I really could have done. Considering everything… was just too much. Before I could even make this decision, I had a hand on my shoulder. I turned around and figured that if it were an infected, I would have known. It wasn't, I'm happy to say. Who I saw was actually Julian, my sister's boyfriend, and I almost laughed out of happiness when I saw him.

"Bro! You're alive! Man, am I glad to see you!" Julian and I exchanged a quick hug, and he looked at me in the face and nodded.

"I took care of the guy who tried to block your way in here, I figured he was an asshole the moment I met him. I had to take care of your sister, though, she's still in shambles." I gasped and shouted

"My sister! She's here! Where!" Sammy-chan and Tezema looked over at us and paid attention to what was happening. Julian just walked towards her, the three of us weren't far behind, on the way to her, he explained what had happened.

"Your sister and I were sent here to get food for a dinner your family was going to have tonight. It happened almost immediately, the monsters swarmed the front exit of the store, and the majority of people inside were killed immediately. We had other people trying to get in, but we had to keep the doors shut. I would be helping the people at the barricade right now, but your sister… she needs help, Rodrigo, you need to do something." I sighed as we got closer, my sister and I were never close, I really don't know why, I had always loved her, and I know I wasn't the perfect brother, but even still, I just wish there were moments she and I could connect together more. She was at the produce section, sitting down in a fetal position, and her head was leaning towards her legs. It's a sight that will haunt me for the rest of my life. I ran over to her and knelt down next to her, and asked her

"Cristina? Hey? It's me, your brother, Rodrigo. Please… talk to me." She looked over at me and her face was red with tears, she extended her arms over me quickly and held me close. I held her back and she whispered something to me that would shake the very core of my being

"Kill me…" I almost jumped up out of the embrace, and shouted, but I knew that wouldn't help. I looked face to face with her and asked her with as much sadness I had felt up to that point.

"What! You can't be serious! Mom and Dad are dead! Do you honestly think that I can afford to lose you! Or anyone else for that matter!" The others seemed confused, Sammy-chan asked me first

"Pyro, what did she ask?" I looked down and gritted my teeth.

"She wants to die…" Julian's eyes widened, Sammy-chan gasped, and Tezema sharpened her eyes at Cristina. She would have spoken but I said before she could

"Not a word, Meg. If I'm our leader… then you have to listen to me. Please… let me do this." I looked at Cristina again with a clearer face and responded "Look, Cristina… that's not how you should be thinking. Like I said, mom and dad are gone. They died saving me and Gabriel, and Sammy-chan. We can't just give up and die now. We need to keep moving and make sure we stay alive. Julian will come with us, too. As long as we stay together, we can stay alive." She looked at me with empty eyes, as if my sister no longer existed and was drowning in despair. She repeated those same words, a bit louder this time, however.

"Kill me…" It was clear at this point what was going on. Even if my sister had come with us, she would have tried to die at any given moment, and endanger us regardless of what was going to happen. From a tactical standpoint, it was suicide. However… that doesn't mean I wasn't crying. I cried in her face, and she cried with me too. Sammy-chan had tears flowing from her eyes in disbelief, Tezema was still thinking about all this, and Julian shut his eyes tightly, with tears flowing from his eyes as well, he responded

"She witnessed it… you saw the mother who stabbed her daughter, right? She saw the whole thing. She knows what happens if you get bitten. I think… she just lost it after that point…" It was then I came up with this idea. I pulled out the gun and handed it to my sister. She looked down at it and gasped herself, and I looked at her right in the face as she took it.

"Meg just told me that we need to adapt to this world… if you think you can… then come with us, and we will survive. Otherwise… do what you want with this. I refuse to kill you." When I finished, I stood up and walked to Sammy-chan. She looked at me like I was crazy, and said

"Pyro! What the hell are you thinking! You think she's not going to shoot herself!" I turned around and sighed, and looked at Sammy-chan right in the face, while looking over at my sister. I spoke with as much certainty as I could muster.

"Sammy-chan, let me ask you something. What is the most important thing for us to do right now?"

She looked at me with slight confusion and couldn't respond. I think the shock was getting too much for her. I responded with a clear face

"Survival. We aren't in some war where the conflict will be over in a few months or even a few years. We're dealing with a new world, a terrible world where the only thing that matters is survival. Everything we've ever worked for, or worked to achieve has been thrown down to hell. This new world demands extremities that we are seeing. If we do not even have the will to survive, and do what is necessary… then we might as well be dead."

"Pyro… do you really mean that…? Do you really believe that! Are you saying that those who don't want to survive should be forgotten! Or killed! Do you honestly think that you can watch your own sister die just because she feels this way!" I shouted out

"LOOK AT HER!" Everyone turned to face her and saw that she was slowly aiming the gun to her head. Tezema ran over and held the gun from her arm, trying to wrench it from her hands, she shouted out.

"And you're supposed to be the big sister! You're going to leave your two little brothers here in this world without your support! What the fuck is wrong with you!" My sister just looked at Tezema and said

"Kill me…" Tezema gasped and saw her eyes as well. She had seen these eyes before. And let go of the gun, leaving it in my sister's hands.

"FINE THEN! DIE, JUST LIKE THE REST OF THEM!"

Sammy-chan wanted to run over, but I held her shoulder. She looked at me and saw that tears were flowing out of my eyes. Julian couldn't even move. He couldn't register what was happening. He looked at me and asked

"Is this… what she really wants?" I could only nod slowly and cried more

"It sure as hell isn't what I want… but… I can't see her suffer anymore…" She aimed the gun at her head… even though I had already heard gunshots, and would hear many more for the rest of my life… this one… would haunt me forever.

BANG!