I'M HORRIBLE!!!!!!!JUST SAY IT! I KNOW I AM!
OH MY GOD I'M SO SORRY EVERYONE. I FEEL HORRIBLE.
My life as gone so crazy i couldn't even GET on the computer for ever. I'm sorry guys i REALLY am.
Oh and Megan thank you for not reporting me :D lol
OKay so here's the deal.
I'm going to posted a chapter....NOW :D
The next one....give me time. There is something going on with me and I have no clue if what me and my family think it is is true (If you are wondering (Cause everyone wonders) you can PM me)
Okay ENJOY THE CHAPTER!
P.S Go back to the first page of this story...things have changed
Disclaimer: I own Nothing except the people i created
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Cats P.O.V
I sighed and walked into the house. Jasper and Emmett were on the couch playing video games...again. I walked in and set my purse down, that i had forgotten was in my car, and walked up to my room. I didn't look at Jasper as I felt him look at me confused. Probably wondering why I was upset. I shook my head and continued upstairs. I got up to my room and flew on my back to my bed and rested my eyes. This was the point I where I wish I could sleep. Just for once leave my head out of this world and let it go off to dream land. I couldn't think anything about today unless I wanted Edward to hear everything, or Bella, which that would worried her more than the wedding. I know Jasper soon just going to crazy with my sadness and tell one of them or...oh god Alice. I love Alice don't get me wrong but she just loves to shop...alot, So her way of cheering me up would be shopping and right now I'm so not in the mood.
I sighed and looked over at my laptop. I smiled think about how I got it.
Flashback
I walked trying NOT to trip...but that's kinda of hard when there are pairs of HANDS on your head. I sighed.
"Your going to love it" I heard Alice's musical voice as I tried to walk faster but didn't works as Jason's hand were over my head
"You know she's right" He said in my ear. I sighed and just continued to let them drag me to where they desire.
"We're here!" Alice exclaimed. "Now Jason's going to let his hands off and then you can open your eyes okay?" I nodded. "Alright let her go"
I felt Jason hands off my eyes and I opened mine...I gasped.
There sitting on my desk was a white 13-inch, Aluminum MacBook Air.
My mouth dropped as I turned to everyone. Alice was bouncing up and down, Jasper was trying to calm her, wasn't working out to well, Bella and Edward were smiling, Rosalie was also smiling, Emmett was jumping, Esme was in Carlisle arms smiling two and Jason. Jason was looking at me wondering what I thought.
I squealed and Alice came up and hugged me
"I knew you would like it" She said as she bounced around with me. Bella laughed. I let go of Alice and hugged everyone else.
"How did you sneak this one from me?" I asked Jason when I hugged him. He was really bad at keeping secrets away from me. He laughed and hugged me back
"I'm not as bad as you think" I rolled my eyes.
I let go of him and smiled at everyone
"Thank you" I said. Alice walked up to me.
"That's not all" I looked at her she smiled and pointed to my bed. I walked over to my bed.
There laid a black Canon PowerShot S5 IS. My eyes bugged out as i looked closer. It was the one I wanted. It had a 12x optical zoom, Face dection, 8.0 Mega Pixles, Optical Image Stablizer, Red-eye Correction, a 4.0x Digital Zoom and MovieSnap!
How did they know I wanted this one!? I turned to them
"Oh my god." I said "How did you know that I wanted this one!?" I hugged all of them as they explained
"Edward over heard you talking about getting a new camera since you lost yours back in North Carolina" Bella stared
"He said that you've been looking at that one forever" Alice cut in.
"And plus you told me the other day at school" Jason said smiling at me
"Why did you get the MacBook then?" I asked. Alice smiled
"We all know you love to do photography and movies so we thought a computer that will help you with that might come in handy when you use your new carmera" She said. I smiled.
"Thanks guys"
End of Flashback
I smiled at the memory. That was before Jason changed. It was a time he would tell me everything. No matter what. I sighed and closed my eyes. Hoping to drift of to sleep but knowing all to well that i couldn't. i heard a knock at the door.
"Come in" I said, still shutting my eyes. I heard the door open then someone walk in then close the door. It's probably Bella or Alice I thought
"Your wrong" I heard. I opened my eyes and saw Edward. He smiled and walked over. I sat up and looked at
"I thought Bella would be sent up or Alice. This is new" He laughed.
"Well Bella, Alice, Rosalie and Esme when shopping while you were out" He shook his head "They've been gone since" I laughed
"Sounds like them" I said. He smile and nodded. "So let me guess Jasper told you what I was feeling?" I asked. He shook his head. Once again surprised me.
"I heard your thoughts." Edward said. Oh of course he did. "Whats wrong Cat?" He asked "Why you remembering when we got your computer and camera?" I sighed and looked out the window.
"Something, I'm guessing, when on with Jason at his little wolf thing." I shook my head "He wouldn't tell me what like he would usually do. He just says he wish he could tell me. Then he tells me that he wont be able to hang out with me for awhile, or I'll see him for only a few days".
"Cat" Edward said. I looked over at him and he smiled at me "He can't go against what he's been told. You said he tells you pretty much everything right?" I nodded "So know that it hurts him not to tell you. He probably wants to tell you really bad but since he was told not to, he can't" I looked down.
"I just wish I knew whats going on" I said. Edward put his finger under my chin and made me look at him. He smiled
"You'll know soon. He probably will tell you soon" He kissed me on the forehead "Don't worry about it" I nodded and hugged him
"Thanks Uncle Ed" I said using his nickname. He laughed and hugged me back
"Your welcome" He let go "Feel better Cat"
"I will" I smiled and he smiled back. He walked out and I laid back down on my bed.
I know Jason telling the truth about not being able to tell me...I just wish I knew what was going on with that boy. I looked at my Red Ipod nano (another gift from the family). I laughed as I looked at the songs. I love music. I don't care what it is, I've probably listened to it or will listen to it. I love anything music...and photography. I shook my Ipod (A/N: Dude I just found this out, You can shake your Ipod and it will put on a random song. I'm not kidding. It's crazy)and one of my fave songs played.
Desperate, desperate
You're reaching out
And no one hears you cry
You're freaking out again
'Cause all your fears
Remind you another dream has come undone
You feel so small and lost like you're the only one
You wanna scream 'cause you're
Desperate
You want somebody, just anybody
To lay their hands on your soul tonight
You want a reason to keep believin'
That someday you're gonna see the light
You're in the dark
There's no one left to call
And sleep's your only friend
but even sleep
Can't hide you from all those tears
And all the pain and all the days
You wasted pushin' them away
It's your life, it's time you face it
You want somebody, just anybody
To lay their hands on your soul tonight
You want a reason to keep believin'
That someday you're gonna see the light
'Cause----
I turned the Ipod to another song. I'm not desperate! I don't need Jason! The next song played
When the ground beneath you starts a-shakin' (shakin')
And you forget the place we came from (came from)
When you're lost and lookin' for you're way home
You're way home to me
I'll come out and find you
When the world around you starts a-movin' (movin')
And you should wonder if I still love you (love you)
If you feel the darkness comin', risin' inside
I'll make a light to guide you back home
And after all the sky is fallin' down
And after all the water's washed away
My love's the only promise that remains
When your doubts have got you thinkin'
Nothing's ever really sacred
And you're afraid you might believe in...
Believe in me
And I'll give you a reason
Cuz the world around us keeps on movin' (movin')
And there's no doubt that I still love you (love you)
So when you feel the darkness comin', risin' inside
I'll make a light to guide you back home
And after all the sky is fallin' down
And after all the water's washed away
My love's the only promise that remains
My love's the only promise that remains
My love's the only promise that remains
And after all the sky is fallin' down
(After all the sky is fallin' down)
And after all the water's washed away
(After all the water's washed away)
My love's the only promise that remains
I wish he knew. I wish he knew how much I care for him. How much I love him. That I would do anything for him. The next song stared to play and i felt sobs shake through my body
When I see your smile,
Tears roll down my face
I can't replace.
And now that I'm strong, I have figured out,
How this world turns cold and it breaks through my soul.
And I know I'll find deep inside me,
I can be the one.
I will never let you fall. (let you fall.)
I'll stand up with you forever.
I'll be there for you through it all. (through it all.)
Even if saving you sends me to heaven.
It's okay,
It's okay,
It's okay-ay-ay-ay-ay.
Seasons are changing,
And waves are crashing,
And stars are falling all for us.
Days grow longer and nights grow shorter,
I can show you I'll be the one.
I will never let you fall. (let you fall.)
I'll stand up with you forever.
I'll be there for you through it all. (through it all.)
Even if saving you sends me to heaven.
This was our song. He said he was my guardian angel. I sobbed harder and wished that this once I could cry
'Cause you're my, you're my, my-e-y-e-y,
My true love, my whole heart.
Please don't throw that away.
'Cause I'm here... for you!
Please don't walk away and,
Please tell me you'll stay!
Whoa-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh!
Stay!
Whoa-oh!
Use me as you will!
Pull my strings just for a thrill!
And I know I'll be okay,
Though my skies are turning grey! (grey! grey! )
I will never let you fall!
I'll stand up with you forever!
I'll be there for you through it all,
Even if saving you sends me to heaven!
I will never let you fall!
I'll stand up with you forever!
I'll be there for you through it all,
Even if saving you sends me to heaven!
I didn't realize it until hear someone whisper to calm down that someone walked into my room. I didn't reginze the voice
"Cat you need to calm down" I heard as the music started to fade. I just continued to cry
"We need him here" I heard another voice say. The next song started to play and It through me over the board.
Look into my eyes - you will see
What you mean to me
Search your heart - search your soul
And when you find me there you'll search no more
"He's coming" The voice from before said.
Don't tell me it's not worth tryin' for
You can't tell me it's not worth dyin' for
You know it's true
Everything I do - I do it for you
I heard the door open and felt someone warm hug me tightly
Look into your heart - you will find
There's nothin' there to hide
Take me as I am - take my life
I would give it all - I would sacrifice
"What happened?" I knew that voice...That's Jason
Don't tell me it's not worth fightin' for
I can't help it - there's nothin' I want more
Ya know it's true
Everything I do - I do it for you
"We don't know!" The second voice said. "Me, Alice, Rosalie and Esme came home and she was just sobbing, Jasper was about to cry as well" I'm guessing Bella was the second voice.
There's no love - like your love
And no other - could give more love
There's nowhere - unless you're there
All the time - all the way
"Cat." I heard Jason say "I need you to calm down" I just cried. The more I felt him, the more I heard him, brought a pain that I couldn't do.
Oh - you can't tell me it's not worth tryin' for
I can't help it - there's nothin' I want more
I would fight for you - I'd lie for you
Walk the wire for you - ya I'd die for you
"Cat you need to calm down" A new voice came in.
"Carlisle what's happening?" The first voice said
Ya know it's true
Everything I do
As it ended I whisper to Jason "I do it for you" then everything went black.
xoxoxoxoxoxoxox.
I think did a good job as a coming back chapter :D
Songs: Desperate By David Archuleta
The Only Promise That Remains By Reba McEntire Ft. Justin Timberlake
Your Guardian Angel By The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus
(Everything I Do) I Do It For You By Bryan Adams
oh and The reason she has a Red Ipod is there this organizing called red. and it helps the AIDS thing. I'll try to post a link for more info. :D