Beck's point of view

There are words that change your life forever.

"I do"

"Congratulations it's a girl"

"You got a new job"

Then there are horrible words you never want to hear that changes you life forever.

"You have cancer"

"Your sister is dead."

"You have to have your arm amputated."

But the words that are the worst words in the world to hear I heard today.

"Your daughter has been raped"
I was reeling. It was bad enough when Jade was raped.

Jade had a very difficult time and understandably so. She had nightmares practically every night. She couldn't even go down corridor D. She would have a panic attack. Now my four-year-old child is going through this. I leave Cat in charge of the group. I grab Jade and we make our way to the hospital. Jade is driving.

"Babe," I said, "Slow down. What if we get pulled over?"

"GOOD," she replied, "Then we will have an escort to the hospital. Then we will get to see our daughter sooner"

Jade's point of view

OH GOD THIS HURTS SO BAD. It's not like physical pain. That goes away. This is so much worse. I wish to hell that it was me that was in the house when it happened, NOT my baby. This is the child I love more than my own life. This is the child that makes getting up in the morning something I want to do, not something I dread doing. This is my daughter and she had some sick **** break into the house and ***** rape her. She's only 5 for GOD sakes. This is ****** killing me. There's no parenting course that can teach you how to act in this situation. Beck looked at me as I ran through a red light.

"Jade," he said gently, 'her life has changed"

"WOW," I said, "You're a real ALBERT ENSTEIN aren't you. Her life has changed? SHE ****** GOT RAPED. A mother-***** bastard broke into the home OUR DAUGHTER was in and put his huge **** into her small… (I trailed off not being able to say it) and you think her life has changed? NO ****!"
He put a comforting hand on my shoulder and I just continued to cry until there were no more tears left to cry. Then I cried some more. I don't know how I could see well enough to make it to the hospital but somehow I did... and I pulled in.

The reason I wrote it the way I did was because Jade's thoughts are so jumbled up she doesn't know how to express them. That's why there are the stars for the curse words