Jac slowly awoke from her daze, she lay there trying to remember the details of the birth. Nothing it was a blur. As if someone had pacifically told her not to remember. She turned her body slightly, quietly letting out moans of pain. Jac found herself in the comfort of Joseph's arms, Amelia was asleep on Joseph's naked chest, she was rising into the air with the motion of Joseph's breath. Jac ran her fingers across Amelia's cheeks, Jac couldn't help but smile. The smile was soon shattered when she realised Ethan was still down at ICU, she felt as if she was being punished for everything she did bad in her life. For once In her life, Jac thought the constance feeling of being empty and hurt had finally gone, just this once Jac wanted to have some happiness in her life. Maybe she was wrong, nothing in her life went good, if it did, it never last.

Jac hadn't even got to look into her baby boy's eyes before he was whisked of to intensive care away from his family instead he lay alone in the ward helpless. Joseph started to stir, he slowly lifted his neck and glanced at Jac who was looking back at him. Joseph let out a faint smile before kissing Jac's head and carefully lifting up Amelia and placing her into Jac's arms. Jac peered down to Amelia, who was looking straight back at her with her enormous ocean blue eyes. Her miniature hand clasped around Jac's finger, a smile appeared on Jac's face. She gently ran her fingers alone Amelia's jaw bone and down her neck causing her to fall asleep.

'Thank you' Joseph whispered in Jac's ear.

'What are you thankful for?'

'You gave me two beautiful children, I couldn't wish for anything else'

Jac paused before speaking again 'Ethan is going to get better right?'

'Of course he is, he's a Byrne'

Jac smiled before kissing Joseph on the lips. Joseph pulled away before propping himself up with a pillow where he took both Jac and Amelia in his arms. He couldn't help but think negative things that could go wrong with Ethan, he was so small yet so fragile. The small embrace was interrupted when a heap of people walked through the doors. Jac lifted her head to find Connie, Sacha, Donna and Michael gorming at the end of the bed.

'Hello Mummy' Sacha joked as he placed a gift onto the chair.

'Naylor last time I checked you were pregnant with two babies?' Michael spoke

'I was' Jac gulped ' Amelia is here and Ethan is in ICU' Jac quietly replied as she turnt her attention to Amelia.

Joseph could see their friends puzzled with the information Jac gave them, he looked at Jac then at Amelia before saying 'When Jac was in labour, Ethan's heart rate was dropping so when he was out they raced him to ICU'

'Oh you guys, I hope he's alright' Connie sighed as she walked around the bed and hugged Jac, as per usual Jac bottled up her emotions not letting them escape.

' Give her here then Daddy' Sacha joked as he carefully picked up Amelia, the gang swarmed him as they overlooked a sleeping Amelia.

'She's beautiful' Donna smiled as she stroked Amelia's hand.

The gang stayed with the new family for a while as the smiled at a now awake Amelia. On everyone face was a smile apart from Jac, she just gazed into thin air while in Joseph's arm.

'Think we'll get going' Michael spoke as he picked up Amelia up from Donna's arms and placed her within Jac's arms. They gave their blessing and prays for Ethan before leaving the room.

At last Joseph thought they were alone to take in their daughters beauty, he thought wrong. A midwife entered the room and stood at the end of Jac's bed calmly.

'h-hows Ethan?' Jac whispered

'That's what I wanted to talk to you about' The midwife replied.

'Why? What's happened?' Joseph panicked

'We've done some tests and we assume Ethan wasn't growing as fast as he should be when he was in the wombs. His lungs are still extremely fragile and small-'

Jac interrupted with a sharp tone in her voice ' You assume? You should have been taken a closer look at my son, You call yourself professionals when you haven't even got a accurate diagnosis yet?

' Miss Naylor, we can assure you that we do have a accurate diagnosis on your son. Amelia was the bigger twin therefore her organs were growing at the correct pace. Ethan just took the back-seat in the growing process'

Joseph turnt to look at Jac who had a filthy look on her face. He shook his head before saying 'Is there anything else we should know?'

'His BP dropped a few times and needed medical attention. We are still running further tests to ensure he hasn't got any major complications. I'm sorry but for the minute we aren't allowing anyone into the unit-

'What? You mean we cant see our son who is in a critical condition' Joseph snapped

' His immune system is very weak and is prone to any infections at this stage, its for the best Mr Byrne' The midwife replied.

'Its for the best? I get your a midwife, but do you know the agony and distress this is putting on my fiancée, not being able to see her own son. She left wondering if she'll ever see him' Joseph snapped.

' Mr Byrne, I can understand how your feeling but its for the best for your son. You are allowed to stand outside the ward and look at him but not physically touch him'

' That's not going to change anything, your basically saying that we can look but not touch' Joseph's tone of voice was getting sharper.

' I'm sorry but that's the way it has to be at this point. I'll come back and see you later' The midwife spoke as she turnt around and walked out the room.

Joseph stood up pacing the floor with his hands on his face. Jac had only once seen Joseph get that angry. Joseph turned to look at Jac who lowered herself in the bed still cradling Amelia in her arms. She let just one tear fall from her dainty face. It was obvious that obvious that Jac was in piece. Her first chance to have a family was being ruined, the happiness of having children was being cruelly snatched away. Joseph could see it in her facial expressions that she was in pieces. Who wouldn't? Jac wouldn't let her guard down, she had to be strong for Amelia and Ethan. The couple hoped that Ethan had no serious problems, they could cope if he was small and fragile. They would get through it, but if he was critically ill then Jac would tear herself up in emotion regardless of who saw her. Joseph stormed out the room allowing several tears fall from her eyes and land onto Amelia's pale pink baby grow. Within minutes Joseph returned and perched on the end of the bed.

'The nurses says you can go home in a minutes if you want?' Joseph muttered.

' How do you expect me to leave Ethan here Joseph? He's all alone in there' Jac replied as she tried to hold back the tears.

'I don't expect you be happy to be going home' Joseph replied

' So why say it then?' Jac snarled

'Its just I thought it would be better to relax in. We can come and see him in the morning I promise'

'Promise?' Jac muttered.

' I promise, hopefully he would of recovered and maybe he'll be ready for his first hug from his mum' Joseph smiled.

' OK, but first you'll have to go home and get the car seat its above the-' Jac ordered

' There's no need, I got Sahira to go back to ours and fetch it. I'll ring her and go and get it.. you don't move until I get back' Joseph laughed as he kissed his girls before leaving.

Within moments Joseph had returned with the car seat, he placed it on the end of the bed before lifting Amelia out Jac arms and placing her in the car seat. Jac slowly got her self out of bed, still being sore from labour, she waddled over to the chair and wrapped her dressing gown around her pale body. They had gathered up all their cards and gifts before leaving the room with their daughter. As they walked through the wards toward the exit, nurses and doctors were congratulating them. Joseph smiled the whole way where-as Jac put on a fake smile. She didn't feel right smiling and enjoying the attention. All she wanted was for Ethan to be home with them. On the way home Joseph was beaming, he kept looking through his mirror at his daughter. Jac on the other hand had her head against the window looking sorrowful.

When they arrived back at their home, Joseph took out the car seat containing their beautiful baby girl before walking up the stairs into their home. Jac walked through to the lounge were Joseph placed Amelia down on the sofa. Jac carefully unclipped her from her seat and slowly made her way upstairs to their nursery. Jac swung open the door and stood still, the realisation of only bringing home one twin had finally hit Jac. She stared at the twin cots, not knowing what to feel. With a rattling Amelia in her arms, she put her inside her cot before standing over her. 'Amelia don't you worry, we'll be bringing home your brother soon I promise' Jac told her little girl, she stroked her smooth face and left Amelia to fall asleep.

Jac smiled as she left Amelia's room and entered her and Joseph's. It was only 9'o'clock yet Jac felt exhausted. She lay cold on top of the duvet. She didn't stop the tears this time, she let them freely fall down her face, her body started to shake. Jac didn't want to feel like this, but she couldn't help it. She needed her little boy.