I'm Scared

"I don't know Embry"

"What? I thought you forgave me?"

"I have, but I think it might be best for both of us if I stay away for a little while"

"Please, I have already lived without you for three days. Don't make me suffer more." I looked at him. All I wanted to do was tell him I was coming home and that everything was fine. I couldn't do that. He needed to know that I was serious; he couldn't not tell me things.

"I am going to go back to Emily's. I have to think and I can't do that here." He only nodded as I stood up. I went to hand him back his jacket. He only pushed it back at me. I started to walk back towards Emily's house. I felt him grab me and I almost lost my resolve. He kissed me passionately then let go. I cried the whole way back to her house. I walked through the door and judging by the looks everyone was giving me, I looked horrible. I merely walked into the bathroom and sat in the bathtub, hugging the jacket around myself. I heard someone knock but I didn't answer. I heard an angry growl and then heard Emily's voice.

"Sam, you have no idea what she is going through"

"She has no idea what he is going through. And me because I have to use the facilities and they are being occupied. " I heard a soft knock on the door and saw it creak open.

"Oh my sweet girl, we are so much alike. This was exactly where I went to sit and think."

"What did you decide?"

"Can't you tell?"

"I mean-how did you decide?"

"Lace-how do you feel about Embry?"

"I couldn't love him more if I tried. I don't even care that he lied Emily. It's that he feels that he has to love me. That isn't right. If he is going to love me, he has to do it on his own accord-not by some pull. It's not fair-I never got why he loved me. I just thought by some miracle I was deserving. Well now I know I was very very wrong."

"Lacey, you don't understand how it works. Honey, you listening but you aren't hearing. Embry doesn't love you because he has to. Regardless of anything, he would love you. He was made for you-"

"Because he had to be-"

"No, I have never seen anyone happier to imprint than Embry Call. He came in here all smiles and couldn't stop talking about how perfect you were. He was so nervous you weren't going to love him. Do you remember when you ran away?" I nodded I didn't need a reminder.

I had just lost my best friend in a tragic accident. I wasn't eating, I wasn't talking. She didn't deserve what she got. It was supposed to be our girl's night out but I got a call from her mother. We had had an argument that morning how I didn't spend enough time with her because of Embry. I told her I missed her and I was sorry and maybe if we just hung out, things would be better. She agreed and we planned an epic night for us. A sleepover with our favorite movies, way too much chocolate, gossip and make-overs. We were meant to be best friends. Both of our moms got new jobs in the same town so we got to move together. It was fate. Anyways, that night the roads were slippery and she was hit by another driver. I blamed myself; I thought that it was my fault. We found out the guy was drunk. I bought a plane ticket to Massachusetts. We had always wanted to go visit Salem, Mass because we had seen Hocus Pocus and always promised each other we would go. So I did. I thought if I left it would be better for everyone. Sam found out where I went and came after me. I guess my mom told him about our plans of taking trip and he found me crying outside a graveyard. I honestly don't remember much of the trip. I was pretending she was with me-but it wasn't working. He stayed with me for a few days, talked me through everything and made me see it wasn't my fault.

Sam and I have been close since then. It's not that I tell him everything or we talk all the time. It's just that he gets me. We share looks; he is very protective of me. When he talked me into coming back, Embry didn't leave my side for a week. He kept apologizing. He wanted to be the one to come get me but Sam didn't think it was a good idea.

"Embry was a wreck, Lace. I have never been so worried for someone in my life. He tried getting on a plane three times. He tried running there. Lacey-You are his entire life-without you he has nothing. He lives to make you happy. I see that you two love each other. He messed up, he should have told you. Do you regret marrying him?" She said almost harshly. A new set of tears rolled down my cheeks.

"No! No no no no. I could never."

"Then why are you in my bathtub?"

"I don't know"

"You have your own bathtub"

"Yeah-it's a really nice one."

"We get to pick up your pictures tomorrow. It's an exciting day-don't you think you should share it with someone?"

"Yeah- I am being a baby, huh?"

"Naw, you are just an imprint, you have to go through this." She smiled at me "Now get out of here kid, I don't know you or want to until you are happy again. You are a newlywed for goodness sakes. I nodded and she helped me out of the tub.

Sam drove me home because it was really dark. We didn't talk but he hugged me and kissed my head. I walked up my front porch and let myself into the house. It was dark.

"Embry?" I called out. I walked into the TV room and he was on the couch with a box of tissues and my picture. I gently kissed his cheek and he woke up.

"Am I dreaming?"

"Nah, I am this beautiful in real life" I said trying to make a joke.

"Yeah- you are." I could tell he wanted to hug me as he sat up. I sat on his lap.

"I am a crappy Mrs. Call"

"No, don't be silly, I messed up-"

"It doesn't matter anymore. We aren't going to fight, this doesn't matter anymore. I love you."

"I love you too- because I want to. Because you are fantastic and I will prove that to you."

"Let's go to bed, we have work in the morning, THEN we get to get our pictures!" I said excitedly. He stood up holding me. That night I got to sleep with my husband, no secrets and we were happy. Sweet Dreams, my Love.