Disclaimer: I do not own Twilight, sorry.

( Bella's P.O.V)

Another nightmare.

I was walking though my house, all was silent. My mother was at a doctors appointment and Phil was at a baseball game. I felt a cold chill run down my spine as a sense of foreboding overtook me. Shaking my head quickly to ignore the feeling I continued making my way down the long hallway towards my room.

As I opened the door I carelessly threw my bag on the floor and sighed contently. Life was good. If only I knew how in mere seconds my life would be flipped upside down.

Suddenly the door closed behind me and I turned to see a masked face staring at me. The face was white like the dance group the jabbawalkess. I gasped. The intruder and I stared at each other for what seemed like hours.

I didn't know it then but this would be my last few moments of peace before my life would forever change.

Soon the peace was broken and the stranger came forth grabbing my neck in one hand and pushing me towards the bed on the other.

I was shocked, I tried to scream but nothing came out.

In a menacing voice the stranger ordered me to take off my clothes. Seeing that I wouldn't comply the intruder reached into his pocket and pulled out a knife.

"Do what I say bitch or I'll kill you"

With a jolt and a cry I woke up covered in sweat and breathing heavily. All memories from that day came to the front fort of my mind causing me to brake down in tears. I heard the floor creak from the hallway and gasped frozen with fear. The door opened slowly. My body frozen with fear I stared at the doorway as a sickly feeling overcame me. I felt blood in my mouth and realized I was biting into my lip hard. Not really caring about the blood I bit down harder.

As the door opened my heart stopped, then in popped the head of my dad Charlie.

"Something wrong Bells?" he asked.

My heart picked up speed again and I began to hyperventilate.

"Whoa Bella what's wrong" My father came running into the room and grabbed me in his arms. I flinched and he gave me a worried expression. He pulled me into his embrace and put his head on mind while I cried silently into his shoulder.

"Bad dream?"

I nodded into his chest as more tears arose.

"It's okay Bella, I'm here now no one's going to hurt you" he cooed softly in my ear.

I started to relaxed and leaned into his chest, I faintly noticed he was still wearing the same plaid shirt from earlier. I inhaled his sent deeply to try and calm myself faintly recognizing the smell of booze in cigarettes. I smiled slightly into his chest and fell asleep in the arms of my father.

I woke up to a gentle push and turned to see my father standing over me with a worried look on his face.

"Are you okay Bella?"

I nodded "Yeah dad" I said in a raspy voice.

"Here drink some water and if your up for it get ready for school"

I nodded again and drank the glass with one gulp.

"I'll be downstairs if you need me" with a click Charlie was gone and I was alone with my thoughts.

I decided I should go to school anyway a part of me realizing I just really wanted to see Edward but I shook it off as anticipation of seeing my friends.

As I walked down the stairs I heard Charlie on the phone so as not to make any noise I walked slowly.

"Renee did anything happen to Bella while she was with you…Yes I've seen the Scars…..No of course not she's my daughter and I'm going to help her….. Because look at what happened when she was left in your care!"

I cringed. So Charlie had seen the scars. Leaving a quick note that I was off to school I walked out of the house.

As I got to school I ran into Alice who looked at me with a worried expression.

I just shrugged it off and went over to Edward who was looking at me with a dark look.

"Something wrong?" I asked as I pulled to cigarettes out of my bag "Here this rounds on me"

Edward took the cig silently. "What's wrong I asked again.

Edward looked at me with distant sad eyes "Can we meet up here during lunch?" he said managing a small smile.

"Sure "during the rest of our smoke session Edward and I didn't talk. The air was full with dread and anxiousness and it wasn't coming from the smoke floating around us.

As soon as his cig was done Edward nodded at me and walked off towards his next class.

"I have a bad feeling about this" I muttered as I finished my cig and walked over to my class as well.

As soon as the bell rang for lunch I bolted from my Spanish class leaving a very surprised Alice in my wake. As I neared the parking lot a sense of foreboding overtook my senses and I couldn't help but shiver. Shaking my head slightly as if to clear away the awkward feeling I continued my walk over to my truck all the while looking around at my soundings.

He's not here…He's not here Bella Snap out of it!

Suddenly a hand griped my arm causing me to whirl around with a fearful expression barley able to contain my scream I gasped when I realized it was just Edward. He gave me a started look before taking his hands off me.

"I'm sorry Bella, are you okay you looked like you seen a ghost"

" I'm…I'm fine. Just startled me is all" I stammered.

Edward started at me worriedly before sighing "Okay well would you like to go to our spot?"

I nodded feeling myself fill with glee at the fact that he called it our spot. We decided to take his car since it made less noise so we wouldn't get caught when we left the school parking lot. Edward was silent the whole trip and once again I felt the familiar feeling of foreboding overtake me.

Soon the car ride was over and Edward and I made our way over to our spot. As we were getting out of the car I noticed Edward take his backpack with him, I took mine as well so we could smoke the bud Jacob gave me.

As we reached the clearing Edward and I went to sit in the middle of the clearing. He seemed deep in thought so I sat there looking at all the beautiful flowers and trees around us. After a few moments Edward finally spoke.

" Bella I….um I have something of yours"

huh?

Before I could answer Edward reached into his backpack and pulled out an all to familiar black bag of mine. With force he through it towards me, it landed with a hard thud on the ground much like my hopes for how this evening would go.

I stared at it for a while wondering why I hadn't thought about it.

You didn't need it because you had Charlie, he helped you.

Feeling a sudden anger at Edward I lashed out.

" Where did you get this, did you go though my stuff?" I yelled.

Edward remained calm and told me in a controlled voice what happened after I ran out of the class room.

You idiot. You fool! I yelled over and over in my head; I'm so stupid why didn't I think to take my bag with me. Why did I act stupid and run out of the classroom. I am like he says…I am retarded, and worthless. A stain.

I jerked out of the ranting in my head to see Edward gazing at me worriedly, I felt something wet tough my cheek and brought my hands up to my face. As my figure felt the cool wetness of my cheek I realized that I was crying.

Way to go Bella.

Angrily I whipped my hands across my face " What do you want my life story or something" I said bitterly.

" No…but I want to help you, and If you're up for it…if you trust me, I'd like to know why"

I stared up at him unblinking. " Why should I trust you?"

" Because I've been there before" he said quickly a pained expression overtook his features as he said it and I couldn't help but see sadness swelling in his eyes.

" You…you cut?" I stammered shocked that a guy like him would do something as destructive as that. I mean Alcohol and the occasional smoke is bad I know but self harming. That's way more destructive.

" No… but I know someone who did"

Of course.

" So just because you know someone doesn't mean you can help me or they can I mean who-"

He cut me off with a sharp look " She's dead" he said in a pained voice.

" I'm….I'm sorry"

He just continued to stare at me but I knew he wasn't actually seeing me, he was far gone.

Last year Alaska:

The house was silent, the family save for the eldest daughter were out on a vacation.

" Tanya you here? I thought you sounded pretty upset so I came over" A voice yelled. Hearing no answer the figure continued walking into the house.

Cautiously the figure walked into the main room and up the steps. He knew the house like the back of his hand having sort of grown up here.

As he reached the top of the stairs he called out once more.

" Tanya are you here?" after waiting a minuet or so he decided to venture further towards her room. As he neared the door he felt a chill run up his spine. Nervously gripping the doorknob he opened the door and was met with a tragic and horrifying site.

The room was a pale pink with some stuff animals littered on the floor, pictures of a girl and her family, of her and her boyfriend. A white desk sat facing the window which books and papers were scattered upon blocking a good view of outside.

A queen canopy bed with creamy white sheets and posts sat in the middle. On the bed laying face up was a beautiful girl with strawberry blond hair. The usual rose color on her cheeks was gone replaced by a paleness that looked so foreign on her skin it gave the figure goosebumps.

Her legs were drawn up towards her stomach while her hands lay at her sides. Upon further inspection by the figure the sheets were the girl was laying were a deep burgundy red color that seemed to still be flowing out from the young girls wrist. Aside her body was a razor and a red rose.

"No…God NO!" the figure yelled as he clutched her body to his. His arms and legs covered with blood. He stroked her hair and her face crying for his lost love. Gathering up his strength he pulled out his phone and dialed the police.

" She's dead" was all he could muster into the receiver before he too collapsed besides the pale beauty.

Present time.

" She died because of that you know… cutting, she killed herself. Cut her wrist…. I couldn't stop it.. Her…I couldn't stop her in time" Edward cried out.

Not really thinking I crawled over to him and wrapped my arms around his sleek fame.

Edward clutched onto my embrace as he fought for control and after a few silent moments he let me go.

" Sorry" he muttered

" It's okay, so can I hear about you now?"

I braced myself trying to muster enough courage as I could. I felt my hands grow clammy and my heart threatened to explode as I finally told someone what happened.

" I…I was raped"

Hehe Cilffy. Sorry it's so long but I needed to explain something's. Well now you guys sort of know about Edwards past. There's not much left to explain now except his history with Tanya so that's coming up soon.

And what Bella was rapped…I assure you there's more to it so stick around.

Also please review they fill my heart with –dare I say it- Joy.