I directed towards Eric's room. I knew that he would be awake. After all, his maker just died. For an instant I thought about Bill. He would be probably asleep, too tired to wait for me. I reach out to knock the door but I realized I didn't have to. For one time, I am allowed to pout aside my good manners and just talk to him. I knew the feeling of loosing someone you care about and maybe that's the reason why Godric trusted me to taker care of his child. I took a deep breath and I open silently the door. Eric had his back turned on me and he was looking at the floor. There was silence. I heard him inhale deeply and I saw his body tighten. He suddenly turned around with hope filling his eyes. In the view of me every trace of hope was replaced by sorrow. I looked the bloody tears on his face and I was thanking God that mine were "colorless".
"It's over." I told him. He looked me and a tear rolled down on his pale face. His eyes were locked on my body. That kind of confused me until I looked down at me. Of curse he wasn't looking me. He was looking Godric's shirt. I felt uncomfortable. I wanted to keep Godric's shirt. His scent is the only thing that keeps me peaceful anymore. But I knew that Eric had the right to take it. I started taking off the shirt when he spoke.
"No." His voice was steady and under control. "You need it more than I do." He said and turned around to face the wall. That was my que to leave but I didn't.
"Eric… I.-" I started but he interrupted me.
"He sent you." He said serenely. "He told you to take care of me." He turned to look me. "That's why you are here."
It wasn't a question. He was sure about that. Should I lie to him? Godric wouldn't want me to. He would want me to be honest. To be my self.
"Yes." I said apologetically. "And I will." I added. I wanted to make my point clear.
"Why?" He asked me, his voice husky.
"Because of Godric." I answered simply. I saw him stiffen while I mention Godric's name. He didn't answer. He wouldn't doubt Godric. His relationship with him is deeper than any relationship between vampires.
What now? How should I take care of him? What am I supposed to do? I took a deep breath in an effort to calm my self. Honey and Jasmine again. What a wonderful aroma. My shoulders relaxed and Godric's peacefulness took over me.
"Try to sleep." I whispered. "He wouldn't want you to be tired." With that I turned on my heel and left the room.
And now comes the difficult part. Bill. What would he said about all that? And mainly what will I do with Godric's shirt. There's no way that I will throw it. And obviously I can't hide it. His scent is too strong even for me. Bill will smell it immediately. I guess I just have to deal with it.
I walked in the room still wearing Godric's shirt. I looked around and saw Bill sleeping peaceful on the bed. I sighed. I was relieved that I didn't have to face him right now. I decided that I would sleep on the couch. I wasn't ready for Bill's touch yet. I took off Godric's shirt with reluctance. I am not in a mood for a fight with Bill that's why I hide the shirt on my briefcase. After that, I lie on the couch and drifted to sleep.
I was in a bright room with intense violet, blue and white colors. There was no furniture at all. Neither window. I looked around curious and I saw a men standing still in the center of the room. Actually he was neither male nor female. It was something in between. I realized it was something like an angel. I couldn't see he's face though. It was too bright to stare. His body was covered by white smoke and he had bright white wings in his back.
"Come in." I heard the angel's voice say. I thought he was talking to me until I felt a presence behind me. I held my breath while I turned around. I met with two emerald soul-searching orbs looking at me carefully. I gasped in amazement as I recognized those eyes.
"Godric!" I said surprised. He didn't react. He just lowered his head embarrassed. I looked around my shoulder to see the angel looking at us patiently. I walk beside Godric and I tried to crab his hand but it was immaterial. I tried again but my hand just passed through his own. I felt tears forming on my eyes. "Godric!" I said indignantly. "Let's go!"
He didn't answer. He didn't even look at me. Suddenly I felt vulnerable.
"Come closer." I heard the angel speak again. I saw Godric walking closer to the angelic form with his hands behind his back. He was dressed in white clothes and his face held calmness.
"Godric." The angel started and Godric turned to look at him.
"We are aware of the life you lived in earth and your spiritual concerns. Nevertheless, you've made a bad decision. We believe you acknowledge the reason why we criticize the fact that you decided to end your life on earth. You haven't experience all the mysteries of life yet and you haven't accomplish the purpose of your life as it was meant to be. For that reason we decided to give you another chance."
Godric's eyes light up with happiness.
"You mean… I'll return..? I will continue my life as it was before?"
"Yes." Godric smile winded more. "But there will be consequences. You will not be same."
"I understand." Godric said with his calm voice full of confidence.
"Also, we have a mission for you Godric. And you must promise that you'll not give up on love like you did on your last day on earth." Godric hesitate and he bit his lip stressful.
"I-I-I…It would only create bad consequences." He finished his sentence with a sad smile.
"No. No, Godric. That's the mistake you made. Love is always worthwhile. Always good. You must fight for love. Promise that."
Godric hesitate and turned to look at me. His eyes piercing through my soul. He bit his lip again while he turned to look at the form in front of him.
I opened my eyes suddenly only to gaze the ceiling of my hotel room. It was a dream. Only a dream. He's not here anymore. With that thought on mind I sighed and felt hot salty tears rolling down my face.
"Sooki?" I heard Bill's voice asking me and I quickly wipe away my tears.
"Yes, Bill?" I answered and gladly my voice was steady.
"Are you ready to go?" He asked me as he approached me. I gave him a smile.
"Do you mind if a take a shower first?" I asked him. Even though I didn't want to wash away Godric's scent, I kind of felt the need to clean my self. Maybe I think that a bath would wash away all the pain and regret I felt.
"Of curse." He said kindly to me. He leaned in to kiss me but I turned my head around. I saw the hurt in his eyes. But I wasn't ready for him yet. Not, after the dream I had. Was it a dream? It felt so real. And I could feel Godric's presence so strongly.
"I am going to inform Jason that about an hour we will be leaving." Bill's voice interrupts the endlessness river of my thoughts. I nodded lightly and directed to the bathroom.
While I was taking my shower, Godric's image kept popping on my mind. He must have felt so lonely to make that decision. Even Eric couldn't keep him… alive. That reminds me that I must take care of him. I am so confused. What am I supposed to do? How can I watch out a vampire? He'll probably do whatever he wants even if this is bad or good. I can't put a limit on his actions but I also can't ignore him. A part of Godric's soul is inside him. And without Godric's calm presence I'll go nuts. So… I guess Eric is the most close thing to Godric that I have left of. Well, except his shirt.
But his scent will start fade away eventually. And its way too creepy to need to smell his shirt to get my daily "dose" of Godric. I just met the guy. Why am I feeling so close to him? He saved my life and I am grateful for that but I don't know him. So why do I feel like I know his for years? Why do I feel his soul connected with mine?
Why he is suddenly a big part of my life? I guess I'll never find out. I must stop thinking about him and concentrate to Bill. Bill gives me the calmness I was looking for. Godric on the other hand-. Wow just wait a sec. I am starting to compare them now? What's wrong with me? Godric is gone. Accept it Sooki and move on. Bill is here. Bill is the present and the future. I must never forget this.