.:CHAPTER THREE – Memories I wish I didn't have:.

"What do you guys want to do?" Kendall asked as he stared at the Palm Woods Pool in utter boredom. He turned his head to the side and looked at Logan, Carlos, and James as they stared at the pool, the very same expression of boredom exhibited on their faces.

"I don't know," Logan replied with a short shrug. "What do you want to do?"

"I don't know," Carlos spoke up. "What do you want to do?"

"I don't-"

"Stop!" Katie cried as she walked over to the four boys, her hands over her ears. "Please, just stop!" She moved her hands from her ears and glared at the four of them. "I mean, come on! You're Big Time Rush, four of the most famous guys in California, and probably Minnesota, right now and you're getting bigger!" She threw her hands into the air. "And you just sit around here all day complaining and saying that you're bored? How can you be bored? This is LA! Hello!"

"Yes, but you're forgetting that in LA, the only way that you can get around is if you have a car," Logan reminded her patiently. "Which we do have, but have no one to drive with."

"Ugh," Katie slapped herself on the forehead. "Duh, genius, it's called getting your license." When the guys didn't move, Katie just rolled her eyes again. "You guys are seriously pathetic."

'And there goes Katie, going off on her tangent about how dumb and annoying we are.' Kendall thought, smiling to himself. 'I can't help it that it's one of our only days off and we don't really have anything to do. I mean, we're always hanging out at the Palm Woods or the mall, and when we're not there we're at school or working on music. So there's not much that we can do before we get really bored.'

"So I was at the mall and I thought that a bunch of girls were following me because they recognized me," Dak Zevon commented as he walked through the doors of the Palm Woods pool and over to the four boys, his best friend Wally 'WayneWayne' Dooley and his little sister Lizzie following behind him. "But it turned out that they thought I was you." He pointed over at James and then looked down at him. "And why are you guys wasting time just sitting by the pool…like you normally do?"

"Because they're a bunch of idiots." Katie stated, the word now seeming to become her favorite adjective to describe the guys.

"Guys are always idiots," Lizzie replied as she pulled a piece of her braided hair behind her ear. "Did you just figure that out?" She and Katie started to laugh as Dak rolled his eyes at his sister's antics.

"It's not like girls aren't confusing." WayneWayne jumped to Dak's, as well as the male populations', defense. "I mean, should we give you a gift on an anniversary when you tell us that you don't want something? Do you really mean it when you say you're not mad?" His eyes lit up. "Oh and this one is good too, how about when we make one little comment, when we're absolutely joking, and you somehow make it that we've insulted you beyond words?"

"As much as I'd like to have a battle of the sexes," Kendall got to his feet and stretched his back cracking. "I don't think you want Katie to glare at you like that for the rest of your life," He said and motioned over to Lizzie and Katie, who bore identical death glares on their faces. "If I didn't know any better, I'd say that they were spending a lot of time with Rhuben."

"It wouldn't surprise me." Dak replied and then shielded his face. "God, he's sorry, just stop it with the eyes!" He cried as the other guys started laughing. "Dudes, let's go to the basketball court or something, sitting around a pool all day is just boring."

"Do whatever you want," Lizzie gave a smarmy smile. "Just know that whatever you do, we'll have more fun." She then turned and gave her brother a hug around the stomach. "See you later, bro." With that, she hooked her arm through Katie's and the two left the Palm Woods pool.

"Speaking of girls," WayneWayne turned to the other guys. "Where are Jo, Camille, and Stephanie?"

"I don't know," James frowned as he suddenly whipped a mirror out from his pocket and held it up as he moved his fingers through his hair. "Normally they would be over here commenting me on my hair and ruggedly-handsome good looks, but today," he put the mirror away. "Nothing."

"Are you sure you didn't dream it?" Logan asked in a condescending tone. "Because not every girl in the world is into you." Logan suddenly leaned back as James leaned closer to his face.

"That's what you think." He said in a low tone, his hazel eyes narrowing.

Kendall shook his head as he watched his friends' interactions with each other. Every now and then he wondered why he was friends with them and then he came to the same conclusion each and every time. They were too weird not to be friends with each other. James had an obsession with his looks and Kendall had to admit that from time to time James had helped keep from looking like a fool. Then there was Logan, obviously the smartest one out of all of them, he kept Kendall from failing and helped him on any set of homework or a project when he asked for it. It definitely helped keep him from getting a D in math when he was back in Minnesota. Carlos was the one that he probably enjoyed hanging out with the most, because he was so crazy and blurted out random things to do, which they usually ended up going along with, even when they think it's a bad idea at first. And then Kendall was the leader, the most level-headed, and the one that called all the shots. Together, it made the four of them inseparable.

But then there was Dak and WayneWayne. Dak was one of the first celebrities that the guys met when they got to LA and they were grateful for it as Dak knew what they were going through as he is a famous teen-icon or whatever. (No one really knew his 'title' anymore). Dak was a guy that seemed to be a mixture of all four of the guys and that's what Kendall liked about him, his personality made it easy to become friends with them. Then there was WayneWayne, Kendall and WayneWayne hated each other and first and from time they still exhibit feelings of discomfort around each other although they're 'semi-friends'. WayneWayne wanted to be in BTR at first, but then Kendall and the others kicked him out and humiliated him. He came back to apologize, Camille, who had known him for years, explained that he was being sincere, and became their friend too.

"Basketball sounds fun," Kendall mused as he rubbed a hand over his chin. "Besides, we need to give Bitters a break from seeing us," he smiled wickedly. "I'm tired of him glaring at us suspiciously each time we move through the lobby." His smile widened. "But let's make this a little more interesting-"

"I never like it when you say those words." Logan stated as his eyes narrowed slowly. "Usually they mean that you have an idea for a bet, which means that you'll get so competitive that-"

"What the bet?" Carlos interrupted, his eyes widened with eagerness. He even started to bounce up and down on his toes.

"Calm down, hyperness." Dak placed his hands on Carlos' shoulders and held him still. He then nodded over at Kendall. "Let the man finish talking."

"What do you have in mind for this bet?" WayneWayne asked, looking interested.

"How about this, the losing team has to…." Kendall looked around the pool, and at the people that were sitting by the pool and then grinned evilly as he turned back to the other guys. "The losing team has to streak the entire first and bottom floor of the apartment building. Bonus points if Bitters sees you."

"Deal!" Carlos immediately replied, bouncing up and down on his toes so hard and fast that Dak had to let go of him. "Let's go play now! This is going to be awesome!"

"Shirts vs. Skins?" James suggested and then grinned as he wiggled his eyebrows. "I'll be shirts of course."

"Please don't do that." WayneWayne stated with an odd expression on his face. "So how are we going to divide the rest of the teams?" He asked and his voice slowly trailed off. "Since Kendall and I can't be on the same team…"

That was definitely true, both boys got so competitive that if they were on the same team they would even steal the ball from each other. Logan has rationalized that unless they had absolutely no choice, WayneWayne and Kendall were never going to be on the same team.

"We'll figure it out," Logan stated as he waved a hand. "Let's just get a basketball and go play."

"They always have one in the ball shed at the Palm Woods Park, so we can just head over." Dak replied and then looked annoyed as Carlos burst out laughing. "Ok, the words 'ball shed' aren't that funny?" But Carlos continued to laugh.

Kendall rolled his eyes. "Come on." He led his friends out of the lobby and over to Palm Woods Park. 'I have to be on the shirts side, I didn't get a chance to grab mom's make-up earlier just in case. I don't want them to see my scars.'

Kendall screamed as yet another blow rained down on his back. He tried to move, tried to get away from the man that had given him more scars and injuries than he could count. He tried to struggle but it was a half- hearted effort since he knew it would just be worse if he did. Besides he knew he would never get away from his father. He would be there for the rest of his life, hanging over his shoulder reminding him of what he was. He decided to deal with it though, just to make sure that his mother and his sister were safe. He would do anything to make sure that they didn't get hurt as badly as he did.

Kendall had stopped screaming by now, knowing that it wouldn't accomplish anything. Actually it would do something, Kevin seemed to like it when he screamed, and he would go on beating his son longer. He would beat him until his back was a bloody mess, then he would have to explain to his friends the next day why he couldn't sit back in the chair. But it was just another lie. He didn't feel like using one the next day so he stopped yelling. Besides if anyone suspected anything he knew he wouldn't be able to deny it if they asked. Well, Logan was already starting to become suspicious, but he knew that he wouldn't be able to tell or something would happen to his mother and sister. Either way, he lost, his mother and sister were at stake and he'd be damned if something happened to the two of them.

He was tired of denying it, tired of all of the lies. The abuse would never end albeit it physical or mental. He had tried to get away once before, resulting in one of the worst beatings of his life. He couldn't walk for a week, and even after the scares still remained. Kendall had just told his mom that he had gotten hit really hard when he was playing ice hockey with his friends and she believed that. It kept him from going to school for a while, keeping him away from the constant questions from his friends, keeping him away from the guilt of keeping the secret from everybody. Even now when he looked at the scars it caused him to wince with guilt…

"Yo, K-Dawg, are you ok?" WayneWayne asked, bringing Kendall back to reality as he was constantly snapping his fingers in front of Kendall's face, waiting for a response. Kendall blinked and then looked irritated, pushing WayneWayne's hand away from his face as Logan chest-passed him the basketball he had found.

"Yeah, I'm fine." He bounced the ball over to Dak and moved to cover him. "Let's play."

Even Kendall knew that those were some of the words that told the biggest lie.

A/N: Wow, I'm having trouble making chapters 3000 words, hmm; maybe I just have to get back into the flow of writing. I'm sure the next chapter will be that much. I think my problem is that here I have too much time on my hands and keep putting off updating, while at college, I don't have a lot of time and during the free time I have, I enjoy writing. That must be it. So sorry that this chapter is shorter than the others again. The next chapter will have Jo, Camille, and Stephanie, for those who are waiting for them, as well as show a bit of the other relationships in this story as well as Gustavo, Kelly, Robert, and Ronan appearing. Anyway, I have a question for you guys. 1. What would you like to see as this story goes on? 2. Would you rather that I keep this story in third person, or put it in 1st person from Kendall's and Riley's POVs? Let me know. I hope you guys liked this chapter and I'll update again soon.

Cheers,

-Riles