.:CHAPTER ELEVEN – I want to runaway:.
"Kendall."
Kendall turned to look over his shoulder as he head his name being called, but didn't see anyone behind him. Shrugging, he turned back around and kept going.
"Kendall!"
Kendall whipped around, this time turning fully to face the person that was calling his name, but he still didn't see anyone. His eyes narrowed as he noticed that there was no one on the sidewalks that were just packed with people. It was completely empty, and there wasn't a sound at all.
"Help me. Please. Help me."
Kendall slapped his hands over his ears as the voices continued to increase in volume. They swirled around him, begging for his help over and over again. He slapped his hands over his ears, but it didn't help, he could still hear the voices.
"Where are you?" Kendall called, moving his hands from his ears. "What's wrong? How can I help you?"
He looked around, the voices started to fade away.
"Kendall…Help me…"
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"Hockey-Head?...Kendall, wake up!"
Kendall groaned and pulled the covers up over his head, but when the voices didn't stop he poked his head out and looked around the room, his eyes stopped over at the window when he noticed a figure hanging off the window sill.
"Hurry up, and open the window, Kendall!"
Recognizing the voice, Kendall leapt out of his bed and strode over to the window. He opened it and his mouth dropped open when he looked down at Riley. "What are you doing?" he looked around. "How did you even get up here?"
"I climbed," Riley replied as she lifted herself onto her forearms. "It wasn't hard; you're only on the second floor."
"Ok, Spiderman," Kendall snorted, taking a step back so she could move into his room. He shook his head, watching as she climbed through the window. "18 years old and you don't know how to use a fucking door."
"Watch it." Riley returned sharply.
"Oooh," Kendall waved his hand mockingly. "Did I offend you? What do you want?"
"You're really not going to make this easy are you?" Riley asked, perturbed, her annoyance spiking pretty quickly.
"Can you make this fast, I don't want Logan to wake up and think the wrong thing." Kendall replied, motioning over to the other bed, where Logan was snoring quietly. "You know," he looked at her. "'Cause I'm dating Jo and everything."
"Right," Riley replied shortly. Kendall wasn't sure whether or not she was annoyed with what he said (which is what he was secretly hoping for) or just agreeing with his statement. "Anyway," she ran a hand through her hair, looking pained. "I…wanted to…apologize…for being so hard on you about your leg and everything." She looked uncomfortable. "What happened is none of my business and if you didn't want to tell me, I shouldn't have forced you to do it."
"Thank you," Kendall replied and sat down on the floor next to his bed. "But, I should have seen it coming, since you always butt in to our business anyway." He chuckled as Riley lightly kicked him in the side.
But it wasn't a good natured chuckle. That chuckle covered the spike of fear that immediately went down his spine, it covered his immediate reaction to bend to the side, trying to get away from the kick, and burst out into tears of fear. It had been a long time since his father was around and a long time since he had felt the abuse from the hands of his father, but ever since he started thinking of it again, the memories continued to come back full force. Now anything that reminded him of it caused him to jump in terror.
"Apology accepted." He added after a moment of her staring at him. "Really," he added after a moment. "I'm sorry for getting mad at you, too. I know, in your weird way of showing it, that you were worried."
"Right," Riley stated again, taking a step back as she looked around, as if just noticing that she was in Kendall's room. Logan let out a soft snore and rolled onto his other side. Riley's eyes narrowed. He is so not asleep. "Well, I guess I should say 'bye' now, since I'm heading back home after the concert."
"No need to say bye, you'll be back," Kendall replied, his voice lowering.
I hope so Riley nearly burst out crying, the frustration suddenly getting to her. It was unfair, while she and her siblings tried to keep it a secret of what their father was doing to them, Logan knew, and didn't tell anyone, and every now and then they purposely tried to get someone else to notice the bruises and the scars, just to see if they would tell. At this rate I wish Logie wasn't such a push-over and would tell someone already.
Riley silently nodded and turned to the window, lifting her foot, getting ready to go out and to go back home. "Wait," Kendall grabbed onto her arm and turned her around.
"Yeah?" Riley asked in a whisper, looking up at him. That's all you're going to say? You're not even going to say goodbye? You're just going to let me leave with that monster?
Kendall placed a hand on her shoulder and gave it a gentle squeeze, grinning at her. "Have a good show tonight."
"I look around me but all I seem to see is people going nowhere, expecting sympathy." She sang and brushed her hair out of her face. It's like we're going through the motions of a scripted destiny. Tell me where's our inspiration? If life won't wait, I guess it's up to me." She pulled her guitar back in front of her and started to play it to come in with the chorus.
"Woah!" Patrick, Noah, and Sydney sang.
"No, we're not gonna waste another moment in this town." The Jacksons sang in unison.
"Woah!"
"And we won't come back your world is calling out."
"Woah!
"We'll leave the past in the past, gonna find the future. If misery loves company well, so long, you'll miss me when I'm gone."
"You're gonna miss me when I'm gone." Riley repeated and backed away from the microphone as Rhuben moved up to hers and started singing.
"Procrastination, running circles in my head, while you sit there contemplating, you wound up left for dead." She tilted her head to the side as she sang, moving her eyes along the audience, making sure she made eye-contact with as many people as she could. "Life is what happens while you're busy making your excuses. Another day, another casualty, but that won't happen to me."
They moved through the chorus again, getting more into it, and feeding off of the energy that the crowd had thrown back to them. Patrick though, had heeded the doctors warning and didn't go as crazy as he usually did on stage, but was having fun anyway. Soon it was his, Noah's, and Sydney's turns to sing.
"Won't look back, when I say goodbye. " Patrick sang.
"I'm gonna leave this a hole behind me, gonna take what's mine tonight." Noah sang.
"Because every wasted day becomes a wasted chance." Sydney sang.
"You're gonna wake up feeling sorry, because life won't wait, I guess it's up to you." Patrick, Noah, and Sydney sang as they moved into the final run of the chorus.
"Woah!" Riley sang.
"No, we're not gonna waste another moment in this town." Patrick, Noah, and Sydney sang.
"Woah!" Rhuben sang.
"And we won't come back your world is calling out."
"Woah!" Riley and Rhuben sang.
"We'll leave the past in the past, gonna find the future. If misery loves company well, so long, you'll miss me when I'm gone." Sydney sang.
"You're gonna miss me when I'm gone." Rhuben sang.
"You're gonna miss me when I'm gone." Patrick and Noah sang.
"You're gonna miss me when I'm gone." Riley concluded.
As the applause went up, the DarkElements switched their positions so Sydney had the microphone, Patrick had the bass but was standing on the left, Riley had the guitar but was standing on the right, Noah had another guitar, and Rhuben was on the drums. Noah started the opening of the song and another cheer went up as the audience recognized it, prompting Riley to clap over her head, starting the beat of the audience to clap along with her.
"This is Anthem of Our Dying Day." Sydney announced.
"The stars will cry the blackest tears tonight," Sydney sang into the microphone as he walked to the front of the stage and bent down, touching people's hands and trying not to get pulled down. "And this is the moment that I live for, I can smell the ocean air. "Here I am…" he pulled the microphone form his mouth and held it out so the audience shouted the words back at them.
"Pouring my heart onto these rooftops, just a ghost to the world." Katie, Jo, Camille, Stephanie, and Carlos gleefully shouted the lyrics along with the song, having heard the song a million times before. But James, Logan, and Kendall chose not to, they still weren't used to the fact that they were willingly singing songs about their past. But if they were ok way it, and then they would be too.
"That's exactly, exactly what I need." Sydney pulled the microphone back to his mouth and started to sing again. "From up here the city lights burn, like a thousand miles of fire. And I'm here to sing this anthem, of our dying day." He jumped backwards as Riley, Patrick, and Noah jumped around the stage, still playing their guitars.
"For a second I wish the tide," Sydney sang and paused as Patrick stopped playing the bass and pointed over to Riley, who had stopped playing and grabbed her guitar, swinging it around her neck, causing the audience to scream in appreciation. "Would swallow every inch of this city, as you gasp for air tonight.
"I'd scream this song right in your face if you were here," Noah came in, singing with Sydney. "I swear I won't miss a beat, cause I never, never have before."
"From up here the city lights burn, like a thousand miles of fire." Riley, Rhuben, and Sydney sang as Patrick took his guitar and swung it around his neck as he spun in a circle at the same time. "And I'm here to sing this anthem of our dying day."
"Of our dying day," Sydney sang and skipped to the front of the stage. "Of our dying day." As he sang, Riley, Patrick, and Noah jumped up and down along with the pulses of music. "Of our dying!" He screamed along with Patrick, shocking his friends, who didn't know that he could do scream as well.
Sydney took a breath as he wiped sweat off of his forehead. Riley and Noah smiled as they pressed their foreheads together and continued to play the melody to the song. "For a second I wish the tide would swallow every inch of this city."
"As you gasp for air tonight!" Patrick screamed into his microphone as Riley and Noah stopped playing the guitar and Rhuben continued to hit the hit-hat and the crash symbol as well as hitting the bass drum.
"From up here the city lights burn, like a thousand miles of fire." Rhuben sang, twirling one drumstick through her fingers and using the other to continue to hit the drums. "And I'm here to sing this anthem of our dying day." She sang as Riley did a pick-slide and spun in a tight circle.
"From up here the city lights burn like a thousand miles of fire and I'm here to sing this anthem of our dying day." Riley and Sydney sang in unison. Riley held out the word 'day' as Sydney continued to sing the next part of the song.
"From up here the city lights burn," He squeezed his eyes shut and bent down, holding onto his stomach, putting a lot of emotion into the song. "Like a thousand miles of fire and I'm here to sing this anthem of our dying day."
"Our dying day." Patrick came in screaming along with Sydney.
"Of our dying!" Riley, Patrick, Noah, and Sydney screamed in unison and ended the song with a crash of the symbols. Riley rubbed her throat and made a face as the audience clapped and cheered, glow sticks flying.
"Thank you everybody," Patrick waved, slightly out of breath. "Thanks for coming, you all are beautiful, you're all legend. Good night and take care!"
"So why are you and Kendall fighting, Riles?" Patrick asked, resting his chin in his hand after their concert that night. They were waiting in their dressing room for Robert and Ronan to get back, so they could grab their stuff and head straight to the airport to go back to Australia. "You haven't spoken to each other without a note of passive-aggressiveness for days and if I didn't know any better, I would say that there was some sexual tension going on there."
"You're crazy." Riley spat, elbowing Rhuben in the side as she burst out laughing.
"I mean, it's obvious that you like him Ri-Ri," Sydney said with a grin. "And that you like James, Rhu-Rhu. Which is just as well, because whenever one of you four like him there's no point in keeping it a secret because the rest of us can tell just like 'that'," he snapped his fingers for emphasis.
That was true. As soon as Patrick, Noah, and Sydney noticed that Riley and Rhuben liked Kendall and James, they demanded their older sisters to tell them right then and there and they did. If they denied it, there would be no point. The five of them knew each other so well (due to the fact that they spent almost 24/7 together) they couldn't keep a secret from each other no matter how hard they tried. So if one of the girls (or Patrick and Noah) looked at someone else in a different way, the other five knew in about five seconds. It also helped that the one person couldn't date anyone with at least 3 of the other 4 siblings' approval.
It worked for the most part.
"Well, it doesn't matter anyway," Riley stated as she studied her hand of cards more intently than she needed to. "Because Jo asked Kendall out. I don't care."
Patrick laughed hollowly, and then abruptly stopped, putting down his hand of cards. "You know what, Riley? You are so selfish and hypocritical!"
"Dude," Noah looked over at him with a raised eyebrow. "Do you have a death wish?"
"No," Riley held up a hand, lightly pushing herself back and forth, her foot resting against the floor. Her hand was raised to her chin and she was looking at Patrick intently. "I want to hear what he has to say."
Patrick sighed and rubbed his forehead. "You're the person that cares about other people before yourself." He stated. "And with that philosophy, you're trying to make it that Kendall is happy with someone that wouldn't potentially hurt him in the long run, so you're pushing him to go out with Jo. But while you're doing that, you're actually hurting him more than you think. You're not giving Kendall a chance to express his feelings for you, and by trying to protect him from being hurt from something that you may not do, you're ignoring his feelings to make sure that you're ok. That's selfish and hypocritical."
There was a brief silence and everyone looked at him. He sighed loudly, rolling his eyes as he crossed his arms over his chest. "Yes, I can be smart. No need to be surprised."
"If I'm being selfish and a hypocrite," Riley's eyes hardened. "What are you being with Katie?"
"That's different!" Patrick protested.
"How?"
"Because you're afraid of hurting Kendall's," Noah looked over at Rhuben. "And James' feelings. You're not afraid that you're going to physically hurt them." He looked at his hands, as if he was ashamed. "Like we could potentially hurt Katie."
"What are you talking about?" Rhuben scratched the back of her head.
"I get it," Sydney spoke up and looked at his sisters. "Just like the guys that have dated and broken your hearts, you don't want to physically and/or mentally hurt Kendall or James." He turned to Patrick and Noah. "But because Patrick and Noah have never dated, they're afraid that if they do date Katie, they could end up being like dad, let their anger completely control them, and end up hitting her, just like he hit us." He shrugged. "It makes sense, in some way, shape, or form, someone that has been abused is ten times more likely to hurt their own kids or significant other."
"Wow," Rhuben snorted. "We're so messed up." She brought her hand of cards up to her face again. "When did things become so complicated? I mean, it was all perfectly fine a while ago."
"Yeah, up until dad screwed everything up by making it harder for us to keep the secret from our friends," Noah added thoughtfully. "If he wasn't around so much…"
"What are you getting at?" Sydney asked.
"I don't know," Noah shrugged. "Maybe it would be a good thing if we just told, get everything over with, we wouldn't have to deal with the secrets, and the stress, the worrying. How much longer can we do this before someone finds out or before Logan tells."
"Logan asked the same thing when we were at the amusement park." Riley admitted. "I think, we should go back to Australia, try and make things die down, and deal with it there, we don't need the baggage to bring back to our friends." She shrugged. "If things don't get better by that time, we'll go to the police, bet?"
"Bet." Noah replied with a grin. There was an almost silent knock on the door. "Door's open!" He called, looking over his shoulder, expecting Robert or Ronan. But when the door opened and he spotted Katie, he quickly got out of his chair and busied himself with re-packing his backpack.
"Hey," she greeted with a wave. "I know that we already said our goodbyes and everything before your show, but…I…"
"Hey Syd," Rhuben spoke up suddenly. "Didn't you tell me that you wanted to ask Ronan something?" She widened her eyes when Sydney gave her a confused look and shook his head. "Yeah you did, you said that you wanted to ask him something about Riles and my vocals on that new song we've been working on!" She widened her eyes even further and Sydney's eyes suddenly flew open.
"Oh, yeah," he laughed nervously and got down from his seat. "That song, right." He grabbed his bag that was by the chair. "Let's go, we'll see you when we get back Katie." He gave her a quick hug around the waist and left the room with Riley and Rhuben behind him.
"So," Katie said as soon as she, Noah, and Patrick were the only ones in the room. "I was just wondering when you guys got back, do you want to hang out or go to dinner or something?" She gave a quick nervous smile.
Noah's head shot up and his face turned red. He locked eyes with Katie and then looked away, turning to Patrick. He placed a hand on Patrick's shoulder, murmured something into his ear, and then put his bag on his back. He walked over to Katie and wrapped his arms around her in a hug, then let go and left the dressing room.
"What was that about?" Katie laughed nervously.
"Uh," Patrick cleared his throat as he concentrated on putting his bass back into its case. "He's not very good with making people upset for any reason."
"W-what do you mean?" Katie wiped her hands on the sides of her pants, lifting her chin and looking at him defiantly.
"You were asking us out, right?" Patrick asked, getting right to the point. "Which, I've got to say is pretty bold, especially since you asked out a set of twins." The corner of his lip twitched. "I'm guessing out of the two of us you don't know which one you like more?"
Katie nodded silently, still waiting for the answer.
"I'm sorry to do this Katie," Patrick pulled his guitar case up over his shoulder, shrugging into it. "It's nothing against you, seriously, but it's not a good idea for us to go out." He hesitated for a moment, closing the case. The clasps made a loud noise as they closed. "You don't want to date a musician anyway."
"Why not?" Katie spoke in a whisper, afraid that if she spoke in a voice that was any louder she would start crying. And she really wanted to cry. She hadn't just been rejected by one guy, she had been rejected by a set of twins, who were also her best friends, and it was beyond humiliating.
"Because in some way, shape or form, every musician is broken," Patrick replied, looking more serious that Katie had ever seen him before.
"What do you mean?"
"It's nothing," Patrick shook his head. "But, I'll see you later, yeah?" He then gave her a half smile. "I mean, it's only three months and it will go by fast." He placed a hand on her shoulder and squeezed it gently. But his hand was shaking.
Then he was gone.
Katie wiped a tear off of her cheek, sniffing a little bit.
Being rejected hurt, but being rejected by two people, even though only one person said it was twice as bad. But even though she was upset about it, there was something else on her mind.
When she looked at Patrick as he was leaving…it was like he was begging her not to let him go…
Logan frowned as he looked up at the sky, watching as a plane passed overhead in the sky. No doubt, it was the Jacksons' plane heading to Australia. He had a feeling that it was that one, even though he couldn't be sure.
Bella…Landy…I hope you know what you're doing. If something happened to you guys out there and I didn't say anything…I don't know if I would be able to live with myself.
A/N: The concert was rushed because I wanted a bit of music in there, but it wasn't supposed to be a main part of the chapter. I'll give you a cookie if you can guess why I chose those songs to show they performed and what you think Kendall's dreams are…
Yes, Patrick's rejection of Katie on his and Noah's behalf was kind of harsh, but it needed to be done that way. These last two chapters were based on everyone, the next chapter is going to show a lot of Kendall and the guys, and then Riley's will be the next one.
Oh and BTRCaitlin brought up a good point, I didn't say what everyone's ages are, so I mentioned Riley's in here which means that she, Rhuben, Kendall, Logan, Carlos, James, Jo, Camille, Stephanie, Dak, and WayneWayne are all 18, Patrick, Noah, and Lizzie are 15, Katie is 14, and Sydney is 10.
Like I said before this story focuses on the Kiley pairing as it drives the plot along, but you'll also see how Jella will get together (which you'll love, trust me) and what's up with PatKatNo. I decided not to put a lot of emphasis on Carphanie and Lomille, which is why Logan, Carlos, Dak, WayneWayne, Stephanie, and Camille are secondary characters. And Ronan, Robert, Kelly, Kacy, and Gustavo will appear again and have their own drama before the story ends.
So here's where you guys get to decide what happens next in the story: Should I make it that while the Jacksons are even more secluded Riley and Rhuben become more attached to the guys or that while the Jacksons become more secluded they start to act out even more.
I hope you guys enjoyed this chapter, even though it was kind of sad. I'll update again soon. Oh and I've decided to make this 20 story chapters so there's not much left.
Cheers,
-Riles