.:CHAPTER FIFTEEN – When You Love, You're Not Alone:.
WARNING- Sexual content in this chapter
James couldn't keep a smile off of his face. No matter what he did, he was grinning as wide as he could, Gustavo found it creepy (when he wasn't too busy being distracted), Kendall was too busy to notice, Carlos was constantly asking why he had the smile and when James wouldn't tell him he started to guess over and over again (not that he would be able to get it right) and Logan…well, he was still acting really weird. Now he would excuse himself at practically any moment he had alone and would go over to see the Jacksons, not letting the others come with him (which caused even more eyebrow raises.) He was still smiling when he headed towards Palm Woods Park, and spotted a familiar head of raven hair.
He hurried into the bathroom and checked his reflection, pulling his hair, finger-coming it, and shaking his head to mess it up a few times before checking his armpits and checking his breath. Then he took a deep breath and left the bathroom again and walked over to Rhuben.
"Hey Beautiful," his voice cracked with nervousness and he cleared his throat as Rhuben looked up at him, her blue eyes meet his hazel ones. "What's going on?" He plopped down into the chair across from her.
"I'm waiting for Logie," Rhuben replied as she looked back down at the pack of papers she had in her hand. "He wanted me to look over his paper for him and I was meeting him to talk to him about it." She looked at her watch. "Have you seen him?"
"No," James shook his head and then looked curious. "He said that he was going over to meet up with you guys."
"Oh," Rhuben looked panicked for a second. "He must have run into Riles then, she's at the studio and Pat, No, and Syd are hanging out with Katie and Lizzie." She then let out a sigh.
"Are you ok?" James peered at her closely. "You looked stressed about something." He paused. "Do you want to talk about it?"
"I'm not in the mood, James." Rhuben said, looking over the sheets of paper again.
"Ok," James shrugged and moved to get up from the chair.
"Ok?" Rhuben repeated, stopping him, with one lowered eyebrows and one raised eyebrow. "What do you mean 'ok'?"
"You just said you're not in the mood to talk," James replied with a shrug. "And you don't want to talk. No offense to Logan, because I know he's your very best friend, but he's not smart enough to know that when you want to be left alone, you want to be left alone. So I'll just get out of your way and we can talk later."
Rhuben waited silently as James started to walk away. She let out a sigh and rested her cheek in her hand. "Wait," she called after him and then let out a chuckle when he turned back around, grinning. "Come here." She waved him back over and he sat in the chair next to her. "I assume that there was something specific you wanted to talk about?"
No way, James thought to himself as he pressed his lips together. I don't want to have to be the one to bring this up; I want you to be the one to say it. I know what you want to talk about; you want to talk about the fact that I kissed you yesterday.
"No," James shook his head. "Not in particular," he peered at her. "What about you, Beautiful?"
"No," Rhuben shook her head as well. But he noticed a small blush rise up on her cheeks and couldn't help but smile a little. She noticed and glared at him. "What are you smiling at?" If he's thinking about our kiss yesterday, why isn't he saying anything? Rhuben didn't like tension, she didn't like nervous tension, she didn't like…whatever tension it was that she was feeling between her and James. Whenever there was something that was bothering someone, she usually just came right out and said it, but after what happened before, she couldn't say what she wanted to say.
"I'm smiling at you," James replied and flashed his pearly whites and then leaned forward. "So, what happened to that date that we were supposed to go on?"
"I've been busy," Rhuben replied shortly and grimaced as she rubbed her neck and shoulders.
"You ok?"
"I'm fine!"
"So, you're not busy now, you've just said that Logan is hanging out with Riley, so let's go on that date now." James leaned forward and gently tapped her on the knee. "I'll pay."
"That's tempting," Rhuben replied slowly.
"Come on, I know you want to say yes." James wheedled.
Rhuben sighed and put her papers down. "If I say 'yes' will you stop begging?" She raised an eyebrow. "It's kind of pathetic."
"I have no shame," James replied with a shrug.
"I noticed," Rhuben replied evenly. "Fine, where are you taking me?"
"To the park," James said. "Not the Palm Woods Park," he added when he saw the look on her face. "But the park, they have a carnival going on and I thought that it would be fun." He jumped to his feet. "So let's go," he grabbed Rhuben's hand and dragged her out of her chair. "We don't want to miss any of the rides."
He wedged his fingers into hers as they went, feeling a spark shoot up his arm as he did so.
But what got him smiling again was when she relaxed enough to lean into his side.
"Well," James, as they walked out of the park later, "that was fun." He ran his hands over his soaked hair, letting it form back into its usual messy cut. He shook his head back and forth, causing rain water to fly everywhere.
"Fun?" Rhuben snorted. "How was that fun in way? The rides were closed-"
"Because it rained."
"I'm soaked."
"Because it rained."
"The apple pie I was going to eat was ruined-"
"They held a pie eating contest in the middle of an open field park, so that's to be expected…since it rained…"
Rhuben groaned, clearly annoyed. "You're giving me the irrits." At James' blank look she smirked. "You're annoying me," she clarified.
"And you look very pretty, dear." James grinned back mischievously. Then he sniffed her soaked dress. "But you stink."
Rhuben blushed for a moment, before her look of cute embarrassment turned into red faced anger. "That's because I was splashed by mud!" She lightly shoved him in the chest Rhuben flinched as James suddenly turned to her, his eyes sparkling with excitement.
"Come on, I want to show you something."
"Wow," Rhuben whispered in awe. "It's beautiful."
"I come up here to think. It was my favorite spot," James explained, as Rhuben continued to be mesmerized by the beauty of the view of the sunset from on top of the apartment building. "Just after it rains, the rainbow envelopes the sunset. The colors are amazing."
James looked at his Rhuben's reaction to his spot on the roof of the Palm Woods with a lighthearted feeling of triumph in his heart. Finally, something that had gone right on this date-at least, what she qualified as 'having gone right.' Looking at her reaction…the way her dark blue eyes turned soft and expectant; with the narrowest hint of a smile on her face…she looked so unlike her usual self.
So beautiful.
"Are you alright, Handsome?" she asked, snapping him out of his reverie.
James blinked, and then laughed. "Yeah, I was just thinking." He walked her to the edge, taking her hand and holding it tightly, with her squeezing back. "I'm sorry this date was such a disaster for you. I really didn't want things to turn out this way," he admitted. He had been laughing his head off at the way things had gone wrong, but she had looked so upset. "I wanted you to enjoy yourself, you know?"
"I did enjoy myself," she said. This time, she was the one laughing. "I know I was pretty upset with the way things went wrong so often, but it was funny."
"It was awesome," James smiled and tucked her strand of purple hair behind her ear. "Because I got to spend the day with you." Rhuben's face turned red, but she stayed silent, turning her head to the side, so her dark hair covered her face. James took a look at the sunset again and then abruptly turned on his heel. "Let's go to the apartment," he suggested. "The other guys are gone so we'll have it to ourselves."
They watched TV for a while. Rhuben was tense for the most part, her arms were crossed over her chest and she seemed to be looking at her watch every few minutes.
"Would you relax?" James asked, reaching out and pulling her arm down from her face. "Your brothers are out with Katie and Lizzie and they're going to be hanging there all day, and you said that Riley was at the studio with Ronan as she was the only one that had to do vocal work. You have the day off, your dad isn't going to come looking for you."
"What makes you think that I'm worried about my dad?" Rhuben asked, raising her eyebrows as she looked back at him. The back of her mind noticed that he hadn't let go of her arm, but she didn't say anything, the touch made her feel comforted.
"Anyone can notice that you guys are jumpy around him," James stated as he raised an eyebrow. "I'm not going to pressure you into telling me why, because I'm going to wait for you to tell me. I just want you to know that when you do tell me, I appreciate that you did, and I'll help however I can."
Rhuben looked at him for a few moments, causing James to feel a little nervous as she continued to look at him. Did I say something wrong? Oh, I hope that I didn't offend her or something.
"Thank you," Rhuben replied in almost a whisper and then turned back to the TV.
"You're welcome," James replied with a slight grin and leaned back, moving his hand from her wrist and settled back against the couch again.
Over the course of watching TV, the unfamiliar silence of the apartment wrapping around them, Rhuben relaxed even further. The two snuggled close together; everything seemed right, complete..., almost. Neither of them was bored, but they weren't sure what to say.
There was a certain tension between them that had been building between then, ever since they had gone swimming together and someone had to break it first. Rhuben turned her head and opened her mouth to say something to him and jumped when she saw that he had been looking back at her, as if he had been watching her for a while. He looked back at her lovingly, gently, as he had always done but now there was another look added to it, his eyes were darker and the way that he was looking at her made her feel slightly uncomfortable.
He leaned slightly to kiss her sweetly; she received and kissed back with more passion than him. He gave low moan and put his passion into the kiss as well. Rhuben's cheeks flushed and after a moment she dared to let her tongue flicker over his lips for an instant, which seemed to excite him. His tongue swirled around hers expertly in a heated fever. The kiss lead to touching, his hand cautiously felt its way up and down her body, following every curve and eventually landing on her breast.
She broke the kiss and backed away quickly, her eyes wide, slowly bringing her knees up to her chest. "Don't worry," James moved to lean over her. "I'm not going to hurt you; I'm not going to rush you." He reached out and placed a hand gently on her cheek, she closed her eyes at his touch and he could feel her shaking. "Beautiful, listen," he gently cupped her cheeks in both of his hands. "I know that you've dated jerks before, but I want you to know that unlike them, I really care about you and I don't want anything to happen to you. Do you…want me to stop…because I will, we can just watch TV."
Rhuben continued to look at him as she continued to shake. She watched James as he watched her. She could tell that he meant what he said, and that really comforted her. She had never met or dated any guy like him, who really cared about what she wanted and that she was ok before going too far. Every other guy she had dated tried to pressure her to go further than making out and that scared her more than her father's beating her. The feeling of their hands on her as they tried to force her to do what she didn't want, the idea of them just being with her because of her fame caused her to be very cautious. But with James, she felt different, but still cautious. And now here he was, saying that he wouldn't rush her, wouldn't do what she wanted…
James watched the different emotions move through Rhuben's eyes. He could see them all: Fear, Uncertainly, willingness, and…the last one he couldn't place. He wasn't sure if it was the emotion of love, it could quite possibly be that, he knew that she had a crush on him when they first met, but over the past year and a half he had gotten to know her, the signs that she had given him had slowly gone away, and now that she had come back, she acted completely different, almost dependant on being around one of the guys all the time. He knew how he felt about her, he knew that he loved her, he knew the day that he had gone to the beach and spotted her there and when they had gone swimming and they had kissed…he knew it deep in his heart.
Looking at her again, as if asking for permission, James moved forward only to ravage Rhuben's lips with another furious kiss. He continued to kiss her as she slowly, very slowly relaxed, putting her arms around his neck. She let out a moan as he started to massage her gently. Her hands found their way to his chest, she ran her fingers up and down his body, following every muscle, and she could feel his restraint as he fought to keep himself from mounting her too quickly. After a minute she got up and started to walk towards his bedroom, keeping her head up and eyes forward as she did so. She heard James following behind her, his footsteps moving quickly. He slipped into the room behind her and gently closed and locked the door.
"Are you sure you want to do this?" James asked, still breathing heavily from their make-out.
Rhuben finally looked at him and nodded. "Y-Yeah," she replied slowly and then took a deep breath, giving a small, shy smile. "Yeah, I'm sure." With that, she reached up her hands and started to unbutton her purple polo shirt.
James got the hint and undressed her quickly, laying kisses down her neck and onto her breast, while his hand found its way between her legs, gently lying her down on his bed. Rhuben gasped as he touched her soft mound. She had never felt anything like the heat that was rolling through her, this was her first time and she couldn't believe that she wasn't more nervous. James slipped a single finger into her wet core. The feeling of being penetrated made her blush furiously, but she enjoyed every sensation that crashed through her like waves. The feeling of him lightly suckling on her breast, his hand on the small of her back, locking her into place as his other hand worked inside her. But being so gentle…
He slipped another finder inside her and skillfully used his thumb to toy with her sex. Rolling it around and side to side, up and down, finding the combination to her orgasm expertly. Rhuben moaned as the orgasm slammed into her, making her buck into his hand, and arch her back. When she calmed, she looked down to find his dark hazel eyes staring back at her with a new fire in them that she found both shocking and exciting. When she tried to pull him closer to her, he spread her legs and mounted her, his clothes still on. Rhuben reached up and kissed him again, with all the passion she had, trying to tell him she was ready. He must have already known because as he lay on top of her, she felt his hardness against her inner thigh. She blushed as her hand found its way to his erection.
When she touched him, he jerked slightly in shock, but let her do what she pleased. Soon she was tired of handling him, when all she wanted was him inside of her. She started to tug on his underwear and pull them down. He pulled back from her and took his clothes off himself and grabbed a condom, sliding it on. His chest, his arms, his abs…When she saw his erect member, she blushed horribly; he was rather large, around 7 inches long and a good size around. She had never seen him naked before, but seeing him now made her yearn for him more. She laid back and opened her legs for him, patiently waiting for him to be ready, trembling.
It didn't take long before he mounted her again.
"Before I do this," James whispered as he rested his forehead against hers. "Are you absolutely sure you want to? Because we don't have to, you know I won't force you to do anything you're not comfortable with." he paused. "And because I assume you're a virgin."
Rhuben's eyebrows lowered. "You're not?" she questioned. James shook his head.
"I don't have any diseases or anything either," he added quickly. "I made sure when I had sex before…and well," he quickly looked down. "I have a condom so-"
She simply pulled him to her and kissed him feverishly, catching him off guard. It was a short, heated kiss that told him exactly what he needed to know. To make sure he knew what she wanted, she whispered into his ear. "I want you inside me, James, I'm sure. Please don't make me wait."
After hearing that he didn't seem to wait, he slowly sheathed himself inside her, stretching her carefully. He stopped, afraid of hurting her, waiting for a sign. Her moans of pleasure told him he wasn't hurting her. He moved carefully in and out of her velvet core. She dug her nails into his back as he pumped inside her increasingly faster and faster. He moaned as she tightened around him. His ecstasy made her moans more excited. Their breath grew heavy and heated as he pumped faster and harder. Time seemed to slow with him inside of her, she felt complete. She felt whole, and his ecstasy made things even better. He quickly found her g spot over and over again with every thrust into her. Every movement brought her closer and closer to that final moment. It came on so quickly that when it hit she was thrown by it. Her core closed on him as she came sending him into his own orgasm. She arched and bucked in time with him as they went over the edge together.
The orgasm seemed to go on and on for both of them.
When they were both still, breathing heavily laying side by side, they knew that they were both whole, they were complete as a partnership. Rhuben rolled gently into James, who held her close to his heart. He gently kissed her cheek, running his fingers over her back, frowning when he caught sight of a few scars.
I shouldn't ask her about those, James thought as his eyes fluttered shut. Not now. Not when everything, for this moment, is perfect.
A/N: There you go a chapter that's completely focused on Jella. (For shotinthedark I was planning it all along ;) ) So for a 'T' rated story, I'm not going to be like a lot of writers and explain every single (and sometimes in my opinion) gross/pervy detail you needed to know about Jella having sex. I'm not sure if I made them too out of character in this chapter though, I feel like I have and then I'll probably go back and re-edit it later. Please let me know what you think of the lead up to it, because I feel that it was kind of weird and I couldn't exactly explain the lead up to it the way I wanted to. Like, it didn't come out the way I really wanted, but I tried my best.
Also, stupidly enough, I don't know how much time I made pass between this chapter and the last one, so maybe it was a couple of days, or maybe it's the next day. Whatever floats your boat, it works both ways. I know there's not a lot of Patrick, Katie, Noah, or Sydney in this, but they'll appear again towards the end of the story.
The next chapter is where the climax of the story comes to a head. You'll figure out what Kendall's dreams mean and you'll find out why I've decided to name this story I'm With You and how that song accurately depicts what the story is about, and you'll find out why Riley ran away from Kendall when he was at her house. If you still want to guess to try and guess before you know, listen to the song a few times as well as re-reading the prologue. I hope you liked the Jella in this chapter.
Oh and for that other story, thanks for the help trying to decide whether or not they should be adopted. What I'm trying to figure out now is whether or not they should already know BTR. At first I had it where they didn't know them, but now I'm not exactly sure, so help there would be grateful too.
Cheers,
-Riles