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NEXT TO YOU
Chapter 6
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My arm is numb from the warmth of her embrace while my head is spinning fervently. My heart, oh! My poor heart has to work so hard as my emotions runs so wildly. I could only smile at her and hope that she would not notice the loud thumping of my heartbeat while she smiles back at me and its overpowering me physically every time she shows her lovely features.
"Senpai? Why are you so quite? You can talk to me you know?" She said while I can feel a slight pressure on my arm from her hold.
Then I halt for taking my next step. I look at her as she looks at me wanting to know what's been bothering me. I could not express my feelings so easily for there are other things that I need to consider. But at this moment I know what I have to do. Courage, I need courage to build self-confidence. Yes! I must be confident for my sanity.
*Sigh
"Soon you will know, just give me sometime," I said to her and I can see her slightly smile at me.
And soon, we are at the train station. While I start to feel uncomfortable for I keep forming thoughts of Yunoki seeing us.
"Hino-san? Eh! Did you tell Yunoki about us hanging out today?" I ask shyly while I stroke my hair.
She smiles at me and said, "No, should it matter on who I hang out with? Were all friends aren't we?"
FRIENDS, that's right! We are all supposedly friends as I thought silently.
"Eh! Sorry for asking," while a beam at her in embarrassment.
"You're so weird Senpai," she said while we both get on the train.
Soon after a 20 minutes train ride, we made it Downtown. The place seems unchanged for I haven't been here in a long time; it brought back memories on how I spent my Sunday afternoons with my mom when I was younger. It definitely put me in high spirits while I can feel my heart lighten up a bit.
And just outside the train station, the visibility of pink flowers from the Sakura trees flooded the area.
"Wow! The Sakura trees are in full bloom here!" I said while Kahoko stands next to me and I can feel a slight touch of her hand against mine.
"Yes. They are beautiful." She said while I feel an electric shock radiating all over my body.
I wanted to seize her hand. To hold her close, for I want to be next to her forever. But given the situation I'm in, I manage to look down at her with out clumsiness. I wanted to divulge my feelings right there, but a lump on my throat stops me from saying so.
She looks up and beams at me again while I can feel heat on my face. I look at her with all my might while I murmur 'Doushiti Kimi wo Suki ni natte shimattandarou' (why did I fall in love with you?)
For the moment our eyes lock. Love, affection, heat of the moment, as emotions are overflowing inside me. I lean forward towards her while she boldly faces me. She looks at me with her kind eyes while I slowly melt inside. The longer we stare the more inviting it is to me to kiss her.
"Senpai?" she said leisurely while she slightly parted her lips. I gasp! While the devil inside me is mocking me for being less of a man. COURAGE, that's right for my sanity sakes. And right there I lean forward while I close my eyes and landed my lips against hers.
Soft, so soft and I can feel her breath against mine while my heart beats so fast.
I open my eyes while my lips are still lock in with hers and see tears falling down her checks. I then quickly retreat while I drop my jaw for doing what I did.
"I'm so sorry I don't know what's gotten into me." I said embarrass while I see Kahoko looking down the pavement and said.
"Thank you!" while a slight cold breeze blows off against my face.
"EH!" I said silently for I thought she would be upset with me but why is she thanking me?
"Hino-san, I hope this will not put any awkwardness in our friendship." I said shyly while I start to squirm
She looks at me while she wipes off her tears as the wind blows cold waft on us while my emotion heightened.
"Senpai, I'm glad that my first kiss came from a kind person," she said while I can see a slight beam from her for I start to feel less tense But I could still not believe for doing what I did except her lips were so supple and it felt so natural.
"So, how about it Senpai? Can we go pick my dress for the prom?" she said and just like that my troubled feelings came back for I'm not looking forward on seeing her with Yunoki at the prom. But on the other hand, knowing that I had her first kiss run so wildly in my head and I found courage for I thought I never had it in me.
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The thought of not able to convey my feelings to her is troubling me like always. Though Yunoki did say 'that my action speaks louder than words'. For now, I am hopeful that Hino-san will soon find it with in her, my true intentions.
"Evening Kazuki!" says mom who is smiling happily at me
"Evening Mother! What's with the smile?" I ask while I walk towards the staircase
"You have visitors, please see them in the living room." she said while my eyes widen wondering who could be visiting me at this late of an hour. So, I stride towards the living room and there they waited for me.
I look at them while I furrow my eyebrows in surprise. "What are you guys doing here?"
"Sorry for our intrusion but I wanted to make sure you are okay," says Len
"How are you doing Senpai? I went to your school on my way home and Len told me that you left for the day…. I know about what happened." Added Miyabi
Eh! What does she mean she knows what happened? Did she see me kiss Kahoko? Damn! Why am I being paranoid? As if she is here to integrate me? I mutter
"Guys! I'm fine, thank you for checking up on me," I replied smiling at them
"It seems that you're doing fine, Now if you'll excuse me I must get home myself." Says Len coldly
"Thank you, Len" I said to him while he walks out the door and I can see a smirk on his face.
"Senpai!"
"Yes," As I draw my attention to Miyabi
"I hope my brother will soon have some realization that having a friend is important." Says Miyabi
I was speechless for the moment. I know that situation like this is hard and taking it one day at the time is all I could do. I look at her and see her sad emotion. Miyabi is a good friend to me and seeing her sad makes my heart ache. I wanted to comfort her but it would be wrong for me to do so for she is Yunoki's younger sister and adding more fire to the situation would even put more stress into our friendship.
So, I bow to her and I thank her for being such a great friend to me.
"Thank you for everything, I look forward to the dance and to hang out with all our friends." I said to her then I look up and see a smiling Miyabi
"Me too, and I hope things will be resolve at the dance so we an all have fun," as she giggles in sparkles around her.
"Miyabi" says a stern voice. Both Miyabi and I then look towards the direction of the voice.
*Shock
"Brother! What are you doing here? I called for the driver?" says Miyabi
"Lets go, Grandma send out for me to fetch you, its late," he said while walking out without looking at me.
"Senpai, thank you and please tell your mom that I'm forever thankful for her hospitality, I will send out the limousine to pick you up this weekend." Miyabi smile at me once again while she exited my house and I wave at her.
I then look up the sky while I see the stars sparkling so brightly. Then I sigh heavily recollecting on what my day was like today. I smile while I feel love as my heart flutters thinking about Kahoko. Though, telling her my true feelings did not happen.
"I will have my opportunity again," I said while I walk inside my house.
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A/N so I managed to pull this chapter off earlier than I thought, :D aren't we all glad that Kazuki finally have the confidence to face off Kahoko? I was going to wait for this chapter but I just could not take anymore hurt. So, since he suffered so much I thought I would reward him. REVIEWS ARE WELCOME AS ALWAYS.
THIS CHAPTER IS DEDICATED TO
TENTSUBASA
KASUMISOU
SINKA010
NHERIZU
*I am forever thankful with this group of people for following my story and actually giving analysis.