The Change

A/N- LEMON TIME! (oh and a special thanks to all who helped me with this chapter!)

I found Clary sitting up in her bed in the institutes infirmary smiling when she saw me come in,

"Jace!" she shouted and I forced a smile on my face as she beckoned me to her with her finger,

"Hey Clary shouldn't you be resting?" I asked wanting to get out of there since the second I walked in,

"I'm sorry," she whispered to me and Isabelle pulled Alec out of the room Magnus gave me a reassuring smile checked on her one last time before following them out, "I reacted stupid." She whispered to me,

"They weren't all you," I told her reaching out to brush her hair behind her ear and she smiled at me,

"He's gone!"

Jace's POV

"You didn't mean too," she whispered in my ear a week later and I jumped not hearing her sneak up on me. This was the first I'd seen her since I'd stabbed her I knew I shouldn't have avoided her but I couldn't help it almost killing someone you love can do that too you,

"Go away Clary," I told her shrugging off the hand that was on my arm,

"No," she argued and I sighed walking farther into the garden trying to get away from her, "so this is it then!" She yelled at me,

"Yes," I whispered and she froze,

"What about everything," I watched her through the flowers as she took a deep breath, "what about everything we've gone through together!" She shouted and I shrugged,

"It never mattered," I had to struggle to keep my voice even but I still heard her gasp a small cry of disbelief slipping into it,

"I fought to see you again," she whispered, "if I'd known I would've just let Jonathan kill me." She turned to leave and I stepped out grabbing her arm and spinning her around,

"Clary!" I looked down at her and her green eyes tears falling down her face leaving tracks behind, "don't say that." I sounded more exasperated than intended but I didn't care,

"Why not," she argued her voice thick and broken, "it's true."

"No it's not,"

"Yes it is!"

"Why?" I asked, "why would you rather Jonathan have killed you?"

"Because it would be less painful then this!" her eyes flooded with more tears and I gripped her face in my hands, "it's like your slowly killing me." She admitted and I pulled away turning around,

"I already killed you," I whispered and Clary reached out grabbing ahold of my arm,

"No you didn't but you are now," she whispered, "I just want you Jace I live for you." I turned around slowly pulling her to me kissing her hard and she kissed me back. I pushed her back against a wall letting my hands trail down her shirt and up it as she pushed me away pulling mine off. I was back on her instantly trailing kisses down her neck biting and sucking simultaneously. She moaned and I felt myself get an erection praying that she too didn't feel it. I pulled back when we heard Isabelle and Alec come down the hall hiding her behind a bush I threw my t-shirt back on and she frowned slightly,

"Hey Jace," Isabelle waved as they passed by and Alec smiled and winked at me before dragging Isabelle faster as soon as they were around the corner Clary came out grabbing my hand and dragging me to my bedroom,

"Clary," I persisted and she glared,

"What can only do it with me when Jonathan is controlling me!" she snapped and I flinched,

"No I just don't think were ready," and she glanced inside my room as I stepped in opening the door wider for her to join,

"You mean you aren't ready," she told me before turning her back on me and running away. I froze in the doorway and then slammed it closed. Laying down on my bed I grabbed my pillow it still had her scent lingering from how little I used it wanting her scent to remain. I sat there staring up at the ceiling thinking about Clary and how right she was but how totally wrong at the same time. I wanted to have sex with her don't get me wrong but I just didn't think it was a good idea not right now at least I'd almost killed her after all but then I'd made it seem like I rejected her and she'd retaliated in the worst way possible. I didn't know that the first time we made 'love' I was having sex with Jonathan. Oh god how wrong that sounded! I sprung out of bed and ran down the hall stopping in front of Clary's room trying to work up the courage to knock. God what this girl did to me fight a demon no problem knock on my girlfriends door and I freeze up,

"No it wasn't like that Izzy he just doesn't want me that way anymore,"

"Of course he does!" I leaned into the door closer to listen better, "put yourself in his shoes for one second Clary!"

"I did and I understand but why not put yourself in my shoes too Isabelle!"

"God no those shoes are ugly!" she teased and both girls burst out in laughter, "maybe he's not ready to get intimate because of what happened last time."

"Really it's my fault I was thinking about it before Jonathan took over," I leaned into the door closer, "I'm trying to be patient about this but I almost died!"

"We know,'

"I almost died and he wasn't there when I woke," her voice cut off, "and he wasn't there the week after I thought, I thought he'd given up on us."

"And why would I do that?" I asked opening the door to lean on the frame and Clary looked up at me her face streaked with tear tracks and my heart broke to see her in such pain,

"Jace," she whispered and I smirked,

"I'll leave you two alone," Izzy told us exiting the room with a warning glance.

"I'm sorry," I started sitting at the end of her bed, "It's just-I almost-I could've-I thought you were-I didn't mean too stab you I thought you were." She put a finger over my stuttering lips,

"Sh Jace quiet," and I did I stopped talking and she placed her lips over mine, "I love you Jace Lightwood." She whispered and I leaned in capturing her lips with mine before she could pull away,

"I. Love. You. Too." I told her between kisses and then suddenly we were on fire again and this time I wasn't backing down pushing her onto the bed I hastily removed her sweater and shirt stripping her down into her underwear kissing her heavily. She let her hands roam up her shirt and I smiled down at her,

"You sure?" she asked me a hint of nervousness and fear of me leaving in her eyes,

"Yes," I breathed and she smiled then letting out a breath of air,

"Good," she said pushing me off of her and walking to the door only her bra and pants on locking it and turning off the lights I smiled when she joined me again turning on her bedside lamp so it gave off a soft glow. I pulled her too me again her jeans rubbing against mine too many clothes! I thought and she must have been thinking that same thing as she pulled my t-shirt off hands gliding down my chest I rolled over so I was above her and slowly I unzipped her pants pulling them down slow, "Jace." She moaned turning me on even more,

"Yes Clary," I purred in her ear as I started to take her wet underwear down as soon as they were off she turned us back over straddling me as she reached back and unhooked her bra I laid my head back to watch her and she kissed down my neck and down my chest moving lower and lower I felt her hands taking off my jeans releasing my erection. I felt her teeth hook my boxers as she started to pull them down and I moaned as they scraped over my erection. I pulled her up kissing her flipping us over I kissed down her neck down her chest. I sucked on her tits and she moaned my name again and then I couldn't take it anymore I entered her quick and she moaned bucking. It wasn't long until we both climaxed.

What a wonderful night!

A/N- Hey guys was I any good at this story I wasn't so sure? This was my first REAL lemon was it any good?