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**Finn's POV**
"Get the hell up."
I groan and put a pillow over my face, "No."
"Dude, you are not going to just lay in bed all the fucking time," Puck snaps. "Now get the hell up."
"Who are you, my mother?" I chuck the pillow at him.
"No, but do I need to call your mother and tell her that her baby needs help?" He makes a prissy face and I kind of want to punch him.
"Shut up," I slide out of bed and stretch.
"Okay, good," Puck says. "Now go shower and shave. You look and smell like a damn bear."
He leaves the room and I slug my way over to the bathroom, turning the hot water on.
I look at myself in the mirror. I've grown quite some facial hair over these past four days. I'm pretty sure the red rings around my eyes and the blood shot veins in my eyes are going to remain permanent.
Of course I'd never tell Puck or Sam I'd been crying about Rachel, although they probably have heard me weeping away. I shave my face and end up cutting myself all up by using too much force. It hurts really badly, but I'd rather be hurting about a wound than a girl.
Wow, that sounded really depressing, didn't it?
To be honest, I sort of am depressed. I'm just in this… funk. I can't get out of it. I guess when a girl who you'd fallen in love with uses you, you kind of swirl into the sadness. I can't stop thinking about her, which sucks because I'm so mad and upset.
I had once thought that Rachel was so, so good. She'd never hurt anyone because she knows how much it sucks.
God, it really sucks.
But even though I just think all the time about how disappointed I am, I can't stop loving her. I can't go out with other girls, or hook up with them. She ruined me. She ruined the band. She ruined everything and I can't forgive her.
I won't ever be able to.
For some reason I feel like I won't ever see her again.
That makes me happy because she's a user who caused a disaster of our band and now she's getting famous while the people who fucking started it sit in the dark.
However, I love her. I love her so damn much…
"Damn!" I yell, slamming my bedroom door.
She won't ever come to me, but I know that I can't stay away from her. One way or another I'll end up going back to her.
I decide that I can't just not forgive her.
But I won't do it anytime soon.
I want her to hurt as much as I have.
**Rachel's POV**
"I don't want to be here. I want to go home. Stop right now," I cry to Tina who is dragging me over to Mike's house.
"Why wouldn't you want to be here? We're having our movie night. You're the one who started the tradition!"
"Yeah, well I don't like to do anything anymore. I've made a mess of my life. Why are you guys' even friends with me?"
"Would you just stop being such a downer, Rachel?" Tina asks, parking in the driveway.
"What do you mean?"
"I mean you always complain to us about how much you suck, or how unattractive you are, or how you're a failure. We're sick of it, okay?" She turns to look at me.
"Yeah, well I'm upset!"
"Yeah, and we're really sorry that you are. But you also have the choice to be happy and not make everyone else miserable. Rachel, you're an amazing person. You have your flaws and that's totally normal. You don't have to be perfect."
"That's why I lied to them…" I sigh. "I didn't tell the guys about the whole recording artist thing and how I'd be the only one making it because you can have anyone be the band. The people only care about the singer. I was upset that I was never going to achieve my dreams and I just… I let my constant need to be perfect ruin everything."
"It's okay to make a mistake. But you need to clean this mess up," Tina offers.
"Yeah, how? They're all ignoring me, and Finn," I start to cry again.
"Yeah, they probably hate you right now. But that doesn't mean you can't try to make things better."
"I have no clue how to do that."
"You're going to have to think about it."
"I don't want to."
But I do. I want to make things right with my ex-band mates. With the boy whom I'm in love with. And I think I know what to do…
**Finn's POV**
"Hello?" I ask when the phone rings.
"Hey, this is Ryan Murphy," Our ex-producer greets. "I was just calling you to tell you that you're late to your recording session."
"Our recording session… what?" I ask confusedly. "I thought that we aren't being recorded."
"You weren't going to be, but then that beautiful gal Rachel came in and said that she couldn't do it. Said some kid Finn Hudson would do the job justice, not her. And she also wouldn't leave until Noah and Sam got signed on as well. Thought she would have told you," He explains.
My head is spinning. W-What? Did Rachel really do this? Why would she do this? This was her chance to make it big and she wasted it on us?
"So are you guys coming?" He asks.
"Y-Yes. Yeah, we'll be there."
I hang up and jump up in the air, pumping my fist.
"Puck, Sam!" I shout, running to the living room. "Come on."
"Wow, Finn, I didn't know that you had it in you," Sam pats me on the back after I sang our songs in the studio.
I smile brightly, "Yeah, I didn't either, but Ra-."
I cut myself off. I don't want to talk about her. But I should. I should go thank her right now.
"Yeah, Rachel," Sam sighs. "I'm surprised she did this."
"She's very self-centered," I agree. "But she's so kind hearted."
And she is. I can't honestly say I'm mad at her right now. Here I am, in the recording studio making an album for Trip to Ohio and I feel great. We listen to the tracks and it sounds good, but it's not as good as it would be with Rachel.
Trip to Ohio isn't Trip to Ohio without Rachel.
I'm not myself without Rachel.
I can tell the guys agree because they make these faces while we listen to our songs.
"So, what do you guys think?" Ryan asks with a wide smile. "I say hit!"
"It's good," I agree. "But it could be better."
"How? It sounds perfect!" Ryan defends.
"I know how. Just give me a some time," I plead.
Ryan contemplates it in his mind.
"You know I've never had my clients take control like this… it's extremely annoying, but I like how you kids are standing up for your band. I see that rarely. And Rachel Berry, whew, that girl is talent-."
"I've got to go! I will be back here as soon as I can, I promise!" I interrupt, running out of the building.
"Finn!" Puck yells. "Where are you going?"
"I'm not going to let her get away. I can't."
And with that I jump in a cab, telling the driver to go to the apartment building.
Her apartment.
I'm going to get Rachel Berry.
OoO
I love when Finn gets all crazy over Rachel like she's the sun!
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